my girlfriend and i are in a long distance relationship. it was very hard for us kasi we prefer na laging nakikita yung isa't-isa and nagsispend time together. in short, physical touch and quality time yung love language namin. dahil summer vacation na, we're both away from each other so we always communicate through calls and chat every minute, every second, and everyday. i'm always there for her and vice versa. dahil nga we're both away, we feel very alone. her home doesn't feel like home to her and i stay in a dorm almost alone everyday tapos my parents were against wlw relationship pa which didn't help us. our mental health were slowly deteriorating. we don't feel safe sa mga place na tinutuluyan namin (bcs of the ppl around it). we only feel the warmth and security when we're together.
things started to get worse kasi we're very occupied with the things happening around us. syempre affected kaming dalawa which affects our mental state which affects our relationship also. there was this time na i broke down in our call. she never left me until i became okay. but when she needed me the most, i wasn't there for her. i wasn't there kasi i was sleeping and i didn't know na she broke down. i slept because kakagaling lang namin sa misunderstanding non and it's starting to affect me na so badly that my head hurts lagi, i barely eat, i cant sleep at night, body aches, and nag eemotional outburst ako bigla-bigla. it felt like i was so depressed with my life. And i know she is too. But at that point sino uunahin ko? sarili ko ba or siya? everytime na mawawala lang ako saglit nagkakaganun na siya. maybe bcs she told me na she only have me.
i dont know anymore. now, we're on a break (cool off). i still want her pero i dont know what approach yung gagamitin ko para hindi na siya magkaganun. i always try to be better for her.
any advices ? thoughts ?
thank you for reading this ! :)

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Song missing from a strip club scene in season one episode 3 of hightown.
Lyrics from subtitles:
Welcome to my VIP where anything go
Ain't nobody gonna judge you when you drop it down low.
Go ahead tip it over girl we in the same boat.
Ain't no rules in this room girl, anything go said anything go.
Anything go, anything go girl.
Whoever watching when you get on that pole.
I just want to be the one to see you get in that mode.
And do the things you're not allowed to do cause anything go, girl, anything go.
So anything go, you live for the danger
Thats all I got.....please help!

Song missing from a strip club scene in season one episode 3 of hightown.
Lyrics from subtitles:
Welcome to my VIP where anything go
Ain't nobody gonna judge you when you drop it down low.
Go ahead tip it over girl we in the same boat.
Ain't no rules in this room girl, anything go said anything go.
Anything go, anything go girl.
Whoever watching when you get on that pole.
I just want to be the one to see you get in that mode.
And do the things you're not allowed to do cause anything go, girl, anything go.
So anything go, you live for the danger
Thats all I got.....please help!

Song missing from a strip club scene in season one episode 3 of hightown.
Lyrics from subtitles:
Welcome to my VIP where anything go
Ain't nobody gonna judge you when you drop it down low.
Go ahead tip it over girl we in the same boat.
Ain't no rules in this room girl, anything go said anything go.
Anything go, anything go girl.
Whoever watching when you get on that pole.
I just want to be the one to see you get in that mode.
And do the things you're not allowed to do cause anything go, girl, anything go.
So anything go, you live for the danger
Thats all I got.....please help!

Song missing from a strip club scene in season one episode 3 of hightown.
Lyrics from subtitles:
Welcome to my VIP where anything go
Ain't nobody gonna judge you when you drop it down low.
Go ahead tip it over girl we in the same boat.
Ain't no rules in this room girl, anything go said anything go.
Anything go, anything go girl.
Whoever watching when you get on that pole.
I just want to be the one to see you get in that mode.
And do the things you're not allowed to do cause anything go, girl, anything go.
So anything go, you live for the danger
Thats all I got.....please help!

Song missing from a strip club scene in season one episode 3 of hightown.
Lyrics from subtitles:
Welcome to my VIP where anything go
Ain't nobody gonna judge you when you drop it down low.
Go ahead tip it over girl we in the same boat.
Ain't no rules in this room girl, anything go said anything go.
Anything go, anything go girl.
Whoever watching when you get on that pole.
I just want to be the one to see you get in that mode.
And do the things you're not allowed to do cause anything go, girl, anything go.
So anything go, you live for the danger
Thats all I got.....please help!

The 2022-2023 season just came to a close in New Orleans. I’m so thankful to have seen almost all of the shows the past two seasons. Im feeling inspired so here is my combined ranking AND rating for the 21-22 and 22-23 season.
1) To Kill A Mockingbird 4/4 stars I was blown away by the writing, acting, and pace. I tend not be a crier and I balled my eyes out. When it comes down to it, I think I’m just more impressed and engaged with an amazing non-musical than musical and wish we had more of them. My eyes were glued to the stage and my ears were clinging to every word.
2) Hamilton 4/4 stars This was my third time seeing Hamilton and I probably have a bit of Hamilton burnout from listening to the soundtrack so often a few years ago but told myself not to let that effect my rating. All that’s been said about Hamilton has already been said and I will always adore it. It’s such a detailed amazing piece of work. I just love the breadth of lyrics.
3) Six 4/4 stars I went into this knowing nothing about it and was captivated. I’m kind of in my Hamilton listening phase with Six and the writing gets more clever the more I listen to it. I would see it again, it’s such a fun but clever ride.
4) Fiddler On The Roof 4/4 stars I had vague memories of this, probably from seeing the movie and possibly an off Broadway production as a kid. But this is my first time appreciating it as an adult. It can be a bit by the books, but I found it profound and sad and have thought about it often since. Our Teve was incredible I might have given it a 3.5 right afterwards, but all that it’s given me since pushes it to a 4, kind of the opposite of..
5) Hadestown 4/4 stars I left Hadestown in awe. The music was beautiful, chilling. I love an orchestra on stage. But now that some time has passed, it hasn’t really done much for me emotionally and the plot is a bit weak. I’ll keep it as a 4 for how it made me feel after the show. Maybe it needs a rewatch.
6) Jesus Christ Superstar 3/4 stars
I didn’t know a lot about this beforehand but I can’t say I wasn’t engaged and intrigued throughout. In moments, I thought it was too weird and at others I thought it wasn’t weird enough. In moments I thought it was cerebral and other moments thought it was a high production Christian rock concert. Overall it was memorable and I often wonder how those of different faiths would view it.
7) Mean Girls 3/4 stars
This exceeded expectations for me. I like the movie a lot and grew up with it but honestly assumed the show might kind of be trash. I remember after it was over saying wait, was that pretty good? Overtime it’s not that memorable to me but I remember laughing often and really enjoying the fun choreography.
8) Moulin Rouge 2.5/stars
I left this thinking, “wow a lot of people who don’t like theater would adore this.” Actually for some reason I left with a lot of specific thoughts: I wish it was weirder and more circusy. I don’t like Jukebox musicals but this was well done for a Jukebox musical. I tend to love simple understated sets but boy was it kind of fun to see an extravagant set with grandiose lightning and design. The plot is so boring/non existent (I think that’s supposed to be besides the point).
9) Tootsie 1.5/4 stars
I think this did everything it was supposed to do and was well acted but it was profoundly unfunny to me. Different strokes for different folks I guess.
10) Anastasia 0/4 stars
No. I’ve never been so bored watching theater in my life. Was it a musical? I don’t remember one song. I left ranting about the awful set design and then looked it up and read it won all kinds of awards for the set and projection. I don’t get it. I hated that it was all projectors- and even if I Was to accept it, I didn’t find the projection engaging either in an impressive technical way or a charming older way. For fans, I don’t mean to offend. Would love to hear a different perspective.
Did not see: Cats, Frozen, Pretty Woman, Tina Turner

Super long post ahead !! Kase ang dami kong dama. Not sure kung dito talaga 'to dapat ipost, first time ko rito sa reddit. Just want to share this lang talaga.
I (26F) dated this guy (M25) for a month after we met from a dating app. We both agreed na we want to try things out and have a serious relationship if ever. Sobrang okay naman kami and nag-click din talaga agad. We shared the same interests naman kahit papano. Medyo magkaiba lang talaga yung ugali namin as I'm very vocal and expressive unlike him na medyo tahimik lang and kung hindi ko ipupush yung conversation namin, walang mangyayari.
Fast forward after ng bolahan and all that, nagdecide kami na magmeet and I got so excited and I'm very sexual din kase so on the first date, we decided to do it na agad. I know what I want, I want to have sex with him kaya hindi ako magpapakaipokrita at sasabihin na hindi ko ginusto yon.
After that, we're still okay pa rin naman however, hindi na namin ulit napagusapan yung tungkol sa pagkakaroon namin ng label and that's okay naman with me kase tiwala naman ako na dun din naman kami pupunta. So, in a span of more than a month, nagdidate kami, yung wholesome date lang dapat pero nauuwi kami sa pag-check in or minsan naman magkikita lang talaga just to do it and that's okay kase gusto ko rin naman. I don't feel objectified or nagamit kase gusto ko naman talaga, it was a consented sex.
Then napagusapan tungkol sa body count and I was honest with him na I had several naman na before him pero hindi naman ganon karami, like pang-lima ko na siya hahahaha I think it's just normal lang naman as I'm exploring my sexulity and myself but compared to him na naka-isa lang before me (ssbi niya, maniwala man daw ako o hindi), medyo nakakahiya nga na mas marami ako kesa sa kanya. This conversation pala happened pa before may nangyari samin kaya sabi ko okay lang naman kung may mangyayari rin samin kase I want to do it naman talaga.
So ayun na nga, after some time, napagusapan ulit namin yung tungkol samin, sa relationship and all that and it turns out na naturn off na pala siya sakin from the very beginning na nalaman nyang may body count nako pero gusto nya kaseng baguhin yung ganung mindset so he still pursued me.
Hindi lang naman kami puro sex, masaya naman kami, nagaaway minsan pero yung comfort namin sa isa't isa is andun naman, we shared some secrets na rin and nagdadamayan na rin everytime na we feel down tungkol sa mga bagay bagay.I compliment him from time to time kase I know he's smart and I like smart guys, I boasted him kahit sinasabi nya na wala pa syang masyadong nararating sa career nya pero for me kase, I know he's very good at it. We had healthy arguments about some stuff na mas nakita namin yung side ng isa't isa. Makulit talaga ko kaya minsan pinagsasabihan nya ko to manage it kase nadidrain daw sya sa kakulitan ko like yung I want updates, I want good morning/good nights from him, mga simpleng bagay lang naman talaga na kung seryoso ka naman talaga, madali lang naman mabigay pero ayun nga, dahil ayaw nya non, I really managed myself na wag masyadong maging needy at attention seeker sa kanya, I made all the adjustments kase I'm so into him.
After that conversation, alam ko na wala na. failed attempt na naman ulit, akala ko pa naman last ko na yon kase I want to find a serious relationship na rin naman na talaga.
Sabi ko na lang, we can remain as casual dating na lang kung ayaw nya na talaga, naisip ko non baka mabago ko pa yung isip nya and baka at the end of it, maging kami pa rin naman diba.
Kahit casual dating na lang kami, and we already talked na wala ng label and commitment na mangyayari, we remained as fubu kase gusto ko rin naman, hindi ko naman nafifeel na ginagamit nya lang ako kase ganun din naman ginagawa ko, I used him to satisfy myself din. Pero eventually, nagdecide rin siya na tapusin na lang lahat. Ayaw na niya.
I just felt betrayed lang talaga and I'm really broken and sad. Na I'm trying to be a better version of myself kase hindi ko na mababalik yung virginity ko eh. Bakit ganon? Kung sino pa yung willing magbigay genuine love and care, sila pa yung hindi matrato ng tama, tho mali rin kase yung umpisa namin, nagsex agad kahit wala pang label. Dapat diba relationship muna kung seryoso na talaga then sex will follow. Kaya nga gusto ko na sana ayusin namin eh, we can make it official na talaga kaso wala eh.
Yes, ang chaka ng past ko talaga at nakakahiya naman, it's not something to be proud of, kaya nga nagbabago na diba, kaya nga I want to date for real na talaga and experience a genuine love too. But I guess, ganun talaga.
Siguro naging factor din na kaya ganun yung nangyari samin kase may naramdaman siyang kakaiba after some time, and ngayon we found out na may gonorrhea pala sya, very rare lang naman pero nagpatreatment na siya ngayon. As for myself naman, wala talaga kong naramdamang any symptoms kahit nung sa mga nakadate ko rin dati, wala rin naman silang naramdaman or what or siguro di lang ako sure sa kanila pero sakin is wala talaga and I tested negative naman sa HIV last year. Siguro asymptomatic ako for gono/chlamydia kaya magpapatest na rin ako for that this week. I already tested negative na for HIV, Syphillis and HEPA B today but since may gonorrhea nga siya, magpapatest na rin ako for that para if I need treatment, magamot na.
Nagtatampo lang talaga and nanghihinayang ako samin. Siguro If I just met him sa ibang pagkakataon and wala kaming ganitong issue about body count and sexual infections, baka magwork-out naman kami noh? Kaso preferred nya rin daw talaga is virgin eh haha what a joke. Tumesting lang pala sakin tapos ganun pa nangyari. Anyway, we only dated for more than a month lang naman haha pero parang ang tagal na kase ang dami na ngang nangyaring kaguluhan samin.
Di ko na alam pano pagagaanin yung loob ko. Sobrang down na down talaga ko hahaha confident naman ako na negative talaga ko sa lahat, siya lang naman iniisip ko eh. Nahihiya rin ako na ako rin talaga yung cause bakit nagkaganun siya at dahil don, hindi ko na mailaban yung feelings ko kase talong talo nako at wala na rin talagang pagasa lalo na ngayon na he's already dating someone new na, ang bilis diba hahaha inaayos lang namin yung problema namin kaya nakakapagusap pa kami pero after this, wala na. I will end everything na rin talaga.
Pagod nako to meet new people tapos may ganito pa. Siguro kung makikipagdate ulit ako, hahanapan ko na rin ng negative results sa HIV at ibang nakakahawang diseases from sex. And I will guard my heart more, na wag ng mafall sa bare minimum at sa mga mabulaklak na salita hahaha

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Trigger warning para sa mga judgemental. Im at low, please mellow down lang kung mahilig ka mambash. Pasensya na sa pagkakaayos ng thoughts. Basta type lang ako ng type.
Achiever ako sa school since elementary. Typical nerd, lalo vibe ko noon. But kahit ganun, Ive never experienced getting bullied. Thankful din ako kasi close kami lahat ng batchmates ko especially nung HS (private at 2sections lang). Also experienced teenage love despite of my looks and general vibe. Komplikado ang lovelife ko haha up until nameet ko gf ko today. Di kayang ikwento dito sa same post kasi nga komplikado.
Anyway, gradually nagbago ako, naging confident, naging "normie". People see me as extremely confident and independent, not in a bad way, I think, kapag tinatanong ko iba, wala naman negative/hostile reaction. Wala ring chismis sooo yun. They seek my advices, both academic and with their personal life.
During my 3rd-4th yr HS up to professional doctorate, I lead groups sa certain projects / researches. Minsan, nakakapasok ako sa presidents list during my undergrad. No latin honors kasi tamad na ako nung last yr ko haha Sa past jobs/clerkships, same thing. Pero tbh, I dont like my profession but not to the point of hating it. Its just, theres no love.
Pero bakit yun kinuha ko? Chain of events, lack of real interest during my 4th year HS at agenda na isang sakay lang ang UPD from espana (umasa na magkabalikan kami ng 1st ex ko nung HS). Bakit ko pa tinuloy into doctorate? Akala ko maappreciate ko na sya finally, pero it leads me deeper sa hole.
People tend to overestimate me, including my family. Like sobrang OA, pero I always refute yung mga ganung remarks. May time na nagagalit ako sa ganung remarks.
I finished my doctorate 2019, nagpahinga ako saglit kasi burnt out sobra. May time na makakauwi ako ng bahay around 8pm, dinner lang, ligo at gagawa na ng case study up until 3am, bihis and prepare para by 4-4:30am makasakay na ng UV at umabot ng 7am class (Im from north caloocan, border na kami ng meycuayan, ang school ko sa gil puyat makati pa). Di ko afford mag dorm that time kasi pinapaaral ko din kapatid ko. 2hrs tulog, sa UV at tren. Pag umalis ako ng 5, wala na. 10 na ako makakarating. Tangina ng makati. Factory ng tao.
Fast forward 2020, pandemic hits. Actually hopeful ako during the 1st quarter kasi natanggap ako as prof sa sikat na uni. Start na ako dapat ng June2020, then the worst came. I got so depressed I technically ghosted my job, 1week before the start of class. I literally lied sa dean kung bakit di ko matutuloy. My gf, partner ko parin until now, able to convinced me to seek psychiatric help. Dentist sya kaya kahit papano may background sya sa depression etc. September 2020, diagnosed ako with Bipolar.
Sabi, pwedeng yun ang cause ng pabago bago or lack of real plan sa future. Sobrang hirap kasi one moment sobrang confident ka sa plans mo and all then after a few months, mawawala na parang bula.
2021, we put up a small pharmacy while sya nagclinic as dentist during M-W. So-so lang, pero I cant find happiness sa ginagawa ko. Parang bumabalik na naman ako sa 2020. I cant help but think. Malaking factor ang shitty bipolar sa kung anong sitwasyon ko ngayon. Paano kaya kung wala ako nun, everything could be normal. Everything might work out just fine. My friends contact me very rarely, napagod na ako na lagi ako ang nag iinitiate. They think na sobrang busy ko kahit sinasabi ko na hindi. Na super serious ko sa career. HS batchmates, ekis na. Related sa lovelife ko nga haha My partner nalang nakakausap at nakakabonding ko and my family. Theyre important pero iba rin yung kaibigan. Alam mo yun. Sobrang lungkot lang. My partner really really tries her best to compensate, lalabas kami to do fun things. Bakasyon. Isama ako with her friends. Sobrang appreciate ko ang effort nya. Pero, basta
I might add as edit if kung may maisip pa akong idagdag.

I have a boyfriend and LDR kami pero sobrang naaappreciate ko how he respects me and my capabilities as a woman. Simula nung need nya magibang bansa, walang palya everyday na mag gugood morning siya and spend his first hour of the day talking to me. Ganun din pag break time nya or bago mag sleep time ko.
Pag may nakukwento ako sa kanyang material things na gusto ko mabili, he would ask me if I want it earn it myself or if I want it as a gift or If I want to get it now and pay after. Recently we are talking about marriage and he reminded me na he is always ready and just waiting for me to tell him na I am ready din kasi I have a blooming career and ayaw daw nya magkaroon ako ng burden to choose between my career or him kasi sometimes marriage can really slow you down. Tinanong ko siya how he will feel if ayaw ko maganak. He said na he is fine with it din kasi ako naman daw manganganak and he respects my decision about my body. Most of all, tinotolerate nya yung fascination ko sa mga bagay na I wanted as kid pero di ko nakuha. The adult and kid in me is very fulfilled.
This relationship makes me realized how important compatibility and communication is kahit di kayo face to face. Pag gusto ka talaga ng tao, hahanap at hahanap sya ng way to make you happy, no? Sana di mauntog si jowa. Sampung helmet na bibilhin ko para sure

Hey y’all. I am a lurker on my personal account, but I’m using a throwaway for privacy reasons. I (in my 20’s F) and my husband (in his 20’sM) have been married for 2 years. I found out a year into my marriage that he has been a porn addict since being exposed in 1st grade. He also is a survivor of SA as a child from his female cousin.
We are currently separated (not by choice, he is in the military) but I was able to visit him last week. We had a great time, and he has been clean for about 3 months. Yesterday I found out that he relapsed after checking our accountability app (Covenant Eyes). I’m just so broken right now and wanted to vent out loud. We are in the process of getting matched for couples therapy, and I am beginning individual therapy on Tuesday this week.
Here’s what I wrote him: “I'm serious when I say that you telling me "I'm sorry and I love you." Is not going to fix this. I told you before we left for our separation what my boundaries are and you need to decide if you want me or porn.
I don't believe you are sorry or that you love me because if you did you would have called me or one of your accountability partners before you did that. You would have confessed to me after you did it. You would have been HONEST when I confronted you. Sheepishly saying, "oh I just googled something" doesn't cut it. It was nice having about 2 weeks where I wasn't worrying about this all the time and now I'm back having nightmares about it again. It's so selfish. Have you ever cried yourself to sleep because your spouse would rather lust and commit adultery in their heart over prostitutes and porn stars? It sucks. Or had nightmares over and over that your spouse keeps cheating on you but won't admit it?
When you are really to be HONEST and actually LOYAL to me we can talk about it, but until then I need time to myself. I'm also disgusted that you asked me for inappropriate pictures mere hours after you did this.”
We had a good conversation after and I feel stronger. But it still sucks so bad that he relapsed. We get to see each other again in a week and a half and I’m excited but worried he will relapse again right after.
After confronting him yesterday I just laid in bed and cried listening to “You’re Losing Me,” from Taylor Swift. I don’t want to divorce him, but I didn’t sign up for this. I always feel broken after he relapses (this is number 4 maybe?) but over stronger that we were vulnerable together. If I knew about his addiction before getting married I would have waited for him to be strong in his sobriety. The lyrics hit so close to home:
“You say, "I don't understand" and I say, "I know you don't.” We thought a cure would come through in time, now, I fear it won't. Remember lookin' at this room, we loved it 'cause of the light. Now, I just sit in the dark and wonder if it's time.
Do I throw out everything we built or keep it? I'm getting tired even for a phoenix. Always risin' from the ashes. Mendin' all her gashes. You might just have dealt the final blow.
Stop, you're losing me. Stop, you're losing me. Stop, you're losing me. I can't find a pulse. My heart won't start anymore for you. 'Cause you're losing me
Every mornin' I glared at you with storms in my eyes. How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'? I sent you signals and bit my nails down to the quick. My face was gray, but you wouldn't admit that we were sick.
And the air is thick with loss and indecision. I know my pain is such an imposition. Now, you're running down the hallway. And you know what they all say. "You don't know what you got until it's gone"
Stop, you're losing me. Stop, you're losing me Stop, you're losing me. I can't find a pulse. My heart won't start anymore for you. 'Cause you're losing me. ‘Cause you're losing me. Stop (Stop) 'cause you're losing me
My heart won't start anymore (Stop 'cause you're losing me). My heart won't start anymore (Stop 'cause you're losing me)
How long could we be a sad song. 'Til we were too far gone to bring back to life?. I gave you all my best me's, my endless empathy. And all I did was bleed as I tried to be the bravest soldier. Fighting in only your army, frontlines, don't you ignore me. I'm the best thing at this party (You're losing me). And I wouldn't marry me either. A pathological people pleaser. Who only wanted you to see her. And I'm fading, thinkin'. "Do something, babe, say something" (Say something). "Lose something, babe, risk something" (You're losing me). "Choose something, babe, I got nothing" (I got nothing). "To believe, unless you're choosing me"
You're losing me. Stop (Stop, stop), you're losing me. Stop (Stop, stop), you're losing me. I can't find a pulse, my heart won't start anymore.”
Just thinking out loud, and I’m open to any resources you recommend.

I (30m) think I may be in love with my gf (27f) but she has shown signs of a lack of grace and empathy
I'm very conflicted. I genuinely love her and she can be so sweet to me, but I'm noticing a pattern.
Her doing something insensitive and then I have to bring it up.
Example. Me asking her if her family even liked me. She got frustrated at me for asking. She basically wanted me to explain myself and I felt sort of shamed. Several days later I set her down and told her that I did not feel sorry for asking. I did say I knew my attitude was not great and I understand if that was the issue. Her response was okay, but still admitted the question itself bothered her. Not just my attituds. I felt it was a red flag that she behaved that way when I got vulnerable with her. I told her that it was important to me to be able to be vulnerable with a partner without being shamed.
Same week we went out with my brother and her brother. We went to grab drinks. I was excited for us all four to talk. Multiple times her and her brother were having their own conversation on a tv show we didn't want spoiled and weren't caught up on. Also people we didn't know. It felt like we were alienated from the conversation. I also brought this up to her afterwords. I basically told her I really enjoyed time with her brother, but I felt their conversation were creating barriers for inclusive conversation.
A few other things happened this week as well.
Also she seems to get angry quick in the car and I've seen her almost get short with people at Costco.
She also can get frustrated at situations quick lyrics
I've had so many good times with her and love her. She can be so sweet to me.
But even when I've vented to some family they were concerned about her character.
My choice now has been to watch for patterns. If I continue to see a pattern of a lack empathy and grace towards others and myself I may be forced to make a decision.
I don't know what to do. I'm crazy about her. There many things I really like about her.
But I feel like I have to be really self aware. Any advice?
Falling asleep while writing this so may need to fix typos in the morning

Hello, good day to everyone! Sana maganda araw ninyo and magiging week.
I got solid circle of friends, kumbaga kaagapay in everything and sinasalo ka. Maayos sila kasama, kausap and parehas sa kalokohan. I am grateful I have them. Some of them have interests, hobbies and perspective like mine. Pero still feels diff. I don't know, I am weird- sometimes they say I am. Di ako picky sa friends pero I would like someone na kasing baliw ko and with the same soul. Talk tayo online or hangout if di tayo same, so what you got a new friend di ba?
I got discord, tg and ig. Di ako marunung gumamit pangsend ko sila ng reels, vids, pics, voice chat and random stuff na nasa loob ng phone ko na ubos na storage.
btw my name is Andrei, nagwowork na po; graveyard shift. Around Paranaque lang and natamabay din Alabang, oh and if kayang magmeetup or pumunta sainyo why not?
I will list the things about me so you can judge me:

• I LOVE DOGS, IF YOU DO, I LOVE YOU NA DIN 

love ko din cats pero natatakot na dahil nakagat twice.

• Gymrat: dati akong athlete and paghupa ng pandemic nag gym ako. Fav workout: Bulgarian squat and lateral raise. •Sports: marunung ng basketball, football, table tennis, billiards. mahilig sa chess and manood ng mma. pero di ako violent ah, I'm like "no enemies, stoic shit type of guy." •Movie Nerd- kung ikaw din di tayo mauubusan ng paguusapan. Fav movies I can think of rn: Interstellar; Night Crawler; A team. 

I'm down if you are for Cinema hangouts, netflix, and also got disney and amazon. Balikan natin mga series like breaking bad or stranger things. Tapusin din natin yung mga franchise ng Marvel, Starwars, Lotr or magbinge ng the office.

 •Anime addict din. nagbabasa ng manga, mas mabilis kase. My top: Vinland, Vagabond, Berserk. •Nagbabasa din ng books like self improvement, philo and history. •Mahilig magluto. •Music? listening to random recommendations. 

pero may playlist ako puro chill music eh, pag gym phonk and rap. Lss sakin ngayon, The weeknd, post malone, travis scott. pero dude/girl di ako maarte sa music. I vibe into anything as long as it sounds good.

•Gaming? minsan na lang eh, wildrift aftershift game? turuan mo ko mag ml, lalaruin ko. if csgo dota or league available ako weekend tas if valo laro mo sige teach me tara. 

Im thinking of things kung bakit tingin nila weird ako -nagtatanong ako ng direksiyon even na alam ko yung daan. -sasakay transpo, bababa sa random place na di ko alam. -kinakausap sarili sa salamin, nasayaw ng random
-fries + kanin (weird daw yun?)
-chill ako with headphones sa rooftop. Tsaa, kape or beer. umaga man o gabi.
-like walks (like why would that be weird, it's peaceful nga eh)
Also, if interested ka or need someone to talk to, I am all ears. Usap tayo, no judgement if kausap mo ko. if you need advise or just someone to vent it out I'm here.

Trigger warning now, I'm talking about suicide and soemthing really close and personal to me. sorry if i make any typos or if any of this doesnt make sense, I'm drunk and high and going through the darkest parts of my brain trying to remind myself why I should live.
I wanted to die for so long, after my father died when I was 9 i didnt really see a point of living. I went through phases and waves of this battle with my depression and suicidal idealations. It grew, it manifested, I healed it, I treated it, I let it settle, I let it take over me. I dont know who needs to hear this, I dont know if anyone wants to hear this. But this is the only thing rn thats keeping me here, keeping me to fight another day, and again It's dark and its fucked up.
Last year, and the years leading up to last year, were some of the hardest years when it comes to dealing with my mental illness. I suffer from ptsd, and psychotic depression (just a facy way of saying I am extremly depressed and it makes me halluctinate but I'm not quite schizophrenic ig.) I also sugger from a nice cocktail of other things. I started goin 3 - 6 days without sleep every month, routinely. During this time I was extremly suiciudal, depressed, no motivation, and hallucinating shadow demons, bugs crawling on me, ghost trying to touch me, voices trying to convinced me nothing was woth anything. The sleep I was getting was filled with nightmares or sleep paralysis. I coulnt get to work on time, I couldnt actually prefrom my job, I felt unsafe driving myself to work. Any communation with friends, family, or my signifcant other felt strained and complicated. It was wearing my down and I felt myself isolating. I had a dream that I killed myself one night, then woke up late for work, with the pills that were supposed to help me fix my mental state now gone. I pretty much tried to kill myself while i was asleep, thinking I was just dreaming, and then failed to do it. Every day was a fight to stay alive, and it still is, god I still want nothing more than to just disapear.
But I dont think I can do it anymore, atleast not rn. Because the end of last year, ended with my best friend and my roomate, and my sisters boyfriend, it ended with his brains on the wall. I took a week off of work without pay, not even explaining to my suprivisor what happened, why i couldnt come in just that I couldnt. I spent that whole week hoping that my sister, hoped I wouldnt find her in that situation too. And god I didnt want her to find me like that. And I spent the next 4 months cleaning the blood out of his room and trying to get the will power and the mental strength to throw away his bloody matress. Because I didnt know that in an invent like this, the police dont just clean up alll the blood stains for you to make sure yo dont have anym more mental truma than you already have. You have to clean it up, or the people that were closest to you. in 72 hours it is deemed toxic and the failure to clean the carpet and walls makes it to where yoru landlord csn threaten to kick you out of your own home. But i got it all cleaned up, I did it so my sister wouldnt have to. But i tried to hied the matress before i knew what to do with it, and i never thought that I could be as scared of the word matress as I am now. Because I didnt know what to do with it, and the longer i held onto it and the longer i tried to hide it the harder and more suspicious it got with trying to just simply throw it away.
So today, i'm drunk, i'm high, i'm depressed, i still have insomnia, I still want to die. .But i can't, because I refuse to put anyone else through that. I dont want my sister to have to see another dead body, I dont want to leave her the literal last person in our family alive. I dont want anyone to stare at my bloody walls and mattress and wonder how theyll clean it up. and man, I always thought, and I still kind of do, wonder if anyone would actually care if I just disapeared tomorrow, but everytime I do, I wonder if he thought the same thing before he put the gun in his mouth. And then I think how I still go to sleep everynight to the sound of my sister crying in the next room, and then dream about finding him in his room. If he really knew how many people miss him, and wouldgive anything to have him back here to see him, if he would have still done that. Could I still do that. FUck

I needa go to bed soon but I'm just gonna rant for a second and hopefully thisll help calm me down again:
I guess for whatever reason these sorts of worries affect me way deeper than most. Which is kinda pathetic I know, but whatever.
I just get so worried nobody's ever gonna be romantically interested in me, ever. I mean I know I don't try like, at all, which doesn't help (god knows I'm not one for getting myself to ever make a damn move), but its not like I've had even a whiff of interest from a single person in my life. Which again, I'm whining, and this is dumb, but it's hard not to end up pondering it seeing how terrible I am about changing shit bout my own life.
There's hardely anything any girl would find intreguing about my in that way, so I know it's my own damn fault and I should prolly try and improve somehow, but just goin about doing.......anythign.... can be hard to change. I don't like change and I don't like puting myself out there in most ways, unless it involves stupid dancing in front of my friends cause they just got to that one epic guitar riff and come on guys it's fuuunnnn.
Anyway, I guess for a really long time I had this idea that if I just did what I knew felt most natural for me, somehow good would come from it. Which was partially true: I did end up, understandable, doing some stuff I really liked. But some things don't come naturally to me, and that ain't no excuse for not trying to be better that dogshit at it, you know.
-Some dude.

Hello, kpopthoughts! Originally this was posted in twice but one of my friends said I should crosspost it here — so here this album review is.
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Intro

To preface the review, I just need to say that this is going to be a very long read. Going through it myself for the fun of it takes around 30 minutes — it's almost 7k words, including lyrical references. So for the best experience, listen to the album beforehand to understand what the hell I was thinking when I wrote this, play the album while reading, and set a good amount of time aside.
And yes, this is 9 months late 😭 I'm not sorry — when I find an album review online it's always around a paragraph per song or even shorter. It makes sense from a journalistic perspective, but I want to do this album justice, hence taking 7 months to write out all my thoughts.
This shit is comprehensive and definitely overanalyzed, especially in Talk that Talk and Trouble. Each song review will compose of my commentary, noting the details I noticed through months of listening, then a conclusion. Also, mild swearing warning, I like implementing a touch of "French" when I'm very emotional about something. Anyway, onto the review!
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Between 1&2 💞

Album Review
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TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT
TELL ME WHAT YOU NEED
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Talk that Talk 🎙

Producers by collapsedone and MRCH
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One of the most perfect TWICE songs.
I think this is one of TWICE’s best-sounding title tracks. Warm modulated synths, a thrumming bass line, distant bells, shimmering synths — the purpose of this song is to be fun and my god is it excellent at it, like, Sana and Chaeyoung are saying knock-knock-knock and beep-beep-beep as if they’re some kind of car. So much fun.
Further along in the verse, Dahyun’s voice sounds so full and smooth with that layered harmony. Tzuyu coming with the Yes or Yes, Push & Pull, and 1 to 10 references — these are 5 years of song references. And Jeongyeon closes the pre-chorus accompanied by a rising synth to drop into chorus one. Jeongyeon slays pre-choruses.
The drums accelerate, the synths start blasting, and Jihyo opens to that party of a chorus with her godly vocals,
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Tell me what you want
Tell me what you need
A to Z da malhaebwa
But shijageun ireoke have
Talk that Talk ttak han madi
Talk that Talk L-O-V-E
deullyeojweo ooh
Now now now now now yeah~

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During Sana's Talk that Talk~ lines there’s this gentle ascending synth bell that rings with the descending melody and it sounds absolutely gorgeous. And the choreography during that part of the chorus is so so so so fun: the talking hands bit, spelling L-O-V-E, concluding with the deullyeojweo ooh! Oh my Jihyo the deullyeojweo ooh…
Have I mentioned this song is fun?
Speeding through verse 2; Chaeyoung’s part with the cat ears popping in the music video is adorable; Momo her stretching her arms out looks so damn cool; and Dahyun with her replay part sounds so lovely — although I think it sonically sounds a touch random, it makes sense thematically.
And now for this pre-chorus. Mina and Jihyo leading into it sound great BUT JEONGYEON… Now, she is my ult bias, and this pre-chorus sounds almost identical to the first one, but the way she holds that final note, inflecting and holding that now~ for one more beat before the chorus drops sounds so perfect — the song teeters on a cliff edge. Jeongyeon slays pre-choruses.
Dropping into the second chorus and man the way Nayeon delivers it just hits different. She has this indescribable “pop” voice (I promise this wasn't on purpose) that shouts out loud that this is THE chorus. This is especially apparent in how both lead their choruses where Jihyo starts at 120% power while Nayeon waits until [Tell me] WHAT YOU WANT to full-send it. The production also helps with this effect, cutting out during what you to emphasize Nayeon's voice before crashing back down, double the pause at Jihyo's intro.
Another deullyeojweo ooh! Nayeon travels to Narnia, and Mina the engineer strikes again in this heavenly, underwater-esque bridge,
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The simple words “I love you”
That’s all I wanna hear
Without hesitation, I’ll go up to you
I’ll make it simple
And just tell you I love you

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The word “love” is said for the first time in the song. There’s a funky keyboard instrument behind Chaeyoung’s part. Jihyo, Chaeyoung, and Nayeon take the initiative in their lyrics, professing their love before closing the bridge.
And now for the pièce-de-résistance: this final double chorus is exceptional — 40 seconds of crack-laced euphoria; Jihyo switches up the chorus and the choreo, Dahyun chimes in with her fluttery Talk that Talk, Momo comes out of nowhere with oh yeah it sounds so good! — you’re damn right it does, and this is where the song SOARS.
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han beon deo~ haejweo
geurae banggeum geu mal~

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Nayeon outright shouts Tell me what you need and then Jeongyeon sings the above lines in such an ethereal, warm way where the first line ascends while the second descends, causing a lull in the song before the finale with Tzuyu and Nayeon, finishing off the song with the final deullyeojweo ooh!
What a party. What a song.
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THE GOOD

• The synths of all time
• The chimes during Talk-that-talk~
• Jeongyeon’s pre-chorus going into Nayeon’s chorus
• Rich harmonies and fun ad-libs
• The entirety of that magical final chorus and outro

Needs Work

• The opening hook (Tell me what you want) and accompanying choreography could be “catchier”

Core Memory

• Singing (and dancing) my heart out when this song played at a K-pop club

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Lyrics and theme-wise, if this were to have been TWICE’s last comeback, they’ve once again built upon the theme they've been doing since debut: a Bildungsroman, a coming-of-age story.
This song’s chorus is honest yet simple; it asks the listener, in this case, the other half of the relationship, to be more upfront and open with their love (never be scared of love), that before the relationship can continue and flourish, there has to be a foundation and commitment of love between each other.
TWICE debuted with a song about making your crush go ooh ahh. Years later, they started pondering What is Love? and imagining their crush responding with Yes when asking them out — and now concluding with the phrase Talk that Talk, [Talk that] L-O-V-E, being upfront with the relationship, wishing their partner to also be happy, to commit to them, to feel the love that they want to impart on them. From gawking like ooh-ahh to talking out your shared love like adults — to having a true relationship between (one and) two.
And can I just say before finishing off Talk that Talk's review that this is such a fun and repeatable song with many little intricacies hidden in the nonet’s vocals and the song's production. This is the third draft I’m writing about Talk that Talk and its original word count pretty much quadrupled.
Harkening back to TWICE’s roots by combining mature thinking with youthful character, an incredible ending to look forward to, and just simply being a club-banger that’s easy to listen to, TTT is an easy 10/10.
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WATCH ME GO WATCH ME GO
RULE THE WORLD
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Queen of Hearts 👑

Produced by LDN Noise
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If there was one B-side to promote in a live clip, this was a solid choice.
Helmed by LDN Noise going headlong into the Western boy-group rock-band aesthetic, Queen of Hearts is a boom-boom-clap song through and through. The drums are very prominent throughout the song, only giving room to riffs of electric guitar in the chorus to drive and continue the momentum of the music.
And speaking of the chorus, vocal line each got a chorus to flex and they did not fuck around,
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You ain’t ready for it
Watch me go~ watch me go~
Rule the world
Know you never doubted baby
I’mma go run the whole universe~

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Cymbals crashing, drums booming, and 3MIX belting all just so sound so good.
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Baby I was born to rule~~
Yeah I’m the Queen, I’m the Queen
And it’s all because of you~~
That I’m the Queen of Hearts

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These long, held-out notes performed by Jihyo and Nayeon are simply exquisite. Along with the shredding guitar, the drum set coming in full, and the interludes by Dahyun, Momo, and Chaeyoung, this is the part of the song that always, always, gives me goosebumps — it sounds so visceral, so energetic, so fun, so triumphant. Boom-boom-clap songs can be hit or miss with people, but there's no denying the payoff from the first part of the chorus to the second part is worth the wait.
The theme of the song so far has been kind of spread around the song. The chorus alludes to it with the line And it’s all because of you. But Mina shows more sides of it in the second verse, especially with the phrase,
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And now that I’m surrounded by all my girls
We be shining bright like diamonds and pearls

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It sounds really lovely — in a very cheesy and affectionate kind of way, as it rightfully should — the song is about the girls and their fans. But the bridge is where the song indeed shows its colours
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Screaming out my name
See it in the stage lights
Feel so lucky just to have ya
Cause I know deep down I was meant for something bigger! Greater!
I know you’re seeing what I see
Yeah I’ll be everything you need
I know I’m gonna walk the walk
And talk the talk to be~ [the Queen of Hearts]

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This is a song CONCEIVED TO BE PERFORMED FOR THE FANS. It’s meant to be loud. It’s meant to be unapologetic. It’s meant to be sappy. And it’s all the more wonderful for it.
This is the TWICEiest shit ever.
Like Talk that Talk, Queen of Hearts also has a killer closer. The production already started to grow from the bridge, but now the guitarist finally went Super Saiyan and instead of supporting the drums, they both take the centre stage in tandem.
Then finally, the closing moments of the song even manage to squeeze in some more sappiness.
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So thank you for the memories
You’re all the ones who made me~
So thank you for the memories
That I’m the Queen of Hearts

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I still can’t believe that this banger is a FAN SONG out of all things. Truly, the TWICEiest shit ever.
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THE GOOD

• Adorable fucking lyrics
• Unrelenting, roaring chorus
• English and vocal flex
• Intoxicating guitar riffs

Needs Work

• Chaeyoung rapping in English in their Korean songs somehow slaps harder than her English rapping in their English songs, nonetheless, in QoH, it fits with the sound of the song

Core Memory

• Walking home from a K-pop festival with this song playing, felt like a Queen of Hearts

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I love these types of rock songs with how grunge and head-bang-able they are, there is just a certain nostalgic and cheesy quality to them that feels so cozy. I don’t love putting them on repeat, because in this case, I do believe there is such a thing as too much of a good thing. Perhaps more shredding, maybe a guitar solo to rock out to, or an accompaniment(!) of ad-libs from 3MIX to support Jihyo’s final chorus? A ONCE can dream of a truly bombastic rock song from TWICE. But then again that distracts from the core of what this song is: a fan song disguised as a rock song.
Queen of Hearts has so much sweetness in its lyrics and message that it's overflowing. The drums, guitar, and vocals can be as loud and intricate as they can, but the theme of this song is what makes it special from TWICE’s other rock songs — it’s a 9/10 for me.
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I WANNA WANNA WANNA
TAKE YOU TO THE BASICS
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Basics 🌈

Lyrics by Chaeyoung
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Quite possibly the jammiest (pun intended) song of the album.
A song written by the Strawberry Princess herself — an event similar in frequency to other artists' releases with her last song being 2020’s silky Handle It — Basics first starts with an understated and dreamy delivery. After the first stanza, however, a bouncy Miami bass line emerges, revealing the true nature of the song: this is a classic summer bop! Especially in the first rap,
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dareun aedeulgwaneun dalla
Ain’t beggin’ for love
nappeun geon anijana ige naraseo
eodiro twilji molla
Like rainbow bubble gum
geureoni nal kkwak butjabadweo

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Syllables are pronounced in a relaxed nature, bars often starting with an "ah" sound, flirty lines in English — this rap features a production full of pop with R&B flourishes and, in my opinion, this is Chaeyoung’s bag. Also, the line rainbow bubblegum is so adorable and so Chaeyoung.
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I wanna wanna wanna take it to the Basics
da weonhae weonhae weonhae? seodureuji ma Baby
ppeonhae ppeonhae malhae mweohae da al tende
Ah yeah ah yeah ah yeah ah yeah

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That chorus is pure pop with a Miami bass backing; you better be bopping your head to the melody, if not booty poppin' to the bassline. Chaeyoung loves rhyming in the first half of the chorus to enhance its catchiness and it's damn incredible: wanna, weonhae, and ppeonhae all create these imperfect rhymes that continue momentum without feeling repetitive.
After the very Boy With Luv-sounding ah yeah ah yeah, ah yeah ah yeah comes an 8-bar split half and half between Chaeyoung and Momo. Coming from the chorus, the production completely cuts out for the first 2 bars. This adds tension; the song yearns to have that bass beat thumping again and all we have in the audio space in those 2 bars is Chaeyoung spittin' and she delivered.
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taneun deut tteugeoun samak wie
yeppeuge pieonan jangmi gata
joshimseure naege dagaol ttae
nado moreuge jjilleobeoril tende

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Translating to:
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Above the hot, burning desert
It’s like a rose that bloomed beautifully
When you come to me slowly
I will prick you unconsciously

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The rap feels slick, effortless, and confident. Her diction remains sharp when enunciating each syllable but she doesn’t let the flow of her rap waver or build as her 4 bars go by, it’s just smooth consistency throughout. Even the lyrics possess an aura of laid-back collectedness that is just so her. The things Chaeyoung can do when given her pen.
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THE GOOD

• That sweet summer vibe of a chorus
• The spaceship post-chorus is killer
• Chaeyoung devoured this song
• Sure-footed, confident lyrics

Needs Work

• Perhaps an alteration of that ah yeah ah yeah line
• The way Jihyo did her pre-chorus line is good, but Mina’s is great

Core Memory

• After donating my hair, walking down the rainbow-coloured areas of downtown Toronto with this song playing was very… fitting

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This song is summer bliss distilled into 2:56. It’s dreamy, the raps are satisfying, and the ending is charming. I will say that although the second half of the song adds the stunning spaceship post-choruses and a floaty bridge with an incredible drumbeat drop into the final chorus, the raps of the song make it feel a bit front-loaded. And in an album stacked with awesome finishers, it feels more apparent.
With that said, it’s an 8/10 bop for me. This song is so easy to put on and it feels exactly what Chaeyoung would make if given the reins to produce a pop song all on her own. The lyrics are nonchalant but full of conviction, the wordplay is intricate, and the production playful but not too bombastic — it's just a nice vibe. Songs like Basics are the standard for good, simple, repeatable pop music and I’m happy that Chaeyoung got to test her pen in this genre.
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BABY WE’RE IN
TROUBLE TROUBLE
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Trouble 💃

Lyrics, vocal direction, and background vocals by Jihyo
Produced by Jihyo and earattack
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One of the most enjoyable songs I’ve heard in a while.
There is an underlying tension within the first 4 bars of the song, Jihyo and Nayeon confidently open it to a nondescript array of synths and then the stanza ends, Momo announces Let’s go, the beat drops and it hits you: this is a club song.
Dahyun's relaxed delivery contrasting with Jeongyeon's staccato flow, the wobbly synth beat mixed with a sprinkle of house piano, Sana dramatically slowing down the song only for Tzuyu to build it back up until the chorus drops,
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• Nayeon opens it using a breathy tone, with vocal chops serving as harmonies
• The blooming of the house piano takes centre stage and the song ascends into euphoria
• A random drum roll capped off by a cymbal crash
• Jeongyeon’s growling pronunciation of the word Trouble
• Chaeyoung slyly admitting I like this Trouble
• The entirety of Tzuyu’s tro~oh~oh~ouble yeah~
• Sana using her deep voice for the na~na~na~na
• Jihyo leading the vocals during the synchronized T W I C E chant

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This chorus is perfect. Toronto’s residential market needs this song injected into its veins because god damn this song has SO much house in it. And then, ANOTHER KILLING PART: this rap fucking slaps.
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gamchweo bwatja geugeon Fake
ppajin hamjeongeun Sweet cake

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During the first 2 bars, Chaeyoung is keeping it calm because that trip of a chorus just ended and the song needs a breather, but I don't think anyone expected her to SNAP this hard afterwards:
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You cannot resist this
Cannot miss this, such a bliss
Ima put it down down
Oh yeah, better kiss kiss

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Below is the structure of her this portion of the rap, I’m not that well versed in this technical aspect of music theory but I digress, this is all in the span of around 5 seconds where it’s:
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Triplet-triplet
Quadruplet-triplet
Quadruplet-doublet
Doublet-quadruplet

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Now, 25/5 = 5 syllables per second isn’t groundbreaking, but goddamn it these 2 bars sound so nice — if there is one part in this album that I always repeat, it’s this. The addition of that first quadruplet for cannot miss this in the midst of the triplets sticks out and accelerates the flow of the rap while the following doublets and quadruplets destabilize and slow the rap down as the verse closes. And can I just point out:
THE MAIN VOCALIST WROTE, DIRECTED, AND COMPOSED THIS SONG ‼
Chaeyoung of course delivered the fuck out of her verse but THIS is what you get when you have a member not only write the words they’re saying but also the melody and flow with which they sing it, when that member knows the others so well that when they write a song they know how to make the group exceed. This is what you get when the artists you stan love doing artist shit.
And. AND. That's not all — with how much I mentioned I love a good outro to close a song, this outro slaps as well:
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Woo wee woo wee woo
I like this Trouble be-be
Woo wee woo wee woo
I like this Trouble bay-be
Woo wee woo wee woo
I like this Trouble bay-beh
Woo wee woo wee woo
I like this Trou-ble

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Like, come on, Nayeon’s imitating a police siren for crying out loud. And this is all after her ad-libs in the final post-chorus; after the pianist going full tilt and playing that piano as if it was their last chance to ever play; after that final T W I C E chant by all the members come these blissful 20 seconds at the very end. What a song.
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THE GOOD

• The theme of relishing in an uncontrolled love
• Sana and Mina’s melody in the pre-chorus
• Whole neighbourhoods full of house
• You cannot resist this, cannot miss this, such a bliss
• Wees and woos

Needs Work

• Mina’s line of falling down, falling down, falling down low in verse 2 feels a bit too abrupt of a change

Core Memory

• While writing Trouble's review I had this song on repeat for my whole subway commute and I must've been so distracting, just head-bopping and being so invested in my enjoyment

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Need I say more, easy 9/10. The only reason I place Talk that Talk above Trouble is because of what that song represents but besides that, this is one of the best “international” sounds they’ve put out. Actually, I haven’t listened to Eyes wide open in a while but this song is up there with one of the most sonically pleasing pieces of work they’ve done.
Clubbing TWICE has always been a thing since TT was birthed in 2016, and has been a staple of their discography since 2019’s Fancy You and Feel Special mini albums, but Trouble unapologetically dives into and fits the house genre so well you’d think that this is TWICE’s bread and butter sound.
Trouble is Jihyo’s magnum opus. What a song.
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BRAVE BRAVE BRAVE
FOR YOU
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Brave 💖

Produced by Slow Rabbit
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I first thought this was just a good song, then I read the lyrics.
Gentle guitar plucks, shimmering synths, a distant keyboard in the right ear, in the left a glockenspiel, the melodic oohs from the members — this song is PRETTY.
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The night that was unusually dark
Above this terrifying world, felt so lonely
The world has grown in the time of wandering
So hard to breathe

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Mina and Chaeyoung open the song with how they feel lonely, that it's hard to breathe and now suddenly the song feels bittersweet — I was not expecting the song to become this emotional. Brave describes a situation where the singer is in a darker place in life and it isn't until another person gives them hope by calling them Brave that they find the drive to keep going.
Once the chorus hits, the melodies pick up, more guitars get added — there’s even an electric guitar hidden in the mix somewhere, and the song drops the emotional front to reveal a mid-tempo pop song to dance to while crying in the club. The song as a whole still carries this melancholy feeling, but now with the added support of the chorus, acting as a light amongst the gloom.
Continuing on in the second verse there's this gorgeous, well-placed break in the song that just lets it settle after that chorus. Only a seasoned producer would risk this much empty space in a song and Slow Rabbit went to fill those shoes.
Back to the chorus, I'll take this moment to once again commend Slow Rabbit with the mixing of the song, because 4MIX undoubtedly sounds good in the chorus, and the interludes from Dahyun, Chaeyoung, and Mina also sound really good, but the clear highlight of the choruses are these lines:
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Oh na na na neon nal naige hae
On and on and on
Brave Brave Brave for ya
Oh na na na neon nal sum shwige hae
On and on and on oh trust me babe

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Momo, Sana, and Tzuyu form this beautiful, surprisingly catchy, second half of the chorus accompanied by a guitar drop. It should not turn out this well with how conflicting the "na"s are with the guitar melody but it creates this gentle bopping ebb and flow that feels so lush and mellow.
Diving into the bridge reveals that the listener of the song is revealed not only capable of supporting the singer through direct words but also through their thoughts and dreams. As can be discerned, this can be a song interpreted to be about ONCEs, about how they push TWICE to be their best selves despite the breathless hardships they face. It's a very sweet and touching song.
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THE GOOD

• Special lyrics
• Pleasant sound to vibe out to
• That gentle break after the first chorus
• 3MIX poppin' off at the end
• Just very pretty vocals throughout

Needs Work

• Potentially hard to comprehend without translating the Korean lyrics

Core Memory

• Form of Therapy’s life motto revolves around the word “brave” — I don’t know where I got that from, but I remembered it right before watching his album reaction (yes, this is very random)

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I’m actually spoiled with the TWICE members’ easy-to-understand songwriting that when a song like this pops up where it's not written by a member and the thematic bits are mostly in Korean, I tend to put it aside in favour of the other songs on the album. And, especially for a song focusing on a theme like this where the English phrases don’t do the Korean lyrics enough justice, it does place a bit of a barrier on the listening experience, dropping it down to a 7/10 from an 8/10.
With that anecdote out of the way, this song is just such a vibe, man. I know that sounds super hippy to say but Brave is so mellow and smooth that I can’t help but sway a little when that chorus hits. And then I remember what the lyrics say and I tear up a bit on the inside. This song is so pure, raw, and full of heart — we need more songs like these where they just reminisce about life while putting up an upbeat front. Don't mind me just crying while dancing the night away.
With that said, this isn't the first time this theme has been sung by TWICE either, they've long trodden this path of supportive, confiding, up-lifting songs with Young & Wild, Rainbow, Queen, Go Hard, Depend on You, even this album's Queen of Hearts, and, of course, Feel Special. Brave just adds another on top of an already stacked lineup, unique with its mellow somberness.
Also now feels like a good time to get into my rating system:

• 7/10s are songs are ones that are simply good throughout or great songs with apparent flaws
• 8/10s are great songs with distinct killing parts
• 9/10s are borderline perfect songs where I sometimes can't comprehend how great they are
• And 10/10s are the best of an artist's discography, songs that encapsulate their ethos perfectly or expand upon them in a meaningful way

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I SEE THE LIES
ON THE TIP OF YOUR TONGUE
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Gone 💨

Lyrics by Dahyun
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Who the fuck pissed off Dubu this time??
It’s getting quite rare to see TWICE pull off brand new sounds because, with now 190 original songs under their belt as of this review, they’ve done so many genres and sub-genres varying from hyper pop, to bossa nova, to whatever 2020’s Go Hard is. So it’s surprising to see they’ve still got tricks up their sleeves and Gone is one of them.
The song starts with strings swinging back and forth and vocal chops dancing from ear to ear, teasing what’s yet to come. Jihyo enters the song with a whisper and the song sets its pace. A stagnant drum pad moves the song along and typical song progression would have Mina continue the build, but — it doesn’t. The song simmers, adding a hint of high hat to the pot. And then Sana and Tzuyu come on and surely the buildup must boil over right?
Silence, until…
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I see the LIES on the top of your tongue

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The strings emerge again on full blast, the simmer rolls to a boil, and the anger of the song is revealed,
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All the fate I had towards you
Fades like a fog, Gone, Gone
Your flipping mind of doing this and that
I’m tired of it, it’s meaningless
In the beginning, it was hard to believe
With that, hatred increases

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The singer is so scorned and burned from this relationship that they reminisce about all the effort they’ve put in since the beginning, but their “partner” is so unconcerned that they’ve just about had enough of the relationship altogether.
This has been Dahyun’s thing since 2020’s Bring It Back, 2021’s Cruel, 2022’s That’s all I’m saying, and even 2023's Don't Blame It On Me — emotionally charged breakup songs that make you feel as if she’s survived through a dozen bad relationships. Dispatch, do try to do your job better.
Another highlight of the song is the post-chorus going into the bridge. This segment reiterates the structure from the first post-chorus — a barrage of drums supported by the rhythmic strumming of a bass guitar along with a consistent synth filling out the soundscape. But this time, it’s Dahyun and Chaeyoung on the rap:
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I can’t stand it anymore
My patience, invisible
I can’t find it, it’s all Gone
Even if I try to turn back, it’s too late
There’s no use anymore
It has left, it’s long Gone
You, with flipping mind, you are out
I know that you know what I’m talking about
Nothing you could say that could turn this around
I’m Gone

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Building upon the disrespected theme of the song, Dahyun notes that she’s finally had enough with Chaeyoung adding that there’s no point salvaging what love was once there. Momo and Dahyun round it off by telling the listener that there’s no point trying to reason with them or playing naive, they fucked up and there’s no coming back.
Can I just say, it's a bit of a shame that Chaeyoung’s rapping popped off in this album while Dahyun only has this one verse that she shares with Chaeyoung, but it just sounds so good how Dahyun eases in after the chorus with her light rapping tone transitioning into her singing. She even holds the Gone in a little crescendo for some added pizzazz.
And, there’s no way I’m not going to talk about Momo’s vocals in this bridge. Damned if she only got 1 line to use it in, her lower register is incredible. She sounds so smooth singing in this tone. All of TWICE do in particular and there is nary a weak vocal performance in this album.
To close the song off, a wash of synths gets to have their shine in the spotlight, showered with Nayeon’s belting, signifying the dramatic and drawn-out conclusion of this partnership.
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THE GOOD

• They’ve still got their surprises
• Thundering chorus
• 2nd rap and bridge combo
• A bitter, crumbling relationship theme

Needs Work

• I’m not a huge fan of the mixing during the first post-chorus, where Momo's vocals were fighting with the production, which is disappointing because Momo is capable of an insane flow
• The post-chorus in general, specifically the first one, can be a bit tiring on repeat listens

Core Memory

• Actually, I think this song sounds like a mix between GOT7's Not By The Moon, BLACKPINK’s Love To Hate Me, and Dahyun’s Bring It Back. I don’t know where I got this thought came from, but it stuck

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Going back to that point about the first post-chorus as a whole; songs that have the production continue unchanged into the post-chorus/2nd verse are very hit or miss for me — see TWICE's Don't Call Me Again for an overbearing example. The post-chorus going into the bridge contrasts Dahyun’s light tone nicely with the hard-hitting production, continuing the energy until it slowly fades into silence at the end of the bridge.
Back to the song as a whole, as much as TWICE has been experimenting with their sound for the past 4 years now, I’m happy they’re still finding new ways to explore what they’re capable of. And for that alone, even though I’m not a big fan of songs like these where they rely on sounding “big”, Dahyun’s lyricism and the thrill I receive every time I indulge myself in this song elevates it to an 8/10. Keep on breaking hearts, Dubu.
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INVINCIBLE
SUPERHEROES
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When We Were Kids 🧸

Lyrics by Dahyun
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Press play to reminisce, pull up lyrics to cry.
This song is so beautiful. I’m totally not writing this song review, crying on the bus reminiscing about my childhood, while just having turned 21. I don’t know if these are happy or sad tears but this song is so beautiful either way.
Warm synths, muted piano, a gentle high hat, the younger members starting off the song — this has to be up there for one of the softest TWICE songs ever. And as it should, it’s one of the TWICEiest songs ever. And then Nayeon comes in:
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Invincible superheroes, we wanted to be adults
To the higher, clearer world

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The chords start swelling, the high hat keeps pace, and the harmonies pour in.
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Remember When We Were Kids
When We Were Kids, we didn’t know
If we could go back
I will love it even more
Remember When We Were Kids

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Jihyo takes up the second half of the chorus as it drops, trading the strings for an almost R&B synth production — if choir R&B takes off, this song started it. The song relishes in this cacophony of warm sounds until returning to its sparse and peaceful verses.
This time, the hints of piano are louder, little twinkling synths begin to shimmer, the drum buildup comes and Jeongyeon drives the song straight into the chorus. No time for the strings to build like in Nayeon’s — this song loves its chorus so much.
And I'll just take this time to appreciate the amount and range of Jeongyeon vocals in this album. Her voice is so textured, stable, and projected — but also more tender and soft compared to the more pronounced tones of Nayeon and Jihyo.
The bridge comes in, repeating the phrase:
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I wish that I could meet
Could meet the younger me

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Giving the song time to rest, before building back up to the last chorus — this time led by Jihyo, completing the 3MIX trifecta. And interestingly enough, Chaeyoung follows up in the second half of the chorus, rather than another member of the vocal line. She really did pop off in this album.
As the last chorus begins to close, the percussion at its strongest, the harmonies on blast, the background vocals cranked up to their Sunday best, is the song going to end? Of course not! This is an album full of banger endings as if the songs don’t want to end, and When We Were Kids being the album closer very much indulges in that feeling.
After a brief refrain, accented by Nayeon’s high note with a touch of vibrato, the song almost dives back into a fourth chorus. Nayeon and Jeongyeon harmonize — a rare and heavenly moment. And the song repeats the bridge, reiterating that they want to meet their younger selves, this time with the lush chorus production before closing with silence, a few piano notes, and Tzuyu singing the last line of the song:
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Oh, we were kids

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Reflection, acceptance, hope. What a song.
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THE GOOD

• Heavenly vocals throughout
• Relatable, heartfelt lyrics
• Euphoric chorus
• Great closer to the album

Needs Work

• Refrain after the last chorus, Back When We Were Kids, could’ve been executed better

Core Memory

• For an album titled Between 1&2, I don’t think anything hits harder than finishing the song reviews, with this song in particular, during your 21st birthday

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I wrote the first part of this review in November 2022. Then university, life, and other things got in the way of my headspace for me to feel confident about wrapping all of this up. In a way, I felt like I just didn’t want this review to end because of the joy that writing gives me — I didn’t want the happiness to end. And then it hit me, after watching a YouTuber rank animated movies and them placing Spirited Away at the top and explaining 'why' reminded me of just how important growing up is, and by extension this song.
This theme is important for both the rookie TWICE members in 2015 and the teenagers who would follow their journey and grow up with them, facing life’s obstacles along the way. Hardships that used to only involve family, crushes, and social media, evolve into work, commitments and all the struggles that adult life brings. Being a kid and enjoying the simple things in life is one of the most sought-after moments we want to relive because we took growing up for granted. The only thing we can do now is look back on ourselves with fondness and rose-tinted lenses.
TWICE’s original meaning was to resonate with people through their senses and their hearts. That was during their debut, and I think it still holds up today. In my opinion, touching people through their emotions is what TWICE does best and makes them one of K-pop’s all-time greats. It was never about having the best numbers — it was about being the best idols. And to think that this journey of maturation and growth would occur from 2015 all the way to this song, being a fitting nod to TWICE’s 7th anniversary, I don’t think anyone at the company nor the group would ever imagine that they would get this far. It’s these nine women or none — 9/10.
This song honestly deserves a 10/10 with how much I noticed other people reminiscing their childhoods after I heard this song, it is such a widely-relatable message, but I am determined to limit myself to one 10/10 song per album and if I were to pick between TTT and WWWK, I'd give it to the one's that's more repeatable — Talk that Talk just has this electric energy about it.
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Epilogue

And finally here is the end. If you made it in one sitting then I commend you, because I could not write this mess in one sitting. As alluded to, I started writing this album review sometime in October, after a series of edits the first draft was finished in March, and now here's the final draft in June.
I love this album. It got me through some important parts of my life, both good and bad, and it's just a wonderful listen throughout. Reliving this album again before finally completing the review has been an exciting journey. Brave hit me harder this time, after being overshadowed by the other gems of this album, and WWWK finally got me to tear up and not just be emotionally satisfied.
I feel like there's something for everyone on this album. From the exhilarating thrills of TTT to the anthemic euphoria of QoH, the clubbing dichotomy of Trouble and Brave to the blissful glee of Basics, and the sweet reminiscence of WWWK to the thundering anger that is Gone. Like Eyes wide open, I liken Between 1&2 to a pop music taste platter — there's such an eclectic mix of pop music in this album that there's bound to be a song that someone will love, like, and dislike.
Is this album perfect? I don't think so, but it's close — it was certainly my 2022 AOTY. Was this review biased? Absolutely. I've been a fan since 2019 and with the themes in this album, I also feel like it was biased towards me as a ONCE. And how would I rank the album in TWICE's catalogue? It's honestly at the top, at least with EPs — I also felt that way towards Feel Special but then this album was birthed so I'm excited for TWICE's future.
Ready To Be was also a stunning album and Eyes wide open frankly also deserved the spotlight that Formula of Love received so I might hit those next but no promises; this album took long enough to bake.
As for the performances, I've only seen Twitter clips (no fancams to not spoil myself) and I am SO EXCITED to finally see them in July. QoH was as glorious as expected, Brave was a delightful surprise, and WWWK, while not being the concert closer everyone expected it to be, paired up nicely with Crazy Stupid Love. And of course the bombastic addition of the dance break to TTT. But, this is not a concert review, and here is where this album review ends.
Feel free to comment with any thoughts regarding the album, other TWICE albums, and any suggestions for my writing in general. Congrats again on making it this far!
God, I love this album.

Please feel free to make this into a song just make sure to say I made the lyrics and send it to me
Verse 1: Come with the blitz its a sack like potato My language is colorful like play dough Crack your bones take you to the ER like ritz Just heating up I’m a need some oven mits Im so cool like a breeze Leave you with a cold, now you sneeze 3 for 3 thats a hat trick, im a star like patrick Dont need a ghost writer, flaming head I’m the anti hero like ghost rider Killing this beat my patience is running thin like wheat Light the wick no John in New York like a yankee candle Don’t get to close got the thorns like a rose bush watch the bramble I’m a master with my sword, found the missing link it’s too easy I’m getting bored Agent 47 call me hit man, bald head, barcode imma kill you quick man
Chorus: it’s the world of assassination.get things done quick no procrastinatin Don’t get compromised when you poppin guys My target down I pick up my crown Killer for for hire don’t get caught the consequences are dire
Verse 2: I’m a silent assassin, end your career you collapsin I don’t leave a trace I’m blasting off like the US in the space race I’m the bomb call me tsar bomba. Cooking beans no garbonza Leave you In a coffin,I’m spitting poison like the Pokémon koffing You my prey I’m an alligator. You Nolan Cassidy I’m the fumigator I’m the grim reiper like Tobias. in Dubai killing Carl Ingram on top of the world I’m the highest I’m agent 47 kill my target escape engine revvin
Chorus: It’s the world of assassination.get things done quick no procrastinatin Don’t get compromised when you poppin guys My target down I pick up my crown Killer for for hire don’t get caught the consequences are dire Agent 47 kill ya quick man you know I’m the hitman

The gods fear me.
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Return of the Gangsta Thanksta
What if I just posted OutKast lyrics for my Part Three. KENTA’s back in the summer of 2016, and he vows to make it the Summer of KENTA because Fuck CM Punk. He wants his IC Title back, so we see him instantly target the fuckerman upon return, chasing him for a month straight. Legitimately. For a month of television, we see KENTA just sprinting after the afraid Miz. Miz has a match? KENTA’s chasing him out of it and costing him a countout loss. Miz has a backstage interview? KENTA’s right there to chase him away. Miz is asleep? Fuck that. KENTA’s there to mess it up because he wants the white belt back. During all of this, Dolph Ziggler has been trying to rekindle his career for the twelfth time since he lost the World Heavyweight Championship, but his attempts to spark a feud with the Miz seem to constantly be dashed by the Hero of Pain. With all this chaos surrounding the scene, the powers that be set up a triple threat for the gold at Battleground, but unfortunately Miz is able to sneak away a dirty pin on Ziggler following a KENTA G2S to keep the Black Sun away from his gold for just a little while longer.
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SummerSlam ‘16
The rage tantrum seen thrown by KENTA afterwards is unrivaled. Nobody is safe, everybody catches it, but despite all of this it doesn’t seem like KENTA is likely to be given an instant rematch for the gold. His anger-driven antics are used as a prime reason by SmackDown General Manager Daniel Bryan as a reason not to draft the international sensation to the blue brand, though there are a multitude of reasons that could’ve led to that decision. Once this all becomes apparent, KENTA switches his strategy up, choosing to instead chase after the biggest fight he can get. A backstage interview weeks away from SummerSlam sees KENTA proudly say the name he wants, and boy is it the biggest fish. “BROCK LESNAR!” The Beast Incarnate answers KENTA’s challenge with ease, and a clash between these two unstoppable forces is set for the big summer show.
This match is a true test of KENTA’s merit, as he’s able to survive the offensive onslaught put on him by the Streak-ender and dish out some stiff strikes of his own as well. Lesnar hasn’t been hit this hard since Overeem, and once he gets touched, there’s a genuine level of fear in his eyes. He knows KENTA’s a true threat, and he does everything he can to put him away, before he’s able to eventually interrupt a striking barrage with a succinct F-5 that should wrap things up here… ONE… TWO… THRE-NOOOO!!! KENTA KICKS OUT OF THE F-5, STAYING IN THIS MATCH! If one doesn’t work, two should get the job done, but as he attempts the second one, KENTA is able to spin out and dash off the ropes for the Busaiku Knee onto Lesnar, though the Beast is able to survive as well. Throughout the entire match, KENTA constantly attempts to heave Lesnar up onto his shoulders for the G2S, but Lesnar’s sheer size weighs heavily on that now-surgically repaired shoulder of KENTA, and when he fails one too many times we see Lesnar swoop down and trap KENTA in a Kimura. He tries and tries to survive, fighting like his life depends on it, but after surviving the hold for a hell of a lot longer than he should’ve, HE’S EVENTUALLY FORCED TO TAP! Heartbreaking for KENTA. A second straight failure for the Hero of Pain upon return, did he return too soon?
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Post-SummerSlam ‘16
Heading out of SummerSlam, we see KENTA compete on Raw for a few weeks after the show, handily defeating talent such as Curtis Axel, jobless Heath Slater, and Titus O’Neil merely with one good shoulder alone. After each match we see him fight away ringside doctors who attempt to ail his pained shoulder, but eventually we see backstage doctors refuse to clear him at all, sending him right back onto the dreaded injured list. Is this all that KENTA’s body will alow at this age? Do we think it’s time to hang up the boots? Spite is one hell of a motivator, and KENTA proves exactly that on…
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SmackDown After WrestleMania
Bang. The Miz thought shit was sweet when he got drafted to an opposing brand after Battleground, but a surprise entrant in a #1 contendership battle royal proves otherwise. Bitches and sluts, it’s KENTA baby. He runs in, fully recovered, and wins the whole damn thing, earning a shot at Miz’s IC Title THAT HE WANTS ON THE SAME NIGHT! And by god, KENTA does exactly that, beating Miz senseless for mere minutes before three back to back to back G2S’s end things for the couple, reuniting KENTA with his Intercontinental Championship once and for all. Return of the Gangsta Thanksta

Soon I won't be 26 anymore, so, corny as it may be, I've been listening to Wish and had that particular song in mind a little more than usual (edit: recognize the absurd humor in writing a long, corny post from the starting point of a song with the lyric “fist fuck”). Thankful to say that for a while now I've found that many NIN lyrics aren't directly relevant to my improved mentality of the past couple years or however long (the healthiest/best relationship that I've ever had the fortune of being in, returning to university, reducing substance use as a coping mechanism, and starting to assert boundaries despite the intrinsic discomfort of doing so are all I will provide here for personal elaboration on that, and of course many/most of those factors, especially the former two there, are not the end-all be-all of "healthier living" or whatever for everyone, they just have happened to help in my case). Still far from perfect, and to be fair, I'm also thankful that there are a good few lyrics to which I've never fully related, as much as the music/"vibe" still resonates and perhaps always will, and that's okay.
First got into this music almost a decade ago now when I had an "existential crisis"/first severe depressive episode, and both then and numerous times thereafter, this music has saved my life (again, maybe corny/trite, but hardly an exaggeration if at all), recognizing I'm not alone in thinking and feeling certain ways, and that such dark states of mind can be alchemized into art that connects with others struggling to help them persevere. Even all that aside, it is brilliant music in so many ways, cathartic and enjoyable, even if it sometimes takes a few (or more than a few) listens to fully appreciate what's going on in a given song (case in point at least from my perspective, God Break Down the Door, by which I was nonplussed at first, now if I had to choose a favorite NIN song it may very well be that one).
This post isn't meant as some sort of boast or something like that, even if I may not be entirely sure of all of my reasons for posting this, but a main one is to let younger (edit: and all who may be in a difficult state) fans know that things can improve, even if it takes a lot of patience and introspection, and a better(/the best?) example of this is the trajectory of Trent himself. And fuck "outgrowing" music, if it doesn't resonate with you at a given point in life/you don't want to listen to it anymore, then of course that's fine, to each their own, but this has in so many ways been the soundtrack of my life, and I hope to see them again/get to experience some more new releases at some point.
Even if not, though, I am so grateful that this art has been released into this world to give rise to amazing experiences and that communities such as this have formed as a result. Something real, something true, indeed. Thank you Trent (and Atticus, and Robin, etc.), and thank you for reading this, if you did.