Alright this is a gross topic so if you have a bad stomach don’t read any further but let me continue I am a 14 year old boy who is just a normal kid but there is a huge red spot on my body which I think is ether a pimple that has a bag and stuff or a ingrown hair and the problem is it’s on my body part down below in any other case I would ask my mom to fix it but I don’t want her going anywhere near this I have told no one about this and it’s been there for 2 years it’s gotten so bad that it looks like a tumor so Reddit I need help with this because I’ve been in pain for the past 6 months now

(I’m sorry if it’s irrelevant to this sub but I’m looking for advice)
Context: I was so immature & misguided, I pursued my 12th from NIOS then proceeded to go with IGNOU, that too with an unfortunate gap of a year.
It's been nothing but regret. Constant regret. Every day, I look at people going to these prestigious universities and achieving milestones in life. My desire while watching them or reading about them reaches 7th heaven, but it shuts back right into the deepest void recalling I will never be able to get here since I lack "formal education" and I would simply be considered a failure. Which can be true in a way.
I, 20.5M, did my 10th from a very good school CBSE and changed the school due to financial reasons. The faculty there was full of crap. Teachers didn't care what students did. To top it off, I formed a toxic friend group. They kept me misguided & astray from studies while themselves studying nicely. Resulting in, I got compartment in 2 subjects. I was stunned & ashamed to attend the PTM. It wasn’t like I couldn’t clear the compartment & I was ready to give the re-exams.
There, my class teacher advised my mom that he pursue his 12th from NIOS. I was freely told that you won't have to go to school daily and will still get the certificate. I asked what about the college admissions, will there be any issue? She said "No" - that's it.
Having mentioned I was too immature, I felt this was a great deal. No school but certificate... No one was there to guide me through this as parents aren’t much educated either. In 2020, the year got over. All my best friends from earlier departed slowly & I was in my own bubble. Locked in a dark room the whole day, phone, & depression.
Just when life could've been better, I decided to pursue my bachelor's from IGNOU. It was solely my decision. No one is to blame but me. I should've been mature enough by that time to decide what was good for me! What's even worse? I opted for BA (English) - "Because I just wanted a Degree". You have all the right to laugh and be disgusted with me at this point. Totally oblivious to life, I watched Netflix, and YouTube, played games, etc. Started feeling emotionless and left. I was just living. In May-June 2021, caught COVID. No idea yearly re-registration is a thing in IGNOU. Guess what? Missed it. A year wasted. Just, wasted.
In Sept 2021, my sister advised me to forget it and pursue my education in Canada. I'll do something, but you can't keep living this way. I agreed and gave my IELTS, cleared it with 7.5 Bands only to hear that with NIOS, you can get into hospitality courses which I didn't want. Again, I fell into that same dark hole.
In May 2022, decided to end all this & take some hard steps. Made a resume and started applying for internships. I kept my NIOS hidden in my resume because I didn't want it to become a hurdle. Luckily, I got a call from 2 places (full-time and part-time) - pursuing them religiously ever since. Part time ended in January while full-time is going on. I alone am handling nearly all digital things. It’s a startup & I don't have a dedicated manager. I’m the intern, executive, & manager. Learning, experimenting, & figuring things out on my own.
In terms of background, I feel like a huge failure and idiot and moron, and careless. This time, by hook or by crook, I'll be planning to pursue my master's from abroad. Wish I had a little maturity earlier. But this very thought of carelessness and improper education background scares me to the core in terms of getting into a university & getting a good job.
Sorry for such a long post but this might be first time ever I am talking about this with anyone.

I got employed at a new job about 3 weeks ago
the job I work at is a family owned vehicle collision repair centre, owned by my boss (let’s call him Steve) and his wife, and his son (let’s call him Greg) who is the foreman
I was hired as a beginner car stripper, which means I strip the cars of their interior and exterior parts so they can be repaired/painted, I have experience as a mechanic but no prior experience for this role and they new this when they hired me.
On my first day I was paired up with one of the guys who helped me out with my jobs, I then started getting simple jobs to complete on my own, by day 4 they were giving me large jobs stripping trucks, and I’d try my best to complete them on my own but would sometimes go ask my co workers for help.
Steve noticed me walking around the workshop and asked “why are you walking around doing nothing?” I told him “I’m just going to ask Greg for help” as that’s what he had told me to do if I ever needed help. I could tell he wasn’t happy with this but I carried on.
Greg isn’t super friendly but he does come and help me when I need it, how ever as the days go on I feel like he becomes even blunter with me, and acts like he doesn’t want to help.
One day I was advised to help some of the guys to clean up the workshop, I grabbed a broom and started sweeping, Steve took the broom and imitated my sweeping asking “have you ever swept before?” so I started sweeping more vigorously even though I felt like my sweeping was sufficient enough. Later on in the day I told him there was a dead bird in the shop that had eaten the rat poison (we have a rat problem apparently) he picked the bird up and tossed it at me. I was fuming inside.
After a few more days of him being unreasonable, swearing and yelling at me to work harder (he does this to everyone not just me), look happier and stop walking around the workshop (this time I was walking to the bathroom) I was becoming pretty annoyed, then one morning I was walking up to the workshop painter to ask if he had the job board for the car I was about to strip, as he had just painted the car I was to work on. Steve stopped me in my tracks and asked “you have no reason to speak to him, why are you walking up to him” I told him the situation and he angrily told me to use my initiative and ask the office instead, I told him “I thought I was using my initiative as he was the last person in the car” he started yelling and I walked off to the office.
Yesterday he yelled at me again and I told him to “not speak to me like that” his response was “to my office now” I followed him to the office and he said I need to become a better worker if I want to stay at this company, he wants me to stop walking around and asking for help and he told me Greg is already sick of me and that Greg doesn’t get angry easily.
I said to him that I thought I was meant to ask Greg for help? He said I need to stop asking questions now and to get on with my job, his wife chimed in and said “well she is a beginner she should be allowed to ask for help” he clapped back with “it takes a smart person to be a mechanic, I thought you’d be good at this job” (keep in mind it’s a completely different job to what I was doing previously. Me and his wife came to an agreement that he should have me paired with someone that can help me with the bigger jobs and my boss admitted he was giving me the hard jobs to see how had I can work. He then said “I’m sick of useless employees I’ve been dealing with them for 15 years, and as for me not speaking to you like that, I’ll speak to my employees how ever I want, it’s my business!”
He expects us to work 60 hours a week and act happy all the time, not talk back to him when he’s being unreasonable, gets angry at people for having sick days and tells them “you can still work if you have a sore throat, it’s your throat not your brain” (he legit said that) he gets angry if we talk to each other during work hours.

Hi All,
As of today I have joined the Team Tesla. I was hoping the community could share with me some tips and ticks to keep my car 'in good nick'. I know I need to get a screen protector asap, possibly paint protection? any other advice you wish you had on the day of taking ownership? As the title suggests, its the model 3 long range black color.
Thanks for the input. Pics to follow soon!

Bad things have been happening to me all of my life. I remember my mom saying I was “retarded” while I pretended to sleep. Just because I had trouble speaking as a kid. Now as an adult I realize I was just having social anxiety but my mom hated that.
I used to get bullied as a kid in elementary school and ate by myself. My parents were strict to I didn’t really build friendships outside school unless it was an extracurricular like dancing or sports and I ducked at both.
In middle school was my first contact with self harm. I had watched the movie thirteen and like the girl in the movie, I felt comfort in slitting my wrists. I confided in a friend and my entire class started to call me “psycho” . My mom found out and punched me for ruining her reputation.
The next year while I was in class some boys called me ugly. I was so ashamed I didn’t want my friends to tell the teacher. They did. My parents found out which added to my shame.
Later that year, my mom passed away of cancer. I was 14. While I was shocked, I felt relief. Relief she would no longer insult or hurt me.
Around that time I got a new haircut and suddenly boys started to notice me. I was so shy and awkward that I made up for it by going straight to kissing and touching to avoid conversations. That’s how the rest of my relationships became even as an adult.
I lied to the world about being not being a virgin because I was. I ended up giving “it” to an older man because it was the only way no one my age would find out I was still a virgin. Around that time I was going out with one of my schools teachers. I was just 17. I never had sex with him but it got scary one time that he followed me home and I was by myself.
When I was in college things somewhat improved but I always felt lonely. I never had friends who cared enough and I covered that by always being in relationships. I never had a big family and I never attended family parties. I never learned how to dance or how to be social. My only sister got married and never introduced me to her partner or let me know she was getting married. It was a small intimate wedding but I never felt important enough even though I tell her everything.
I always ended up with men who needed me to take care of them. The college dropout who I did his school work for and who left me for another woman after he graduated.
After that I went on a tinder binge and had sex with about 5-10 people and I can’t recall their names. I met one man who took me out for dinner. I ended up being drugged and r*aped in my sleep.
I let my doorman who was 53 years old perform oral s*x on me. I was 23. I never felt so much regret and disgust for myself in my life.
At that time I met a man who would become my husband 2 years later. Now that I think about it it was too soon for us to marry. He never demonstrated sexual interest in me and always raised his voice at me. On my 25th birthday I asked him if he loved me and he said “love has to be built”. It had been 1 year after we started dating. A few months later he asked me to marry him while he said “I love you” for the first time. I don’t want to make this post about him but he rejected me so much. After he got his green card he left me. Now he’s with a beautiful woman and told her I love you after the first 2 months. I am in the process of divorce and we’ve been separated for nearly 3 years.
When I first got separated from him I tried to fill that void by shopping. I got into debt of 45k in just two years and I’ve let most of the payments default. I am so scared but i can’t afford it. I was also hospitalized twice and incurred medical debt. The only good thing that happened to me during that time was getting into my dream school for my doctoral program with a scholarship. I’ve always liked to learn and I want to build a career where I can help others. After all, sometimes I feel that everything that happens to me has a bigger purpose and that I should serve the world and help it become a better place.
I’ve been seeing someone for 1 year and for the first time I’m with someone who calls me pretty all the time and reassures his love for me. Even though I gained 20 pounds while dating him after starting my doctoral program, he always shows he desires me and has never rejected me. He helped me apply for school and takes care of the dishes when I’m too tired. He’s been my rock but I’ve been hurt by life so much I can’t appreciate that I’m worthy of anyone’s love.
I ended up getting pregnant. Due to financial reasons I decided to go for an abortion. I didn’t want to because I love my partner. He was by my side even though he wanted to keep it. The abortion ended up being incomplete. I spent two days in the hospital thinking I would die. I haven’t healed from that yet and all I do is sleep, eat, and cry. It’s so recent still.
Even though I am no longer with my ex husband I can’t stop comparing myself to his new partner. Physically, she’s everything he ever wanted in terms of what I observed about him while we were married. His friends always rejected me and I see how much love his friends have for her. It reminds me of the rejection my mother dad towards me and the rejection my peers had in school. I will always be the weird and ugly one.
I have isolated myself so much that I don’t have friends. I cry a lot though I’ve never thought of dying. Somehow, being depressed is so familiar to me that it’s all I’ve ever known. Even when I was little I would write about me having no worth in my journals. I’ve kept those journals many years.
However, something strange awoke me a few nights ago. I had a dream where I was in my childhood home and kept knocking on my sister’s door and she wouldn’t open. Suddenly a huge figure that looked like my mom broke into my room asked me what was going on. I went on my knees and started to cry and said that I was so tired of bad things happening to me. It was like my soul was vulnerable in that moment in my sleep. I can’t stop thinking about that dream or what it could’ve meant.
What does this dream mean and how can I use it to transform myself?

Everything in my inventory is up for trade. The most valuable items are listed here, the rest you can find in My Inventory

Feel free to Add Me or even better send a Trade Offer. Open for any suggestions: upgrades, downgrades / knives, gloves, skins / stickers, patterns, floats.

All Buyouts are listed in cash value.

KNIVES

★ Butterfly Knife Freehand FN #1, B/O: $2500

★ Butterfly Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $822

★ Butterfly Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $616

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★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW #1, B/O: $1300

★ Bayonet Autotronic FN, B/O: $1050

★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW, B/O: $629

★ Bayonet Bright Water FT, B/O: $326

★ Bayonet Safari Mesh BS, B/O: $233

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★ Karambit Lore FT, B/O: $1110

★ Karambit Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $840

★ Karambit Freehand MW, B/O: $784

★ Karambit Bright Water MW, B/O: $759

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★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1801

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1801

★ M9 Bayonet Damascus Steel FN, B/O: $751

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★ Nomad Knife Fade FN, B/O: $1156

★ Nomad Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $544

★ Nomad Knife Blue Steel WW, B/O: $318

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★ Flip Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $646

★ Flip Knife Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $574

★ Flip Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) MW, B/O: $552

★ Flip Knife Case Hardened FT, B/O: $257

★ Flip Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $255

★ StatTrak™ Flip Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $287

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★ Huntsman Knife Lore FN, B/O: $461

★ Huntsman Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $436

★ Huntsman Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $353

★ Huntsman Knife Autotronic FT, B/O: $212

★ Huntsman Knife Bright Water FT, B/O: $129

★ Huntsman Knife Forest DDPAT MW, B/O: $129

★ Huntsman Knife Forest DDPAT BS, B/O: $123

★ StatTrak™ Huntsman Knife Rust Coat BS, B/O: $127

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★ Bowie Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $375

★ Bowie Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $363

★ Bowie Knife Tiger Tooth FN, B/O: $269

★ Bowie Knife Crimson Web WW, B/O: $192

★ Bowie Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $159

★ Bowie Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $126

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★ Stiletto Knife Slaughter FN, B/O: $616

★ Stiletto Knife Crimson Web FT, B/O: $412

★ StatTrak™ Stiletto Knife Night Stripe FT, B/O: $227

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★ Falchion Knife Lore FT, B/O: $214

★ Falchion Knife Autotronic FT, B/O: $192

★ Falchion Knife Scorched WW, B/O: $105

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★ Survival Knife Crimson Web BS, B/O: $216

★ Survival Knife Case Hardened FT, B/O: $198

★ Survival Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $111

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★ Shadow Daggers Fade FN, B/O: $368

★ Shadow Daggers Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $228

★ Shadow Daggers, B/O: $201

★ Shadow Daggers Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $108

★ Shadow Daggers Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $105

★ Shadow Daggers Black Laminate FT, B/O: $99

★ Shadow Daggers Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $85

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★ Gut Knife Doppler (Sapphire) MW #1, B/O: $1700

★ Gut Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $223

★ Gut Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $203

★ Gut Knife Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $191

★ Gut Knife Case Hardened BS, B/O: $127

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★ Navaja Knife Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $199

★ Navaja Knife Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $199

★ Navaja Knife, B/O: $138

★ Navaja Knife Damascus Steel FN, B/O: $111

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★ Classic Knife Urban Masked FT, B/O: $146

★ StatTrak™ Classic Knife Stained BS, B/O: $168

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★ Ursus Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $476

★ Ursus Knife, B/O: $375

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★ Skeleton Knife, B/O: $1137

★ Talon Knife, B/O: $608

★ Paracord Knife, B/O: $305

★ Survival Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

GLOVES

★ Moto Gloves Transport MW, B/O: $204

★ Moto Gloves Polygon BS, B/O: $142

★ Moto Gloves Blood Pressure BS, B/O: $84

★ Moto Gloves Blood Pressure BS, B/O: $84

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $63

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $63

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★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Kimono WW, B/O: $1215

★ Specialist Gloves Tiger Strike FT, B/O: $672

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander FT, B/O: $305

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander BS, B/O: $140

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Web BS, B/O: $137

★ Specialist Gloves Buckshot FT, B/O: $75

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★ Driver Gloves Crimson Weave FT, B/O: $359

★ Driver Gloves Imperial Plaid BS, B/O: $229

★ Driver Gloves Overtake BS, B/O: $77

★ Driver Gloves Racing Green FT, B/O: $48

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★ Sport Gloves Omega FT, B/O: $739

★ Sport Gloves Amphibious BS #2, B/O: $733

★ Sport Gloves Arid BS, B/O: $292

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★ Hand Wraps Giraffe MW, B/O: $212

★ Hand Wraps Leather FT, B/O: $160

★ Hand Wraps Desert Shamagh MW, B/O: $101

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★ Broken Fang Gloves Yellow-banded MW, B/O: $185

★ Broken Fang Gloves Needle Point FT, B/O: $67

★ Broken Fang Gloves Needle Point WW, B/O: $59

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★ Hydra Gloves Case Hardened BS, B/O: $65

★ Hydra Gloves Emerald FT, B/O: $65

★ Hydra Gloves Emerald BS, B/O: $62

WEAPONS

AK-47 Case Hardened BS, B/O: $130

AK-47 Bloodsport MW, B/O: $79

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Bloodsport FT, B/O: $70

AK-47 Neon Rider MW, B/O: $60

StatTrak™ AK-47 Aquamarine Revenge FT, B/O: $72

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AWP Fade FN, B/O: $1039

AWP Asiimov FT, B/O: $139

AWP Asiimov FT, B/O: $139

AWP Wildfire MW, B/O: $95

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $93

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $93

AWP Duality FN, B/O: $81

AWP Asiimov BS, B/O: $79

AWP Asiimov BS, B/O: $79

AWP Chromatic Aberration FN, B/O: $60

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $68

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $68

StatTrak™ AWP Electric Hive FT, B/O: $55

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Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $623

Desert Eagle Emerald Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $241

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $81

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $81

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $81

Desert Eagle Printstream FT, B/O: $54

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M4A1-S Blue Phosphor FN, B/O: $434

StatTrak™ M4A1-S Bright Water MW, B/O: $55

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M4A4 Poseidon FN, B/O: $1465

M4A4 Asiimov BS, B/O: $55

M4A4 Hellfire MW, B/O: $50

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USP-S Kill Confirmed MW, B/O: $72

USP-S Printstream FT, B/O: $69

StatTrak™ USP-S Kill Confirmed FT, B/O: $139

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AUG Flame Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $234

P90 Run and Hide FT, B/O: $147

Five-SeveN Candy Apple FN, B/O: $61

Trade Offer Link - Steam Profile Link - My Inventory

Knives - Bowie Knife, Butterfly Knife, Falchion Knife, Flip Knife, Gut Knife, Huntsman Knife, M9 Bayonet, Bayonet, Karambit, Shadow Daggers, Stiletto Knife, Ursus Knife, Navaja Knife, Talon Knife, Classic Knife, Paracord Knife, Survival Knife, Nomad Knife, Skeleton Knife, Patterns - Gamma Doppler, Doppler (Phase 1, Phase 2, Phase 3, Phase 4, Black Pearl, Sapphire, Ruby, Emerald), Crimson Web, Lore, Fade, Ultraviolet, Night, Marble Fade (Fire & Ice, Fake FI), Case Hardened (Blue Gem), Autotronic, Slaughter, Black Laminate, Tiger Tooth, Boreal Forest, Scorched, Blue Steel, Vanilla, Damascus Steel, Forest DDPAT, Urban Masked, Freehand, Stained, Bright Water, Safari Mesh, Rust Coat, Gloves - Bloodhound Gloves (Charred, Snakebite, Guerrilla, Bronzed), Driver Gloves (Snow Leopard, King Snake, Crimson Weave, Imperial Plaid, Black Tie, Lunar Weave, Diamondback, Rezan the Red, Overtake, Queen Jaguar, Convoy, Racing Green), Hand Wraps (Cobalt Skulls, CAUTION!, Overprint, Slaughter, Leather, Giraffe, Badlands, Spruce DDPAT, Arboreal, Constrictor, Desert Shamagh, Duct Tape), Moto Gloves (Spearmint, POW!, Cool Mint, Smoke Out, Finish Line, Polygon, Blood Pressure, Turtle, Boom!, Eclipse, 3rd Commando Company, Transport), Specialist Gloves (Crimson Kimono, Tiger Strike, Emerald Web, Field Agent, Marble Fade, Fade, Foundation, Lt. Commander, Crimson Web, Mogul, Forest DDPAT, Buckshot), Sport Gloves (Pandora's Box, Superconductor, Hedge Maze, Vice, Amphibious, Slingshot, Omega, Arid, Big Game, Nocts, Scarlet Shamagh, Bronze Morph), Hydra Gloves (Case Hardened, Emerald, Rattler, Mangrove), Broken Fang Gloves (Jade, Yellow-banded, Unhinged, Needle Point), Pistols - P2000 (Wicked Sick, Ocean Foam, Fire Element, Amber Fade, Corticera, Chainmail, Imperial Dragon, Obsidian, Scorpion, Handgun, Acid Etched), USP-S (Printstream, Kill Confirmed, Whiteout, Road Rash, Owergrowth, The Traitor, Neo-Noir, Dark Water, Orion, Blueprint, Stainless, Caiman, Serum, Monster Mashup, Royal Blue, Ancient Visions, Cortex, Orange Anolis, Ticket To Hell, Black Lotus, Cyrex, Check Engine, Guardian, Purple DDPAT, Torque, Blood Tiger, Flashback, Business Class, Pathfinder, Para Green), Lead Conduit, Glock-18 (Umbral Rabbit, Fade, Candy Apple, Bullet Queen, Synth Leaf, Neo-Noir, Nuclear Garden, Dragon Tatto, Reactor, Pink DDPAT, Twilight Galaxy, Sand Dune, Groundwater, Blue Fissure, Snack Attack, Water Elemental, Brass, Wasteland Rebel, Vogue, Franklin, Royal Legion, Gamma Doppler, Weasel, Steel Disruption, Ironwork, Grinder, High Beam, Moonrise, Oxide Blaze, Bunsen Burner, Clear Polymer, Bunsen Burner, Night), P250 (Re.built, Nuclear Threat, Modern Hunter, Splash, Whiteout, Vino Primo, Mehndi, Asiimov, Visions, Undertow, Cartel, See Ya Later, Gunsmoke, Splash, Digital Architect, Muertos, Red Rock, Bengal Tiger, Crimson Kimono, Wingshot, Metallic DDPAT, Hive, Dark Filigree, Mint Kimono), Five-Seven (Neon Kimono, Berries And Cherries, Fall Hazard, Crimson Blossom, Hyper Beast, Nitro, Fairy Tale, Case Hardened, Copper Galaxy, Angry Mob, Monkey Business, Fowl Play, Anodized Gunmetal, Hot Shot, Retrobution, Boost Protocol), CZ75-Auto (Chalice, Crimson Web, Emerald Quartz, The Fuschia is Now, Nitro, Xiangliu, Yellow Jacket, Victoria, Poison Dart, Syndicate, Eco, Hexane, Pole, Tigris), Tec-9 (Rebel, Terrace, Nuclear Threat, Hades, Rust Leaf, Decimator, Blast From, Orange Murano, Toxic, Fuel Injector, Remote Control, Bamboo Forest, Isaac, Avalanche, Brother, Re-Entry, Blue Titanium, Bamboozle), R8 Revolver (Banana Cannon, Fade, Blaze, Crimson Web, Liama Cannon, Crazy 8, Reboot, Canal Spray, Night, Amber Fade), Desert Eagle (Blaze, Hand Cannon, Fennec Fox, Sunset Storm, Emerald Jörmungandr, Pilot, Hypnotic, Golden Koi, Printstream, Cobalt Disruption, Code Red, Ocean Drive, Midnight Storm, Kumicho Dragon, Crimson Web, Heirloom, Night Heist, Mecha Industries, Night, Conspiracy, Trigger Discipline, Naga, Directive, Light Rail), Dual Berettas (Flora Carnivora, Duelist, Cobra Strike, Black Limba, Emerald, Hemoglobin, Twin Turbo, Marina, Melondrama, Pyre, Retribution, Briar, Dezastre, Royal Consorts, Urban Shock, Dualing Dragons, Panther, Balance), Rifles - Galil (Aqua Terrace, Winter Forest, Chatterbox, Sugar Rush, Pheonix Blacklight, CAUTION!, Orange DDPAT, Cerberus, Dusk Ruins, Eco, Chromatic Aberration, Stone Cold, Tuxedo, Sandstorm, Shattered, Urban Rubble, Rocket Pop, Kami, Crimson Tsunami, Connexion), SCAR-20 (Fragments, Brass, Cyrex, Palm, Splash Jam, Cardiac, Emerald, Crimson Web, Magna Carta, Stone Mosaico, Bloodsport, Enforcer), AWP (Duality, Gungnir, Dragon Lore, Prince, Medusa, Desert Hydra, Fade, Lightning Strike, Oni Taiji, Silk Tiger, Graphite, Chromatic Aberration, Asiimov, Snake Camo, Boom, Containment Breach, Wildfire, Redline, Electric Hive, Hyper Beast, Neo-Noir, Man-o'-war, Pink DDPAT, Corticera, Sun in Leo, Elite Build, Fever Dream, Atheris, Mortis, PAW, Exoskeleton, Worm God, POP AWP, Phobos, Acheron, Pit Viper, Capillary, Safari Mesh), AK-47 (Head Shot, Wild Lotus, Gold Arabesque, X-Ray, Fire Serpent, Hydroponic, Panthera Onca, Case Hardened, Vulcan, Jet Set, Fuel Injector, Bloodsport, Nightwish, First Class, Neon Rider, Asiimov, Red Laminate, Aquamarine Revenge, The Empress, Wasteland Rebel, Jaguar, Black Laminate, Leet Museo, Neon Revolution, Redline, Frontside Misty, Predator, Legion of Anubis, Point Disarray, Orbit Mk01, Blue Laminate, Green Laminate, Emerald Pinstripe, Cartel, Phantom Disruptor, Jungle Spray, Safety Net, Rat Rod, Baroque Purple, Slate, Elite Build, Uncharted, Safari Mesh), FAMAS (Sundown, Prime Conspiracy, Afterimage, Commemoration, Dark Water, Spitfire, Pulse, Eye of Athena, Meltdown, Rapid Eye Move, Roll Cage, Styx, Mecha Industrie, Djinn, ZX Spectron, Valence, Neural Net, Night Borre, Hexne), M4A4 (Temukau, Howl, Poseidon, Asiimov, Daybreak, Hellfire, Zirka, Red DDPAT, Radiation Hazard, Modern Hunter, The Emperor, The Coalition, Bullet Rain, Cyber Security, X-Ray, Dark Blossom, Buzz Kill, In Living Color, Neo-Noir, Desolate Space, 龍王 (Dragon King), Royal Paladin, The Battlestar, Global Offensive, Tooth Fairy, Desert-Strike, Griffin, Evil Daimyo, Spider Lily, Converter), M4A1-S (Emphorosaur-S, Welcome to the Jungle, Imminent Danger, Knight, Hot Rod, Icarus Fell, Blue Phosphor, Printstream, Master Piece, Dark Water, Golden Coil, Bright Water, Player Two, Atomic Alloy, Guardian, Chantico's Fire, Hyper Beast, Mecha Industries, Cyrex, Control Panel, Moss Quartz, Nightmare, Decimator, Leaded Glass, Basilisk, Blood Tiger, Briefing, Night Terror, Nitro, VariCamo, Flashback), SG 553 (Cyberforce, Hazard Pay, Bulldozer, Integrale, Dragon Tech, Ultraviolet, Colony IV, Hypnotic, Cyrex, Candy Apple, Barricade, Pulse), SSG 08 (Death Strike, Sea Calico, Blood in the Water, Orange Filigree, Dragonfire, Big Iron, Bloodshot, Detour, Turbo Peek, Red Stone), AUG (Akihabara Accept, Flame Jörmungandr, Hot Rod, Midnight Lily, Sand Storm, Carved Jade, Wings, Anodized Navy, Death by Puppy, Torque, Bengal Tiger, Chameleon, Fleet Flock, Random Access, Momentum, Syd Mead, Stymphalian, Arctic Wolf, Aristocrat, Navy Murano), G3SG1 (Chronos, Violet Murano, Flux, Demeter, Orange Kimono, The Executioner, Green Apple, Arctic Polar Camo, Contractor), SMGs - P90 (Neoqueen, Astral Jörmungandr, Run and Hide, Emerald Dragon, Cold Blooded, Death by Kitty, Baroque Red, Vent Rush, Blind Spot, Asiimov, Trigon, Sunset Lily, Death Grip, Leather, Nostalgia, Fallout Warning, Tiger Pit, Schermatic, Virus, Shapewood, Glacier Mesh, Shallow Grave, Chopper, Desert Warfare), MAC-10 (Sakkaku, Hot Snakes, Copper Borre, Red Filigree, Gold Brick, Graven, Case Hardened, Stalker, Amber Fade, Neon Rider, Tatter, Curse, Propaganda, Nuclear Garden, Disco Tech, Toybox, Heat, Indigo), UMP-45 (Wild Child, Fade, Blaze, Day Lily, Minotaur's Labyrinth, Crime Scene, Caramel, Bone Pile, Momentum, Primal Saber), MP7 (Teal Blossom, Fade, Nemesis, Whiteout, Asterion, Bloosport, Abyssal Apparition, Full Stop, Special Delivery, Neon Ply, Asterion, Ocean Foam, Powercore, Scorched, Impire), PP-Bizon (Modern Hunter, Rust Coat, Forest Leaves, Antique, High Roller, Blue Streak, Seabird, Judgement of Anubis, Bamboo Print, Embargo, Chemical Green, Coblat Halftone, Fuel Rod, Photic Zone, Irradiated Alert, Carbon Fiber), MP9 (Featherweight, Wild Lily, Pandora's Box, Stained Glass, Bulldozer, Dark Age, Hot Rod, Hypnotic, Hydra, Rose Iron, Music Box, Setting Sun, Food Chain, Airlock, Mount Fuji, Starlight Protector, Ruby Poison Dart, Deadly Poison), MP5-SD (Liquidation, Oxide Oasis, Phosphor, Nitro, Agent, Autumn Twilly), Shotguns, Machineguns - Sawed-Off (Kiss♥Love, First Class, Orange DDPAT, Rust Coat, The Kraken, Devourer, Mosaico, Wasteland Princess, Bamboo Shadow, Copper, Serenity, Limelight, Apocalypto), XM1014 (Frost Borre, Ancient Lore, Red Leather, Elegant Vines, Banana Leaf, Jungle, Urban Perforated, Grassland, Blaze Orange, Heaven Guard, VariCamo Blue, Entombed, XOXO, Seasons, Tranquility, Bone Machine, Incinegator, Teclu Burner, Black Tie, Zombie Offensive, Watchdog), Nova (Baroque Orange, Hyper Beast, Green Apple, Antique, Modern Hunter, Walnut, Forest Leaves, Graphite, Blaze Orange, Rising Skull, Tempest, Bloomstick, Interlock, Quick Sand, Moon in Libra, Clean Polymer, Red Quartz, Toy Soldier), MAG-7 (Insomnia, Cinqueda, Counter Terrace, Prism Terrace, Memento, Chainmail, Hazard, Justice, Bulldozer, Silver, Core Breach, Firestarter, Praetorian, Heat, Hard Water, Monster Call, BI83 Spectrum, SWAG-7), M249 (Humidor, Shipping Forecast, Blizzard Marbleized, Downtown, Jungle DDPAT, Nebula Crusader, Impact Drill, Emerald Poison Dart), Negev (Mjölnir, Anodized Navy, Palm, Power Loader, Bratatat, CaliCamo, Phoenix Stencil, Infrastructure, Boroque Sand), Wear - 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Hi: I am 18F, 135 Lb, South asian, 5'9, United States
I have always been pretty hairy, but recently I have been noticing what seems like too much facial hair on my chin and near my jaw. I was wondering if this could be normal for me due to genetics or if it could be sign of a problem like hirutism or pcos. I don't have any irregularities with my period, but I have acne and use epiduo for that.

I want to preface this by saying I realise I am in a position of privilege with my salary, but this has been playing on my mind extensively lately.
11 years ago, I was briefly homeless. I have since worked my way up from that to get on Centrelink, worked my way through uni, and today I am on a bit over $130k, but I feel like I am not getting ahead at all. I'm paying just shy of $1,000 a month in HECS, over 30% of my salary in taxes, and then my landlord gets 40% of what's left after that (and I had to move states to earn the privilege of even having a landlord who would accept my application to give them almost half my income).
According to the ABS, I am now in the top 15% of earners (although I am not in the top 15% of earning households) - but buying a house of "middle-class" quality is completely out of reach unless I want to live like a pauper and dedicate my whole life to it.
I'm an engineer, and it seems to me that I'd be a lot better off moving to mainland Europe for a lower cost of living and taxes that actually get spent on providing services back to me, like useful public transport networks or not having to spend nearly $200 on co-pay after fighting to find a GP.
Am I being overly pessimistic or are other people starting to think the grass really is greener elsewhere?

I'm very new to accepting I'm a system and communication is hard right now, so forgive my ignorance. I've seen someone online talk about having scheduled days where certain alters front and I honestly have no idea how to switch or even when I do, but they suggested to me I try work towards the goal so my alters can have their own lives and time to do the things they want. It sounds near impossible for me so I'm just wondering if there is anyone else who has done this and how it's worked for you?

It seems to me that the Queen's Gambit Accepted gives black easy equality without any aspect of crampedness or significant space disadvantage as in the Slav or QGD. But historically it hasn't been nearly as popular as the QGD.
For instance, this game between Xiong and So; it's obvious black is like immediately fine.

I've been wanting to get a third up piercing on my ears. I've gotten my previous 2 done at stores in the mall; first one at Claire's and second at Icing. Do I get my 3rd up at Icing again or done at a tattoo parlor who do piercings? Not entirely sure since I know that mall shops are not the best to go to to get piercings lmao. Please let me know! Thank you!

Today while it was raining, my neighbor and I noticed a giant termite swarm outside. They mostly stayed on the neighbor's side, and seemed to be coming from a vacant house 2 houses down that had a tree fall after one of the recent windy storms.
I've never seen this before, and I don't want to have them be an issue. My house is over 50 years old and although it isn't made entirely of wood, a lot of the trimming and other add-ons have wood used somehow. I also have a few trees, some older than others, that I am worried may become infested with them.
I did call pest control but they can't get out until later this week. Is there anything I can do while I wait? I have a cat and a stray cat just had kittens, so I'm worried about pesticides harming them if pest control does end up treating for the termites. I have never seen any damage to the house before and pest control has never mentioned it upon inspections before but we also were never specifically looking with termites in mind.
Some silly questions along with my "what can I do" question: They were swarming by the car, is it at all possible they would make a home in the car? Since they were more near my neighbors than my house, is it more likely they'll be the ones dealing with it than me? Their house is as old as mine, same as mine as well with not being entirely wood but some parts being wood. They also BBQ and use a lot of wood for their smoker so would that be a likely home for the termites now? Thanks in advance (also please share any funny termite stories if yall have them, this has been very stressful for my neighbor and I lol).

I got a little bored and drunk. Then this happened. Just a bit of dumb action. I could try and spin this as me improving my ability to write more action oriented scenes, but well. Yeah, drunk and bored. Enjoy and tell me what you think.
CW: Sweet sweet excessive violence
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The little skiff drifted lazily along the asteroid belt. In a backwater system, free from prying eyes, the crew had ample time and space to test their newest toy. The ursdain in the pilot’s seat adjusted a couple controls before settling back in his chair. His avian co-pilot was observing the rest of the crew on the security feed.
“What is he doing?”
The ursdain leaned over, “Practicing?”
The avian’s half lidded stare was the only response.
In the cargo bay were the skiff’s other three occupants. A rather burly male human with brown skin and a mostly shaved head was yanking his tomahawk back out of the wooden board he had hung up on the wall. He walked back a few paces before turning and hurling it back at the target.
“Do you have to do that right now?” asked the exacerbated vulptan.
“Nope.” He responded while lining up his next throw.
“Just let him. If he doesn’t keep busy, he’ll keep trying to add ‘modifications.” The red-headed human female interjected while elbow deep in their prototype.
“You’re just jealous of my brilliance.”
“Sure. We’ll call it that.”
Meanwhile as the ursdain began to ponder his next meal a red blip flashed on his display followed by a sharp claxon. He slammed the red alert, “Thakt, we got company!”
The avian was already attempting to jam the enemy sensors, but they’d been made. “They’re on their way! Pirates looking to board!” She keyed the intercom, “Prepare for boarders!”
As soon as the lights went red the man in the jury-rigged shop ran to the new machine. “This thing ready?”
“The targeting computer hasn’t been installed and there’s still the issue of-“
“Can it move!?”
“Yes, but-“
“Strap me in!” He snached up the helmet and mask then climbed in the suit. The women began closing and sealing panels as he donned the helmet, flipped down the visor, and sealed the mask to his face.
“Gonzo! Listen to me. You don’t have a lot of time in that thing, so you gotta be in and out. Alright?”
“Lil, this is what I’m good at. Let me work.” She rolled her eyes as she closed the front up.
He opened then closed his mechanical fingers and rolled his shoulders. The suit seemed to be responding well. He stood to its full height and slammed the dome helmet down over his head. The other two already snatched a couple weapons and ran for the bridge to secure it. He stalked over to the armory bench to pick up some toys and party favors when the com cracked to life in his ear.
“Gonzo? You receiving?”
“Loud and clear.”
“Our only shot at getting out of here is you disabling their engines and breaking whatever they use to mate with us.”
He giggled slightly as he strapped the weapon harness over his mid-section. “Copy. Break shit. Can do.”
The ship shuddered and jolted. “They’re broadcasting for surrender.”
“Sure, I’ll accept their surrender.”
“Funny. They’re about to breach the stern airlock. Get ready.”
Gonzo drew a breath and put his game face on. Their MO is to breach loud and fast. A little shock and awe. He planted a couple surprises by the hatch then took cover around the bulkhead.
“They’re about to breach.” He popped a couple smoke grenades and tossed them down the corridor. Then an idea struck him, and he popped a couple more and thrust them in his harness for a bit of Blackbeard flair. He readied his weapon and checked the other two. All he could do was wait.
A few seconds later the hatch blasted in and two canids rushed into the haze. Gonzo didn’t know how armored they were, but he figured being covered in burning napalm was a bad thing. He leaned the nozzle around the corner and lit up the entrance. The blinding light pierced the smoke and judging from the screams, they weren’t ready for assaulting a weapons manufacturing ship. Now came the fun part of the suit. While the auto-aim and friend/foe feature weren’t installed, it did have a suite of sensors such as sonar, lidar, and infrared.
Gonzo could see the outlines of the thrashing pirates and held his fire. A couple more pirates entered the hall to drag their comrades out. That’s when he hit the clacker. The anti-personnel mines went off, filling the confined space with hundreds of ball-bearings in an instant.
“Hey! We gotta clean all that up when you’re done you know!”
“Relax. I’m advancing now. Give me a map.”
Sure enough, a holo layout of the pirate ship sprung to life in the corner of his vision, complete with the highlighted sections of engineering and security. He advanced through the smoke onto the pirate ship. As he emerged through the smoke, more billowing off him like a demon fresh from Hell, he saw more pirates readying to storm his little craft. They were lightly armored. Shame. With another squeeze and lazy turn, he coated the would-be intruders.
Realizing they bit off more than they could chew, the lights on the pirate vessel began flashing red, and a call to repel boarders went out. Gonzo hustled down the passages headed toward engineering. He rounded the corner and dove back behind the corner as the ursdain with a gatling laser opened up from the other end of the hall. He wasn’t sure the flamethrower would make it to the other side, so he swapped to his baby. He tossed his last smoke grenade around the corner and counted to ten.
When he felt the passage was good and obscured, he held his replica China Lake around the corner and fired. Fwoomp…BOOM! Something wet and red hit the wall beside Gonzo. I think I got ‘em. He pumped another round into the chamber and continued.
He found Engineering easily enough and stormed inside. It was a large room dominated by…Well, the engine he supposed. Gonzo wasn’t an engineer, but he was a 2300. He was about to jog up to the biggest most important looking bit when his legs were taken out from under him. He was quickly bound up in ssypno coils and could hear the suit groaning under the pressure.
“There’ll be no more of that. Now let’s get you out of that can.”
Gonzo struggled to no avail, but he’d be damned before he gave up. He took a breath and forced his arms out away from his body. The suit groaned and struggled to give him the breathing room he needed. When he thought he had the space to work with, his hand shot to his knife strapped to his belt. He drew it and twisted his hand just as the coils snapped shut around him. The pirate stabbed herself in the soft scales of her underbelly just as Gonzo drew his arm around his torso slicing long and deep.
She shrieked as he carved, and quickly tried to slither away, but he snatched a piece of her armor and rode her, continuing to stab and slash at the joints in her suit. She tried to curl in on herself and grab the man with her upper arms. He wrestled with her for a while before he drew his offhand behind her opposing arm then using her own death grip on his main hand bent her arm around his. Her elbow snapped and she shrieked. With brief freedom of movement, Gonzo drew his knife up and plunged it into her sub armored neck. Her tail thrashed and writhed before the life seeped from her.
Gasping and sweating profusely, he drew himself up and stumbled to the drive core. Or what he thought was the drive core. He wasn’t an astrophysicist, but he was sure this thing didn’t like heavy explosives. He quickly rigged up an IED around the biggest glowiest part and set it to go off on his clacker.
He jogged from engineering to security but was stopped in the passages by a couple canids ambushing him. One opened fire with a laser-rifle, striking him in the upper torso, but the armor kept his chest from being cauterized. The blast streaked off the chest piece leaving a red-hot mark. It burned.
“Keep out of fire, Gonzo! I was trying to tell you that the heat-sinks aren’t finished yet!”
There may not have been a new hole in him, but it burned like Hell. He closed the distance to his attackers, too close to use his rifle, and they met him with claw and teeth drawn. The first canid threw themselves at him, knocking him down, and clamping their jaws around where his neck would be. He heard a hiss as something gave way on his shoulder. He fought and rolled to buck them off, but they held fast.
Gonzo decided it was time to draw his sidearm and clamped his hand down on the head of the assaulting canid to keep them in place. The other one tried to claw at his legs, but only found solid titanium alloy. He reached down to his holster and drew the comically oversized revolver, now appropriately sized in the power-armor’s fist. He thrust the barrel under the canid’s chin and fired. Their friends’ helmet rocketing off their head gave Gonzo the brief shock needed to roll the first pirate off him, raise his pistol, and fire point blank at his second attacker. As their head snapped back, he hauled himself back onto his feet and limped into security.
He needed to find a way to release his ship but drew short at the two canids and taurian blocking the consoles. The two canids threw themselves at Gonzo, biting and clawing for all they were worth. The heat in the suit was becoming unbearable. It was starting to sear bits of exposed flesh. Gonzo regretted jumping in in a tank top.
One canid clamped their jaws on his neck while the other went for his legs trying to drop him to the deck. Something snapped to his left and he lost all control of his left arm. It was just a hundred pounds of dead weight. He fell back swinging his pistol around trying to pistol-whip his attackers.
“That’s enough! Just give up and we’ll sell you somewhere nice.” The taurian called out.
Gonzo bucked his hips and fired at the canid by his legs but missed. Repeating what he did before he point-blank lobotomized the canid by his shoulder. With a roll, he popped himself back up readying his next shot when the second canid fell on him. He held his ground as they slashed and leapt to bite.
He caught them in the air and slammed them into the bulkhead beside him. It was nice to be eye level with them for once. He used this to his advantage by slamming his titanium fist into their face and gut repeatedly, feeling each subtle bone crack and snap. The taurian grabbed him under the arms and hurled him to the other side of the room as the last canid slumped down the wall.
The pirate drew some kind of bladed weapon. Big mistake. Gonzo drew his tomahawk, and sprinted forward with his head down. Using all the power in the suit he had, he slammed into her stomach and drove her forward into the wall.
She recovered her breath quickly and began raining blows down on his back and shoulders. The strain was beginning to get to him. Sweat was streaming down his body, stinging his eyes. The suit burned. He bent his knees then shot upright, driving his helmet into her chin. She rocked back in shock and Gonzo took a couple steps back. His left arm was dead. He could only grasp with the fingers. The pirate rubbed her chin.
“Oh, you’ll pay for that.”
Gonzo quickly tossed his tomahawk up and grabbed it by the end, before hurling it at his enemy. It buried in her shoulder, and she screamed. He sprinted at her full tilt with his head down shoulder out and pinned her to the wall. She kept fighting and pushed him back. Gonzo used his hips to swing his dead arm around to the pirate and clamped down with his hand. His hand locked in place as the taurian began to try and ineffectually push him away. Panting, he decided to give her a bit of backward-knee syndrome. He hauled back and put his and his suits’ full weight into a stomp kick right on her knee.
It folded back and she shrieked. Now at chest height he began slamming his fist into her helmet until it warped and broke. He stopped when he saw the stream of blood pour out the bottom.
He tried to make his way to the console, but realized his hand was stuck gripping the dead-weight of the corpse. He planted one boot on its back and pulled for all he was worth. With a fresh souvenir of taurian hide trapped in his grasp, he quickly worked the security console and disengaged the clams holding his ship in place. Once freed, he pulled out his clacker and slammed it. The whole ship rocked and shuddered. Catching his que he limp-jogged back to his ship. The remaining pirates were too busy with damage control as the ship quickly began filling with vacuum. Gonzo found his airlock with minimal resistance and threw himself in it.
“Blast!” he cried as he clutched the safety bar inside the lock. Grokna punched the skiff for all it was worth headed for the nearest jump point.
When the airlock cycled Gonzo limped back into the scorched cargo hold with hydro leaking down his left side. Lil and Korsk sprinted in to check on the man as he clumsily clutched at the emergency releases. The dome helmet fired clean off the top while the chest piece fired out revealing the sweat drenched and burned pilot. The suit dropped to its knees as Gonzo flopped out ripping his mask and helmet off. He gulped at the fresh air and luxuriated in the coolness of the metal floor when he gasped, “I…I have…Some notes…Need…Better cooling…”

So I came out as a full lesbian in December, and I haven’t been on a single date since I’ve came out. I’ve tried to talk to women on dating apps, I even went way out of my comfort zone and asked someone in person for their instagram after telling them how pretty they were, but they never messaged back. I also talked to someone in my local coffee shop and she invited me to a community garden event, but turns out she’s straight and just wanted to be my friend (I’ll take but lol). I’ve just had no luck!!! I don’t go out much to do stuff, I don’t drink so you def won’t find me in a bar, idk where do lesbians like to hangout 😫 I wanna go on dates and be cute and find a gf :( I live in a major city that’s prob has the most queer ppl in the country but it still seems impossible.
-also is it like not common for femmes to be attracted to femmes?? I’m very fem and I’m attracted to other fems but I don’t seem to get any likes from fems