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2023.06.05 09:36 downballforever Random thoughts the other day and a few strategies.

Hey everyone, I'm an AP in an Australian High School and have been for 10 years. I was just thinking of a few things over the years that have worked for me and wrote it down over the weekend.. Just a random list and hate to be repetitive but hopefully a few are helpful! Cheers, Tim
  1. Never assume on a Monday that students have been well fed or looked after over the weekend or that they are looking forward to the weekend on a Friday.
  2. Always be the first person in your classroom each morning. Great students positively and respectfully.
  3. Know your kids. Who do they play football for? What team do they follow? What is their favourite video game? Where do they want to go for further education or college? What advantages and disadvantages do they have towards their further education?
  4. Develop consistent classroom routines and be reasonable and non-negotiable on these. Keep these routines the same throughout the school year.
  5. Be prepared to have challenging and pro-active conversations with parents, even if they are difficult. At the end of the day, parents want and need to know how their kids are going at school.
  6. Use brain-breaks for students. During each lesson a walk, stretch, off-topic quiz or just general chat can work wonders.
  7. Get on the best possible terms with the ancillary staff and office staff as much as you can. They are amazing people within any school community and often the people that students are most comfortable talking to and connect with the best.
  8. With minor behavioural issues, the class or homegroup teacher should always be the one that contacts home, not senior staff – otherwise this disempowers and devalues the importance of the homegroup teacher and places an over reliance on senior staff.
  9. In schools where uniform is in place, this should be non-negotiable and the core teacher or grade leader should be responsible for maintaining high standards around this.
  10. Student learning should be differentiated and there should be accountability towards this from all teachers and support staff.
  11. Students should focus on maintaining their lockers or personal space neatly and this should be checked regularly and built into the program of the core teacher or appropriate person.
  12. Each week teachers should make a minimum of two or three positive phone calls or communications home when students have done something positive or well. There is often a feeling of dread when the school number comes up on the phone or SMS and this strategy can alleviate this with parents.
  13. Try and follow social media trends with students. These change regularly and can impact on student involvement and focus in class.
  14. Have extra resources in each classroom – pens, pencils, poster paper etc. Don’t scramble five minutes before class to contact the Art Teacher to organise this.
  15. In formal settings (Assemblies, Parent Information Sessions) establish high levels of formality and personal conduct from all members of the school community. Students thrive on routine.
  16. When organising special events such as those outlined above a set-up crew of students can do jobs quickly and with a minimum of fuss.
  17. Have weekly Grade Assemblies and have these on a Tuesday or Wednesday when students are most focused and regulated.
  18. Try to never let students go hungry. Use breakfast or lunch programs, fruit breaks and other options to make sure everyone gets the opportunity to eat healthily and well.
  19. Celebrate success – if any student makes a representative club, organisation, team, or does something positive, their peers should know about it and it should be recognised at school in whatever way the school sees as appropriate.
  20. Have a social club and have this occur regularly. Staff should be able to socialise and debrief together.
  21. The last day of term should have some sort of celebratory activity of what has been achieved to that point of the year – if it involves staff and students in events such as a sporting activity then that should be celebrated and promoted with the school community.
  22. During changeover of lessons, staff should have shared expectations of what the changeover looks like, swapping of resources and keeping students calm and manageable.
  23. Teachers should monitor that students are hydrated and have access to food. Fruit breaks and access to food is really important.
  24. Too many students ‘fall through the cracks’. Most phone calls to parents are about negative behaviour. Try and have two positive conversations about student behaviour to every three that you have about negative behaviour.
  25. The Leadership Team at the school understand your frustration and what you are dealing with. They are also doing the same and are stressed out too.
  26. If you are a 9/10 teacher get your head around what is happening in 11/12. Likewise if you are 7/8 get your head around 9/10. The curriculum is sequential and builds on prior knowledge and learning.
  27. Some of the most meaningful conversations you will have are with your colleagues in your staffroom and around the water-cooler or in the main administration area. Appreciate these and have senior staff embrace them.
  28. As much as you can as an educator, be healthy.
  29. Get the local scrap metal yard, newsagency, closest farm or community organisation to be a partner of the school in either assisting with Work Placements or other forms of engagement.
  30. On any Staff Development day or Professional Learning session, staff should wear casual clothes and the school should provide lunch and coffee. Goodwill aplenty and creates a better atmosphere.
  31. Give staff once a term (or Semester) surprise early break where they can go home early with limited notice.
  32. Senior staff should always write a Christmas Card and a Birthday card to the people on their team and acknowledge the importance of their role.
  33. Students really need to know things that (in the day to day) aren’t always considered such as fire drills, lockdowns and critical incidents. There should be conversations around expecting the unexpected from time to time.
  34. Teachers should be aware that students on busses to and from school have a much different experience than those that walk to and from school.
  35. Some students are very anxious about their reputation with teachers based on preconceived notions of their siblings or relatives from that particular teacher. Never compare siblings or family members – such as ‘Your sister would have been able to do that’ or ‘How come you’re not like your brother?’ etc.
  36. Decorate your classroom and make it feel welcoming. That’s totally your responsibility and no one else’s.
  37. If you’re a beginning teacher- you’re a legend and mad respect! It is more important than ever though in those first few years of teaching to have boundaries about work/life balance and not let everything get to you or to be overwhelmed. Whatever service your employer provides, please use it if you need to.
  38. Just be yourself. Kids actually respect their teachers and there is a misconception that they don’t. You’re a lot better role-model that they often get outside of school hours. Embrace that and enjoy that opportunity.
  39. Establish learning goals and success criteria for lessons, but don’t make this the be all for each lesson. The main focus should be on student engagement and an evidence based approach to this.
  40. Have disengaged students help in the canteen, maintenance area or workshop and celebrate their progress via social media or school newsletter.
  41. Work-placements and opportunities are your friend – some students are better at two or three days a week than full time schooling during high school.
  42. Be kind and be present with students and staff. Avoid confrontation where you can and have some mates at school that have your back.
  43. Look at ways to incentivise the curriculum for students and grades each term – if students reach a certain target around attendance, engagement or retention, this is something to be celebrated!
  44. Parents are an integral part of the school community and even though it’s High School they know their kids better than we do. Never be afraid to call them and have a tough conversation. It’s better to do that than not at all and it will create a collaborative partnership.
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2023.06.05 09:23 CilantroBreadStick Got ghosted by recruiters from a few different studios after they reached out to me FIRST

It’s basically all in the title, and I’ve been feeling really depressed because of this. I know sometimes things just don’t work out… but I don’t know, I keep thinking that there’s something wrong with me. But at the same time, those recruiters straight up ghosted me when they could just send a simple email saying things aren’t working out - I guess part of me is also angry and confused.
I’m based in LA. I studied animation and graduated from college a couple years ago, but I’ve only worked short-term freelance jobs in very small studios - sometimes I was out of jobs for months. In the past year though I’ve been actively updating my portfolio, cold emailing recruiters, and tried to connect with studios in conventions.
A few months ago an overseas studio reached out to me about freelancing on a feature. I responded, and I just got ghosted, never heard back. Well, it was a small studio, so I didn’t let this get to me.
A month ago a recruiter from a pretty well-known studio reached out to me about working on an unannounced project. I was super excited since this was the biggest opportunity I was ever given. I responded with my availability, then they told me they will check in with the team and get back to me. And then I was ghosted, again… even after a follow-up email, there’s still no response at all.
That definitely hit me hard. The way they phrased their first email when reaching out made me think that I had a good chance. But well…
I felt defeated for a couple of weeks, then got another email from a small studio (small but they’ve done some good stuff). We set up a meeting time, and well, they didn’t show up to the meeting! They explained to me later that there was a conflict and they’d like to reschedule. I emailed back to reschedule - no response; sent a follow-up email - no response at all…
After these three incidents in a row, I’m just absolutely frustrated and depressed. I think I’ve always behaved professionally, and I’ve done my best to present myself nicely. But now I have so much self-doubt built up that I start thinking I’m the problem. My dream is to work for a major big studio, and I know I have a long way to go and need experiences. But I start to wonder if I will ever make it…
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2023.06.05 09:19 thecelerystalk Close to 9,000 job applications since sophomore year of high school. 10-20 interviews. Three temp gigs. Zero regular-term full-time or part-time offers. I am at the end of my rope. What are my options?

This is a long one, so buckle in.
I'm from a financially destitute, single-father household in a wealthy but isolated, rural part of a notoriously economically-depressed metro area in the United States. I am 26 years old and eight years ago I became the first in my family to attend college. Four years ago, I graduated with a humanities B.A. and the intention of working as an administrative assistant, or in food service. The idea was to live at home for two or three years and do that while working on my music projects and saving for grad school. What actually happened is that I have been in and out of homelessness and am constantly teetering on the verge of suicide.
I have been applying for jobs since my sophomore year of high school. In my state, if you're under 18 you are required to have a written job offer in-hand in order to apply for the required government work permit. I never received any offers after hundreds of applications to mostly part-time service industry work. The big problem was that I had no means of transportation, had no social connections or family support, and was enrolled in a selective, rigorous magnet program for school which made employers believe I was too busy to work reliably. I volunteered extensively in my hometown and networked, but could never break into retail, food service, or any other traditional entry-point. Everything at that level was taken by people with family connections.
After moving for college, I continued applying and received no interest. I was rejected from multiple jobs on-campus which advertised themselves as hiring "anyone." I scored an unpaid but prestigious summer internship after junior year, in my home metro area's largest city. It was my first real job interview and I was immediately offered the position over the phone at the end of the conversation. Had an incredible time there.
I graduated and continued my job hunt, finding temporary employment with a few political campaigns several hundred miles from home. After one in early 2020 ended, I spent two years unemployed and going into debt to seek professional help. It accomplished nothing and my next temporary job offer was two and a half years later, over 2000 miles away in North Dakota, doing landscaping on a remote golf course for $15 an hour minus a $7/day payroll charge for food from the company. I was being sexually assaulted and left that for another politics job, and that one ended quickly thereafter. That was my most recent job, and I found it by deciding to drive to Vermont and live out of my car with no planning. I arrived and was employed within a week, but could not find anything after the campaign ended.
My go-to professional references are a highly-regarded professor, an incumbent gubernatorial cabinet secretary, and the president of a volunteer organization I have worked with for 20 years; but I also have several other less flashy ones. I have many friends in high places, but I also can not get hired at Burger King and have run out of businesses to apply with in my commutable area.
I've never had access to any kind of healthcare. I was born with very severe back problems which we could never afford to treat, and working a trade is not an option. I am transgender and have made no progress toward transitioning despite having known this for twelve years because I have never had any disposable income. I am completely desperate to do any job whatsoever and fear I have been permanently ostracized from birth because of poverty. I am grateful to have very little undergraduate debt due to receiving extensive need and merit aid, but that doesn't matter very much when I make about $5,000 per year. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do other than spontaneously relocate, becoming homeless again since I have $50 to my name and it worked very well for me the last time. Besides my father, I have essentially no other family and no one else in my life is willing to house me. My gender has been a persistent factor in this.
I would appreciate any help that could be offered. This is a last-ditch cry for help. I apply broadly, I don't limit my applications by industry or sector very much, and I tailor my resumé to each job ad I act on, but that doesn't seem to matter because I have essentially no work experience. I've been refunded by multiple resumé consulting services and have exhausted the temp agencies in my area.
This could be goodnight but I refuse to accept it. Please, someone advise me.
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2023.06.05 09:13 Baconator_1 Did my ex cheat on me? Seeking insight from experienced individuals.

Hello all, I'm (22m) very inexperienced in romantic relationships. 2 years ago I had a situationship with a Japanese woman much older than me (39f). I'm mexican American who dated a woman who was in her 5th year in the country. I was extremely infatuated by her beauty and her body at first, it is what gave me the courage to talk to her at the gym where we would see eachother daily.
Things went really well but there were red flags I didn't notice. When we went out she wanted to avoid labels like "date" and played dumb by asking me what a date was, she also once called me a friend even though there was clear lust, attraction, and flirting going on. This was an early sign of emotional unavailablity or a fear of commitment. I wanted something serious with her.
Because I have low self esteem the affection and support she gave me to improve myself was deeply fulfilling and I didn't want this to just be a casual thing. On our first "date" we played pool and bowling then drank and she got seductive with me after I flirted with her and made intense eye contact. She wrapped her legs around one of mine. I was feeling nervous because I was feeling things I never felt for a woman before. I asked her to be my gf and she said no which kind of ruined the moment.
I asked because at the time I believed sex should only be between a couple. I still believe that to an extent but since I've matured I realized my need for regular physical and sexual intimacy. After this I made it my mission to conquer her heart which I accomplished, I won her over with my determination, and genuine interest in her, because of the value she added to my life i wanted to give her the world. I could not tell at the time how hard it was for her to open up her heart to me most likely due to previous relationship trauma. I should add that she felt like she wouldn't be good for a relationship, I was blindly shocked because of how charming and sexy she was, I found out that she has a promiscuous past and now present through my own unfortunate research which made me understand her comment. I believe her promiscuous lifestyle is due to trauma and low self worth which has made her fearful of real relationships and getting hurt again.
The reason for this post is because I have been thinking about some behaviors she exhibited that I never got closure on. Back to what I mentioned about sex, although I did win her heart I still didn't initiate sex because the label of bf/gf wasn't there, there were plenty of times we were very close to devouring eachother but I stopped it due to this belief.
As we got closer emotionally, our new semester began and she started to pull away. From the start she was secretive about her life, told me she didn't have social media (I discovered all her accounts after we were done), refused to show me pictures of how she looked like younger. A few weeks into the semester she said she would have to leave the gym every day early to go to a daily seminar at her college (yes she said it was EVERY SINGLE DAY and I believed her). She lied about a lot of other aspects of her life but I learned this is common in emotionally unavailable women.
About a month later she was late once to a workout session we planned and I had to leave due to class before we could do anything, this wouldn't have been a problem for me but the way she explained herself was weird. She told me she was doing a project for school (we were both in college at that time, her for masters me for bachelors), by her body language and tone I felt something wasn't right so I tried getting more information which she had no answer to, she couldn't even tell me for what class it was for or what the content was, then just said "its okay its okay", while gesturing for me to leave her alone.i began to feel insecure so I passive aggressively said that I better see her on time next time. I first attributed her behavior to feeling ashamed of being late since in her culture timeliness is important and missing out on a intimate moment with me but I am now thinking that was copium.
The following days I noticed her acting strange like if she was ashamed of something or herself. She was emotionally distant to me which cut me off guard because before this she was beginning to be truly vulnerable to me about her upbringing and wanted to introduce me to one of her friends. I blamed everything on myself because of my passive-agressive comment and my persistence to make her open up when she expressed before she struggles with emotions. I tried getting her to open up so we could talk, she wouldn't and it looked like I was making her uncomfortable when i did. It drove me crazy but I never lashed out but got more anxious, she then stonewalled me, leaving the gym with me chasing her trying to fix things. I tried desperately to find ways online on how to deal the situation with her specific personality type. She apologized through text for not being able to "reply to my desire" and then asked me to leave her alone for the rest of the semester. Due to the size of this post I won't go into the details of the breakup so comment down below if there's any interest of one. After we broke up I attributed this distant behavior to her being emotional unavailable for so long and her needing space to get used to receiving my unconditional love. If this was the case i wish communication could've been better so I would've been much more understanding and patient. However if this was due to her feeling ashamed of cheating on me then my feelings on the matter change.
Recently I've been seeing a lot of reddit stories on tik tok about cheating and infidelity and when I see posts about signs that someone is cheating I tend to overthink, a lot of comments on these posts say that a woman is really good at hiding her affairs and some reddit stories are really gut wrenching. The answer might hurt me but I want to stop my overthinking because I don't want to hurt myself with these thoughts if they didn't actually happen.
I understand I exhibited immature behaviours, I am very hard on myself for these mistakes which is why I haven't moved on after 2 years. I learned not to be too hard on myself since I didn't know better and it was my first relationship where I was truly in love.
TL;DR- I suspect my ex cheated on me but I am not able to conclude due to lack of closure, copium and inexperience in romantic relationships. Thoughts or wisdom?
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2023.06.05 09:09 imquiteunsure Pwede na ata to pang MMK

So, I'm gonna try to make this as short as possible kasi masyadong complicated yung story.
So, my dad died a few years back and left me with a pile of debt, a house and other stuff at 14. When I turned 18, my mom (who isnt married to my dad) and I collectively decided to sell the large house so that we can start fresh in a new city. A LOT OF THINGS HAPPENED in between those years, such as, my mom finding a boyfriend- now live in partner, and me transitioning into college. So may mga few years din akong inilaban sa pagbenta nung bahay dahil yung mga kamag anak ko sa father side pinipigilan ako na ibenta and kesyo hindi naman daw ako tunay na anak (biologically, true. but sa birthcert ko, siya ang father ko na nakalagay don. walang adoption papers or whatnot)
Fast forward ng onti, nakalipat na kami ng bahay. Though I initially wanted na bumukod na talaga kasi hindi ko matolerate ugali nilang lahat (manipulative na gaslighter) pero dahil nga sa napaka mahal na cost of living, and the promise of a business venture, ayun, napa yes naman ako na kasama ko sila (sila being my mom, my 'stepdad', my younger half brother, and my younger step sister)
FAST FORWARD ULIT -- andaming perang nasayang. Una, nagsabi sila na kukuha sila ng van (brandnew pa) para pang business daw ng travel travel, rent a car ganern daw. Eh dahil nagka pandemya hindi na natuloy hanggang sa umabot sa punto na binawi na yung van samin. Pangalawa, may tenant kami, inoofferan siya na gamitin yung credit card nya pag bibili ng Ref pero need nya na daw muna yung money. Ako, ayoko pumayag pero naka-oo na siya so ala na ako nagawa. Naiabot na niya yung pera and hanggang ngayon hindi ko alam if naibalik ba yung 15k na yun. Pangatlo, ipinasok niya sa 'investment' yung 100k ko sa former work company nya with the promise of 5k revenue EVERY MONTH. Hindi naging consistent, e usapan namin yung 5k na yun allowance ko. Wala, 2 months lang siyang on time (every 11th of the month) then sunod sunod na siya na delayed. Pang apat, sinagad nya yung natitirang pera namin (mga around 100k din) sa isang sidejob with the same former work company bilang puhunan sa pagmamanufacture ng kung anong bakal for a project. Ang deal daw nila is 500 pesos incentive per 1 bakal na maipadala. E the employer wanted around 5000 pcs of those so imagine how much yung babalik na pera sayo don. BUT, the payments became more and more delayed (just like the investment) up to the point na wala na kaming pambili ng pang kain, wala akong pambaon sa school, hindi makapasok kapatid ko kasi walang pang gas.
To top it all off, yung collector nung 2nd hand car na binili namin, nang haharass na. Calling and texting me, my friends who interacted with my mom's mothers day post, and her friends din. Ano naging course of action nila ng partner nya? Run away to the province. So here I am typing this alone in the house that I bought.
So my question is, tama ba yung desisyon ko na sabihin kay mama na wag na lang muna sila bumalik dito at gusto ko nalang mag isa dito sa bagong bahay? Na doon nalang muna sila sa probinsya? Maliban sa nawalan na ako ng tiwala sa pag handle nya ng finances, hindi din ako natutuwa sa ugali ng partner nya. All he ever does is play ML or brag about stuff na hindi naman kanya. He doesnt even help with the bills, and yet has the audacity na mag reklamo bakit ganto lang ulam namin or may d siya nagustuhan sa pag luluto ni mama. Nung hindi pa ganto kalala sitwasyon namin, sinabi ko na kay mama to , na hindi na angkop ang income natin sa dami ng taong pinapakain mo. Tapos magkano lang ba kinikita nya sa pagtitinda ng pizza and pasta dun sa tapat ng school ko? E hindi naman consistent ang benta don dahil lagi nagkakaron ng class suspensions. Add mo pa yung prickly landlord nung pwesto don na akala mo si Lord kung maka judge ng pagkatao dahil hindi makapag bayad ng rent on time.
I'm just so sick and tired trying to understand them all when andami na silang chances na binigay ko at sinayang naman. Pera ko naman lahat ng yon, hindi kanila. Pera ko na dapat ako ang nagamit for my benefit. Kaya nga binenta yung malaking bahay eh para hindi na nagkakaroon ng financial problems kahit for at least a year or two man lang pero heto nanaman. Hindi naman na ata tama na laging ako at ako nalang ang umiintindi sakanila. Umabot ako sa punto na halos ayaw ko nanamang umuwi sa bahay dahil pagkauwi ko, ang ingay ni tito, puro sigaw pero wala namang katuturan sinisigaw. Papagalitan pa ako for something na hindi ko naman kasalanan, tapos kung ano ano pa sasabihin tungkol sa pag officer ko sa Org sa school. E yun nalang nga pinaka coping mechanism ko kapag nanririndi na ako sa lahat.
Kaya I messaged her kanina saying na what if don nalang muna sila sa probinsya and don sila mag start ulit ng business habang ako andidito. I also asked my friends for insights and ang nagiging isipin ko nalan ngayon is if mom would still support me financially kahit na magkahiwalay kami since ayaw naman nya ako mag stop para magtrabaho muna in the first place.

Hindi pa ako hundred percent ready na bumukod at this point pero if not now, then when diba? kapag ba mas ubos na yung pera at no choice na talaga na need ko mag drop? kapag ba naubos na yung pasensya ko sa kanila? Ang hirap kasi na ako nalang talaga lagi umiintindi sa nararamdaman ko pero yung nararamdaman ko di man lang nila magawang intindihin.
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2023.06.05 09:04 Tufugirl chance a clueless asian female for bme and meche

Demographics: Asian (maybe pacific islander too I've seen filipino both considered as asian or pacific islander, for malay i dont really see any conflict ab it online but for the malay people ik some identify as pacific islander, others as asian) Female, Upper-middle income (family has 4 dependents if that plays into anything), georgia, legacy at UIUC and UChicago (idk if they consider it tho)
Intended Major(s): Biomedical for most colleges and either bioengineering or mech engineering at UGA
ACT/SAT/SAT II: Taking ACT in July but based of practice so far I'm expecting anywhere from 31-33, SAT is currently a 1390 superscore (reading score is probably gonna go up after June SAT tho, rn 720 bc i had to skip a couple questions bc proctor accidentally used a broken clock so time management was rly bad, math prob not going up, if anyone has advice on sat math please lmk i keep practicing and i do so much better on practices (700s) vs the actual sat (600s) so im kinda confused on what i might be doing wrong bc usually i feel like the sat went just like the practice and boom bad score)
UW/W GPA and Rank: 4.0/4.0 UW, 4.2 W, 45/825 (top 5% at school and the state)
Coursework: All Honors/Gifted courses throughout HS, 7 APs by end of HS: APHUG 5, Bio 5, Chem (awaiting score, expecting 4), USH (self-study, awaiting score, expecting 4-5), Calc BC (senior year), Phys C (senior year), US Gov (senior year), Macroecon (senior year), maybe self-study either ap lang or ap lit senior year as well idk which one will be more worth it tho
Awards:
2nd in state TSA Photographic Technology (national qualifier)
4th in nation TSA Digital Video Production
9th and 4th respectively in state TSA Engineering Design (national qualifiers) - developed designs for a moldable bioplastic (competed at the national level for this, club advisor forgot to tell us how we placed, def not in the top 10 tho) and a solar-powered nanocrystal radiation detector (also qualified for nationals with 4th but couldn't go due to club financial difficulties and not enough people eligible to compete to make the fees worth it)
Honorable Mention in county science fair - developed a moldable bioplastic to address the concerns of current-day bioplastics
Academic Letter: 9, 10, 11, expecting to letter senior year as well
Orchestra Letter: 9, 11 (took orchestra for one sem only in 10 to fit in a language and 2 sem was required to letter) expecting to letter in senior year as well
Certificates of merit: one from the state, another from the county for achievement bc of placing 2nd in a state competition
Extracurriculars: pretty good but idt their considered exceptional for many of the schools I'm applying to
TSA - Secretary (12) - for anyone that doenst know what this is, its a club based off of competition events around STEAM topics and careers; i kept track of all meetings, organized files and paperwork, in charge of creating/handling forms and sign-ups, filled out some paperwork, Event Lead (11) - organized and led meetings for several competitive events by facilitating stuff like conversation and cooperation among team members, served as a student advisor for certain events, roles from this role will be maintained as secretary
Green Team - Co-President (12), VP (11), Head o. Communications (10), Shadow Officer (9) - in charge of organizing and planning meetings and various events, managed communication between officers and sponsors through emails and social media, as of rn me and co pres are in charge of finding a new sponsor
Crochet Club - Co-President (12), VP (11), Founder (10) - same duties as listed with Green Team, helped teach members how to crochet and gave out advice on crochet
Crochet - tutored others in crochet, had a crochet business in 9-10 grade (had to stop in 11 because it got in the way of school), have a passion project for crochet in the form of an instagram account documenting projects and my crochet journey, potentially might start a non-profit but still figuring out details for if its plausible for me
Viola - played for 7 years so far, highest level orchestra class, section leader (we didn't really count section leaders as just first and second chair in my class), private lessons, alternate position at Emory Youth Symphony (one of the top state orchestras), tutored viola for 3 years (unsure if continuing next year because new orchestra teachers)
Photography - self taught myself photography, been doing it for 7 years, passion project in the form of a private senior year dump on insta comprised of various pictures from the year, designed to showcase the chaos and ups and downs of the senior year experience with pictures for everyday until graduation (styles ranging from professional to looks like a toddler took this), entered my work into several competitions, am currently working on reviving my school's photography club
Creative Writing - write poems in my free time sometimes, had a work published in my schools literary magazine
Work (Paid) - cashiebarista at a boba place
General member for NHS, Beta, AASO, and SWENext
100-150 volunteer hours (could be more could be less but the lady in charge of hours at my school has not responded to the last 5 emails i've sent over the year asking about how many I have)
Essays/LORs/Other:
Common App Essay - solid 7/10 averaging the ones i've started, language arts teacher last year told me I'm one of the strongest creative writers she has and she's very tough on writing. I have what i think might be good topics (might be generic tho in terms of my demographic), I've started on multiple essays for my strongest topics: red and the multiple meanings it carries (i.e. culture, events, people, memories, objects), being torn between my passion for the arts vs academics (as my ecs lean heavy on the arts so that addresses that a bit) and how that divide affects my relationship with those, or my tumultuous history with instruments and my cultures effect on that relationship
LORS:
11th LA teacher - she's my school mom and I love her sm, she's seen me really grow in my writing (and as a person) and has helped me to be able to get more creative with it as well. Whenever I need god advice she's one of the first people I turn to and she's probably my most trusted adult at school; I can ask her about pretty much anything and she won't judge (i'm able to talk with her ab my mental health and how school's been affecting it which I can't really talk ab it to my parents because they don't really believe that much in mental health if its not something obvious), we're pretty close and i even got the chance to write something for her wedding as well, she's definitely going to be a teacher that I'm gonna visit a lot senior year
ap chem teacher - she's seen me really grow as a person over the year and out of all my teachers, she especially can testify to my curiosity, drive to learn, and my determination/dedication as she knows i've stayed up late many nights so i could get good calculations and pre/post-lab questions (i'm surprised i didn't drive her crazy with the sheer amount of stuff i asked too), we're pretty close and i also tie-dyed a onesie for her upcoming baby
Note: my schedule got really messed up in junior year so I wasn't able to take many aps then so trying to make up for it with senior year (considering the self studied ap i did, I'm around 2-3 aps behind most of the top students at my school so my ranking is thus a lot lower than it could be, school offers around 20 aps but many are blocked behind prereq classes), schedule resulted in me taking senior year science in junior year as well an additional credit of Chinese instead of another AP (now at 3 years of Chinese, conversational level)
Schools: going for the ivies and JHU are considered me shotgunning I'm pretty sure considering my ecs lol
Idk which admission path yet so if anyone has any advice on deciding which admissions path would be most beneficial for me, that would be greatly appreciated: JHU (idt its legacy but i have several aunts and uncles that have attended), Cornell, UIUC (legacy, leaning towards EA), UChicago (legacy from grad school, admission path and if i even submit an application is hinging on how creative the writing prompts are gonna be), UPenn
EA: UGA, Georgia Tech
RD: MIT, UMich, Georgia State University, Kennessaw State
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2023.06.05 09:02 goodmessenger Want to pivot from Mainframe to AI/ML engineering. Do I need to go back to school?

I have a BS in Electrical/Computer Engineering from an average university and have been working in the Mainframe industry since I graduated college around 4 years ago. Right now I make $160k as a mainframe tech consultant. I'm on track to make over $200k in a couple years. Problem is, I don't like what I do and it's starting to take a toll on my mental health. I feel stuck right now because much of the experience I've gained in the past 4 years is mainframe-specific and not transferrable to other jobs.
I want to pivot to working with technology that is more modern and exciting. AI/ML/data science in particular excite me not just because of the hype but because I have a genuine interest in them. Even if I can't go straight into AI/ML I think a move into a more modern software engineering job would be a huge step in the right direction. Now I'm trying to decide what steps I need to take to make the move. Going back to school for a grad degree and sacrificing $320k+ in salary + 2 years of tuition/living expenses sounds pretty terrible to me.
So, can I break into a more modern software engineering job without going back to school by learning the relevant skills, doing projects, and building a portfolio in my spare time? Is a good career in AI/ML achievable without a graduate degree for someone with my background?
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2023.06.05 08:59 hhhhhhhhhhoiiii TIFU: Dorm Room Disaster

TIFU, and it happened in my college dorm room. Let me set the scene for you. I'm a freshman, trying to make friends, and show my new buddies how cool and adventurous I can be. Well, this time, my attempt at being impressive turned into an unforgettable disaster. 
It all started when my roommate, Jake, invited a few friends over for a small get-together in our cramped dorm room. We were all feeling bored and wanted to liven things up. I had recently discovered a few "cool" tricks with fire, so I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to show off my newfound skills.
I confidently proclaimed, "Guys, get ready for a mind-blowing demonstration!" I gathered everyone's attention and grabbed a small bottle of rubbing alcohol from my desk. I had seen videos of people igniting alcohol and creating mesmerizing fireballs, and I figured I could pull off the same trick.
Little did I know that this would be the beginning of a disastrous chain of events. Ignoring the fact that alcohol and open flames don't mix well indoors, I poured a generous amount of rubbing alcohol into a small metal bowl. I held it up triumphantly, ready to impress my friends.
In my eagerness, I didn't realize that the rubbing alcohol had splattered onto the nearby curtains and the carpet. Igniting the liquid in the bowl was supposed to create a brief, controlled flame, but what happened next was beyond my wildest imagination.
As soon as I struck the match and dropped it into the bowl, a massive fireball erupted, illuminating the room like a mini sun. Panic ensued as we realized the flames had caught onto the curtains and carpet. The fire spread with alarming speed, fueled by the highly flammable materials in our tiny dorm room.
In a matter of seconds, the entire room was engulfed in flames. The smoke detector blared loudly, adding to the chaos. Everyone scrambled to find water or something to smother the flames, but our efforts were in vain. The fire grew more intense, threatening to spread to neighboring rooms.
In a desperate attempt to salvage the situation, someone pulled the fire alarm, alerting the entire building. Students poured out of their rooms, horrified at the sight of the smoke billowing from our floor. The fire department arrived within minutes, armed with hoses and fire extinguishers.
The firefighters battled the flames, dousing them with water until the fire was extinguished. By then, our dorm room was reduced to a charred, smoke-filled shell. The damage was extensive, not only to our room but also to the adjacent rooms affected by the spreading smoke.
As the dust settled, the gravity of the situation hit me like a ton of bricks. I had endangered not only myself but also my friends, and put the entire dormitory at risk. The guilt overwhelmed me as I watched the firefighters surveying the aftermath of my foolishness.
In the end, I not only ruined my chances of impressing my friends but also faced the consequences of my actions. I had to shoulder the blame for the fire, resulting in disciplinary action from the college and even potential legal consequences.
This unforgettable experience taught me a valuable lesson about responsibility and the consequences of reckless behavior. TIFU by thinking a small fire trick would make me look cool, but instead, it turned into a devastating dorm room disaster that I'll never forget. TL;DR: TIFU by attempting to impress my friends with a fire trick in my college dorm room. The flames quickly spread, causing a massive fire and extensive damage. Firefighters had to intervene, and I faced disciplinary action and potential legal consequences for my reckless behavior. Lesson learned: don't play with fire indoors.
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2023.06.05 08:53 Twitch_Ryting Career Expectations For Me

I need some advice. I'm very new to applying to jobs and what to expect. As of right now, I am about half way through my Cybersecurity degree with WGU and I have A+, Net+ Project+, Sec+, ITIL Foundational v4, and I will be finishing up CCNA within the next month or so. My college will not conflict with any positions I take as well. I have been working in IT for over 4 years and I've worked cybersecurity, networking, and help desk. However, it has been all Military. I'm getting out of the Military in December. By then I should have SSCP and CySA+ done too. I don't want an entry level job, and I am hoping for a Network Engineer type position or anything Security related. What should my realistic salary expectation be? What would be a good way to make myself more marketable for the position(s) I want to get? Any advice is much appreciated. Thank you in advance.
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2023.06.05 08:52 PromiseKey28 digital marketing courses in coimbatore

Digital marketing courses are designed to provide individuals with the skills and knowledge needed to effectively market products, services, or businesses using digital channels. These courses cover a wide range of topics related to digital marketing and typically include both theoretical and practical components.There are several types of digital marketing courses available, including Many online platforms offer digital marketing courses, including platforms such as Coursera, Udemy, and LinkedIn Learning. These courses can be completed at the student's own pace and often include video lectures, assignments, quizzes, and certificates of completion.In-person courses are typically held at a physical location, such as a college or university, and may include classroom lectures, group activities, and hands-on projects. Digital marketing bootcamps are intensive training programs that typically last several weeks and cover a wide range of topics related to digital marketing. Bootcamps are designed to provide hands-on experience and often include projects and mentorship.Digital marketing certificate programs are offered by many universities and colleges and typically require several courses to be completed.
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2023.06.05 08:48 Dry--Ocean Profile Evaluation Fall 2024

Intended major - CS Bachelor's major - CS Bachelor's CGPA - 8.54/10 (till 6th sem) Bachelor's College- tier 1ish , upper tier 2 ( institute of National Importance in india) No full time work experience(as I'll be graduating in 2024) 2 months internship experience in a startup GRE - aiming for atleast 320+. No publications 2 decent projects
Are universities like UIC, VT and Ohio state too ambitious for me or are they moderate/safe?
Which universities would be considered safe for my profile?
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2023.06.05 08:03 Level-Issue-8105 Is it too early to say I hate my job?

I'm three months in. Got the job fresh out of college. I'm an app developer.
The work is so mind-numbingly tedious IF I even have work to do. 80% of the time, I am sitting in my cubicle waiting to be given more work. Yes, I have asked my supervisor for more to do. This has been going on pretty much since the beginning, though it took me a while to realize that the cybersecurity "training videos" they were having me watch were just to keep me occupied because they have nothing for me to work on. The videos have zero relevance to my job beyond basic things like, "Don't give out your password." or "Protect yourself against SQL injection." I went to college to write software, not run NMAP scans.
Since then, I have zero passion or interest in code. I have no side projects and wouldn't know where to begin on those. My coworkers are all much older than me and I have trouble relating to them. I'm BORED. Last night, I got paid to model for a portraiture class and I almost cried because it's been over three months since I've had any sort of meaningful work beyond updating a few web pages.
I want out. I want out of this entire industry. I don't want to write code anymore. Am I overreacting? Is it too early for me to say that I hate this job? My therapist even agrees with me when I say that it's a slow form of torture. My mental health has been in freefall. I get all my work done faster than they can assign it to me..
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2023.06.05 08:01 Helpful_Song_4666 I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Please if anyone has any idea for what is wrong I just want help but I’m scared

I apologize in advance for grammatical errors and if this post seemed kind of all over the place.
My (18f) mental health has been rapidly declining in just a few months. I have been through a lot I have 4 siblings I am the youngest. We were abandoned by our father while our mother was pregnant with me. Our mother never really was the caring loving type she got us the bare minimum and called it a day she didn’t like when we would talk to her she would get an attitude when I was younger and yell at me If I tried to speak to her while she was doing anything. She would spank us with objects such as wire hangers belts our toys ect (that kinda stopped tho after we all got older although she still will threaten to “be our ass” from time to time. My mom picks favorites (I am not one of them) she projects her issues onto us if she has a bad day at work she will come home and find the smallest thing wrong and flip out on us call us ungrateful spoiled abusive brats and then she will start to slam stuff and stomp around the house. She’s emotionally neglectful, and when you do go to her with private and sensitive information she cannot and will not keep it to herself. Because of my lack of an actual healthy parental figure in my life it has caused me to be susceptible to grooming. I have recently come to be able to admit that I was being groomed by my best friends uncle. He is 40+yo married with multiple kids. He always gave me such sweet vibes and was very comforting (I met him when I was 16) after a few months of knowing him I got his number and he would give me rides home from work, during these rides he would often grope me and say inappropriate things (even when I would push his hands off and ask him to stop) but I would continue to make excuses for him in my head because I just wanted that comforting parental figure. I was able to distance myself from him after I turned 18 and moved away for college, but I never told my friends or family about what he would say and do. I didn’t want to get him in trouble and I didn’t want to get blamed so I figured it would be easier to just keep it to myself. When I was back in my home town for winter break I was sexually assaulted by a friend of mine. TW I got drunk and he was “taking care of me, I let him sleep in the same bed as me but soon woke up to his hands down my pants I didn’t know what to do I continued to pretend to sleep for a few minutes (those minutes felt like years) when I realized he wasn’t going to stop I sat up and just left the room without saying anything. I ended up only telling 2 of my friends about it one I swore to secrecy and the other well she blocked me and hasn’t spoken to me since. After the assault I felt isolated and alone I tried to push what happened out sm so that at some points it feels like it wasn’t real like it was just a dream or like I wasn’t there (idk how to explain it I know logically it happened but another part of me is just detached from the whole situation). Anyways after the SA I couldn’t really sleep much I was exhausted and frustrated and just full of so many emotions. Because of my lack of sleep and intense emotions I ended up having an over the top mental breakdown over some slightly annoying comment my mom made to me before she went to work. I was sobbing in my room and just couldn’t stop I started to punch myself lin the legs and head and face (I used to do that when I was younger but hadn’t in a while) after a few hours of angry cries and hitting myself I fell asleep and just continued on as I was. I was trying my best to pretend like I was ok but with the feeling of so many emotions coursing through my body I started to cut my hands In hopes to cope, and after that first cut I haven’t been really able to stop I started cutting my palms and then moved onto my thighs. In this time I still pretended I was ok and went on as if nothing was wrong. I went back to college where I met my current boyfriend at the beginning of second semester and I like him a lot but he has pointed out to me some of my self destructive habits and behaviors of pushing him away and then pulling him back in when the fear of abandonment gets a little to much. I have noticed that I tend to go from liking him so much that I feel like I would die if he left to where I want to leave him and ruin him for doing something small like not answering my text fast enough. I don’t understand why I think this way, there will be a slight change in his tone and I will go through a wide range of emotions because of it. I go from hating him to loving him and needing him to be with me always. And because of these thoughts it’s made me look back on my previous relationships types (he’s my first real bf) but with my previous bsf’s I noticed I would act similarly towards them. But yeah I feel like this post is all over the place but I feel like my brain is constantly scattered so can someone please tell me what they think is wrong with me and why I’m so crazy. (I’m currently on antidepressants… I feel like they haven’t been helping tho)
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2023.06.05 07:59 Helpful_Song_4666 I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I apologize in advance for grammatical errors and if this post seemed kind of all over the place.
My (18f) mental health has been rapidly declining in just a few months. I have been through a lot I have 4 siblings I am the youngest. We were abandoned by our father while our mother was pregnant with me. Our mother never really was the caring loving type she got us the bare minimum and called it a day she didn’t like when we would talk to her she would get an attitude when I was younger and yell at me If I tried to speak to her while she was doing anything. She would spank us with objects such as wire hangers belts our toys ect (that kinda stopped tho after we all got older although she still will threaten to “be our ass” from time to time. My mom picks favorites (I am not one of them) she projects her issues onto us if she has a bad day at work she will come home and find the smallest thing wrong and flip out on us call us ungrateful spoiled abusive brats and then she will start to slam stuff and stomp around the house. She’s emotionally neglectful, and when you do go to her with private and sensitive information she cannot and will not keep it to herself. Because of my lack of an actual healthy parental figure in my life it has caused me to be susceptible to grooming. I have recently come to be able to admit that I was being groomed by my best friends uncle. He is 40+yo married with multiple kids. He always gave me such sweet vibes and was very comforting (I met him when I was 16) after a few months of knowing him I got his number and he would give me rides home from work, during these rides he would often grope me and say inappropriate things (even when I would push his hands off and ask him to stop) but I would continue to make excuses for him in my head because I just wanted that comforting parental figure. I was able to distance myself from him after I turned 18 and moved away for college, but I never told my friends or family about what he would say and do. I didn’t want to get him in trouble and I didn’t want to get blamed so I figured it would be easier to just keep it to myself. When I was back in my home town for winter break I was sexually assaulted by a friend of mine. TW I got drunk and he was “taking care of me, I let him sleep in the same bed as me but soon woke up to his hands down my pants I didn’t know what to do I continued to pretend to sleep for a few minutes (those minutes felt like years) when I realized he wasn’t going to stop I sat up and just left the room without saying anything. I ended up only telling 2 of my friends about it one I swore to secrecy and the other well she blocked me and hasn’t spoken to me since. After the assault I felt isolated and alone I tried to push what happened out sm so that at some points it feels like it wasn’t real like it was just a dream or like I wasn’t there (idk how to explain it I know logically it happened but another part of me is just detached from the whole situation). Anyways after the SA I couldn’t really sleep much I was exhausted and frustrated and just full of so many emotions. Because of my lack of sleep and intense emotions I ended up having an over the top mental breakdown over some slightly annoying comment my mom made to me before she went to work. I was sobbing in my room and just couldn’t stop I started to punch myself lin the legs and head and face (I used to do that when I was younger but hadn’t in a while) after a few hours of angry cries and hitting myself I fell asleep and just continued on as I was. I was trying my best to pretend like I was ok but with the feeling of so many emotions coursing through my body I started to cut my hands In hopes to cope, and after that first cut I haven’t been really able to stop I started cutting my palms and then moved onto my thighs. In this time I still pretended I was ok and went on as if nothing was wrong. I went back to college where I met my current boyfriend at the beginning of second semester and I like him a lot but he has pointed out to me some of my self destructive habits and behaviors of pushing him away and then pulling him back in when the fear of abandonment gets a little to much. I have noticed that I tend to go from liking him so much that I feel like I would die if he left to where I want to leave him and ruin him for doing something small like not answering my text fast enough. I don’t understand why I think this way, there will be a slight change in his tone and I will go through a wide range of emotions because of it. I go from hating him to loving him and needing him to be with me always. And because of these thoughts it’s made me look back on my previous relationships types (he’s my first real bf) but with my previous bsf’s I noticed I would act similarly towards them. But yeah I feel like this post is all over the place but I feel like my brain is constantly scattered so can someone please tell me what they think is wrong with me and why I’m so crazy. (I’m currently on antidepressants… I feel like they haven’t been helping tho)
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2023.06.05 07:57 MoreAd7603 Resume Review for Part time job as an International Student in Canada

Interational Student in Canada aggressively looking for part time survival job. Have applied to like 150+ places no response. Have applied to sales, receptionist, warehouse worker, bartender, server, cashier and all other types of jobs . I know times are hard but i think something is wrong with my resume because of which i am not even receiving rejection maik ( barely 1-2 received) . Please review my resume and be harsh ans suggest changes to make my resume stand out.

https://preview.redd.it/3l8eo7bw254b1.png?width=584&format=png&auto=webp&s=4357fac4e8374970dfb5da29a263610312a73469
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2023.06.05 07:55 Helpful_Song_4666 I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I apologize in advance for grammatical errors and if this post seemed kind of all over the place.
My (18f) mental health has been rapidly declining in just a few months. I have been through a lot I have 4 siblings I am the youngest. We were abandoned by our father while our mother was pregnant with me. Our mother never really was the caring loving type she got us the bare minimum and called it a day she didn’t like when we would talk to her she would get an attitude when I was younger and yell at me If I tried to speak to her while she was doing anything. She would spank us with objects such as wire hangers belts our toys ect (that kinda stopped tho after we all got older although she still will threaten to “be our ass” from time to time. My mom picks favorites (I am not one of them) she projects her issues onto us if she has a bad day at work she will come home and find the smallest thing wrong and flip out on us call us ungrateful spoiled abusive brats and then she will start to slam stuff and stomp around the house. She’s emotionally neglectful, and when you do go to her with private and sensitive information she cannot and will not keep it to herself. Because of my lack of an actual healthy parental figure in my life it has caused me to be susceptible to grooming. I have recently come to be able to admit that I was being groomed by my best friends uncle. He is 40+yo married with multiple kids. He always gave me such sweet vibes and was very comforting (I met him when I was 16) after a few months of knowing him I got his number and he would give me rides home from work, during these rides he would often grope me and say inappropriate things (even when I would push his hands off and ask him to stop) but I would continue to make excuses for him in my head because I just wanted that comforting parental figure. I was able to distance myself from him after I turned 18 and moved away for college, but I never told my friends or family about what he would say and do. I didn’t want to get him in trouble and I didn’t want to get blamed so I figured it would be easier to just keep it to myself. When I was back in my home town for winter break I was sexually assaulted by a friend of mine. TW I got drunk and he was “taking care of me, I let him sleep in the same bed as me but soon woke up to his hands down my pants I didn’t know what to do I continued to pretend to sleep for a few minutes (those minutes felt like years) when I realized he wasn’t going to stop I sat up and just left the room without saying anything. I ended up only telling 2 of my friends about it one I swore to secrecy and the other well she blocked me and hasn’t spoken to me since. After the assault I felt isolated and alone I tried to push what happened out sm so that at some points it feels like it wasn’t real like it was just a dream or like I wasn’t there (idk how to explain it I know logically it happened but another part of me is just detached from the whole situation). Anyways after the SA I couldn’t really sleep much I was exhausted and frustrated and just full of so many emotions. Because of my lack of sleep and intense emotions I ended up having an over the top mental breakdown over some slightly annoying comment my mom made to me before she went to work. I was sobbing in my room and just couldn’t stop I started to punch myself lin the legs and head and face (I used to do that when I was younger but hadn’t in a while) after a few hours of angry cries and hitting myself I fell asleep and just continued on as I was. I was trying my best to pretend like I was ok but with the feeling of so many emotions coursing through my body I started to cut my hands In hopes to cope, and after that first cut I haven’t been really able to stop I started cutting my palms and then moved onto my thighs. In this time I still pretended I was ok and went on as if nothing was wrong. I went back to college where I met my current boyfriend at the beginning of second semester and I like him a lot but he has pointed out to me some of my self destructive habits and behaviors of pushing him away and then pulling him back in when the fear of abandonment gets a little to much. I have noticed that I tend to go from liking him so much that I feel like I would die if he left to where I want to leave him and ruin him for doing something small like not answering my text fast enough. I don’t understand why I think this way, there will be a slight change in his tone and I will go through a wide range of emotions because of it. I go from hating him to loving him and needing him to be with me always. And because of these thoughts it’s made me look back on my previous relationships types (he’s my first real bf) but with my previous bsf’s I noticed I would act similarly towards them. But yeah I feel like this post is all over the place but I feel like my brain is constantly scattered so can someone please tell me what they think is wrong with me and why I’m so crazy. (I’m currently on antidepressants… I feel like they haven’t been helping tho)
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2023.06.05 07:53 Helpful_Song_4666 I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I apologize in advance for grammatical errors and if this post seemed kind of all over the place.
My (18f) mental health has been rapidly declining in just a few months. I have been through a lot I have 4 siblings I am the youngest. We were abandoned by our father while our mother was pregnant with me. Our mother never really was the caring loving type she got us the bare minimum and called it a day she didn’t like when we would talk to her she would get an attitude when I was younger and yell at me If I tried to speak to her while she was doing anything. She would spank us with objects such as wire hangers belts our toys ect (that kinda stopped tho after we all got older although she still will threaten to “be our ass” from time to time. My mom picks favorites (I am not one of them) she projects her issues onto us if she has a bad day at work she will come home and find the smallest thing wrong and flip out on us call us ungrateful spoiled abusive brats and then she will start to slam stuff and stomp around the house. She’s emotionally neglectful, and when you do go to her with private and sensitive information she cannot and will not keep it to herself. Because of my lack of an actual healthy parental figure in my life it has caused me to be susceptible to grooming. I have recently come to be able to admit that I was being groomed by my best friends uncle. He is 40+yo married with multiple kids. He always gave me such sweet vibes and was very comforting (I met him when I was 16) after a few months of knowing him I got his number and he would give me rides home from work, during these rides he would often grope me and say inappropriate things (even when I would push his hands off and ask him to stop) but I would continue to make excuses for him in my head because I just wanted that comforting parental figure. I was able to distance myself from him after I turned 18 and moved away for college, but I never told my friends or family about what he would say and do. I didn’t want to get him in trouble and I didn’t want to get blamed so I figured it would be easier to just keep it to myself. When I was back in my home town for winter break I was sexually assaulted by a friend of mine. TW I got drunk and he was “taking care of me, I let him sleep in the same bed as me but soon woke up to his hands down my pants I didn’t know what to do I continued to pretend to sleep for a few minutes (those minutes felt like years) when I realized he wasn’t going to stop I sat up and just left the room without saying anything. I ended up only telling 2 of my friends about it one I swore to secrecy and the other well she blocked me and hasn’t spoken to me since. After the assault I felt isolated and alone I tried to push what happened out sm so that at some points it feels like it wasn’t real like it was just a dream or like I wasn’t there (idk how to explain it I know logically it happened but another part of me is just detached from the whole situation). Anyways after the SA I couldn’t really sleep much I was exhausted and frustrated and just full of so many emotions. Because of my lack of sleep and intense emotions I ended up having an over the top mental breakdown over some slightly annoying comment my mom made to me before she went to work. I was sobbing in my room and just couldn’t stop I started to punch myself lin the legs and head and face (I used to do that when I was younger but hadn’t in a while) after a few hours of angry cries and hitting myself I fell asleep and just continued on as I was. I was trying my best to pretend like I was ok but with the feeling of so many emotions coursing through my body I started to cut my hands In hopes to cope, and after that first cut I haven’t been really able to stop I started cutting my palms and then moved onto my thighs. In this time I still pretended I was ok and went on as if nothing was wrong. I went back to college where I met my current boyfriend at the beginning of second semester and I like him a lot but he has pointed out to me some of my self destructive habits and behaviors of pushing him away and then pulling him back in when the fear of abandonment gets a little to much. I have noticed that I tend to go from liking him so much that I feel like I would die if he left to where I want to leave him and ruin him for doing something small like not answering my text fast enough. I don’t understand why I think this way, there will be a slight change in his tone and I will go through a wide range of emotions because of it. I go from hating him to loving him and needing him to be with me always. And because of these thoughts it’s made me look back on my previous relationships types (he’s my first real bf) but with my previous bsf’s I noticed I would act similarly towards them. But yeah I feel like this post is all over the place but I feel like my brain is constantly scattered so can someone please tell me what they think is wrong with me and why I’m so crazy. (I’m currently on antidepressants… I feel like they haven’t been helping tho)
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2023.06.05 07:51 sactoquailman Do you prefer Slack or Discord?

As I've taken a bootcamp, which I did well at but still felt overwhelmed during and since, and am currently enrolled in a CS program at a community college, I've typically used Slack for coordinating on projects and share code and documents. My new course it seems is using Discord but I've used it in the past and didn't care for Discord. I'm biting the bullet on this one. Wondering what the preference is among others on this channel. Do you prefer Slack or Discord, and why? Thanks!
Edit: Or, is there another platform/tool you use instead?
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2023.06.05 07:50 godspeed_1225 advice for incoming college freshman

incoming freshman at ut austin's mccombs school (non-canfield). i'm looking to major in either accounting/finance (i find that i enjoy the strategy aspect of business and also love working with numbers), but i've been kinda apprehensive lately because i have zero family background/close connections that work in the industry. in other words, i've never really had anyone close to ask for advice and/or try to emulate , for lack of a better explanation.
i know a lot of kids are enamored by the prospect of making it big working in IB & moving out into PE/HF, or whatever it is. i understand that it is important to assess the next 4 years from a holistic perspective and not blindly jump on the IB bandwagon without truly having any sense of direction and/or understanding what these career paths truly entail.
given the school i plan on attending and projected major, how can i best utilize my time over the course of my college career? are there any specific tips that are often overlooked by the fresh high school graduate?
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2023.06.05 07:49 godspeed_1225 if you could give your undergrad self advice, what would it be?

incoming freshman at ut austin's mccombs school (non-canfield). i'm looking to major in either accounting/finance (i find that i enjoy the strategy aspect of business and also love working with numbers), but i've been kinda apprehensive lately because i have zero family background/close connections that work in the industry. in other words, i've never really had anyone close to ask for advice and/or try to emulate , for lack of a better explanation.
i know a lot of kids are enamored by the prospect of making it big working in IB & moving out into PE/HF, or whatever it is. i understand that it is important to assess the next 4 years from a holistic perspective and not blindly jump on the IB bandwagon without truly having any sense of direction and/or understanding what these career paths truly entail.
given the school i plan on attending and projected major, how can i best utilize my time over the course of my college career? are there any specific tips that are often overlooked by the fresh high school graduate?
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2023.06.05 07:43 chicknurch Is it still possible for me to break 2 minutes in the 800m?

I am 24M, when I was in high school my best time was a 2:02. I had ran the 800 for three years, and joined cross country my senior year after having always played football. After graduating I started smoking cigarettes and smoked from about age 18-23. I didn’t really exercise much during this time except for a few short lived attempts at lifting. I quit smoking a little over a year ago now and am starting to get back into running again. One of my friends that ran in college told me that he could get me to run under a 2:00 800m with the right training and dedication. Given all the above info, is it possible?
(I should also point out that our coaching in high school wasn’t near as good as many of the other schools in our area, I came to find out years later that they were doing much more intense training and higher mileage, so I always thought that if I had trained the way they did I could’ve broken 2:00.)
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2023.06.05 07:35 Dramatic-Writing-550 Resume help

Resume help
Just needed tips on my resume or any terms I can make? (Will be adding courses as I get them done)
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