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2011.04.09 09:34 oneisnotprime Blockchain built and run by the EOS network DAO
The EOS Network is a 3rd generation blockchain platform powered by the EOS VM, a low-latency, highly performant, and extensible WebAssembly engine for deterministic execution of near feeless transactions; purpose-built for enabling optimal web3 user, developer experiences. EOS is the flagship blockchain and financial center of the EOSIO protocol, serving as the driving force behind multi-chain collaboration and public goods funding for tools and infrastructure through the EOS Network Foundation.
2013.01.22 06:44 llieaay Cat Training: Tricks and Treats
Cat behaviour, cat tricks, cat training. Cats!
2023.05.30 00:53 Llehctim89 Stylish, indoor, horizontal wall mount.
Toying with the idea to store my and my wife's bikes in our living room. The front runner idea being horizontal wall mounted and stacking the 2 of them. 1.) because it'll be convenient and they'll be out of the way-ish not simply just sitting in a storage area and 2.) bikes are cool to look at and we think it'd be nice to display them on the wall. Weird little caveat though. Im riding a CAAD12 so it has a pretty straight/horizontal top tube, whereas she has a Felt VR40 and the top tube is kicked down a little bit from horizontal. Will this ruin the options for the stacked, horizontal wall mounting? We have plenty of floor to ceiling height. Hoping to find something that looks more furniture-y as opposed to utilitarian hooks of sorts.
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2023.05.30 00:53 Important-Finger5508 Breast tenderness and frequently horny? (21F)
Hi there, I really need some help/advice on this.
Since last September, I've been experiencing bouts of horniness that I never had before.
That may sound normal, but I never really had sexual attraction or felt frequent arousal during puberty into my teen years. It took me by surprise, given how intense I started to feel about it.
I was/am attracted to men but I didn't feel horny for them, but even then I didn't think I was asexual or anything before this started happening.
These moments would be cyclical, usually were about like 3-4 days? in a given month and would happen within the beginning or the middle of the month, and would last even while I was on my period. The severity of how horny I was would be random, but they were often intense mostly.
Now, since this March, it's been incredibly frequent. Instead of having a few days of horniness and then disappearing for a couple weeks, it's been nearly everyday with (maybe) a day or two of absence.
My breasts started getting sensitive like all the time by this point. It'll either be itchy, sensitive, hurt, or all of the above, which will make me become aroused or it starts after arousal. I had a moment earlier this month where my chest & body were so sensitive that it made me actually feel nauseous to wear anything or have anything touch it at all (!), I had to straight up lay on my back with my arms away from my body to feel okay. (needless to say, I barely slept. It lasted several hours.)
It (was) rare for me to have breast pain, and I can only recall maybe about 2 or 3 times in recent memory before this?
No changes in breast size or any growth BTW, which makes this weirder.
While on that note, I haven't actually noticed anything strange happening physically to me though, but the sudden hormonal change has got me wondering if I should go and see an endocrinologist just to make sure things are okay, considering I also have these moments of feeling very fatigued and tired but feverishly horny, like my body is withholding my physical energy for anything but sex. (thanks body, you dick) This kinda concerns me.
If you have any advice on what I should do aside from scheduling a checkup, it would be much appreciated. Thanks.
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2023.05.30 00:53 Lastoflily_ Calling all travel lovers 😜
So I just moved to East belfast altho been living in Belfast for nearly 2 years
Really wanna meet more ppl!
Love camping, hiking basically all things nature
Do love bowling and cinema etc too
Looking for people aged 23-32 (basically aroundy age) to hang out! Love to go out and go on road trips etc
Hif me up if you're interested
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2023.05.30 00:53 foreskinmogul I thought it was placebo.. I am willing to admit how wrong I used to be..
I will try to make this post short. Although I have quite a bit to say and there are more questions than answers. However, my main message is clear, I now know for a fact that this practice is not placebo.
Something about retention affects us majorly in a biological, mental, or spiritual way. I am not sure if it's just one, two, or all three of them combined. There is no concrete evidence and no way to study this except through personal experience.
I have dabbled with this practice for 3 years now. My longest streak was somewhere around 3 months. I have also had periods of time in which I relapsed constantly, or where I cycled retention weekly or every two weeks. I have to say, there was a moment where I really started to question if I was totally insane. Not because of retention itself or the belief in it, but because of the things that were happening to me while I was on it. I said to myself, nah, there is no way this is actually affecting my reality like this. I told myself this has to be some kind of placebo-effect and that subconsciously I believe in the practice and the benefits it supposedly brings.
So I went back to my old ways at times. I relapsed every day for weeks on end. I watched p*rn, jerked off, and I tried purposely to be as lustful as possible as often as I could. Again, this wasn't involuntary.. I just wanted to see whether or not I was tricking myself into believing in this practice or if there is some remarkable, unexplainable aspect to it that we cannot actually fathom yet.
Each and every time I went on these periods of constantly relapsing, I noticed how my entire energy and mood shifted. I was more irritable, I was less confident, and most importantly, I felt more fearful and timid about life. It was like I was operating at a lower-level metaphorically but also literally. I just felt empty, probably because my body was literally emptier due to the release of sperm lol.
Anyway, after noticing how shitty I would feel reverting back to my old ways, I decided to re-test the retention. I had no goal of how many days I would do in a row, what the benefits I would see would be, or how I would feel. I literally just wanted to compare feeling shitty relapsing to being back on the SR train.
I can tell you with certainty, that after 2-3 days of retention, every single time I do it, these things start to happen:
- I feel more confident
- I have trouble falling asleep/sleep much less than usual and wake up earlier
- I am at total ease in social situations, even though I am naturally an introvert
- People react to me in interesting ways. Some people approach me randomly, others seem to want to be closer to me than usual, a few shake around me (not joking), and others are either infatuated with me or they strongly feel uneasy around me
- My voice sounds deeper. Yes, even after 2-3 days.
- Women look at me more in public, women text me/reach out more to me on my phone, and attaining sex is easier than it was while relapsing for whatever reason
- My mind is much more quiet and calm than usual, although I have to say meditation is what mainly contributed to this, it seems the retention adds a bonus effect on instilling peace of mind
- I win money (lottery wins), receive money (from friends/family), or find money (literally on the ground in grass or gas stations). This is probably the strangest yet funniest effect I noticed.. I don't know why in particular but whenever I retain all of the above seem to happen. Want me to prove it to you? Although I don't have photo evidence or the tickets themselves, there was a time period where I retained for 2 weeks straight and I was feeling extremely lustful/horny, and instead of taking it out by having sex with a female, I decided to channel it into playing scratch tickets. So I went to various gas stations near my house, and for 4 fucking days in a row, I spent exactly $20 on scratch tickets and each day I hit $200.. so 20x4 = $80 spent and 200x4 = $800 in wins. I 10'xd my money within a matter of 4 days doing something as wild as buying random lottery scratch tickets. You cannot tell me this was a coincidence. It is also not the only time I have won semi-significant amounts. Although I haven't hit the actual jackpot yet.
Guys, here is what you need to know, you need to test this out for yourself. Go on streaks, do this practice, and if you for some reason start to doubt yourself.. revert back to your old ways like I did to prove yourself wrong. There is something going on here that is wayyy bigger than we can understand/imagine logically. I don't know what it is, but sexual energy is potent. And it can transform your life. Stay blessed
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2023.05.30 00:53 Usernameunchanged Free Basaglar in Twin Cities, MN
Moved to a pump and I have extra Basaglar to give away (been stored in fridge since pick up). PM me if you need some.
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2023.05.30 00:52 No_Run_1516 Unhealthy coping mechanism after my ex girlfriend suicide attempt
A few years ago, the girl I was dating for 3 years (and was really in love with) became schizofreniac and depressive and everything blew appart for me. She made 7 suicide attempt while we were together,she started seeing other guys, etc... I tried what I could to keep her from doing too much shit, but after a while, she started to make me lose all my friends by saying fake things like I raped her and tried to kill her to explain the marks on her body. I couldn't take it anymore and we broke up. It took a few months for me to get back on my feet after a few weeks of homelessness and failing my year of studies (I was able to do it again). Then she contacted me again, I accepted to see her once again, and she opened her throat and legs in my bathtub while I was in class, I found her when I got back. She survived (after a few weeks in hospital and another forced internment that last around a year) but I persuaded myself that she died there. I stick to this version. I know she isn't, but if anyone ask, I tell she died there. I nearly could believe my own lie. I feel it's a totally unhealthy way to cope and be sure to never hear about this anymore. What could I do about it ? Is it a good idea to just stick to this version ?
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2023.05.30 00:52 Guilty-Tadpole1227 Did any of this happen to you as a teenager, and as a grown adult now you're still "getting experience" for your next job?
2023.05.30 00:51 lostmyducks_ Talking to my family again?
So this story begins 10 years ago.
I (30 F) was 20 at the time and was working at a restaurant as a waitress. I was from a very redneck family and drove a jacked up truck with mud tires. I know very cliche. Anyway a new guy started as a line cook. We will call him A (M 33). He drove a jacked up car with spinner rims. Also cliche I'm aware.
We flirted a lot and one day I talked him into letting me drive his car and he could drive my truck. That was really the beginning of our relationship. We stayed out until about 3 am and spent every waking moment together after that. We ended up moving in together a few months later.
I was fully aware my family wouldn't like him but I liked him so I didn't care.
After 2 years of us dating we found out we were expecting a child. That's where everything kind of blew up. My dad spent an hour yelling at me and my mom tried to convince me to abort. I chose not to and they told me not to come back. So I went to our apartment and just cried for a while and then we decided to just go with it and it was probably for the best that my family didn't have anything to do with our child.
Ffwd to now we married at the courthouse right around the time I was 6 months pregnant with our first child and now have 3 children. We moved a couple of hours away and both got better jobs. It's been nice.
This weekend we were invited to my husband's family BBQ so we went. I ran to the store to get some stuff and saw my mom. She decided to strike up a conversation with me. She asked how I was doing and asked about my child. I told her we had married and have 3 children. She asked if she could see them and I showed her a picture. Then she got upset and hugged me and asked if she could contact me and maybe meet them. I told her I'd ask my husband his opinion and get back to her.
Anyway my mom and I have never gotten along even before A so I'm not sure if I really want her in my life but she looked like she genuinely wanted to meet them and was happy to see me.
A said he would do whatever I want to do but I really don't know what I should do.
Tdlr- my parents pretty much disowned me 8 years ago because they didn't like my choice of a partner and because I had gotten pregnant by him. I haven't spoken to them since then until the other day when I saw my mom.
My mom wants to meet my children but I'm not sure because she and I have never been close and I'm still a little bitter about how they treated us at the end. I'm not sure what to do.
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2023.05.30 00:51 Usernameunchanged Free Basaglar in Twin Cities, MN
Moved to a pump and I have extra Basaglar (stored in fridge since pick up) that I want to give away. PM me for details.
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2023.05.30 00:50 throwayaysysy Need your opinion on this situation
So today I was at the gym, and I looked in the direction of this girl like twice by coincidence during the whole time I was there. At one point I was using a machine nearby them and was looking for an attachment, and the attachment box was near them. So as I was going to get it they turn and face towards me and I just don’t look ( I don’t usually look at women in the gym because I don’t want them to feel uncomfortable ) and carry on with what I was looking for. Now I think that they said hello or called my name but I had my AirPods in at full volume to get me pumped since I had a terrible sleep. Anyways, like 5 minutes later I finish a set and look around and I see her face, I realised that I knew this person and that I basically just ignored them. Later they walked passed me and I smiled but I feel like they didn’t look because they felt as if I was being rude, and I didn’t call their name since I thought that would be weird if they were walking away. Now I’m kinda replaying this situation over and over and thinking about how they probably think I’m rude. I always get into situations where I can come off ride and then don’t realise until after. Do you guys think I’ll be seen as rude or stuck up for this situation?
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2023.05.30 00:50 Unlikely_Minimum4113 I have Schizotypal disorder, my psychiatrist said there was no point/impossible for Aspie diagnosis. Could you help me identify traits?
I'll go right off the bat and say I always got lumped in with Aspergers kids at school or introduced to them like "oh you're similar" but I always felt something was different. So the Schizotypal diagnosis made sense.
One thing I'd like to elaborate on is how I've learned to socialise which was by absorbing and parroting others and even using tv shows until years down the line I have no problems and I'm not even thinking. It comes naturally now, the anxiety stopping me from talking is gone. I've been called out for copying before but psychiatrist said this was because I have a personality disorder. It's actually embarrassing to remember.
I did experience mild bullying and teasing for being socially out of step. People did assume I was on the spectrum looking back, some even outright said it. I was a margin more successful with women though, that's one thing that seperated me from autism spectrum men I knew. I also got invited to parties more.
I'm kind of goofy but I'm "cool". I personally think I'm improving with age.
What seperated me from Aspergers was I had slightly better social skills and I got into drugs and parties later on, became a rock and roll musician... I don't think anyone expected it which annoyed me at first because I thought yo I can't be 15 for life but now I think it's cuz they thought I was autistic? Like maybe they thought I was trying to be someone I wasn't? But that's not true I lived all that and loved it!
One thing I'd like to point out is noise doesn't bother me, I can filter out surroundings and read the room effectively (psychiatrist said i had good vigilance) and I understand facial expressions and tone of voice.
However sometimes I say the wrong thing, info dump, ramble on or have anxiety over conversation. Like "why did I say that". I get a bit excited, I love talking to people once I'm in the mood. Always gives me a buzz after social interaction.
I'm nearly 30 and wondering if any of this means a possible autism spectrum diagnosis? I've taken tests (some paid for) and got told high functioning autism or traits slightly above average. But that could also be the Schizotypal.
I currently take antipsychotic medication to improve mood and lessen ruminating.
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2023.05.30 00:50 Temporary_Estate_330 Hospital ted - teddy from childhood I that got thrown away
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I’ve tried looking before, i think I’ve even asked here before. but I lost my account / the post :( don’t think he was found anyway sadly! submitted by Temporary_Estate_330 to HelpMeFind [link] [comments]
This is hospital ted, he was I think a rip off beanie brought in 2001 near a hospital. He had beans at least in his but but I think else where too.
He is a dog I believe, but he was shaped more anthro like a teddy bear than your normal Ty dog.
He didn’t have fur, it was a fabric that was black / dark grey with hints of white. His eyes where hard beads, black. The inside of his ears, seen in the pic to be large, was white.
He had a salmon-ish (might of changed colour over time) bow tie made out of smallish ribbon. He wasn’t big really.
As you can see I have a pic but it’s horrible quality, this is all I have. I’m in the uk if that helps .
I miss him, social services threw him away a long time ago after being told not to. We had hunted for him. He went through all operations with me, I had a good few, I want a replacement. Even just more info would be great.
His arms / legs where on the softer droop side of things.
I’ve looked so much, I miss him.
2023.05.30 00:50 ClickClackTipTap Lease is up June 30th Haven't been offered a new lease yet. Is that a bad sign?
I've been renting from this owner for nearly 10 years, but this past year they changed property management companies.
My lease is up on June 30. Usually I get a new lease agreement early in May, and have to let them know by June 1 if I'm staying or going.
I haven't received anything yet. The new rental company came and did a lease renewal inspection mid May, but I still haven't heard anything about next year.
I really want to stay, but I'm nervous that nothing has been put in motion for a new lease. Is it likely that they are going to inform me on June 1 that they aren't renewing? I'm really anxious, as I've been looking and I can't really afford anything else in my area, and I certainly can't afford moving expenses.
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2023.05.30 00:50 purple-pigeon-23 Not advice, just curious. Director of 10 companies that make less than £1000 each but seemingly rich
I have an acquaintance who I've known for nearly a decade.
They are a director of 10 companies according to companies house and each company uses an address at an "office address to rent" type of business in a nearby town.
Each company makes less than £1000 according to companies house.
The companies are named random things, think along the lines of apprentice TV show team names like affinity, endurance or whatever plus a word like solutions or management, or the initials of a family member like Marge Simpson would be "MS solutions".
The categories of each business are that phrase "other type professional, not elsewhere classified"
Says they're self employed, has never given much away in terms of chat about what they do.
Mentioned about being self made, didn't do well at high school etc. In a sort of "hard work can get you this life" but not ever mentioning what the work was.
Spent early 20's in Dubai.
Owns a large 50 acre estate with large house on it, bought in the months after returning from Dubai.
Assortment of high end luxury cars for family. Multiple trip of a lifetime type holidays each year. All the trappings of a luxury lifestyle basically. Only in late-30's too.
I'm just curious how a luxury lifestyle can be maintained for so many years with several companies that apparently make very little money?
It's something that has puzzled me now and again over the years so I thought I'd ask here. Thanks
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2023.05.30 00:50 SendMeYourDogPics13 Maybe I was just spoiled in my district but doesn’t this line in the contract for a district near me seem like a massive red flag?
‘Hours – General. The District recognizes that the varying nature of a unit member’s day- to-day professional responsibilities does not lend itself to an instructional day of rigidly established length. Unit members shall spend as much time as necessary to fulfill their instructional and professional responsibilities. Although the minimum school-based assignment hours may be less than forty (40) hours per week, it is understood that fulfillment of a unit member’s total professional responsibilities will generally require a work week well in excess of forty (40) hours.’
I don’t feel like other jobs would pull something like this 😔
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2023.05.30 00:49 Cultivate_a_Rose Fresh 80, How the Heck do I Gear Up?
I had to take a big, big break from the game a bit after this xpac dropped and finally came back recently to push my mage over to 80. Back in the day I came to WotLK late when the RDF was up and I was able to quickly gear up and soon start running 10-mans, etc.. This time? I have no idea what I'm supposed to do. Now I'm a parent and have adult stuffs going on. When I put myself into the finder tool for heroics everyone is running the heroic+ and no one wants me in a group. I don't have the interest/time/energy to spam LFG to find normal heroic groups, nor do I have a decent guild.
Am I missing something, or is it going to be near-impossible for me to play catch up because of the heroic+ nonsense? Should I just wait and pray that RDF gets put into the game? I'm honestly kinda disappointed. I loved WotLK back in the day, and really hoped to be able to casually play this time around, but it feels like everything is x100 more hardcore and people are def way more mean.
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2023.05.30 00:49 Familiar_Stomach7861 This hat?
2023.05.30 00:49 OLH94 Keen to start - no clue where to!
So I guess the title basically says it all. I (M28), really would like to start my own business.
I want to sell mid to high end furniture, contribute to my local economy, and try to restore a personal touch to the life of those who miss these encounters.
My background is in sales & business/account management. I have dealt with dozens of people throughout the years whom I had hoped would mentor me without anything ever materialising.
My biggest problem is; I have absolute no idea where to start!
My thought process was I should take a bank business loan, obtain a premises and try and get my idea off the ground, but I have no idea.
Can anyone point me in the correct direction?! How do I source stock? How do I know how to correctly plan cash & % margins? Entirely open to those with greater knowledge than me.
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2023.05.30 00:49 Dangerous_Ad3205 Does Apple charge for part replacement if my MacBook is under limited 1 year warranty?
I recently bought a MacBook pro M1 14” ( feb 23 2023), it was working fine, like there were a few hiccups like my trackpad was losing it gestures, or the note pad being stuck or apps like whats app crashing at start up, i thought they were general problems experienced due to bugs in the os. But on the night of 22nd my laptop shut down on itself and wouldn’t turn back on when the power button was being pressed despite having 98% charge. I connected the charger and the laptop finally turned on, it asked me to put in my pass at sign in, so i did . As soon as i put in the pass and click enter the laptop would automatically restart itself without booting up to the home screen. So i tried to follow the steps shown on ytb, i erased the hard disk and tried to instal the is again, it went fine until the last step where i had to select a hard disk to instal the os, when i did, it kept issuing a notification “ hard disk not connected to power source” or like laptop not connected to power source, but the charger has been connected to the laptop from the start. So the next day i took it to an authorised service centre, i had bought my mac in india and i carried it with me to Georgia(in europe) when i moved for my college. The service people said that there’s an issue with the chipset of the mother board and need to be replaced, the quoted me 3414 GEL which is $1332😭
I wanna know if my limited warranty covers this damage. I never installed any 3rd party apps,not did i spill anything over it. I asked the store ppl to tell me the cause of this issue, they said they dont know 💀 Please help me.
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2023.05.30 00:48 WhiteWolf245 Benq mobiuz EX2710Q blacking out
I recently bought this monitor and decided to keep it after testing it out for nearly a month. Recently, the monitor has started blacking out for a few seconds before minimising the game at random moments. The odd thing about the issue is that its not a crash, as there's no momentary lag or freeze while playing. I'm honestly not sure what the problem could be, could someone please help me.
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2023.05.30 00:48 kratomdude67 Encourage memento and hope
Happy Memorial Day!
I quit on January 23 (2nd time around ….quit for 90 days in January 2022 after heavy use for 3.5 years)
4+ months in. To those thinking of quitting,nearly in your quit and a month or 2 in:
I get it I was where you are I felt hopeless, powerless, I didn’t think I had the strength I read posts from people who had successfully quit and in the back - no, the FRONT of mind I didn’t think I had what it took. They had some special form of discipline that I didn’t have. Not even close. It was getting reeeealy scary. I started thinking some pretty dark thoughts. Every day was a panic. Every time I’d go a few hours without a dose and my mind went to horrible places, it felt unbearable. I literally thought many times I’d never be able to get out of the trap. 48 hours into my quit and things got 100 times worse. I had zero care, zero motivation, zero anything. NOTHING gave me any joy, any hope, any reason to keep on a path I felt would never end. It would’ve been so easy to return to Kratom to put the suffering to and end within minutes. But I kept reminding myself how horrible life had become. I couldn’t re-set and do it over again…it become a week…then 2. Each day that went by it wasn’t as if things improved (it didn’t) but at the very least I could say I did it! I made it a week! Then 2….I won’t say it was easy b/c it wasn’t. I can’t tell you how many times I told myself I would never heal. But I kept looking back at the horrible state of life I had put myself in and told myself the pain and suffering I was experiencing was better than living in the lies, and the deception, and the darkness of living a life without personal integrity. A month came and went. I had small moments of light but mostly anhedonia and despair. But once you’ve gotten a month under your belt something clicks and you realize that even one slip-up could take you back to day zero (I should know - in March 2022 after “just one dose” I ended up using every single day for the next 9 months. I KNEW through the entirely of this quit that it would be “one and done” for me if I tried it again. Slowly the anhedonia lifted, the energy lifted. This week I’m feeling down - I’m fatigued and a bit depressed but I quickly remind myself this is PARADISE compared to how I felt in the first week, month, etc.
If you’re still reading this, you too CAN do this. I’m serious. If I was able to do it anyone can.
Your life is in front of you. The lies and doubts you have? Bullshit. I’m a believer in the spiritual realm - the battle for your thoughts is where it all starts. If you are convinced you can’t, he has won the battle. Reject it. Claim truth and lean into it
You got this!!!
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2023.05.30 00:48 thatimayseeyou Not a great day
I've had severe anxiety and depression my entire life. I was a quiet, shy kid, but not because I didn't want to be exuberant. For some reason, I always felt ashamed of myself.
I told my dad at 12 years old that something was wrong with me. I wasn't sure what, but I knew crying myself to sleep wasn't normal. He sent me to my room after telling me I was being dramatic.
I've learned how to cope over the years, albeit not in the healthiest ways. I'm 35 now. Some periods of time have been better than others, but I pride myself on being kind, (hopefully) personable, and empathetic. My whole life with my family has been the kind of interactions you have with the friendly cashier at the grocery store ("How are you?" "Wonderful, and you?" "Great, thanks" sort of thing). I crave, no, I'm begging, for someone to hear me. Actually listen and HEAR me.
I feel like I can't burden the couple friends I have with my issues, because they've always known me to be this person. You'd literally never know I'm suicidal if you passed me or even spoke to me on the street. I'm afraid to scare them off. We just talk about people we mutually know or video games or a new show or something. I can't tell them I want to die. I mean, what do I expect them to do anyway? There aren't magic words to heal me. That's not their burden, either.
I finally nutted up and asked my boss for resources for mental health and against my best interest, actually mentioned that I was suicidal. She told me there's a phone number on the wall in the break room, but "it probably won't help." She then told me I wasn't scheduled today, but I work every single Monday, holiday or not. So I left. I feel like being honest just cost me my job.
I feel like I'm losing my mind. I've been staring at the ceiling for hours now. Pretty sure I have the weird pattern memorized.
I don't know why I'm writing this. I think I just needed to be heard. Thank you for reading. And if anyone else can commiserate with me - we'll be okay eventually. It's just really difficult right now.
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