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2023.06.10 22:11 pinguinconscious Words from a former professional player - Jim Courier: "I still had a bit of magic in me"
Former No. 1 and holder of four Grand Slams, The American Jim Courier looks back on his best memories at the start and end of his career, the defeats he suffered and the coaches who forged him.
Who was the strongest player you faced in your career?
Pete Sampras was the best in the 90s and he was very difficult to manoeuvre because he was a rhythm breaker. He made it impossible for you to feel safe, even when you were on serve. He wouldn't do anything extravagant for four games in a row, then suddenly, at the end of the set, he'd slam down two or three points. If you haven't played in the previous games, you forget how to play. His serve was incredible, but he was just as dangerous on the return. I also really struggled against (Ivan) Lendl. I only had the chance to play him when he was really in top form and that was difficult for me to manage. His sliced backhand was frighteningly effective because it stayed very low on my backhand. At the end of his career, I was starting to develop the tools to compete, but I wasn't there yet and he beat me soundly at the Masters (6-2, 6-3 in 1991 in Frankfurt). At the time, the courts were very fast with a very low bounce and I suffered enormously. People forget just how incredible Ivan's consistency was.
Who was your favourite player to play against? The matches against Andre (Agassi), he was the complete opposite of Pete. We had a similar style and it was very open in a way. If I played well enough, I could win. If I didn't, he'd beat me. I wasn't at his level when I arrived on the circuit. He came first, still as a teenager. But once I got stronger, I started to feel comfortable against him (trailing 4-1, he finished 7-5 in his favour).
The most incredible match you've ever played?
Against (Marat) Safin in the Davis Cup (won 0-6, 6-4, 4-6, 6-1, 6-4 in the 1st round in 1998). It was a decisive fifth match against Marat, who was still a teenager. He was new to the circuit, inexperienced, but brilliant nonetheless, and he was killing me. I was down 6-0, 4-1 in forty-five minutes, and he was hitting winners all over the place. I was at the end of my career and that's when I used my backhand slice to beat him. It wasn't the kind of shot you'd think would be effective other than in defence. But I used it to change the tone of the match and it worked. I used all my science and experience. There was another decisive Davis Cup match in the same vein against (Greg) Rusedski (1999, 8-6 win in the fifth set). Those were moments when, at the end of my career, even though I wasn't winning as much as I used to, I still had a bit of magic in me.
You don't mention Pete Sampras' tears (*) in Australia in 1995...
That match (defeat in the quarter-finals 6-7, 6-7, 6-3, 6-4, 6-3) probably made me think of more things than any other match I've ever played, so it's bound to be unforgettable.
It was the first time people saw Pete in a different light. There was drama on the pitch, there was a lot of drama off it, everything was dark above us. We both had cramps after the game in the dressing room. It was incredible. It really was.
His coach, Tim Gullikson, who had suffered a brain tumour, had been rushed back to the United States following a third stroke that very morning. The American was overcome with tears at the start of the fifth set when a spectator shouted "Do it for your coach, Pete!
How did you come up with the idea of asking him if he wanted to stop the match and carry on the next day?
It came naturally. It was one of those moments when the match almost came to a halt because he was overwhelmed by emotion. But we had to carry on and that was the only way I could think of to get him back into the game because he was letting go. What people probably don't know is that I was close to his coach, both Tim and Tom Gullikson, our Davis Cup captain. We were all part of the same travelling circle. So the night before the match, we all went to dinner together. We had a table of ten with my coach, Pete, Tom and Tim, who was on the plane back to the States when we were on the court. So there was no animosity between Pete and me. I understood exactly what he was going through and I had to bring him back into the moment. Then he won the match, but I don't regret it.
Which coach has had the biggest impact on you?
The one who has helped me the most in my professional career is José Higueras, as well as Brad Stine. With José, I went from being a good player to a great player. But if I hadn't met Harry Hopman, who allowed me to come and train at his academy on a scholarship when I was 11 or 12, or Nick Bollettieri, who did the same a few years later, we wouldn't be talking together. Because I come from a very small town (Stanford, in Florida) where I was the best at the age of 10, but where there was no competition to help me progress. They say there are forks in the road in life. These three have been really important in mine.
The moment that changed your career? In Paris, in 1991 against Andre Agassi (3-6, 6-4, 2-6, 6-1, 6-4). A lot of very, very good players reach the Grand Slam final and never win. I'll never know if I would have been able to overcome defeat in that first final. But I didn't lose and that's what gave me the confidence and conviction to carry on and play at a good level.
How important was your heated discussion with (Brad) Stine in the car park of the Rome tournament a few weeks before your first French Open title?
Huge, really. I'd started the season well, played well in Australia and won the two Masters 1000 tournaments in the United States (Indian Wells and Miami), which enabled me to break into the top 10 and gave me the belief that I could go even further in a Major. After that, I came to Europe thinking I could carry on where I left off, but that wasn't the case. I struggled in Hamburg, which was Madrid's tournament at the time. And in Rome, I wasn't up to the task (eliminated in the last 16 by Cherkasov). I expected to win. I acted as if it was a done deal, and Brad immediately told me: "OK, now you have to win again, nothing can be taken for granted. It was essential for me to change my mindset. Brad had the courage to do it, which is not the case for all coaches.
Do you remember his words?
Not the words specifically, but the tone. It was eye-to-eye. I didn't want to talk to him and he didn't want to let me go off on my own. We had to have this discussion, we had to have it at that very moment. That's why he's such a good coach and still works so well with Tommy (Paul, 17th in the world). And he loves France, which is one of the reasons why I speak a bit of French...
When did you feel the strongest?
It's probably not the answer you were expecting, but it was precisely after I lost to (Stefan) Edberg in five sets in the last 16 of the 1991 Australian Open. I'd had problems with my physical resistance in previous years. I remember coming out of that match feeling that my game was in place, but also that my legs and my lungs were in great shape, that I was physically very strong. A week later, I went to Indianapolis for strength and endurance tests. I did a VO2 max test where they put a tube in your mouth, inject oxygen, put you on a treadmill and you run until you can't go any further. The machine kept running and every 30 seconds it went up and up... I remember wanting to stop three times. But I kept pushing and pushing. In the end I got off, but the people who were there, who saw all the Olympians going by, couldn't believe it. Did this tennis player stay at this speed for so long? They told me my score was 72, like the cyclists, which was incredible. That's when I said to myself that I wasn't going to lose any more matches because of fatigue. I'd started working on my fitness with Pat Etcheberry in November the previous year and had made a huge leap forward in that area. I felt almost irresistible. And that was just before coming here to Roland Garros.
When did you feel loneliest?
When I lost here to Sergi (Bruguera), when I was trying to win my third Roland Garros and I was leading. He came back and won and I felt very alone that night (6-4, 2-6, 6-2, 3-6, 6-3).
Wasn't it worse at the 1993 Masters when you read a book at the change of ends against Andrei Medvedev in the group stage?
I was just tired from a long season at the time. I was just trying to survive, because I didn't particularly like being in tournaments at that time of year. I wanted to go home. What people forget about that moment is that I was losing before I got the book out ('Maybe the moon' by Armistead Maupin) and started distracting myself. And then I came back and served for the win. I had three match points at 6-5 in the third and then I panicked (defeat 6-3, 1-6, 7-6). If I'd won, people would have said that reading at the changeover was the new winning strategy, but that didn't happen. So the story was told the other way round, but it was a survival mechanism that kept me competitive because I was mentally exhausted after a long season.
Which current player is most like you?
Rafa's (Nadal) relentlessness is something that speaks to me. For those of us who know what it means to see Federer, Djokovic, Nadal and even Murray succeed, the consistency they've shown and all the work they've put in, it's hard to identify with them. But of all these players, I identify with Nadal the most, because he's physical, like I was myself. He doesn't have a crushing serve like I did. But he tries to impose his forehand and when he plays, I can see the game through his eyes. Even though I've never been as good as him, I at least understand what he's trying to do.
Your biggest regret?
I don't have any regrets. I don't have to. I live my life with my eyes wide open. Taking in as much information as I can and using it to make choices and stick to them. It's easy to live your life with a mirror and look back wondering what you would have done if you'd gone left instead of right. But I think I've been extremely lucky. First of all, I have a wonderful family, parents, brothers and sisters who have given me a lot of stability to pursue my dream. In a way, I've found my vocation and I couldn't have had a life like this if I'd gone in any other direction. Even if my career had been better, my life couldn't have been better."
His life as a former professional player
Since the end of his career in May 2000, Jim Courier has become the star consultant for American television. Davis Cup captain between 2010 and 2018, he now covers the Grand Slam tournaments, excluding Wimbledon, on the Tennis Channel. At the Australian Open, he was one of the first former tennis champions to interview players on court after matches, an exercise in which he excels and has no equal. He lives in Los Angeles, where he keeps fit by cycling and playing golf at the LA Country Club, where he will be present next week for the US Open (15-18 June). He is also one of the prestigious ambassadors of Swiss watch manufacturer Rolex, a major global partner of tennis for over 45 years. Alongside other great champions of the past (Roger Federer, Björn Borg, Chris Evert...) and the new generation (Carlos Alcaraz, Iga Swiatek...). "It's an honour to be part of this family and to contribute to the development of a sport that has already given me so much.
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Who was the strongest player you faced in your career?
Pete Sampras was the best in the 90s and he was very difficult to manoeuvre because he was a rhythm breaker. He made it impossible for you to feel safe, even when you were on serve. He wouldn't do anything extravagant for four games in a row, then suddenly, at the end of the set, he'd slam down two or three points. If you haven't played in the previous games, you forget how to play. His serve was incredible, but he was just as dangerous on the return. I also really struggled against (Ivan) Lendl. I only had the chance to play him when he was really in top form and that was difficult for me to manage. His sliced backhand was frighteningly effective because it stayed very low on my backhand. At the end of his career, I was starting to develop the tools to compete, but I wasn't there yet and he beat me soundly at the Masters (6-2, 6-3 in 1991 in Frankfurt). At the time, the courts were very fast with a very low bounce and I suffered enormously. People forget just how incredible Ivan's consistency was.
Who was your favourite player to play against? The matches against Andre (Agassi), he was the complete opposite of Pete. We had a similar style and it was very open in a way. If I played well enough, I could win. If I didn't, he'd beat me. I wasn't at his level when I arrived on the circuit. He came first, still as a teenager. But once I got stronger, I started to feel comfortable against him (trailing 4-1, he finished 7-5 in his favour).
The most incredible match you've ever played?
Against (Marat) Safin in the Davis Cup (won 0-6, 6-4, 4-6, 6-1, 6-4 in the 1st round in 1998). It was a decisive fifth match against Marat, who was still a teenager. He was new to the circuit, inexperienced, but brilliant nonetheless, and he was killing me. I was down 6-0, 4-1 in forty-five minutes, and he was hitting winners all over the place. I was at the end of my career and that's when I used my backhand slice to beat him. It wasn't the kind of shot you'd think would be effective other than in defence. But I used it to change the tone of the match and it worked. I used all my science and experience. There was another decisive Davis Cup match in the same vein against (Greg) Rusedski (1999, 8-6 win in the fifth set). Those were moments when, at the end of my career, even though I wasn't winning as much as I used to, I still had a bit of magic in me.
You don't mention Pete Sampras' tears (*) in Australia in 1995...
That match (defeat in the quarter-finals 6-7, 6-7, 6-3, 6-4, 6-3) probably made me think of more things than any other match I've ever played, so it's bound to be unforgettable.
It was the first time people saw Pete in a different light. There was drama on the pitch, there was a lot of drama off it, everything was dark above us. We both had cramps after the game in the dressing room. It was incredible. It really was.
His coach, Tim Gullikson, who had suffered a brain tumour, had been rushed back to the United States following a third stroke that very morning. The American was overcome with tears at the start of the fifth set when a spectator shouted "Do it for your coach, Pete!
How did you come up with the idea of asking him if he wanted to stop the match and carry on the next day?
It came naturally. It was one of those moments when the match almost came to a halt because he was overwhelmed by emotion. But we had to carry on and that was the only way I could think of to get him back into the game because he was letting go. What people probably don't know is that I was close to his coach, both Tim and Tom Gullikson, our Davis Cup captain. We were all part of the same travelling circle. So the night before the match, we all went to dinner together. We had a table of ten with my coach, Pete, Tom and Tim, who was on the plane back to the States when we were on the court. So there was no animosity between Pete and me. I understood exactly what he was going through and I had to bring him back into the moment. Then he won the match, but I don't regret it.
Which coach has had the biggest impact on you?
The one who has helped me the most in my professional career is José Higueras, as well as Brad Stine. With José, I went from being a good player to a great player. But if I hadn't met Harry Hopman, who allowed me to come and train at his academy on a scholarship when I was 11 or 12, or Nick Bollettieri, who did the same a few years later, we wouldn't be talking together. Because I come from a very small town (Stanford, in Florida) where I was the best at the age of 10, but where there was no competition to help me progress. They say there are forks in the road in life. These three have been really important in mine.
The moment that changed your career? In Paris, in 1991 against Andre Agassi (3-6, 6-4, 2-6, 6-1, 6-4). A lot of very, very good players reach the Grand Slam final and never win. I'll never know if I would have been able to overcome defeat in that first final. But I didn't lose and that's what gave me the confidence and conviction to carry on and play at a good level.
How important was your heated discussion with (Brad) Stine in the car park of the Rome tournament a few weeks before your first French Open title?
Huge, really. I'd started the season well, played well in Australia and won the two Masters 1000 tournaments in the United States (Indian Wells and Miami), which enabled me to break into the top 10 and gave me the belief that I could go even further in a Major. After that, I came to Europe thinking I could carry on where I left off, but that wasn't the case. I struggled in Hamburg, which was Madrid's tournament at the time. And in Rome, I wasn't up to the task (eliminated in the last 16 by Cherkasov). I expected to win. I acted as if it was a done deal, and Brad immediately told me: "OK, now you have to win again, nothing can be taken for granted. It was essential for me to change my mindset. Brad had the courage to do it, which is not the case for all coaches.
Do you remember his words?
Not the words specifically, but the tone. It was eye-to-eye. I didn't want to talk to him and he didn't want to let me go off on my own. We had to have this discussion, we had to have it at that very moment. That's why he's such a good coach and still works so well with Tommy (Paul, 17th in the world). And he loves France, which is one of the reasons why I speak a bit of French...
When did you feel the strongest?
It's probably not the answer you were expecting, but it was precisely after I lost to (Stefan) Edberg in five sets in the last 16 of the 1991 Australian Open. I'd had problems with my physical resistance in previous years. I remember coming out of that match feeling that my game was in place, but also that my legs and my lungs were in great shape, that I was physically very strong. A week later, I went to Indianapolis for strength and endurance tests. I did a VO2 max test where they put a tube in your mouth, inject oxygen, put you on a treadmill and you run until you can't go any further. The machine kept running and every 30 seconds it went up and up... I remember wanting to stop three times. But I kept pushing and pushing. In the end I got off, but the people who were there, who saw all the Olympians going by, couldn't believe it. Did this tennis player stay at this speed for so long? They told me my score was 72, like the cyclists, which was incredible. That's when I said to myself that I wasn't going to lose any more matches because of fatigue. I'd started working on my fitness with Pat Etcheberry in November the previous year and had made a huge leap forward in that area. I felt almost irresistible. And that was just before coming here to Roland Garros.
When did you feel loneliest?
When I lost here to Sergi (Bruguera), when I was trying to win my third Roland Garros and I was leading. He came back and won and I felt very alone that night (6-4, 2-6, 6-2, 3-6, 6-3).
Wasn't it worse at the 1993 Masters when you read a book at the change of ends against Andrei Medvedev in the group stage?
I was just tired from a long season at the time. I was just trying to survive, because I didn't particularly like being in tournaments at that time of year. I wanted to go home. What people forget about that moment is that I was losing before I got the book out ('Maybe the moon' by Armistead Maupin) and started distracting myself. And then I came back and served for the win. I had three match points at 6-5 in the third and then I panicked (defeat 6-3, 1-6, 7-6). If I'd won, people would have said that reading at the changeover was the new winning strategy, but that didn't happen. So the story was told the other way round, but it was a survival mechanism that kept me competitive because I was mentally exhausted after a long season.
Which current player is most like you?
Rafa's (Nadal) relentlessness is something that speaks to me. For those of us who know what it means to see Federer, Djokovic, Nadal and even Murray succeed, the consistency they've shown and all the work they've put in, it's hard to identify with them. But of all these players, I identify with Nadal the most, because he's physical, like I was myself. He doesn't have a crushing serve like I did. But he tries to impose his forehand and when he plays, I can see the game through his eyes. Even though I've never been as good as him, I at least understand what he's trying to do.
Your biggest regret?
I don't have any regrets. I don't have to. I live my life with my eyes wide open. Taking in as much information as I can and using it to make choices and stick to them. It's easy to live your life with a mirror and look back wondering what you would have done if you'd gone left instead of right. But I think I've been extremely lucky. First of all, I have a wonderful family, parents, brothers and sisters who have given me a lot of stability to pursue my dream. In a way, I've found my vocation and I couldn't have had a life like this if I'd gone in any other direction. Even if my career had been better, my life couldn't have been better."
His life as a former professional player
Since the end of his career in May 2000, Jim Courier has become the star consultant for American television. Davis Cup captain between 2010 and 2018, he now covers the Grand Slam tournaments, excluding Wimbledon, on the Tennis Channel. At the Australian Open, he was one of the first former tennis champions to interview players on court after matches, an exercise in which he excels and has no equal. He lives in Los Angeles, where he keeps fit by cycling and playing golf at the LA Country Club, where he will be present next week for the US Open (15-18 June). He is also one of the prestigious ambassadors of Swiss watch manufacturer Rolex, a major global partner of tennis for over 45 years. Alongside other great champions of the past (Roger Federer, Björn Borg, Chris Evert...) and the new generation (Carlos Alcaraz, Iga Swiatek...). "It's an honour to be part of this family and to contribute to the development of a sport that has already given me so much.
2023.06.10 22:08 Proof_Desperate My first UCF schedule!
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2023.06.10 21:56 Comfortable_Self_726 How i went from being one of the most bright students to become the biggest failure. My story
I actually don't know how i will explain about me and write this post because so much has happened with me. Its a long readPlease bear with me and please provide honest constructive criticism or advice. My qualifications:- none, zero, nothing
If you count 10th and 12th marks 10th :- 86.4% cbse 12th :- 1st time 49% gseb/state 2nd time 43% gseb/state My story :- i am a 19 year old boy who first took commerce because all people near me said CA's make alot. I was like ok lemme be a CA. Cut to 3 months later i left commerce and took science because i thought i loved maths and physics and i read that iits or engineering make even more. I was like ok engineering bannege. IIT b cse is mine. Then i started going coaching for jee and stuff i but covid started. Like i passed 10th in march 2020 and covid came in march 2020. Online studies. Even after paying attention in clases i didn't self studied. Long story short i completed my 11th with massive backlogs but i didn't lose hope i made a time table of how i am going to study 13hrs a day from " tomorrow " but ofc tomorrow never came. Now a little about my parents they almost hate each other and around when my 12th was completed 70% they were on the verge of divorce. Now this fighting of my parents was happening almost everyday in my 12th and also around for 2 months i got into massive video game addiction as i thought there is time and maybe to distract myself from my house. All this was happening while my father got a massive hit in his business because of covid and he got cheated on so now financially our house is week. Now cut to one month in my boards i had never practiced for written exams only for mcqs for 2 years. My mock marks were bad. Now i thought ofc i can do it as i have studied all the topics and chapters. Just have to write in subjective form. Turns out its fuckin hard to remember longs paragraphs if you are habitual to remembering just formulas and concepts. And guess what procrastination hits me and i didn't prepared. Long story short i got 49% in boards i got so demotivated and depressed at that time i didn't gave jee. Now a new idea or keeda came in my mind. I asked myself do i even want to be a engineering and i was like no. I don't i want to be an entrepreneur or have a business. This was before shark tank so no i really want to. How do i become one and make money....... three letters M B A. Yes i will do an MBA. So i talk to one of the teachers in an institution where they prepare students for cat and also do online research guess what i found out. 12th marks fuckin matter in mba yes. If you wanna go in IIM ABC or any top 20 to 30 b schools in india after college as a freshie you atleast gotta have 65 to 70% percent just to get in an interview. I was like ok if i drop and just focus on boards i will surely get 90 up %. So i fought with everyone in my house and took a drop. Till now i have many good habits and a routine. Now in my life enters a new word. "Overconfidence" yes ladis and gentlemen i got overconfident as boards are easy in comparison to jee. So i didn't studied for first 3 months. Guess what happens my grandfather got sick we rush to the hospital and he was there for about 3 days and i had to stay with him. But the days keep increasing and for 6 months me and my father had to take rounds of hospital and ofc i didn't studied a single day during that time. Now i lost him in December. Also by this time i have started reading atomic habits as i thought it could help me place a routine also i went to a doctor for ADHD checkup and he said that might take time i don't have it so he gave me pills for minor ocd problems which i was facing. Now jan 2023 new year. Good time for everyone and worst for me. Now i started studying online with my cousin sis and helping her studying for jee and myself studying for boards. Now by this time i have lost all my discipline, routine and intrest to study. Even when i started studying in 10 to 15 mins i would start watching YouTube or browsing reddit. Even when i am on meet with my sis. Long story short after 2 months i lost hope and gave up. Whenever i looked at my syllabus i thought i could never do this and then got 43% in boards.
After my boards went to my nani house also told every relative that i won't get good marks. And believe me when i say this i have heard everything you can imagine and one can say about after taking drop and not getting good marks even this time.
Right now in my life i have been told everyday by my father to join me in his business and do btech from a tier 3 college with it.
Even after all this has happened with me and i have failed several times if you also count my small failures with the big ones i mentioned i still somehow got believe and hope. Idk how but i still believe that i will be one of the most successful persons. But with this belief there is also a massive self dbout.
Now i am thinking to do BBA as you don't have to study in it here you can just pass with studying before 2 days of exam and to learn a skill online like coding and digital marketing or sales and gain experience in these fields with internships and jobs. I will start doing this things when i get my laptop i have ordered after like fighting for 3 months for it.
I know i might have lost a good tag or pedigree by not getting into iit but i believe i can make my own pedigree in future that is my skill.
Please suggest me or correct me or criticise me or anything constructive and contributing that might help. I am just a 19 year old with big dreams and your advice might help me achieve them. This phase might be the worst but i get pass it i hope. Thanks for reading till here. Have a nice day
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If you count 10th and 12th marks 10th :- 86.4% cbse 12th :- 1st time 49% gseb/state 2nd time 43% gseb/state My story :- i am a 19 year old boy who first took commerce because all people near me said CA's make alot. I was like ok lemme be a CA. Cut to 3 months later i left commerce and took science because i thought i loved maths and physics and i read that iits or engineering make even more. I was like ok engineering bannege. IIT b cse is mine. Then i started going coaching for jee and stuff i but covid started. Like i passed 10th in march 2020 and covid came in march 2020. Online studies. Even after paying attention in clases i didn't self studied. Long story short i completed my 11th with massive backlogs but i didn't lose hope i made a time table of how i am going to study 13hrs a day from " tomorrow " but ofc tomorrow never came. Now a little about my parents they almost hate each other and around when my 12th was completed 70% they were on the verge of divorce. Now this fighting of my parents was happening almost everyday in my 12th and also around for 2 months i got into massive video game addiction as i thought there is time and maybe to distract myself from my house. All this was happening while my father got a massive hit in his business because of covid and he got cheated on so now financially our house is week. Now cut to one month in my boards i had never practiced for written exams only for mcqs for 2 years. My mock marks were bad. Now i thought ofc i can do it as i have studied all the topics and chapters. Just have to write in subjective form. Turns out its fuckin hard to remember longs paragraphs if you are habitual to remembering just formulas and concepts. And guess what procrastination hits me and i didn't prepared. Long story short i got 49% in boards i got so demotivated and depressed at that time i didn't gave jee. Now a new idea or keeda came in my mind. I asked myself do i even want to be a engineering and i was like no. I don't i want to be an entrepreneur or have a business. This was before shark tank so no i really want to. How do i become one and make money....... three letters M B A. Yes i will do an MBA. So i talk to one of the teachers in an institution where they prepare students for cat and also do online research guess what i found out. 12th marks fuckin matter in mba yes. If you wanna go in IIM ABC or any top 20 to 30 b schools in india after college as a freshie you atleast gotta have 65 to 70% percent just to get in an interview. I was like ok if i drop and just focus on boards i will surely get 90 up %. So i fought with everyone in my house and took a drop. Till now i have many good habits and a routine. Now in my life enters a new word. "Overconfidence" yes ladis and gentlemen i got overconfident as boards are easy in comparison to jee. So i didn't studied for first 3 months. Guess what happens my grandfather got sick we rush to the hospital and he was there for about 3 days and i had to stay with him. But the days keep increasing and for 6 months me and my father had to take rounds of hospital and ofc i didn't studied a single day during that time. Now i lost him in December. Also by this time i have started reading atomic habits as i thought it could help me place a routine also i went to a doctor for ADHD checkup and he said that might take time i don't have it so he gave me pills for minor ocd problems which i was facing. Now jan 2023 new year. Good time for everyone and worst for me. Now i started studying online with my cousin sis and helping her studying for jee and myself studying for boards. Now by this time i have lost all my discipline, routine and intrest to study. Even when i started studying in 10 to 15 mins i would start watching YouTube or browsing reddit. Even when i am on meet with my sis. Long story short after 2 months i lost hope and gave up. Whenever i looked at my syllabus i thought i could never do this and then got 43% in boards.
After my boards went to my nani house also told every relative that i won't get good marks. And believe me when i say this i have heard everything you can imagine and one can say about after taking drop and not getting good marks even this time.
Right now in my life i have been told everyday by my father to join me in his business and do btech from a tier 3 college with it.
Even after all this has happened with me and i have failed several times if you also count my small failures with the big ones i mentioned i still somehow got believe and hope. Idk how but i still believe that i will be one of the most successful persons. But with this belief there is also a massive self dbout.
Now i am thinking to do BBA as you don't have to study in it here you can just pass with studying before 2 days of exam and to learn a skill online like coding and digital marketing or sales and gain experience in these fields with internships and jobs. I will start doing this things when i get my laptop i have ordered after like fighting for 3 months for it.
I know i might have lost a good tag or pedigree by not getting into iit but i believe i can make my own pedigree in future that is my skill.
Please suggest me or correct me or criticise me or anything constructive and contributing that might help. I am just a 19 year old with big dreams and your advice might help me achieve them. This phase might be the worst but i get pass it i hope. Thanks for reading till here. Have a nice day
2023.06.10 21:46 Comfortable_Self_726 How i went from being one of the most bright students to become the biggest failure. My jee preparation story
I actually don't know how i will explain about me and write this post because so much has happened with me. Its a long readPlease bear with me and please provide honest constructive criticism or advice. My qualifications:- none, zero, nothing
If you count 10th and 12th marks 10th :- 86.4% cbse 12th :- 1st time 49% gseb/state 2nd time 43% gseb/state My story :- i am a 19 year old boy who first took commerce because all people near me said CA's make alot. I was like ok lemme be a CA. Cut to 3 months later i left commerce and took science because i thought i loved maths and physics and i read that iits or engineering make even more. I was like ok engineering bannege. IIT b cse is mine. Then i started going coaching for jee and stuff i but covid started. Like i passed 10th in march 2020 and covid came in march 2020. Online studies. Even after paying attention in clases i didn't self studied. Long story short i completed my 11th with massive backlogs but i didn't lose hope i made a time table of how i am going to study 13hrs a day from " tomorrow " but ofc tomorrow never came. Now a little about my parents they almost hate each other and around when my 12th was completed 70% they were on the verge of divorce. Now this fighting of my parents was happening almost everyday in my 12th and also around for 2 months i got into massive video game addiction as i thought there is time and maybe to distract myself from my house. All this was happening while my father got a massive hit in his business because of covid and he got cheated on so now financially our house is week. Now cut to one month in my boards i had never practiced for written exams only for mcqs for 2 years. My mock marks were bad. Now i thought ofc i can do it as i have studied all the topics and chapters. Just have to write in subjective form. Turns out its fuckin hard to remember longs paragraphs if you are habitual to remembering just formulas and concepts. And guess what procrastination hits me and i didn't prepared. Long story short i got 49% in boards i got so demotivated and depressed at that time i didn't gave jee. Now a new idea or keeda came in my mind. I asked myself do i even want to be a engineering and i was like no. I don't i want to be an entrepreneur or have a business. This was before shark tank so no i really want to. How do i become one and make money....... three letters M B A. Yes i will do an MBA. So i talk to one of the teachers in an institution where they prepare students for cat and also do online research guess what i found out. 12th marks fuckin matter in mba yes. If you wanna go in IIM ABC or any top 20 to 30 b schools in india after college as a freshie you atleast gotta have 65 to 70% percent just to get in an interview. I was like ok if i drop and just focus on boards i will surely get 90 up %. So i fought with everyone in my house and took a drop. Till now i have many good habits and a routine. Now in my life enters a new word. "Overconfidence" yes ladis and gentlemen i got overconfident as boards are easy in comparison to jee. So i didn't studied for first 3 months. Guess what happens my grandfather got sick we rush to the hospital and he was there for about 3 days and i had to stay with him. But the days keep increasing and for 6 months me and my father had to take rounds of hospital and ofc i didn't studied a single day during that time. Now i lost him in December. Also by this time i have started reading atomic habits as i thought it could help me place a routine also i went to a doctor for ADHD checkup and he said that might take time i don't have it so he gave me pills for minor ocd problems which i was facing. Now jan 2023 new year. Good time for everyone and worst for me. Now i started studying online with my cousin sis and helping her studying for jee and myself studying for boards. Now by this time i have lost all my discipline, routine and intrest to study. Even when i started studying in 10 to 15 mins i would start watching YouTube or browsing reddit. Even when i am on meet with my sis. Long story short after 2 months i lost hope and gave up. Whenever i looked at my syllabus i thought i could never do this and then got 43% in boards.
After my boards went to my nani house also told every relative that i won't get good marks. And believe me when i say this i have heard everything you can imagine and one can say about after taking drop and not getting good marks even this time.
Right now in my life i have been told everyday by my father to join me in his business and do btech from a tier 3 college with it.
Even after all this has happened with me and i have failed several times if you also count my small failures with the big ones i mentioned i still somehow got believe and hope. Idk how but i still believe that i will be one of the most successful persons. But with this belief there is also a massive self dbout.
Now i am thinking to do BBA as you don't have to study in it here you can just pass with studying before 2 days of exam and to learn a skill online like coding and digital marketing or sales and gain experience in these fields with internships and jobs. I will start doing this things when i get my laptop i have ordered after like fighting for 3 months for it.
I know i might have lost a good tag or pedigree by not getting into iit but i believe i can make my own pedigree in future that is my skill.
Please suggest me or correct me or criticise me or anything constructive and contributing that might help. I am just a 19 year old with big dreams and your advice might help me achieve them. This phase might be the worst but i get pass it i hope. Thanks for reading till here. Have a nice day
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If you count 10th and 12th marks 10th :- 86.4% cbse 12th :- 1st time 49% gseb/state 2nd time 43% gseb/state My story :- i am a 19 year old boy who first took commerce because all people near me said CA's make alot. I was like ok lemme be a CA. Cut to 3 months later i left commerce and took science because i thought i loved maths and physics and i read that iits or engineering make even more. I was like ok engineering bannege. IIT b cse is mine. Then i started going coaching for jee and stuff i but covid started. Like i passed 10th in march 2020 and covid came in march 2020. Online studies. Even after paying attention in clases i didn't self studied. Long story short i completed my 11th with massive backlogs but i didn't lose hope i made a time table of how i am going to study 13hrs a day from " tomorrow " but ofc tomorrow never came. Now a little about my parents they almost hate each other and around when my 12th was completed 70% they were on the verge of divorce. Now this fighting of my parents was happening almost everyday in my 12th and also around for 2 months i got into massive video game addiction as i thought there is time and maybe to distract myself from my house. All this was happening while my father got a massive hit in his business because of covid and he got cheated on so now financially our house is week. Now cut to one month in my boards i had never practiced for written exams only for mcqs for 2 years. My mock marks were bad. Now i thought ofc i can do it as i have studied all the topics and chapters. Just have to write in subjective form. Turns out its fuckin hard to remember longs paragraphs if you are habitual to remembering just formulas and concepts. And guess what procrastination hits me and i didn't prepared. Long story short i got 49% in boards i got so demotivated and depressed at that time i didn't gave jee. Now a new idea or keeda came in my mind. I asked myself do i even want to be a engineering and i was like no. I don't i want to be an entrepreneur or have a business. This was before shark tank so no i really want to. How do i become one and make money....... three letters M B A. Yes i will do an MBA. So i talk to one of the teachers in an institution where they prepare students for cat and also do online research guess what i found out. 12th marks fuckin matter in mba yes. If you wanna go in IIM ABC or any top 20 to 30 b schools in india after college as a freshie you atleast gotta have 65 to 70% percent just to get in an interview. I was like ok if i drop and just focus on boards i will surely get 90 up %. So i fought with everyone in my house and took a drop. Till now i have many good habits and a routine. Now in my life enters a new word. "Overconfidence" yes ladis and gentlemen i got overconfident as boards are easy in comparison to jee. So i didn't studied for first 3 months. Guess what happens my grandfather got sick we rush to the hospital and he was there for about 3 days and i had to stay with him. But the days keep increasing and for 6 months me and my father had to take rounds of hospital and ofc i didn't studied a single day during that time. Now i lost him in December. Also by this time i have started reading atomic habits as i thought it could help me place a routine also i went to a doctor for ADHD checkup and he said that might take time i don't have it so he gave me pills for minor ocd problems which i was facing. Now jan 2023 new year. Good time for everyone and worst for me. Now i started studying online with my cousin sis and helping her studying for jee and myself studying for boards. Now by this time i have lost all my discipline, routine and intrest to study. Even when i started studying in 10 to 15 mins i would start watching YouTube or browsing reddit. Even when i am on meet with my sis. Long story short after 2 months i lost hope and gave up. Whenever i looked at my syllabus i thought i could never do this and then got 43% in boards.
After my boards went to my nani house also told every relative that i won't get good marks. And believe me when i say this i have heard everything you can imagine and one can say about after taking drop and not getting good marks even this time.
Right now in my life i have been told everyday by my father to join me in his business and do btech from a tier 3 college with it.
Even after all this has happened with me and i have failed several times if you also count my small failures with the big ones i mentioned i still somehow got believe and hope. Idk how but i still believe that i will be one of the most successful persons. But with this belief there is also a massive self dbout.
Now i am thinking to do BBA as you don't have to study in it here you can just pass with studying before 2 days of exam and to learn a skill online like coding and digital marketing or sales and gain experience in these fields with internships and jobs. I will start doing this things when i get my laptop i have ordered after like fighting for 3 months for it.
I know i might have lost a good tag or pedigree by not getting into iit but i believe i can make my own pedigree in future that is my skill.
Please suggest me or correct me or criticise me or anything constructive and contributing that might help. I am just a 19 year old with big dreams and your advice might help me achieve them. This phase might be the worst but i get pass it i hope. Thanks for reading till here. Have a nice day
2023.06.10 21:40 Comfortable_Self_726 How i went from being one of the most bright students to become the biggest failure. My story
I actually don't know how i will explain about me and write this post because so much has happened with me. Its a long readPlease bear with me and please provide honest constructive criticism or advice. My qualifications:- none, zero, nothing
If you count 10th and 12th marks 10th :- 86.4% cbse 12th :- 1st time 49% gseb/state 2nd time 43% gseb/state My story :- i am a 19 year old boy who first took commerce because all people near me said CA's make alot. I was like ok lemme be a CA. Cut to 3 months later i left commerce and took science because i thought i loved maths and physics and i read that iits or engineering make even more. I was like ok engineering bannege. IIT b cse is mine. Then i started going coaching for jee and stuff i but covid started. Like i passed 10th in march 2020 and covid came in march 2020. Online studies. Even after paying attention in clases i didn't self studied. Long story short i completed my 11th with massive backlogs but i didn't lose hope i made a time table of how i am going to study 13hrs a day from " tomorrow " but ofc tomorrow never came. Now a little about my parents they almost hate each other and around when my 12th was completed 70% they were on the verge of divorce. Now this fighting of my parents was happening almost everyday in my 12th and also around for 2 months i got into massive video game addiction as i thought there is time and maybe to distract myself from my house. All this was happening while my father got a massive hit in his business because of covid and he got cheated on so now financially our house is week. Now cut to one month in my boards i had never practiced for written exams only for mcqs for 2 years. My mock marks were bad. Now i thought ofc i can do it as i have studied all the topics and chapters. Just have to write in subjective form. Turns out its fuckin hard to remember longs paragraphs if you are habitual to remembering just formulas and concepts. And guess what procrastination hits me and i didn't prepared. Long story short i got 49% in boards i got so demotivated and depressed at that time i didn't gave jee. Now a new idea or keeda came in my mind. I asked myself do i even want to be a engineering and i was like no. I don't i want to be an entrepreneur or have a business. This was before shark tank so no i really want to. How do i become one and make money....... three letters M B A. Yes i will do an MBA. So i talk to one of the teachers in an institution where they prepare students for cat and also do online research guess what i found out. 12th marks fuckin matter in mba yes. If you wanna go in IIM ABC or any top 20 to 30 b schools in india after college as a freshie you atleast gotta have 65 to 70% percent just to get in an interview. I was like ok if i drop and just focus on boards i will surely get 90 up %. So i fought with everyone in my house and took a drop. Till now i have many good habits and a routine. Now in my life enters a new word. "Overconfidence" yes ladis and gentlemen i got overconfident as boards are easy in comparison to jee. So i didn't studied for first 3 months. Guess what happens my grandfather got sick we rush to the hospital and he was there for about 3 days and i had to stay with him. But the days keep increasing and for 6 months me and my father had to take rounds of hospital and ofc i didn't studied a single day during that time. Now i lost him in December. Also by this time i have started reading atomic habits as i thought it could help me place a routine also i went to a doctor for ADHD checkup and he said that might take time i don't have it so he gave me pills for minor ocd problems which i was facing. Now jan 2023 new year. Good time for everyone and worst for me. Now i started studying online with my cousin sis and helping her studying for jee and myself studying for boards. Now by this time i have lost all my discipline, routine and intrest to study. Even when i started studying in 10 to 15 mins i would start watching YouTube or browsing reddit. Even when i am on meet with my sis. Long story short after 2 months i lost hope and gave up. Whenever i looked at my syllabus i thought i could never do this and then got 43% in boards.
After my boards went to my nani house also told every relative that i won't get good marks. And believe me when i say this i have heard everything you can imagine and one can say about after taking drop and not getting good marks even this time.
Right now in my life i have been told everyday by my father to join me in his business and do btech from a tier 3 college with it.
Even after all this has happened with me and i have failed several times if you also count my small failures with the big ones i mentioned i still somehow got believe and hope. Idk how but i still believe that i will be one of the most successful persons. But with this belief there is also a massive self dbout.
Now i am thinking to do BBA as you don't have to study in it here you can just pass with studying before 2 days of exam and to learn a skill online like coding and digital marketing or sales and gain experience in these fields with internships and jobs. I will start doing this things when i get my laptop i have ordered after like fighting for 3 months for it.
I know i might have lost a good tag or pedigree by not getting into iit but i believe i can make my own pedigree in future that is my skill.
Please suggest me or correct me or criticise me or anything constructive and contributing that might help. If someone is working in these fields or has experience to share please dm me.
I am just a 19 year old with big dreams and your advice might help me achieve them. This phase might be the worst but i get pass it i hope. Thanks for reading till here. Have a nice day
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If you count 10th and 12th marks 10th :- 86.4% cbse 12th :- 1st time 49% gseb/state 2nd time 43% gseb/state My story :- i am a 19 year old boy who first took commerce because all people near me said CA's make alot. I was like ok lemme be a CA. Cut to 3 months later i left commerce and took science because i thought i loved maths and physics and i read that iits or engineering make even more. I was like ok engineering bannege. IIT b cse is mine. Then i started going coaching for jee and stuff i but covid started. Like i passed 10th in march 2020 and covid came in march 2020. Online studies. Even after paying attention in clases i didn't self studied. Long story short i completed my 11th with massive backlogs but i didn't lose hope i made a time table of how i am going to study 13hrs a day from " tomorrow " but ofc tomorrow never came. Now a little about my parents they almost hate each other and around when my 12th was completed 70% they were on the verge of divorce. Now this fighting of my parents was happening almost everyday in my 12th and also around for 2 months i got into massive video game addiction as i thought there is time and maybe to distract myself from my house. All this was happening while my father got a massive hit in his business because of covid and he got cheated on so now financially our house is week. Now cut to one month in my boards i had never practiced for written exams only for mcqs for 2 years. My mock marks were bad. Now i thought ofc i can do it as i have studied all the topics and chapters. Just have to write in subjective form. Turns out its fuckin hard to remember longs paragraphs if you are habitual to remembering just formulas and concepts. And guess what procrastination hits me and i didn't prepared. Long story short i got 49% in boards i got so demotivated and depressed at that time i didn't gave jee. Now a new idea or keeda came in my mind. I asked myself do i even want to be a engineering and i was like no. I don't i want to be an entrepreneur or have a business. This was before shark tank so no i really want to. How do i become one and make money....... three letters M B A. Yes i will do an MBA. So i talk to one of the teachers in an institution where they prepare students for cat and also do online research guess what i found out. 12th marks fuckin matter in mba yes. If you wanna go in IIM ABC or any top 20 to 30 b schools in india after college as a freshie you atleast gotta have 65 to 70% percent just to get in an interview. I was like ok if i drop and just focus on boards i will surely get 90 up %. So i fought with everyone in my house and took a drop. Till now i have many good habits and a routine. Now in my life enters a new word. "Overconfidence" yes ladis and gentlemen i got overconfident as boards are easy in comparison to jee. So i didn't studied for first 3 months. Guess what happens my grandfather got sick we rush to the hospital and he was there for about 3 days and i had to stay with him. But the days keep increasing and for 6 months me and my father had to take rounds of hospital and ofc i didn't studied a single day during that time. Now i lost him in December. Also by this time i have started reading atomic habits as i thought it could help me place a routine also i went to a doctor for ADHD checkup and he said that might take time i don't have it so he gave me pills for minor ocd problems which i was facing. Now jan 2023 new year. Good time for everyone and worst for me. Now i started studying online with my cousin sis and helping her studying for jee and myself studying for boards. Now by this time i have lost all my discipline, routine and intrest to study. Even when i started studying in 10 to 15 mins i would start watching YouTube or browsing reddit. Even when i am on meet with my sis. Long story short after 2 months i lost hope and gave up. Whenever i looked at my syllabus i thought i could never do this and then got 43% in boards.
After my boards went to my nani house also told every relative that i won't get good marks. And believe me when i say this i have heard everything you can imagine and one can say about after taking drop and not getting good marks even this time.
Right now in my life i have been told everyday by my father to join me in his business and do btech from a tier 3 college with it.
Even after all this has happened with me and i have failed several times if you also count my small failures with the big ones i mentioned i still somehow got believe and hope. Idk how but i still believe that i will be one of the most successful persons. But with this belief there is also a massive self dbout.
Now i am thinking to do BBA as you don't have to study in it here you can just pass with studying before 2 days of exam and to learn a skill online like coding and digital marketing or sales and gain experience in these fields with internships and jobs. I will start doing this things when i get my laptop i have ordered after like fighting for 3 months for it.
I know i might have lost a good tag or pedigree by not getting into iit but i believe i can make my own pedigree in future that is my skill.
Please suggest me or correct me or criticise me or anything constructive and contributing that might help. If someone is working in these fields or has experience to share please dm me.
I am just a 19 year old with big dreams and your advice might help me achieve them. This phase might be the worst but i get pass it i hope. Thanks for reading till here. Have a nice day
2023.06.10 21:16 notGeliFinewine7966 chance me international student from Africa!
demographics: black female west Africa
major: Computer Science or Computer Engineering
GPA: n/a for my school
Ranking: probably top 10 - 15%
SAT: 1290 (not retaking. will go test blind for some schools)
EFC: $30 - $40k i guess
coursework: chemistry physics elective mathematics biology english social studies core mathematics integrated science physical education religion
awards: overall diligent student national Arduino award
EC’s: 1. personal assistant to a Harvard network engineer 2. internship at a big telecommunication company 3. founded a get home safe club for girls in relation to woman empowerment 4. tutored elementary school students for their final state exams 5. did a research for the leading university in my country on the dangers of air pollution in a known Industrial Area 6. volunteered for an NGO 7. selected for a one week STEM camp where i built a traffic light using Arduino 8. Ambassador for GUNSA 9. Choir 10. Full time job at a mini shop. did finances, restocking, selling and also front desk
I will start working on my essays in a week’s time
I honestly did not know what to do in the university after completion of high school I will be applying for the fall 2024 intake meaning it will be almost 3 years since I completed high school. I used the 3 years to build my EC’s and decide on Computer Science/Engineering I don’t know if I stand a great chance with the schools I have selected but these are what my parents and I came up with. I would appreciate if y’all told which of them to drop, which to maintain and which to add in any case. I also do need some amount of aid. not a very great amount but a significant one.
Schools: Early Decision 1. Cornell 2. Dartmouth ( i’m stuck between going ED for Cornell and Dartmouth. I’ll go ED for one and EA for the other. help me decide)
Early Action 1. Stanford 2. Brown
Regular Decision 1. University of Chicago 2. Washington University in St Louis 3. University of Massachusetts Amherst 4. Texas A&M 5. Georgia State 6. UT Dallas 7. Arizona State 8. Louisiana State 9. Howard University 10. Prairie View A&M 11. Jackson State 12. Georgia Tech
Please help me out. thank you!
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major: Computer Science or Computer Engineering
GPA: n/a for my school
Ranking: probably top 10 - 15%
SAT: 1290 (not retaking. will go test blind for some schools)
EFC: $30 - $40k i guess
coursework: chemistry physics elective mathematics biology english social studies core mathematics integrated science physical education religion
awards: overall diligent student national Arduino award
EC’s: 1. personal assistant to a Harvard network engineer 2. internship at a big telecommunication company 3. founded a get home safe club for girls in relation to woman empowerment 4. tutored elementary school students for their final state exams 5. did a research for the leading university in my country on the dangers of air pollution in a known Industrial Area 6. volunteered for an NGO 7. selected for a one week STEM camp where i built a traffic light using Arduino 8. Ambassador for GUNSA 9. Choir 10. Full time job at a mini shop. did finances, restocking, selling and also front desk
I will start working on my essays in a week’s time
I honestly did not know what to do in the university after completion of high school I will be applying for the fall 2024 intake meaning it will be almost 3 years since I completed high school. I used the 3 years to build my EC’s and decide on Computer Science/Engineering I don’t know if I stand a great chance with the schools I have selected but these are what my parents and I came up with. I would appreciate if y’all told which of them to drop, which to maintain and which to add in any case. I also do need some amount of aid. not a very great amount but a significant one.
Schools: Early Decision 1. Cornell 2. Dartmouth ( i’m stuck between going ED for Cornell and Dartmouth. I’ll go ED for one and EA for the other. help me decide)
Early Action 1. Stanford 2. Brown
Regular Decision 1. University of Chicago 2. Washington University in St Louis 3. University of Massachusetts Amherst 4. Texas A&M 5. Georgia State 6. UT Dallas 7. Arizona State 8. Louisiana State 9. Howard University 10. Prairie View A&M 11. Jackson State 12. Georgia Tech
Please help me out. thank you!
2023.06.10 21:10 SpaceSugarGlider Connecting Wilson/Davis & Elizondo: AAWSAP, AARO, and Zodiac
This post is long, controversial people and ideas appear below, I speculate at points, and there's a lot of acronyms, so a summary up-front: The Wilson/Davis meeting was real, the program Admiral Wilson told Dr. Davis about was real. It is the same program--Zodiac--that Lue Elizondo and Harry Reid ran afoul of in 2009, pointed in its direction by Dr. Davis. The program is so powerful in the US DoD that it managed to do what all organizations do when they feel threatened by a competitor: it "consumed" the UAPTF (successor to Harry Reid et al's AAWSAP), and re-org'd it ultimately as "AARO", to serve a role once filled by Project Blue Book: a public UFO debunking group to make the subject appear mundane. AARO, unknown perhaps to some or all working for it, is the public relations wing of the control group behind the cover-up, or is itself now an active arm of it. AARO should not be trusted. The control group guards the gateway to a reality wilder than imagination.
Intro
In May 2022 the United States held hearings on UFOs (9-min highlights).
In those proceedings, representatives of AOIMSG (later re-designated "AARO"):
The two gentlemen claimed no knowledge of any UFO program/s within the US Government in the years between AAWSAP (which officially ran from 2008-2012, and continued in some fashion through 2017 before being succeeded by the UAPTF) and the USAF's Project Blue Book (which closed in 1969).
They claimed no knowledge of well-known UFO incidents (which would have been in the files they inherited from UAPTF), claimed no communications attempts had been sent to unknown fliers in US airspace (Implies that unknowns--including Russian or Chinese--can enter and exit US airspace without challenge), showed a short video of a 'dot' in the sky claiming it was all they had to go on, and so on. Christopher Mellon said at the time: https://i.redd.it/8kr2wz2859091.jpg
But Mr. Moultrie's and Mr. Bray's testimony did not match information previously released, not limited to but specifically by Luis Elizondo, who once ran AAWSAP/AATIP: the predecessor to UAPTF, the program AOIMSG/AARO re-org'd from and the papers and materials of which they had in their possession.
We know that AAWSAP/AATIP and UAPTF shared at least some personnel (Dr. Eric Davis was a consultant to both programs, for instance), it is reasonable to think there was a continuity of data between programs as well, meaning that AAWSAP's data became UAPTF's, and in turn: AOIMSG/AARO's. Which leads me to ask why the representatives of AOIMSG/AARO seemed ignorant of data they should have had. I don't expect the people at the top to know everything off the tops of their heads, but one would think they'd have their resident nerds brief them before going before Congress.
So what did AAWSAP/AATIP know?
Though former director Luis Elizondo has often asked us to "read between the lines", limited in what he can publicly say due to the Non-Disclosure Agreements (NDAs) he's bound by, his message becomes clearer when events are laid out in order, dots between them connected.
When comparing information from AAWSAP and Elizondo to the Wilson/Davis notes, parallels emerge and details bolster each other.
This has implications for the legitimacy of AOIMSG/AARO.
Part 1: Admiral Thomas Wilson meets "the gatekeepers"
The notes of the 2002 meeting between Admiral Thomas Wilson and Dr. Eric Davis:
https://web.archive.org/web/20190609152124/https://imgur.com/a/ggIFTfQ
Uploaded in 2019 by UFO researcher Grant Cameron, the Wilson/Davis notes were found in the personal papers of late NASA astronaut Dr. Edgar Mitchell, after he passed in 2016.
The notes had been rumored to exist for over a decade prior. Edgar Mitchell discussed the story behind them on CNN's "Larry King Live" in 2008: https://youtu.be/unEzDmiHKic?t=80 (time-stamped)
The notes are one of the most controversial cases to appear in ufology in decades, with credible supporting and skeptical arguments alike. No less than John Greenewald Jr. (of The Black Vault) has speculated the notes were written for a film or TV show.
https://www.theblackvault.com/casefiles/the-admiral-wilson-leak-an-analysis/
I ask your indulgence as I respectfully disagree with Mr. Greenewald below.
The Wilson/Davis notes contend that Admiral Thomas Wilson (US Navy, now retired) met Dr. Eric Davis (of Bigelow Aerospace Advanced Space Studies, NIDS, AAWSAP, and a consultant for UAPTF) in Las Vegas in 2002 for a confidential meeting at Davis's request. Davis tooks notes during the meeting, and those notes are what Grant Cameron eventually published online.
Admiral Wilson allegedly told Dr. Davis in that meeting about the admiral's attempt circa 1997 to gain access to a reverse-engineering program managed by at least one large American private defense contractor, and controlled via an unusual governmental Special Access Program, or SAP.
SAPs can serve as "umbrellas" for USAPs: Unacknowledged Special Access programs, which can themselves be umbrellas for even more secretive programs, programs that ultimately even the SAP Oversight Commitee has little or no window into. Like a "Russian doll" of secrecy.
In the mid-1990s, Dr. Steven Greer (of CSETI) obtained a document dated 28 July 1991, said to be leaked from the Nellis Test & Training Range (NTTR) in Nevada:
https://web.archive.org/web/20230205091457/https://siriusdisclosure.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/NRO-Doc.pdf
This document listed a number of group code-names, warning each to suspend visible operations in light of an impending civilian UFO-researcher event in the nearby town of Rachel, Nevada, just to the north of the NTTR.
Dr. Greer, at that time in the mid-'90s working alongside Dr. Edgar Mitchell (Mitchell later distanced himself from Greer), met with Admiral Wilson around 1996, and showed him that allegedly leaked document from the NTTR.
Dr. Greer asked the admiral to see if he could, using his clearances and access, find anything about any of the code names on that list.
Two of the names on that list are MAJ and MAJI Ops. If legitimate, this would lend credence to the idea of some group with a name similar to "MAJIC" or "Majestic": extremely loaded terms.
Admiral Wilson searched the Pentagon Records Group, and found at least one of the names on that list (we don't know which): it was a Special Access Program within what was at that time the OUSDAT (at that time, the Office of the Under-Secretary of Defense for Acquisitions and Technology).
From the Wilson/Davis notes page 7, Wilson speaking to Davis in 2002:
He reached out to its leaders, and was grudgingly granted a meeting with three people who called themselves the gatekeepers, who reluctantly told him they represented a reverse-engineering program: that they had in their possession at least one intact vehicle "not made by human hands".
They were mostly concerned with how he found them and what he wanted. When he said he needed to be vetted in, they saw to it that the admiral was rebuffed and threatened--with loss of rank and pension--if he pursued the matter further.
Admiral Wilson has been contacted multiple times over the years since and has denied the Wilson/Davis notes each time, as he promised he would within the notes themselves.
In a 2020 interview with the NY Post's Steven Greenstreet, Dr. Eric Davis awkwardly refused to confirm or deny the meeting and notes. Judge for yourself, here is that clip, he reads to me as a man cornered:
https://np.reddit.com/UFOs/comments/pvwhsi/heres_the_deleted_video_of_eric_davis_talking/
Next I'm going to get into AAWSAP, and it's worth noting I feel that Dr. Davis was a consultant to that program. He reported to Dr. Hal Puthoff, who himself reported to Lue Elizondo.
https://web.archive.org/web/20211214190334/https://www.ufojoe.net/wp-content/uploads/2019/11/DavisHalLue.png (L to R: Puthoff, Elizondo, and Davis)
As all these people worked together and shared security clearances, they were freer to talk about certain topics than Dr. Davis appears in the video with Mr. Greenstreet above. This potentially has implications, for how and from where Elizondo might know where to look for "certain things".
Part 2: Senate Majority Leader Harry Reid and the mysterious "other" UFO group
2008: AAWSAP's beginnings have been gone over many times, I'll summarize only. The New York Times article from December 2017 that revealed the program is here.
A brief summary of the origins of the program can be had here, in a somewhat neutral tone.
The program grew out of discussions between Las Vegas entrepreneur Robert Bigelow and the late Senator Harry Reid, and initially was led by Dr. James Lacatski with a focus on studying unexplained phenomena, including UFOs.
When Dr. Lacatski left the group, former counter-intel officer Luis Elizondo was brought in to lead the program.
I'm going to put aside the fact Mr. Elizondo met the head of a US Government UFO program that ran in the 1980s, which already makes AOIMSG/AARO's assertion there was no program between Blue Book and AAWSAP false. Mr. Moultrie and Mr. Bray had only to ask Elizondo if he knew of any other groups, but they apparently were incurious.
2009: Mr. Elizondo, the fresh director of AAWSAP, bumped up against a different group (not the one from the 1980s) within the US Department of Defense--a Special Access Program of some kind--which he and Sen. Harry Reid had reason to believe held deep secrets about the same kinds of subjects AAWSAP was looking into, specifically non-human-created technologies.
Not being a Special Access Program themselves, AAWSAP had no access to this other group's personnel, data, or materials.
Senator Reid, who was at the time the US Senate Majority Leader and one of the trio of senators (along with Ted Stevens and Daniel Inouye) who'd gotten AAWSAP initially funded, tried to get AAWSAP (as "AATIP") re-designated a Special Access Program itself:
https://web.archive.org/web/20220515090232/https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/4/47/Reid_letter_2009_1532565293943_49621615_ver1.0.pdf
This would have granted specific AAWSAP personnel (as AATIP) the appropriate clearances to be vetted into this strange SAP they'd run into.
Senator Reid was rebuffed, and he, along with AAWSAP/AATIP personnel--including Mr. Elizondo and Dr. Hal Puthoff--was denied access to the other group and its materials. They shut out not only Elizondo (a trusted and decorated military veteran who already held top-secret clearances), but the Majority Leader of the United States Senate.
https://youtu.be/FMBpthoATFk?t=779
George Knapp (investigative journalist: KLAS Las Vegas, MysteryWire, Weaponized):
Part 3: UAPTF, to AOIMSG, to AARO -- Stealing back the narrative
In 2012, AAWSAP was refused additional funding and officially closed, though the program continued in some fashion until Elizondo's resignation from the US Government and his joining Tom DeLonge's To The Stars in 2017.
After Elizondo went public, the US Government effort that had been AAWSAP/AATIP was ultimately reborn as the UAP Task Force (UAPTF), which eventually counted among its members UFO whistleblower David Grusch.
Under To The Stars, the current public UFO disclosure advocacy effort began, with Christopher Mellon acquiring and leaking three now-famous videos of UFOs recorded by US Navy personnel, the release of History Channel's Unidentified series, and a steady stream of press: the tone of which began to take the subject more seriously.
This began to apply pressure from the outside to the subject: by re-framing it as an aerospace integrity, safety, and national security issue, credible people like Mellon poked the US Government asking, "Why won't you take this seriously?"
This led to increasing serious interest in the topic not only by the public but by vocal members of the US Congress like Mike Gallagher and Tim Burchett, by respected journalists like Ross Coulthart. Stigma was chipped away at, new reporting avenues were added for US military personnel; progress seemed to be being made.
In response, I think the group Elizondo and Reid, and before them I believe Admiral Wilson, had encountered, did what any organization that feels another could become a threat to it does: they bought out the competition, consuming the UAPTF and making it their own.
In a December 2021 article for The Hill, Elizondo and Mellon each voiced concern over the re-org and move of the now former-UAPTF to AOIMSG (later re-branded AARO) under the Office of the Under Secretary of Defense for Intelligence & Security (OUSD(I&S)):
https://web.archive.org/web/20230205090354/https://thehill.com/opinion/international/583575-a-pentagon-ufo-cover-up-ex-officials-speak-out/
Elizondo:
Part 4: Who is this "other" UFO program?
For decades there has been talk of an organization operating behind the scenes within the US Government on the UFO problem, from Project Aquarius, to the "men in black", to the Majestic 12.
In May 2021 UFO researcher Project Unity tweeted this brief exchange between UFO researchehistorian Richard Dolan and Lue Elizondo.
https://web.archive.org/web/20211029230827/https://twitter.com/TheProjectUnity/status/1395692929151291397
They may no longer go by "Zodiac", but they almost certainly did as recently as 2009, in order for Elizondo to know that name, unless he heard it from Dr. Eric Davis (possible, even likely).
Zodiac is almost certainly the program Sen. Harry Reid tried (and failed) to get his people vetted into. I believe it's the same group (or a related silo) which denied Admiral Wilson access to their reverse-engineering program in 1997.
This group is either the current version of whatever it was Admiral Wilson found via the Pentagon Records Group, or it sits beneath it in hierarchy. Dr. Davis is likely the person who pointed Lue Elizondo in its direction, when Elizondo took charge of AAWSAP and started snooping around internally.
Zodiac is either the umbrella group itself, or one of several sibling programs (Unacknowledged SAPs) nested within a master SAP.
If it's a sub-program, it might be the reverse-engineering wing, compartmentalized apart from other silos. The other big candidate in this case could be crash retrieval.
The reverse-engineering program places recovered non-human technologies in private corporations (exempt from Freedom of Information Act requests), access to which is limited to strict "bigot lists" and protected by extremely punishing NDAs.
Progress on reverse-engineering is glacial if anything, but we will be shocked to learn what things we use in daily life have come from or were influenced by alien technologies.
People have been ruined or buried in unmarked graves for breaking ranks with the program/s. Favored aerospace and technology corporations have benefited from the relationship while their competitors have been bought out or ruined.
Military application of technologies takes all precedence.
Crash retrieval sounds straight-forward but I bet it has a lot of nuances, a lot of special skills and equipment. A global quick-response infrastructure is implied (meaning groups ready to deploy across the globe at all times. We don't want people flying out of Wright-Pat to get to a crash in say Australia, we'd want a team with the right equipment already in say Guam, ready to activate), with skilled/trained personnel and equipment standing by at all hours. The field personnel may be military or ex-military. National borders would seem to mean little and essentially violating other countries' territories a required part of the job.
Reverse-engineering, and crash retrievals, are likely not the only silos of the group.
Joe Murgia ("UFO Joe") interviewed Commander Will Miller, who is referenced in the Wilson/Davis notes.
https://web.archive.org/web/20221201140901/https://www.ufojoe.net/will-miller-complete/
(This is me speculating wildly on what these other programs could contain information on, and should be taken with enormous grains of salt):
Imagine if there's a silo that holds alien medical technologies: treatments or cures for diseases. The ability to re-grow lost limbs, to repair spinal damage or lost eyesight/hearing. Even if not applicable (yet) to human biology, the ideas that could come from this if shared with the medical community across Earth... all brought here incidentally in a "first-aid kit" aboard someone else's spacecraft. In defense of Zodiac, imagine the terrible weaponization potential.
Could we ever forgive these people for keeping secrets like this? For the crimes they've committed to do so? Even if they did what they felt was needed to protect national interests, at some point the base fact that we're not alone should belong to everyone. Because it really feels like what started as an attempt to hide technologies that could be weaponized if a competitor figured them out first has turned into "hiding everything we've done to hide that technology, and we can't mention aliens because that begs the question how did they get here, which brings us back to the technology", tech they don't know how to make more of.
Conclusion: Following "Lue's Clues", thoughts on and fear of the control group, disinformation, and questions
There is implication in information from Elizondo and Dr. Davis that there's been a clandestine organization controlling the UFO issue operating within the US Department of Defense for decades, a group which has repeatedly shielded itself from prying eyes. What they can't shield they reduce through propaganda to ridicule. If not in name or historical fact, this may as well be the Majestic 12 of UFO lore.
I write that name with a heavy heart, and with fear. People on these forums always snipe, "That's just what you want to believe," or, "Nobody wants to believe more than me, but c'mon".
I read those replies and every time think, "Do you know what you're saying? Have you read the Majestic documents? They're terrifying. Of course I don't want it to be real! I want it to be fake, like Robert Hastings said!" The reality they suggest is horrifying to me.
I've recoiled from, fled from, the possibility of the Majestic 12 for more than 30 years, since I first read the initial papers in Timothy Good's Above Top Secret in late 1989.
I with great trepidation read Stanton Friedman's TOP SECRET/MAJIC, hoping for some fatal flaw. I've read with interest (and often unease) these past few years everything Harry_is_white_hot--probably the lead researcher currently working on the topic--has put out about MJ-12. I keep hoping for that fatal flaw in the basic concept of a shadowy "men in black"-type group like this. No conspiracy can be that big and remain hidden, surely.
But objective reality is not influenced by what we want or would find more comfortable to be true; it simply is what it is.
That's not to say everything in the Majestic documents is real (I still hope to god it's not; they literally contain a directive on when to execute stranded alien beings to preserve secrecy), but the fact of a real organization filling that role--whatever its real history is--is for me no longer escapable after David Grusch.
I've had suspicions about AARO since its inception as AOIMSG, since the warning from Elizondo and Mellon about OUSD(I&S) in The Hill.
The re-org of UAPTF into AARO seems to me an attempt to regain control of the narrative after people like Elizondo and Mellon began to apply public pressure on the US Government to disclose what it knows about UFOs. What they can't keep secret, they ridicule: a powerful social tool.
For two decades, the US Air Force used Project Blue Book to gaslight not only the American populace, but the news media and the world, into thinking there was no "there" there in UFOs. That those of us interested in the topic were insane, to be socially ostracized, shamed, and shunned.
Blue Book was, it was later revealed by its former scientific advisor Dr. J. Allen Hynek, a public relations and propaganda program.
AARO is in its purpose no different, and will be the first place the news media turns to explain to them what is going on with the unfolding David Grusch story. Well, AARO or Neil DeGrasse-Tyson. Maybe Bill Nye.
The Grusch story is already being attached to the sensational Las Vegas "aliens in the backyard" tale - see ABC News Chicago, complete with X-files music! - scroll down the article to see them mention Mr. Grusch. Zodiac's tendrils in the press are twitching, and not even that much: just poke the bias toward mundanity they've nurtured in us for decades.
As the infamous quote goes:
Mr. Elizondo's information, passed in pieces due to his NDAs, has been widely mocked as "Lue's Clues": deliberately mysterious and obfuscated. He's been derided as a grifter and con-artist, he's been doxxed, he's provided what he can at enormous personal cost to himself and his family. Stringing the information and hints that he's put out together, the picture not only becomes more detailed, it implies a conspiracy which in and of itself will be an ontological shock, beyond which lies even more shock, after shock, after shock.
If a nobody like me can read what Elizondo's getting at, why can't Mr. Moultrie, or Mr. Bray, or Dr. Sean Kirkpatrick for that matter? Do they not at least have questions? Are they so incurious? This is literally their job, at least on paper.
David Grusch has briefed AARO personnel on his extraordinary findings, and AARO still says, "We have no credible/verifiable indication of non-human intelligence." Saying little, they speak volumes.
The implications make me feel, appropriately I think: "somber".
I'll end with some brief thoughts from Lue Elizondo:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jythx89ym38
Thanks for reading.
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In May 2022 the United States held hearings on UFOs (9-min highlights).
In those proceedings, representatives of AOIMSG (later re-designated "AARO"):
- Ronald Moultrie, Under Secretary of Defense: Intelligence & Security
- Scott W. Bray, Deputy Director of Navy Intelligence
The two gentlemen claimed no knowledge of any UFO program/s within the US Government in the years between AAWSAP (which officially ran from 2008-2012, and continued in some fashion through 2017 before being succeeded by the UAPTF) and the USAF's Project Blue Book (which closed in 1969).
They claimed no knowledge of well-known UFO incidents (which would have been in the files they inherited from UAPTF), claimed no communications attempts had been sent to unknown fliers in US airspace (Implies that unknowns--including Russian or Chinese--can enter and exit US airspace without challenge), showed a short video of a 'dot' in the sky claiming it was all they had to go on, and so on. Christopher Mellon said at the time: https://i.redd.it/8kr2wz2859091.jpg
But Mr. Moultrie's and Mr. Bray's testimony did not match information previously released, not limited to but specifically by Luis Elizondo, who once ran AAWSAP/AATIP: the predecessor to UAPTF, the program AOIMSG/AARO re-org'd from and the papers and materials of which they had in their possession.
We know that AAWSAP/AATIP and UAPTF shared at least some personnel (Dr. Eric Davis was a consultant to both programs, for instance), it is reasonable to think there was a continuity of data between programs as well, meaning that AAWSAP's data became UAPTF's, and in turn: AOIMSG/AARO's. Which leads me to ask why the representatives of AOIMSG/AARO seemed ignorant of data they should have had. I don't expect the people at the top to know everything off the tops of their heads, but one would think they'd have their resident nerds brief them before going before Congress.
So what did AAWSAP/AATIP know?
Though former director Luis Elizondo has often asked us to "read between the lines", limited in what he can publicly say due to the Non-Disclosure Agreements (NDAs) he's bound by, his message becomes clearer when events are laid out in order, dots between them connected.
When comparing information from AAWSAP and Elizondo to the Wilson/Davis notes, parallels emerge and details bolster each other.
This has implications for the legitimacy of AOIMSG/AARO.
The notes of the 2002 meeting between Admiral Thomas Wilson and Dr. Eric Davis:
https://web.archive.org/web/20190609152124/https://imgur.com/a/ggIFTfQ
Uploaded in 2019 by UFO researcher Grant Cameron, the Wilson/Davis notes were found in the personal papers of late NASA astronaut Dr. Edgar Mitchell, after he passed in 2016.
The notes had been rumored to exist for over a decade prior. Edgar Mitchell discussed the story behind them on CNN's "Larry King Live" in 2008: https://youtu.be/unEzDmiHKic?t=80 (time-stamped)
The notes are one of the most controversial cases to appear in ufology in decades, with credible supporting and skeptical arguments alike. No less than John Greenewald Jr. (of The Black Vault) has speculated the notes were written for a film or TV show.
https://www.theblackvault.com/casefiles/the-admiral-wilson-leak-an-analysis/
I ask your indulgence as I respectfully disagree with Mr. Greenewald below.
The Wilson/Davis notes contend that Admiral Thomas Wilson (US Navy, now retired) met Dr. Eric Davis (of Bigelow Aerospace Advanced Space Studies, NIDS, AAWSAP, and a consultant for UAPTF) in Las Vegas in 2002 for a confidential meeting at Davis's request. Davis tooks notes during the meeting, and those notes are what Grant Cameron eventually published online.
Admiral Wilson allegedly told Dr. Davis in that meeting about the admiral's attempt circa 1997 to gain access to a reverse-engineering program managed by at least one large American private defense contractor, and controlled via an unusual governmental Special Access Program, or SAP.
SAPs can serve as "umbrellas" for USAPs: Unacknowledged Special Access programs, which can themselves be umbrellas for even more secretive programs, programs that ultimately even the SAP Oversight Commitee has little or no window into. Like a "Russian doll" of secrecy.
In the mid-1990s, Dr. Steven Greer (of CSETI) obtained a document dated 28 July 1991, said to be leaked from the Nellis Test & Training Range (NTTR) in Nevada:
https://web.archive.org/web/20230205091457/https://siriusdisclosure.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/NRO-Doc.pdf
This document listed a number of group code-names, warning each to suspend visible operations in light of an impending civilian UFO-researcher event in the nearby town of Rachel, Nevada, just to the north of the NTTR.
Dr. Greer, at that time in the mid-'90s working alongside Dr. Edgar Mitchell (Mitchell later distanced himself from Greer), met with Admiral Wilson around 1996, and showed him that allegedly leaked document from the NTTR.
Dr. Greer asked the admiral to see if he could, using his clearances and access, find anything about any of the code names on that list.
Two of the names on that list are MAJ and MAJI Ops. If legitimate, this would lend credence to the idea of some group with a name similar to "MAJIC" or "Majestic": extremely loaded terms.
Admiral Wilson searched the Pentagon Records Group, and found at least one of the names on that list (we don't know which): it was a Special Access Program within what was at that time the OUSDAT (at that time, the Office of the Under-Secretary of Defense for Acquisitions and Technology).
From the Wilson/Davis notes page 7, Wilson speaking to Davis in 2002:
They told me of a special projects record group not belonging to usual SAP - a special subset of the unacknowledged/carve-outs/waived programs - not belonging to usual SAP divisions as organized in '94 by Perry himself - set apart from rest but buried/covered by conventional SAPsThe admiral was concerned that the program he found should have been something he was aware of, if not in control of. But he had no prior knowledge of it at all.
He reached out to its leaders, and was grudgingly granted a meeting with three people who called themselves the gatekeepers, who reluctantly told him they represented a reverse-engineering program: that they had in their possession at least one intact vehicle "not made by human hands".
They were mostly concerned with how he found them and what he wanted. When he said he needed to be vetted in, they saw to it that the admiral was rebuffed and threatened--with loss of rank and pension--if he pursued the matter further.
Admiral Wilson has been contacted multiple times over the years since and has denied the Wilson/Davis notes each time, as he promised he would within the notes themselves.
In a 2020 interview with the NY Post's Steven Greenstreet, Dr. Eric Davis awkwardly refused to confirm or deny the meeting and notes. Judge for yourself, here is that clip, he reads to me as a man cornered:
https://np.reddit.com/UFOs/comments/pvwhsi/heres_the_deleted_video_of_eric_davis_talking/
Next I'm going to get into AAWSAP, and it's worth noting I feel that Dr. Davis was a consultant to that program. He reported to Dr. Hal Puthoff, who himself reported to Lue Elizondo.
https://web.archive.org/web/20211214190334/https://www.ufojoe.net/wp-content/uploads/2019/11/DavisHalLue.png (L to R: Puthoff, Elizondo, and Davis)
As all these people worked together and shared security clearances, they were freer to talk about certain topics than Dr. Davis appears in the video with Mr. Greenstreet above. This potentially has implications, for how and from where Elizondo might know where to look for "certain things".
2008: AAWSAP's beginnings have been gone over many times, I'll summarize only. The New York Times article from December 2017 that revealed the program is here.
A brief summary of the origins of the program can be had here, in a somewhat neutral tone.
The program grew out of discussions between Las Vegas entrepreneur Robert Bigelow and the late Senator Harry Reid, and initially was led by Dr. James Lacatski with a focus on studying unexplained phenomena, including UFOs.
When Dr. Lacatski left the group, former counter-intel officer Luis Elizondo was brought in to lead the program.
I'm going to put aside the fact Mr. Elizondo met the head of a US Government UFO program that ran in the 1980s, which already makes AOIMSG/AARO's assertion there was no program between Blue Book and AAWSAP false. Mr. Moultrie and Mr. Bray had only to ask Elizondo if he knew of any other groups, but they apparently were incurious.
2009: Mr. Elizondo, the fresh director of AAWSAP, bumped up against a different group (not the one from the 1980s) within the US Department of Defense--a Special Access Program of some kind--which he and Sen. Harry Reid had reason to believe held deep secrets about the same kinds of subjects AAWSAP was looking into, specifically non-human-created technologies.
Not being a Special Access Program themselves, AAWSAP had no access to this other group's personnel, data, or materials.
Senator Reid, who was at the time the US Senate Majority Leader and one of the trio of senators (along with Ted Stevens and Daniel Inouye) who'd gotten AAWSAP initially funded, tried to get AAWSAP (as "AATIP") re-designated a Special Access Program itself:
https://web.archive.org/web/20220515090232/https://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/4/47/Reid_letter_2009_1532565293943_49621615_ver1.0.pdf
This would have granted specific AAWSAP personnel (as AATIP) the appropriate clearances to be vetted into this strange SAP they'd run into.
Senator Reid was rebuffed, and he, along with AAWSAP/AATIP personnel--including Mr. Elizondo and Dr. Hal Puthoff--was denied access to the other group and its materials. They shut out not only Elizondo (a trusted and decorated military veteran who already held top-secret clearances), but the Majority Leader of the United States Senate.
https://youtu.be/FMBpthoATFk?t=779
George Knapp (investigative journalist: KLAS Las Vegas, MysteryWire, Weaponized):
What was the intention, with making it (AAWSAP) into a Special Access Program?Sen. Reid:
Well there are certain things that we had learned in our work, that there were places that we needed to go, that people had certain things, equipment, and other stuff, that we needed to see, and you couldn't do it unless you got, clearance from the Pentagon, and they wouldn't give it to us.Knapp:
It suggests that there are other studies or programs, that might shed light on this mystery?Sen. Reid:
Other programs, that have been done, and information they have, including different um, pieces of evidence.Knapp:
...Do you know what those pieces are?Sen. Reid:
No... um, I've just only heard rumors, and I'm not going to get into rumors.
In 2012, AAWSAP was refused additional funding and officially closed, though the program continued in some fashion until Elizondo's resignation from the US Government and his joining Tom DeLonge's To The Stars in 2017.
After Elizondo went public, the US Government effort that had been AAWSAP/AATIP was ultimately reborn as the UAP Task Force (UAPTF), which eventually counted among its members UFO whistleblower David Grusch.
Under To The Stars, the current public UFO disclosure advocacy effort began, with Christopher Mellon acquiring and leaking three now-famous videos of UFOs recorded by US Navy personnel, the release of History Channel's Unidentified series, and a steady stream of press: the tone of which began to take the subject more seriously.
This began to apply pressure from the outside to the subject: by re-framing it as an aerospace integrity, safety, and national security issue, credible people like Mellon poked the US Government asking, "Why won't you take this seriously?"
This led to increasing serious interest in the topic not only by the public but by vocal members of the US Congress like Mike Gallagher and Tim Burchett, by respected journalists like Ross Coulthart. Stigma was chipped away at, new reporting avenues were added for US military personnel; progress seemed to be being made.
In response, I think the group Elizondo and Reid, and before them I believe Admiral Wilson, had encountered, did what any organization that feels another could become a threat to it does: they bought out the competition, consuming the UAPTF and making it their own.
In a December 2021 article for The Hill, Elizondo and Mellon each voiced concern over the re-org and move of the now former-UAPTF to AOIMSG (later re-branded AARO) under the Office of the Under Secretary of Defense for Intelligence & Security (OUSD(I&S)):
https://web.archive.org/web/20230205090354/https://thehill.com/opinion/international/583575-a-pentagon-ufo-cover-up-ex-officials-speak-out/
Elizondo:
"...If we want 70 more years of secrecy on this topic, then OUSD(I&S) is the perfect place to put it. They’ve had four years so far, and we have little in the way of efforts serving the public interest."Mellon:
"...the inability of OUSD(I&S) to engage effectively on the [UFO] issue is why so little has changed or been accomplished since 2004."With the newly-branded AARO in their pocket, the control group regained the upper hand. Instead of doing away with a government UFO office entirely, they would control the one that existed and through it shape the public narrative, getting disinformation back on track.
For decades there has been talk of an organization operating behind the scenes within the US Government on the UFO problem, from Project Aquarius, to the "men in black", to the Majestic 12.
In May 2021 UFO researcher Project Unity tweeted this brief exchange between UFO researchehistorian Richard Dolan and Lue Elizondo.
https://web.archive.org/web/20211029230827/https://twitter.com/TheProjectUnity/status/1395692929151291397
Richard Dolan: "Have you ever come across evidence that supports the reality of an organization, whether we call it MJ-12 or Zodiac?"Like the devil of Earth myths, they've "had so many names".
Lue Elizondo: "Sure, absolutely"
Richard Dolan: "Okay so I want to ask about Zodiac, I've got reasons for asking, is this something you have come across?"
Lue Elizondo: "Yes"
Richard Dolan: "So can I ask you what you can say about that?"
Lue Elizondo: "I cannot".
They may no longer go by "Zodiac", but they almost certainly did as recently as 2009, in order for Elizondo to know that name, unless he heard it from Dr. Eric Davis (possible, even likely).
Zodiac is almost certainly the program Sen. Harry Reid tried (and failed) to get his people vetted into. I believe it's the same group (or a related silo) which denied Admiral Wilson access to their reverse-engineering program in 1997.
This group is either the current version of whatever it was Admiral Wilson found via the Pentagon Records Group, or it sits beneath it in hierarchy. Dr. Davis is likely the person who pointed Lue Elizondo in its direction, when Elizondo took charge of AAWSAP and started snooping around internally.
Zodiac is either the umbrella group itself, or one of several sibling programs (Unacknowledged SAPs) nested within a master SAP.
If it's a sub-program, it might be the reverse-engineering wing, compartmentalized apart from other silos. The other big candidate in this case could be crash retrieval.
The reverse-engineering program places recovered non-human technologies in private corporations (exempt from Freedom of Information Act requests), access to which is limited to strict "bigot lists" and protected by extremely punishing NDAs.
Progress on reverse-engineering is glacial if anything, but we will be shocked to learn what things we use in daily life have come from or were influenced by alien technologies.
People have been ruined or buried in unmarked graves for breaking ranks with the program/s. Favored aerospace and technology corporations have benefited from the relationship while their competitors have been bought out or ruined.
Military application of technologies takes all precedence.
Crash retrieval sounds straight-forward but I bet it has a lot of nuances, a lot of special skills and equipment. A global quick-response infrastructure is implied (meaning groups ready to deploy across the globe at all times. We don't want people flying out of Wright-Pat to get to a crash in say Australia, we'd want a team with the right equipment already in say Guam, ready to activate), with skilled/trained personnel and equipment standing by at all hours. The field personnel may be military or ex-military. National borders would seem to mean little and essentially violating other countries' territories a required part of the job.
Reverse-engineering, and crash retrievals, are likely not the only silos of the group.
Joe Murgia ("UFO Joe") interviewed Commander Will Miller, who is referenced in the Wilson/Davis notes.
https://web.archive.org/web/20221201140901/https://www.ufojoe.net/will-miller-complete/
Joe Murgia: When you say “Control Group” like you did in Leslie Kean’s book, do you mean an MJ-12-like group?The other silos under the master umbrella program, compartmentalized apart from each other, could look like...
Will Miller: Yes, I’d opine that there are probably multiple “Control Groups”, each one covering certain aspects of the UFO/ETI issue; i.e. one probably covering crash retrievals & analysis, another covering collecting & analyzing reports of “encounters,” another related to overall oversight, etc. That’s just within DoD. Additionally, there are a limited # of DoD “contractors” who even have the technological capability to work this issue to include analysis, security, etc.
(This is me speculating wildly on what these other programs could contain information on, and should be taken with enormous grains of salt):
- Biological remains, and what can be gleaned from them on the environments the beings evolved in; cell-structure, nutritional requirements, reproduction, ancestry/evolutionary history. Weapons applications of non-terrestrial biology.
- Intelligence gathering on off-world organizations. Spying on those watching humanity, maybe even using stolen alien technology to do so. Implications of using ET tech to spy on terrestrial competitors, both corporate and national. Implications if any of our visitors turn out to be biologically human (meaning their ancestors were taken from Earth and a viable breeding population of humans is kept part of the alien society even now, identical to us, perfect spies).
- Organic/machine interfaces - anything from physical control consoles, to mind/machine interfaces, to biologically-integrated technologies, purpose-grown artificial/synthetic life-forms, genetic engineering.
- Xeno-linguistics and communications. Alien languages: spoken, written, computemachine language/s, and maybe things we don't have an analogue for (IE the oft-reported telepathy, either naturally evolved or technologically achieved).
- Exo-politics - the nature of alien command and social structures (or lack thereof) and initiatives; policies on dealing with native life-forms (like us).
- Terrestrial foreign power intelligence gathering - what do other countries know/have and what are they doing with it? Given the reasons for the cover-up (weaponization), this would seem of paramount importance to the overall program.
- Recovered craft: testing and potential use thereof. As astonished as I feel writing this... have we taken recovered or reverse-engineered craft off-world ourselves? Do we use them for terrestrial espionage? A single alien craft, if useable by humans at all, could be a game-changing military asset, so I doubt this... but I can't call it "off the table".
- New (to us) physics - imagine what someone capable of traversing the space between star systems (or "parallel realities" if one prefers) knows about the nature of reality, that we humans do not. As the late Carl Sagan once said, "To bake an apple pie from scratch, you must first create the universe." Weaponization of ideas learned from alien understanding of physics (IE microwave or beam weaponry, gravity manipulation to achieve force fields, time distortions, or targeted gravitational disruptions).
- Materials science - compounds or isotopes not found in the Sol system or even guessed at. Atomic or sub-atomic level engineering. Imagine trying to understand objects that came from industrial-sized fabricators with integrated particle acceleration capable of "3-D printing" anything from hand-held devices to entire starships in minutes using nothing but hydrogen and helium as building blocks, engineering from the sub-atomic on up with integrated quantum-computing in every atom of the device. The possibilities, as astounding as I find it, of 3-D printing custom-engineered living beings or exact duplicates of existing organisms.
- Exo-computational devices and databases - consider what might be gleaned from understanding the alien version of a "computer". Imagine the data stored within: star charts, maps back to the point of origin or colonies and to every other inhabited biosphere within thousands of light years (or on a multi-galactic scale), medical data, historical data, entertainment like music or visuals, 3-D data storage including imagery and sounds from Earth's own past and/or countless other worlds under their observation. Not to mention insights into the minds of the people who made the technology: how they think and process data, at what speed, etc.
Imagine if there's a silo that holds alien medical technologies: treatments or cures for diseases. The ability to re-grow lost limbs, to repair spinal damage or lost eyesight/hearing. Even if not applicable (yet) to human biology, the ideas that could come from this if shared with the medical community across Earth... all brought here incidentally in a "first-aid kit" aboard someone else's spacecraft. In defense of Zodiac, imagine the terrible weaponization potential.
Could we ever forgive these people for keeping secrets like this? For the crimes they've committed to do so? Even if they did what they felt was needed to protect national interests, at some point the base fact that we're not alone should belong to everyone. Because it really feels like what started as an attempt to hide technologies that could be weaponized if a competitor figured them out first has turned into "hiding everything we've done to hide that technology, and we can't mention aliens because that begs the question how did they get here, which brings us back to the technology", tech they don't know how to make more of.
There is implication in information from Elizondo and Dr. Davis that there's been a clandestine organization controlling the UFO issue operating within the US Department of Defense for decades, a group which has repeatedly shielded itself from prying eyes. What they can't shield they reduce through propaganda to ridicule. If not in name or historical fact, this may as well be the Majestic 12 of UFO lore.
I write that name with a heavy heart, and with fear. People on these forums always snipe, "That's just what you want to believe," or, "Nobody wants to believe more than me, but c'mon".
I read those replies and every time think, "Do you know what you're saying? Have you read the Majestic documents? They're terrifying. Of course I don't want it to be real! I want it to be fake, like Robert Hastings said!" The reality they suggest is horrifying to me.
I've recoiled from, fled from, the possibility of the Majestic 12 for more than 30 years, since I first read the initial papers in Timothy Good's Above Top Secret in late 1989.
I with great trepidation read Stanton Friedman's TOP SECRET/MAJIC, hoping for some fatal flaw. I've read with interest (and often unease) these past few years everything Harry_is_white_hot--probably the lead researcher currently working on the topic--has put out about MJ-12. I keep hoping for that fatal flaw in the basic concept of a shadowy "men in black"-type group like this. No conspiracy can be that big and remain hidden, surely.
But objective reality is not influenced by what we want or would find more comfortable to be true; it simply is what it is.
That's not to say everything in the Majestic documents is real (I still hope to god it's not; they literally contain a directive on when to execute stranded alien beings to preserve secrecy), but the fact of a real organization filling that role--whatever its real history is--is for me no longer escapable after David Grusch.
I've had suspicions about AARO since its inception as AOIMSG, since the warning from Elizondo and Mellon about OUSD(I&S) in The Hill.
The re-org of UAPTF into AARO seems to me an attempt to regain control of the narrative after people like Elizondo and Mellon began to apply public pressure on the US Government to disclose what it knows about UFOs. What they can't keep secret, they ridicule: a powerful social tool.
For two decades, the US Air Force used Project Blue Book to gaslight not only the American populace, but the news media and the world, into thinking there was no "there" there in UFOs. That those of us interested in the topic were insane, to be socially ostracized, shamed, and shunned.
Blue Book was, it was later revealed by its former scientific advisor Dr. J. Allen Hynek, a public relations and propaganda program.
AARO is in its purpose no different, and will be the first place the news media turns to explain to them what is going on with the unfolding David Grusch story. Well, AARO or Neil DeGrasse-Tyson. Maybe Bill Nye.
The Grusch story is already being attached to the sensational Las Vegas "aliens in the backyard" tale - see ABC News Chicago, complete with X-files music! - scroll down the article to see them mention Mr. Grusch. Zodiac's tendrils in the press are twitching, and not even that much: just poke the bias toward mundanity they've nurtured in us for decades.
As the infamous quote goes:
"There's nothing to hide?"I don't know everything above and I'm absolutely very obviously speculating in places, on things I would once never have considered possible and which looked absolutely wild to my eyes even as I wrote them. I may stumble in some places but I think I've headed in the direction Lue Elizondo, Chris Mellon, Dr. Eric Davis, and others have pointed us in.
"There's nothing to hide at all."
Mr. Elizondo's information, passed in pieces due to his NDAs, has been widely mocked as "Lue's Clues": deliberately mysterious and obfuscated. He's been derided as a grifter and con-artist, he's been doxxed, he's provided what he can at enormous personal cost to himself and his family. Stringing the information and hints that he's put out together, the picture not only becomes more detailed, it implies a conspiracy which in and of itself will be an ontological shock, beyond which lies even more shock, after shock, after shock.
If a nobody like me can read what Elizondo's getting at, why can't Mr. Moultrie, or Mr. Bray, or Dr. Sean Kirkpatrick for that matter? Do they not at least have questions? Are they so incurious? This is literally their job, at least on paper.
David Grusch has briefed AARO personnel on his extraordinary findings, and AARO still says, "We have no credible/verifiable indication of non-human intelligence." Saying little, they speak volumes.
The implications make me feel, appropriately I think: "somber".
I'll end with some brief thoughts from Lue Elizondo:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jythx89ym38
Thanks for reading.
2023.06.10 21:09 acool_username Can’t decide what college path I should take
Please I’m exhausted I need someone who understands me. Please read this carefully because so much is going on which is why I’m losing my mind
I (21F) just finished the foundation year (aka, preparatory year) at university and now I have 4 colleges to choose from. 1) electric engineering (2) sciences (math, bio, chem, etc.) (3) interior design (4) computers
I don’t have a dream, but if there’s one out of those 4 that I’m actually interested in, it’s interior design.
Here’s the thing, a year ago, despite my parents telling me that it would be of no use, I tried applying to a scholarship at a medical college (my parents paid around $1500 as an admission fee) I ended up not getting the scholarship and went to public university instead. Since then my parents keep reminding me about how they advised me but I never listened, and now they are bringing it up again as I’m supposed to choose between those 4 colleges saying that I should listen to them this time.
I absolutely hate physics but dad insists that the title of an engineer alone can open up so many opportunities that people with other titles can’t get. I get that. I swear to god I understand, but for the life of me I can’t bring myself to like physics even though my grades are very high, it’s not like I don’t understand it or that I can’t score well at it, it’s simply that I hate it. I can’t imagine studying for 5 years stuff all related to physics. Dad says I could always take an interior design course if I’m so interested and that it’s not worth going to college for
My current gpa is 4.9, I still have two more exams before the end of this year. My grades in percent, so far are 96.6 almost. As a foreigner, this grade will most likely not get me accepted in the engineering college, because the students with the nationality have priority (with usually lower grades). However it’s not impossible
Mom thinks engineering “is not for girls” and that I should go for the 2nd best, namely, computers. Computers are fine. I’m chill with them, not quite interested but at least I don’t hate it like I hate physics.
The interior design college has an admission test unlike the rest of the colleges, this is what’s making me hesitant about just ignoring my parents and choosing it. I’m scared of not passing like I did with the medical college and afraid to be blamed again (I know it sounds childish but I’ve never done something good in my parents eyes, they always make me feel like a failure so I’m really terrified of failing and being blamed again)
When I decided to be stubborn and choose what I want they say I’m being stupid and if I do what they say they say “don’t do it because we said, do it if you actually want to” I feel like they’re doing this so that they can always pull the “I never forced you” line
Dad is right, interior design isn’t necessarily something I need to go to college for. I know. It makes sense in my head. I know that I can do well at engineering even if I can’t stand it. It all sounds logical. And I know that sometimes it’s not what I want that is the best for me but I’m still lost
Please don’t tell me to just do what I love if it was that easy I wouldn’t be here I would just choose the college I actually want. Please advise me well I’m really tired I’ve been thinking about this for this entire year already and I have to decide before Tuesday
Edit: forgot to say that if I don’t pass the interior design college test then I can’t apply to the other colleges and will instead be forced to take another program within the same college (I don’t like any of the other programs)
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I (21F) just finished the foundation year (aka, preparatory year) at university and now I have 4 colleges to choose from. 1) electric engineering (2) sciences (math, bio, chem, etc.) (3) interior design (4) computers
I don’t have a dream, but if there’s one out of those 4 that I’m actually interested in, it’s interior design.
Here’s the thing, a year ago, despite my parents telling me that it would be of no use, I tried applying to a scholarship at a medical college (my parents paid around $1500 as an admission fee) I ended up not getting the scholarship and went to public university instead. Since then my parents keep reminding me about how they advised me but I never listened, and now they are bringing it up again as I’m supposed to choose between those 4 colleges saying that I should listen to them this time.
I absolutely hate physics but dad insists that the title of an engineer alone can open up so many opportunities that people with other titles can’t get. I get that. I swear to god I understand, but for the life of me I can’t bring myself to like physics even though my grades are very high, it’s not like I don’t understand it or that I can’t score well at it, it’s simply that I hate it. I can’t imagine studying for 5 years stuff all related to physics. Dad says I could always take an interior design course if I’m so interested and that it’s not worth going to college for
My current gpa is 4.9, I still have two more exams before the end of this year. My grades in percent, so far are 96.6 almost. As a foreigner, this grade will most likely not get me accepted in the engineering college, because the students with the nationality have priority (with usually lower grades). However it’s not impossible
Mom thinks engineering “is not for girls” and that I should go for the 2nd best, namely, computers. Computers are fine. I’m chill with them, not quite interested but at least I don’t hate it like I hate physics.
The interior design college has an admission test unlike the rest of the colleges, this is what’s making me hesitant about just ignoring my parents and choosing it. I’m scared of not passing like I did with the medical college and afraid to be blamed again (I know it sounds childish but I’ve never done something good in my parents eyes, they always make me feel like a failure so I’m really terrified of failing and being blamed again)
When I decided to be stubborn and choose what I want they say I’m being stupid and if I do what they say they say “don’t do it because we said, do it if you actually want to” I feel like they’re doing this so that they can always pull the “I never forced you” line
Dad is right, interior design isn’t necessarily something I need to go to college for. I know. It makes sense in my head. I know that I can do well at engineering even if I can’t stand it. It all sounds logical. And I know that sometimes it’s not what I want that is the best for me but I’m still lost
Please don’t tell me to just do what I love if it was that easy I wouldn’t be here I would just choose the college I actually want. Please advise me well I’m really tired I’ve been thinking about this for this entire year already and I have to decide before Tuesday
Edit: forgot to say that if I don’t pass the interior design college test then I can’t apply to the other colleges and will instead be forced to take another program within the same college (I don’t like any of the other programs)
2023.06.10 21:07 Joadzilla Ted Kaczynski, ‘Unabomber’ Who Attacked Modern Life, Dies at 81
Alone in a shack in the Montana wilderness, he fashioned homemade bombs and launched a violent one-man campaign to destroy industrial society.
https://www.nytimes.com/2023/06/10/us/ted-kaczynski-dead.html
Theodore J. Kaczynski, the so-called Unabomber, who attacked academics, businessmen and random civilians with homemade bombs from 1978 to 1995, killing three people and injuring 23 with the stated goal of bringing about the collapse of the modern social order — a violent spree that ended after what was often described as the longest and most costly manhunt in American history — died on Saturday in a federal prison medical center in Butner, N.C. He was 81.
A spokesman for the Federal Bureau of Prisons said Mr. Kaczynski was found unresponsive in his cell early in the morning. The cause of death was not immediately known.
In December 2021, the Bureau of Prisons announced that Mr. Kaczynski had been transferred to a federal prison medical facility.
Mr. Kaczynski traced a path that was singular in American life: lonely boy genius to Harvard-trained star of pure mathematics to rural recluse to notorious murderer to imprisoned extremist.
In the public eye, he fused a rare mix of styles of violence: the periodic targeting of the demented serial killer and the ideological fanaticism of the terrorist.
After he was captured by about 40 F.B.I. agents, the details of that ideology were less the subject of debate than the question of whether his crimes should be dignified with a rational motive to begin with.
Victims railed against commentators who took seriously a 35,000-word manifesto that Mr. Kaczynski wrote to justify his actions and evangelize the ideas that he claimed inspired them.
Psychologists involved in the trial saw his writing as evidence of schizophrenia. His lawyers tried to mount an insanity defense — and when Mr. Kaczynski rebelled and sought to represent himself in court, risking execution to do so, his lawyers said that was yet further evidence of insanity.
For years before the manifesto was published, Mr. Kaczynski (pronounced kah-ZIN-skee) had no reputation beyond that of a twisted reveler in violence, picking victims seemingly at random, known only by a mysterious-sounding nickname with roots in the F.B.I.’s investigation into him: “the Unabomber.” It became widely publicized that some of his victims lost their fingers while opening a package bomb. Going through the mail, among the unconscious routines of daily life, prompted flickers of nervousness in many Americans.
After his arrest in April 1996, Mr. Kaczynski’s extraordinary biography emerged. He had scored 167 on an I.Q. test as a boy and entered Harvard at 16. In graduate school, at the University of Michigan, he worked in a field of mathematics so esoteric that a member of his dissertation committee estimated that only 10 or 12 people in the country understood it. By 25, he was an assistant professor at the University of California, Berkeley.
Then he dropped out — not just from Berkeley, but from civilization. Starting in 1971 and continuing until his arrest, he lived in a shack he built himself in rural Montana. He forsook running water, read by the light of homemade candles, stopped filing federal tax returns and subsisted on rabbits.
Mr. Kaczynski’s manifesto — published, under the threat of continued violence, jointly by The New York Times and The Washington Post in 1995 — argued that damage to the environment and the alienating effects of technology were so heinous that the social and industrial underpinnings of modern life should be destroyed.
The vast majority of Americans determined the moment they heard of the Unabomber that he must be a psychopath, and while he was front-page news his text did not generally find receptive readers outside a tiny fringe of the environmental movement. The term “Unabomber” entered popular discourse as shorthand for the type of brainy misfit who might harbor terrifying impulses.
Yet political change and the passage of time caused some to see Mr. Kaczynski in a new light. His manifesto accorded centrality to a healthy environment without mentioning global warming; it warned about the dangers of people becoming “dependent” on technology while making scant reference to the internet. To young people afflicted by social media anomie and fearful of climate doom, Mr. Kaczynski seemed to wield a predictive power that outstripped the evidence available to him.
In 2017 and 2020, Netflix released new documentaries about Mr. Kaczynski. He maintained postal correspondence with thousands of people — journalists, students and die-hard supporters. In 2018, Wired magazine announced “the Unabomber’s odd and furious online revival,” and New York magazine called him “an unlikely prophet to a new generation of acolytes.”
Becoming ‘the Unabomber’
Mr. Kaczynski’s infamous label came from “UNABOM,” the F.B.I.’s code for university and airline and bombing. That designation was inspired by his first targets, from 1978 to 1980: academics at Northwestern University, the president of United Airlines and the passengers of a flight from Chicago to Washington. The victims suffered cuts, burns and smoke inhalation. Authorities were aided in connecting several early attacks by the fact that the mysterious initials “FC” had been engraved on the bombs or spray-painted near the explosions.
The Unabomber struck one to four times a year for most years until 1987, when he left a bomb at a computer store in Salt Lake City. A woman remembered making eye contact with the man who dropped off the package that later exploded, and soon a sketch was publicized of a mustachioed suspect wearing sunglasses and a hoodie.
Six years passed without an attack. Then, in June 1993, the Unabomber struck twice during the same week.
Packages containing bombs arrived at the home of Charles Epstein, a geneticist at the University of California San Francisco, and at the office of David Gelernter, a computer scientist at Yale University. Each man lost multiple fingers. Mr. Epstein sustained permanent hearing loss; Mr. Gelernter, whose office burst into flames, bled nearly to the point of death and lost much of the vision in his right eye.
The Unabomber was growing in infamy and deadliness even as his motives became harder to parse. His first fatality, in 1985, was Hugh Scrutton, an owner of a Sacramento computer store who was engaged to be married. Between December 1994 and April 1995, he killed two more men, seemingly with no relation to Mr. Scrutton or to each other: a New Jersey advertising executive and a lobbyist for the California forestry industry. The adman, Thomas Mosser, was married with three children. The lobbyist, Gilbert Murray, was married with two children. He was so mutilated in the blast that his family was permitted to see him only from the knees down as a farewell.
It was that April, the same month as Mr. Murray’s killing, when the nameless terrorist unveiled an identity. Writing on behalf of “the terrorist group FC” — which, he explained, stood for “Freedom Club” — the Unabomber sent The New York Times a letter offering a “bargain.” He promised to stop hurting people — though not to stop attacking property — in exchange for getting a long article about his ideas published in a major periodical.
In June, The Times and The Washington Post received a 35,000-word manuscript. Citing a recommendation from the F.B.I. and the Department of Justice, the papers took the Unabomber’s offer. They split the cost of printing the essay, titled “Industrial Society and Its Future,” which The Post distributed online and as an eight-page supplement with the Sept. 19 print paper.
The manifesto claimed that the current organization of society gives “politicians, corporation executives and remote, anonymous technicians and bureaucrats” control over “the life-and-death issues of one’s existence.” That makes modern people depressed, unlike “primitive man,” who gained satisfaction from determining his own “life-and-death issues” and found “a sense of security” in what the Unabomber called “WILD nature.”
The Unabomber justified his murderous campaign on the grounds that it got “our message before the public with some chance of making a lasting impression.”
The unique circumstances of the manifesto’s distribution — in The New Yorker, the writer William Finnegan called it “the most extraordinary manuscript submission in the history of publishing” — prompted a debate about the ethics of broadcasting a terrorist’s views. The publicity seemed vindicated, however, after news of the Unabomber reached Linda Patrik, an associate philosophy professor vacationing in Paris. At first jokingly, then insistently, she told her husband that the manifesto reminded her of what he had said about his eccentric loner brother.
Ms. Patrik’s husband was David Kaczynski. When he read the manifesto online, his “jaw dropped,” he later told The Times. The language was reminiscent of letters Ted had written to David. He soon reached out to authorities.
Since 1979, an F.B.I. team that grew to more than 150 full-time investigators, analysts and others had gone through tens of thousands of leads without getting close to a real suspect. After hearing from David Kaczynski, authorities zeroed in on a 10-by-12-foot wooden shack in rural Montana. The area was so remote that during an 18-day stakeout, one agent saw a cougar kill a deer.
The home had two windows set on high; they caught light but kept the home hidden. Agents could not see inside. On April 3, 1996, one of them shouted that a forest ranger needed help. A thin, shaggy man emerged from the cabin. He was grabbed from both sides.
Life and Afterlife of a ‘Walking Brain’
Theodore John Kaczynski was born in Chicago on May 22, 1942. His father, Theodore Richard Kaczynski, worked at his family’s business, Kaczynski’s Sausages, a factory on the city’s South Side. His mother, Wanda (Dombek) Kaczynski, was a homemaker. They both descended from Polish immigrant families in the Chicago area, dropped out of high school to work and obtained diplomas at night school. By all accounts, they were gregarious, kind, diligent and thoughtful. Each sent letters to newspapers in support of progressive causes.
From boyhood, Teddy, as he was known, felt his brilliance to be alienating. When his aunt visited, his father asked, “Why don’t you have some conversation with your aunt?” Teddy replied, “Why should I? She wouldn’t understand me anyway.”
In school, he skipped two grades. He later blamed his parents for seeming to prize and cultivate his intellect over his emotions.
“He was never really seen as a person, as an individual personality,” a high school classmate, Loren De Young, told The Times. “He was always regarded as a walking brain.”
At Harvard, Teddy lived in Eliot House, home to the clubbiest and brawniest of the school’s white Anglo-Saxon Protestants, including the varsity crew team. Clad in a tacky plaid sports jacket, Teddy would enter his suite and stride past his roommates wordlessly, then open the door to his room — wafting the odor of rotting food — and slam it shut.
He went straight from college to graduate school in Michigan. His department would learn about new work of his by discovering, without any advance notice, his papers published in respected journals. “It was as if he could write poetry while the rest of us were trying to learn grammar,” Joel Shapiro, a fellow student, later told The Times.
Mr. Kaczynski arrived at Berkeley in 1967. He taught by lecturing from the textbook and did not answer questions. Yet he continued publishing distinguished work and received a promotion in the math department. Two years later he resigned, without explaining the decision to his colleagues.
The Kaczynski brothers split the cost of the property in Montana, then had a falling-out when David got engaged in 1989. After Ted’s arrest, New York Times reporters searched for friends of his in the seven states he was known to have lived in or visited. They found nobody. Some fellow students of his in graduate school said they were amazed to find they did not remember him at all. He was widely reported never to have had a romantic relationship.
During his Montana years, Mr. Kaczynski had the librarian in Lincoln, the town closest to his shack, obtain for him obscure volumes of science and literature, sometimes in the original German or Spanish. In an interview after his arrest with the British publication Green Anarchist, Mr. Kaczynski described inventing gods for himself, including a “Grandfather Rabbit” who was responsible for the existence of the snowshoe rabbits that were his main source of meat in the winter.
In the same interview, Mr. Kaczynski described how he felt goaded to violence. His favorite part of the wilderness had been a two-day hike from his shack — a plateau with steep ravines and a waterfall. In 1983, he found a road paved through it.
“You just can’t imagine how upset I was,” he said. “It was from that point on I decided that, rather than trying to acquire further wilderness skills, I would work on getting back at the system. Revenge.”
That was Mr. Kaczynski’s own narrative. Some details of his life indicated a predisposition to violence and an estrangement from the surrounding world that might also have accounted for his behavior. According to The Atlantic, Mr. Kaczynski had begun to imagine committing murder by the age of 27. In his diary, he described his bombs giving him catharsis. Though he broke ties with his brother, Ted said he would open David’s letters if the stamp was underlined as a sign of emergency. David wrote to say their father was dying and underlined the stamp.
“Ted wrote back, and the response was fairly peculiar,” David told The Times — “basically, that I had done well, that this was something worth communicating.”
At his super-maximum-security prison in Colorado, Mr. Kaczynski struck up friendships with inmates in neighboring cells: Ramzi Ahmed Yousef, who bombed the World Trade Center in 1993, and Timothy J. McVeigh, the Oklahoma City bomber. Mr. Kaczynski shared books and talked politics with them, and he got to know their birthdays, Yahoo News reported in 2016.
Mr. Kaczynski’s brother is his only immediate survivor.
Mr. Kaczynski’s terrorist strategy, and the ideas that he said undergirded it, enjoyed an afterlife few would have predicted in the 1990s.
The Norwegian news media reported that Anders Beivik, who killed dozens of people at government buildings and a youth summer camp in 2011, lifted passages from Mr. Kaczynski’s manifesto in a manifesto of his own. More curious was the way a variety of law-abiding Americans developed an interest in the same line of thought.
In 2017, the deputy editor of the conservative publication First Things, Elliot Milco, credited Mr. Kaczynski with “astute (even prophetic) insights.” In 2021, during an interview with the politician Andrew Yang, Tucker Carlson cited Mr. Kaczynski’s thinking in detail without any prompting.
Online, young people with a variety of partisan allegiances, or none at all, have developed an intricate vocabulary of half-ironic Unabomber support. They proclaim themselves “anti-civ” or #tedpilled; they refer to “Uncle Ted.” Videos on TikTok of Unabomber-related songs, voice-overs and dances have acquired millions of views, according to an article published in 2021 by The Baffler.
Mr. Kaczynski was no longer the mysterious killer who belatedly projected an outlandish justification for violence; now he was the originator of one of many styles of transgression and all-knowing condemnation to adopt online. His crimes lay in a past young people had never known, and he was imprisoned, no longer an active threat to society.
His online support did not indicate the number of newly minted eco-terrorists, but it did measure the prevalence of cynicism, boredom, dissatisfaction with modern life and gloom about its prospects for change.
During his imprisonment, Mr. Kaczynski copied his correspondence by hand and forwarded it to the University of Michigan’s Joseph A. Labadie Collection, an archive devoted to radical protest, which has amassed dozens of boxes of Kaczynskiana.
According to New York magazine, Mr. Kaczynski’s papers became one of the collection’s most popular offerings. In an interview with the magazine, Julie Herrada, the collection’s curator, declined to describe the people so intrigued by Mr. Kaczynski that they visit the library to look through his archive. She said just one thing: “Nobody seems crazy.”
2023.06.10 20:11 The_Real_Katakuri [Chatper 1086] Rested Review: Looking back
Ch. 1086 p1_2
The chapter starts with this color spread. Very colorful, very very clean. It's very readable. Every element, including water on the characters is easily understandable, the ground is beautiful and the puddles are even more beautiful. That's the good part.
I have three problems with the cover, though:
Ch. 1086 p3
Last chapter ended with Wapol escaping from Pangaea castle with Vivi (and Kinderella?), and this one begins and they have already successfully left Mariejoise. Igaram, Pell and Chaka are searching for king Cobra and Vivi.
It isn't clear at all when is this happening:
Also, it's good that Igaram cares for Vivi, but what about caring a chapter or two earlier? What was more important for Igaram than protecting Vivi? What was he actually doing??
In fact, why was Vivi waiting for a Gondola to leave the Red Line when his father was just getting to a meeting with the Gorōsei??
Ch. 1086 p4
Wapol and Vivi are hiding in the Aegis' kingdom ship and arrange a way to go with Morgans. Good. That takes partial care of explaining how they ended up with Morgans. But the real question is how did left the Red Line? Did really no one go looking for them? It's ridiculous.
First the Revolutionaries show how anyone can infiltrate at Mariejoise and now multiple people show how anyone can escape as well. The humiliation is scandalous.
Wapol doesn't want to tell Vivi about Imu or his dead father because he's sure CP0 are trying to kill him. That doesn't make sense. If you're sure they're going to kill you you don't act in your future assassin's favor. If anything, trying to get as much attention as possible from the world is the way to go. It might fail, but there's a chance the attention could make Imu want to discredit Wapol rather than kill him and fuel the conspiracy theorists.
Ch. 1086 p5
With the recent announcement about Oda having eye surgery and him saying he couldn't see properly, it would be reasonable to consider how that could have affected his ability to draw.
Let me tell you the truth about two things:
Ch. 956 p9
So... Stelly was staring so hard at Vivi's poster that he didn't see Sabo's poster and couldn't listen to anything regarding the terrorist attack lead by his brother despite the whole Mariejoise was being searched for him. Interesting.
Ch. 1086 p6
The gorōsei pick up the ringing den den mushi. This is the only relevant thing happening in this whole page.
The narrator puts emphasis on Cobra's death and Vivi's disappearance but not on the clash between the Revolutionaries and the admirals. Why is that? It's to bolster the retcon'd timeline.
Ch. 925 p9 & 10_11
Remember that back in chapter 925, the highlight about the Reverie was the clash between the Revolutionary Army and the admirals. And it was said to happen during the 4th day of the Reverie. However, in this and the immediately previous chapters, events are happening during the 7th day (the last).
Another detail is that then the silhouettes indicated that the news included Sabo fighting the admirals, but during this recent flashback, Sabo didn't even met them.
Ch.. 956 p4
Then, in ch. 956 Garp explains that the incident with Cobra happens after the Reverie ended. That clearly separates the operation of the Revolutionary army (4th day) and Cobra's death (+7th day).
At the same time, Garp says that happened after they left, and that it was reported to him even later. And asks Neptune and his family not to fear humans because of it.
This and Shirahoshi's reaction make sense only if they had no better reasons to fear humans, like Shirahoshi being assaulted a second time by Charloss, and if Shirahoshi bid farewell to Vivi while everything was fine and now she's surprised to hear that.
But that's not what the recent flashback tells us.
Ch. 1086 p7
Contrary to last page, this one has mane things to consider.
Imu wants to "test" the "Mother Flame", a Vegapunk's invention, and the Saturn says they haven't had the chance to try it yet. Another gorōsei suggests a forest for the test but Imu wants "Lulucia" kingdom. The gorōsei show concern for the choice but at no point they question it.
We will see in the next page that they're talking about the weapon that destroyed Lulucia kingdom. And the first thing that calls for my attention is that the gorōsei look like complete amateurs here.
They've had a mass destruction weapon for "some" time, but haven't tested it yet. Can you imagine how many things could go wrong when trying new technology for the very first time? But don't be fooled, Imu doesn't want to "test" it. She wants to use it.
The gorōsei have been waiting with such a weapon in their power without testing it because...?? It's obvious that there must be a lot of places in the world were Imu, the gorōsei and the World Government in general should be perfectly fine with testing the Mother Flame, from certain uninhabited areas of the Red Line, to unaffiliated countries and from the top of my head, if anything else, Punk Hazard comes to mind. A government island they think is closed off because Akainu and Aokiji made it useless. It's the perfect place to test these kind of things. But they think they've had "no chance to try it yet". Sure.
In an attempt to defend Vegapunk from the undeniable increasing evidence of his evilness, I read some say the weapon is not "he Mother Flame" but "Uranus" and that the Mother Flame is only a power source.
That makes even less sense. First, because Imu clearly instructs to use the Mother Flame and not Uranus. And second because there's no way they can actually think they haven't had the chance to try a power source
Ch. 1086 p8_9
Imu answers about the reason to choose Lulucia and the five gorōsei are formally introduced. And three things stand out to me:
Also, do they really have any authority over their "department"? Last page showed they are nothing but the butlers of Imu. It's difficult to imagine they have agency.
To me, this looks like the upteenth attempt at hyping us for nothing. First, people living in Mariejoise were titled "World Nobles". Then they were rebranded as "Celestial Dragons". And recently they've been rebranded again as "Gods". And for no reason and without explanation. Just the narrator coming up with new ways to extol them. But at the end of the day, words are just that and so far, even the gorōsei have only prooved (this chapter too) to be very incompetent.
Now that I think about it...
Imu says Lulucia has been chosen for proximity alone. So, officially, both the fact that Sabo had gone there and that the country had rebelled aren't the reason. I wonder whether Imu's answer is just a way of saying the gorōsei to not even ask for explanations and just obey or actually a whimsical and very plot convenient occurrence.
The gorōsei note the convenience of being able to use the Mother Flame "freely" and I'm sure they're not talking about authorization, because Imu rules the world, but about the cost. Certainly the Mother Flame must consume a lot of energy. If only they had some scientist trying to develop a troll-science self´-sustaining power source, right?
Well, they got one but they're very heeadstrong in killing him, for some reason.
Ch. 1086 p10
We get to see the seraphim we hadn't yet seen. I don't think there's anything relevant in this page, but I've read some people arguing S-Croc could be a girl, you know, the old theory about Crocodile being originally a woman since Ivankov said he made Croc a huge favor, even though it could actually be anything else.
Personally I don't think S-Croc has particularly female traits in this image, but it's true that he has the same starry eyes as S-Snake, while S-Shark and S-Hawk do not (the others haven't shown their eyes). But if I had to guess, I'd put my money in Oda has decided to always have at least one gender-ambiguous character to troll the readers with left and right.
Ch. 1086 p11
Sabo telling more of what we already knew and saw.
Ch. 1086 p12
And this page is again, dedicated to justify the retcon'd timeline as though it was not.
Back in chapter 1060 (that's the beginning of this very arc, do you still remember what this is arc was about?), Sabo was at Lulucia when the annihilation happened.
Ch. 1060 p13, 14_15 & 16
We saw him as we were only seeing Lulucia and its citizens being shot by the Mother Flame and also the call ending abruptly immediately after the shot.
Now, Sabo says he was near, but not exactly there. And tries to explain the ending call saying it was an indirect call that was "rerouted" through another den den mushi on Lulucia.
First I wonder how do you do that from a ship? It's true that the specifics about how den den mushi are operated have never been told, but regardless, if this "rerouting" were a thing, surely it would have come in handy to many characters through the story before.
Also, since when can Marines (or any third party) locate den den mushi? They have been able to intercept communications and listen to them, but not guess where was any of the snails making the call. And even if they could, given he himself says it was not an encrypted den den mushi, hence being vulnerable to interception, why wouldn't they locate the original signal from Sabo just like the one at Lulucia?
Ch. 1086 p13
I don't remember Lulucia's name being romanized before, but it can be read in the ship's sail. It's written with a C (until another assistant thinks otherwise at least).
Sabo rules out living thing and natural disaster as the cause for Lulucia's annihilation and Ivankov pretty much implies Imu is someone from the void century who has lived this long because she's immortal thanks to the Ope Ope no mi.
Regarding Sabo's claim, I think we've seen all sorts of surreal things in One Piece to agree his assumption is very bold. A shadow in the sky is no indicator of no living thing or natural disaster. In fact we've seen shadows in the sky caused no more and no less by living beings and natural phenomena.
Ch. 299 p12_13
On his part, Ivankov's assumption is also quite bold. Does a name really reference one single instance of a living being? There can only have ever been one Imu? What about one Oars?
There's also plenty of people known for their outstanding longevity like Kureha. (Interesting that this made me think of her...)
It's true that Ivankov accounts for the name being not truly a reason next page, but the fact that he implies it with this force under an argument he knows is very weak... This is just Oda telling us "this is this way because a character is saying it" or trolling us for fun.
Ch. 1086 p14
Also, as I said last chapter, anyone can know of Imu and it was completely unreasonable of Imu not to tell Cobra about her, considering they were going to kill him no matter what and she said she was going to address his questions.
Could anyone else than Imu from 800 years ago be the one commanding the gorōsei? Why not? What kind of reasoning is that?
Next Ivankov makes his best guess of the day and claims Vegapunk must have created the Mother Flame (confirmed some pages ago by Imu). And it's now of all assumptions that Dragon intervenes to stop jumping to conclusions. Really??
"Vegapunk would never intentionally design a dedicated killing machine". What kind of joke is this?
Ch. 1086 p15
For the final page of the chapter (yes, 15 pages only again, 2 of them cover), a new character makes his debut by sentencing to death Saint Donquixote Mjosgard.
He's named Saint Figarland Garling and is said to have been king of God Valley. Unlike everyone else, apparently, I'm not going to theorize about his relationship with Shanks, I want to talk to you about two other characters.
First, Dr. Kureha.
Ch. 154 p8
She looks just like she was Garling's twin sister. It's interesting, because a couple of pages back the matter of longevity was brought up and now we see a world noble said to have been king of a land outside Mariejoise and outside the Red Line. As we've been told in a number of occasions (last one being last chapter), only the Nefertari family were founders of the World Government who stayed at their homeland. This means if Garling was actually king of God Valley and not just a descendant of the last king, he's from the void century. Not as an hypothesis like with Imu, but confirmed. Thus, the simmilarities with Dr. Kureha aren't just physical. Both have incredible longevity and I think it was worth noting.
Last, I want to talk about Garling's predecessor: Crescent moon Gally.
https://preview.redd.it/pst3taqyc85b1.png?width=548&format=png&auto=webp&s=cd252883d36d4c0c3ae546f045bb46fead21c52e
He's the villain in the first version of the Romance Dawn oneshot that would later become One Piece. As you can see, The crescent moon motive in the hair is there just like with Garling (and the nose too). If you take the crescent moon out of the hat and apply it to the hair together with the beard, and change the mustache stretching to the sides for more hair to make it more exaggerated, you get Garling. Even the pose and facial expression is pretty much the one in this image.
Also, in his original name written in japanese, there's no indication of whether his name is "GaRling" or just "Galling".
And that would be... Oh! I almost forgot! Yeah... given Garling sentenced Mjosgard, where does this leave Saint Topman Valcury? Wasn't he the "Justice warrior god"? Why isn't he the one handing out justice? What other affairs regarding justice does he manage if not judging disputes among celestial dragons?
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Ch. 1086 p1_2
The chapter starts with this color spread. Very colorful, very very clean. It's very readable. Every element, including water on the characters is easily understandable, the ground is beautiful and the puddles are even more beautiful. That's the good part.
I have three problems with the cover, though:
- Mugiwara pirates again and again and again. We've had some similar color spreads in the past and it gets to a point where they feel repeated, even if they aren't. I'm convinced most readers would prefer more different characters making it to the color covers.
- Franky's hairstyle. Because Franky wasn't horrible enough in last chapter's cover, Oda needed to find a new and even more silly hairstyle for Franky. I wonder if he's ever going to swallow his pride and go back to draw Franky either with his original hairstyle or the shaved style with which he came back after the time skip. Every single other hairstyle has been ridiculous and has only served to ridicule Franky.
- The perspective is completely messed up. The flowers in the top right part of the cover show peprfectly where the vanishing point is (in the middle of the image very close to the top). The vanishing point is the point where the camera is "looking" to, even if Oda likes to put it outside the image sometimes for artistic reasons. The thing is, every character on the ground (not Luffy), and most notably Nami, is drawn with very short legs as though Oda was trying to do a very high angle shot. And that doesn't make any sense accounting for the perspective of the background, but also because he's really only shortened their legs and not the rest of their body and it's very very weird. Look at Nami's legs and the umbrella. The umbrella isn't distorted but the legs are. That defeats the purpose of distorting the legs and it simply feels like she's a dwarf now.
Ch. 1086 p3
Last chapter ended with Wapol escaping from Pangaea castle with Vivi (and Kinderella?), and this one begins and they have already successfully left Mariejoise. Igaram, Pell and Chaka are searching for king Cobra and Vivi.
It isn't clear at all when is this happening:
- The same day as last chapter but later? Probably too soon since last chapter meetings were still held.
- Next day? Or the following?
- Many days since last chapter? Very unlikely that those three are still wandering at Mariejoise completely clueless. But later events will suggest this to be the case.
- Tell them "the king is here, please come" and kill them.
- Tell them about Cobra's death and frame Sabo as soon as possible in ortder to avoid suspicion.
Also, it's good that Igaram cares for Vivi, but what about caring a chapter or two earlier? What was more important for Igaram than protecting Vivi? What was he actually doing??
In fact, why was Vivi waiting for a Gondola to leave the Red Line when his father was just getting to a meeting with the Gorōsei??
Ch. 1086 p4
Wapol and Vivi are hiding in the Aegis' kingdom ship and arrange a way to go with Morgans. Good. That takes partial care of explaining how they ended up with Morgans. But the real question is how did left the Red Line? Did really no one go looking for them? It's ridiculous.
First the Revolutionaries show how anyone can infiltrate at Mariejoise and now multiple people show how anyone can escape as well. The humiliation is scandalous.
Wapol doesn't want to tell Vivi about Imu or his dead father because he's sure CP0 are trying to kill him. That doesn't make sense. If you're sure they're going to kill you you don't act in your future assassin's favor. If anything, trying to get as much attention as possible from the world is the way to go. It might fail, but there's a chance the attention could make Imu want to discredit Wapol rather than kill him and fuel the conspiracy theorists.
Ch. 1086 p5
With the recent announcement about Oda having eye surgery and him saying he couldn't see properly, it would be reasonable to consider how that could have affected his ability to draw.
Let me tell you the truth about two things:
- People with astigmatism don't become functionally blind until they have surgery correct their vision. They wear glasses and that's the end of it. Surgery will make Oda not need glasses, but that's all. The astigmatism wasn't preventing him from drawing at all.
- Look at the cover again. Oda can draw really well when he wants. Look now at this page. It's difficult to know whether it's king Stelly in the first panel or not because he's as much of a scribble as Sabo's picture, that might be a legit scribble.
Ch. 956 p9
So... Stelly was staring so hard at Vivi's poster that he didn't see Sabo's poster and couldn't listen to anything regarding the terrorist attack lead by his brother despite the whole Mariejoise was being searched for him. Interesting.
Ch. 1086 p6
The gorōsei pick up the ringing den den mushi. This is the only relevant thing happening in this whole page.
The narrator puts emphasis on Cobra's death and Vivi's disappearance but not on the clash between the Revolutionaries and the admirals. Why is that? It's to bolster the retcon'd timeline.
Ch. 925 p9 & 10_11
Remember that back in chapter 925, the highlight about the Reverie was the clash between the Revolutionary Army and the admirals. And it was said to happen during the 4th day of the Reverie. However, in this and the immediately previous chapters, events are happening during the 7th day (the last).
Another detail is that then the silhouettes indicated that the news included Sabo fighting the admirals, but during this recent flashback, Sabo didn't even met them.
Ch.. 956 p4
Then, in ch. 956 Garp explains that the incident with Cobra happens after the Reverie ended. That clearly separates the operation of the Revolutionary army (4th day) and Cobra's death (+7th day).
At the same time, Garp says that happened after they left, and that it was reported to him even later. And asks Neptune and his family not to fear humans because of it.
This and Shirahoshi's reaction make sense only if they had no better reasons to fear humans, like Shirahoshi being assaulted a second time by Charloss, and if Shirahoshi bid farewell to Vivi while everything was fine and now she's surprised to hear that.
But that's not what the recent flashback tells us.
Ch. 1086 p7
Contrary to last page, this one has mane things to consider.
Imu wants to "test" the "Mother Flame", a Vegapunk's invention, and the Saturn says they haven't had the chance to try it yet. Another gorōsei suggests a forest for the test but Imu wants "Lulucia" kingdom. The gorōsei show concern for the choice but at no point they question it.
We will see in the next page that they're talking about the weapon that destroyed Lulucia kingdom. And the first thing that calls for my attention is that the gorōsei look like complete amateurs here.
They've had a mass destruction weapon for "some" time, but haven't tested it yet. Can you imagine how many things could go wrong when trying new technology for the very first time? But don't be fooled, Imu doesn't want to "test" it. She wants to use it.
The gorōsei have been waiting with such a weapon in their power without testing it because...?? It's obvious that there must be a lot of places in the world were Imu, the gorōsei and the World Government in general should be perfectly fine with testing the Mother Flame, from certain uninhabited areas of the Red Line, to unaffiliated countries and from the top of my head, if anything else, Punk Hazard comes to mind. A government island they think is closed off because Akainu and Aokiji made it useless. It's the perfect place to test these kind of things. But they think they've had "no chance to try it yet". Sure.
In an attempt to defend Vegapunk from the undeniable increasing evidence of his evilness, I read some say the weapon is not "he Mother Flame" but "Uranus" and that the Mother Flame is only a power source.
That makes even less sense. First, because Imu clearly instructs to use the Mother Flame and not Uranus. And second because there's no way they can actually think they haven't had the chance to try a power source
Ch. 1086 p8_9
Imu answers about the reason to choose Lulucia and the five gorōsei are formally introduced. And three things stand out to me:
- They're named after planets of the solar system (other than the ones already used lol) and at the same time, they're not. There's Saturn and Mars, but there's also Ju Peter and V. Nasjūrō, who read like Jupiter and Venus + japanese traditional name ending. And lastly there's Valcury, who by elimination and obvious similarity should reference Mercury, but this one is clearly different. And I wonder if this is Oda wanting to name the gorōsei after planets and at the same time being obsessed with being unpredictable.
- With this names two middle names are introduced: "Ju" and "V.". So far, only "D." has been a thing. It was odd enough if you think about it, but the fact that now two more exist and that they do so in order to not write the name exactly like the planet feels quite odd to me as well.
- What is this "warrior god" thing? What does that even mean for them? I mean, I understand what "warrior god" means, but what's an "agriculture warrior god" or a "finance warrior god"??
Also, do they really have any authority over their "department"? Last page showed they are nothing but the butlers of Imu. It's difficult to imagine they have agency.
To me, this looks like the upteenth attempt at hyping us for nothing. First, people living in Mariejoise were titled "World Nobles". Then they were rebranded as "Celestial Dragons". And recently they've been rebranded again as "Gods". And for no reason and without explanation. Just the narrator coming up with new ways to extol them. But at the end of the day, words are just that and so far, even the gorōsei have only prooved (this chapter too) to be very incompetent.
Now that I think about it...
- Is V. Nasjūrō going to have problems because some countries are increasingly refusing to pay tribute? He's in charge of finances, right?
- Is Ju Peter going to be held responsible for the lack of food they're currently facing?
- Shouldn't Valcury have been the one to... Oh wait, we haven't gotten to that part, yet.
Imu says Lulucia has been chosen for proximity alone. So, officially, both the fact that Sabo had gone there and that the country had rebelled aren't the reason. I wonder whether Imu's answer is just a way of saying the gorōsei to not even ask for explanations and just obey or actually a whimsical and very plot convenient occurrence.
The gorōsei note the convenience of being able to use the Mother Flame "freely" and I'm sure they're not talking about authorization, because Imu rules the world, but about the cost. Certainly the Mother Flame must consume a lot of energy. If only they had some scientist trying to develop a troll-science self´-sustaining power source, right?
Well, they got one but they're very heeadstrong in killing him, for some reason.
Ch. 1086 p10
We get to see the seraphim we hadn't yet seen. I don't think there's anything relevant in this page, but I've read some people arguing S-Croc could be a girl, you know, the old theory about Crocodile being originally a woman since Ivankov said he made Croc a huge favor, even though it could actually be anything else.
Personally I don't think S-Croc has particularly female traits in this image, but it's true that he has the same starry eyes as S-Snake, while S-Shark and S-Hawk do not (the others haven't shown their eyes). But if I had to guess, I'd put my money in Oda has decided to always have at least one gender-ambiguous character to troll the readers with left and right.
Ch. 1086 p11
Sabo telling more of what we already knew and saw.
Ch. 1086 p12
And this page is again, dedicated to justify the retcon'd timeline as though it was not.
Back in chapter 1060 (that's the beginning of this very arc, do you still remember what this is arc was about?), Sabo was at Lulucia when the annihilation happened.
Ch. 1060 p13, 14_15 & 16
We saw him as we were only seeing Lulucia and its citizens being shot by the Mother Flame and also the call ending abruptly immediately after the shot.
Now, Sabo says he was near, but not exactly there. And tries to explain the ending call saying it was an indirect call that was "rerouted" through another den den mushi on Lulucia.
First I wonder how do you do that from a ship? It's true that the specifics about how den den mushi are operated have never been told, but regardless, if this "rerouting" were a thing, surely it would have come in handy to many characters through the story before.
Also, since when can Marines (or any third party) locate den den mushi? They have been able to intercept communications and listen to them, but not guess where was any of the snails making the call. And even if they could, given he himself says it was not an encrypted den den mushi, hence being vulnerable to interception, why wouldn't they locate the original signal from Sabo just like the one at Lulucia?
Ch. 1086 p13
I don't remember Lulucia's name being romanized before, but it can be read in the ship's sail. It's written with a C (until another assistant thinks otherwise at least).
Sabo rules out living thing and natural disaster as the cause for Lulucia's annihilation and Ivankov pretty much implies Imu is someone from the void century who has lived this long because she's immortal thanks to the Ope Ope no mi.
Regarding Sabo's claim, I think we've seen all sorts of surreal things in One Piece to agree his assumption is very bold. A shadow in the sky is no indicator of no living thing or natural disaster. In fact we've seen shadows in the sky caused no more and no less by living beings and natural phenomena.
Ch. 299 p12_13
On his part, Ivankov's assumption is also quite bold. Does a name really reference one single instance of a living being? There can only have ever been one Imu? What about one Oars?
There's also plenty of people known for their outstanding longevity like Kureha. (Interesting that this made me think of her...)
It's true that Ivankov accounts for the name being not truly a reason next page, but the fact that he implies it with this force under an argument he knows is very weak... This is just Oda telling us "this is this way because a character is saying it" or trolling us for fun.
Ch. 1086 p14
Also, as I said last chapter, anyone can know of Imu and it was completely unreasonable of Imu not to tell Cobra about her, considering they were going to kill him no matter what and she said she was going to address his questions.
Could anyone else than Imu from 800 years ago be the one commanding the gorōsei? Why not? What kind of reasoning is that?
Next Ivankov makes his best guess of the day and claims Vegapunk must have created the Mother Flame (confirmed some pages ago by Imu). And it's now of all assumptions that Dragon intervenes to stop jumping to conclusions. Really??
"Vegapunk would never intentionally design a dedicated killing machine". What kind of joke is this?
- Kuma
- Mass-produced Pacifista model 1
- Mass-produced Pacifista model 2
- Mass-produced Pacifista model 3
- Seraphim
Ch. 1086 p15
For the final page of the chapter (yes, 15 pages only again, 2 of them cover), a new character makes his debut by sentencing to death Saint Donquixote Mjosgard.
He's named Saint Figarland Garling and is said to have been king of God Valley. Unlike everyone else, apparently, I'm not going to theorize about his relationship with Shanks, I want to talk to you about two other characters.
First, Dr. Kureha.
Ch. 154 p8
She looks just like she was Garling's twin sister. It's interesting, because a couple of pages back the matter of longevity was brought up and now we see a world noble said to have been king of a land outside Mariejoise and outside the Red Line. As we've been told in a number of occasions (last one being last chapter), only the Nefertari family were founders of the World Government who stayed at their homeland. This means if Garling was actually king of God Valley and not just a descendant of the last king, he's from the void century. Not as an hypothesis like with Imu, but confirmed. Thus, the simmilarities with Dr. Kureha aren't just physical. Both have incredible longevity and I think it was worth noting.
Last, I want to talk about Garling's predecessor: Crescent moon Gally.
https://preview.redd.it/pst3taqyc85b1.png?width=548&format=png&auto=webp&s=cd252883d36d4c0c3ae546f045bb46fead21c52e
He's the villain in the first version of the Romance Dawn oneshot that would later become One Piece. As you can see, The crescent moon motive in the hair is there just like with Garling (and the nose too). If you take the crescent moon out of the hat and apply it to the hair together with the beard, and change the mustache stretching to the sides for more hair to make it more exaggerated, you get Garling. Even the pose and facial expression is pretty much the one in this image.
Also, in his original name written in japanese, there's no indication of whether his name is "GaRling" or just "Galling".
And that would be... Oh! I almost forgot! Yeah... given Garling sentenced Mjosgard, where does this leave Saint Topman Valcury? Wasn't he the "Justice warrior god"? Why isn't he the one handing out justice? What other affairs regarding justice does he manage if not judging disputes among celestial dragons?
2023.06.10 19:56 haha_12 Springer softcover paperback textbook quality is subpar and inconsistent.
As some noted, in May Springer ran a sale program where a lot of its softcovers were priced at $16.99. This was a good chance to obtain many great books for good prices. I spent to buy more than 10 books since there are physical books I want to keep as reference.
However, after receiving them, I can tell how Springer printing is just inconsistent and subpar. Some of them have quite thin paper and the printing is see-through the papers. I can't believe they can price it normally $55 ( some at $100!) for how it is made. Or do they deliberately have a separate manufacturing pipeline for books that were on sale?
Ironically, recently I was able to use PDF file (nOt PiRaTed aT aLL) of a Springer-published book and print-on-demand it, the copy came out with great quality for about 1/5 of Springer price, I bet it would be way better than a genuine copy from Springer if I bought it now. You have the option to choose paperweight, coloblack-white option, etc.
So it is just a little rant and thought if you all don't mind :D.
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However, after receiving them, I can tell how Springer printing is just inconsistent and subpar. Some of them have quite thin paper and the printing is see-through the papers. I can't believe they can price it normally $55 ( some at $100!) for how it is made. Or do they deliberately have a separate manufacturing pipeline for books that were on sale?
Ironically, recently I was able to use PDF file (nOt PiRaTed aT aLL) of a Springer-published book and print-on-demand it, the copy came out with great quality for about 1/5 of Springer price, I bet it would be way better than a genuine copy from Springer if I bought it now. You have the option to choose paperweight, coloblack-white option, etc.
So it is just a little rant and thought if you all don't mind :D.
2023.06.10 19:50 Snoo_85700 Is this too much?
 | Disclaimer: I am a really good student and I keep myself really focused but I have no idea if this is just going to overload me submitted by Snoo_85700 to KSU [link] [comments] |
2023.06.10 19:30 sports_fan27 1.5 year employment gap, any suggestions on how to move forward?
I dropped out after my first semester of physical therapy graduate school December 2021, and I have been actively applying for jobs since.
I have a BS in Environmental Science / Natural Sciences
I have never worked a paid job before and do not have paid work experience, all my prior experiences I list on my resume are volunteer based as I was mainly focused on doing volunteer based work to gain admission into a healthcare program graduate school. My most recent volunteer work was healthcare shadowing December 2021 and non-shadowing volunteer work December 2018.
I am having a difficult time figuring out what jobs I am even qualified for and have just been applying for admin type jobs such as "administrative assistant" and "executive assistant" job titles.
I believe what is preventing me from getting a job is my strict salary requirements at the very min I'd like to make 55-60K for my first job but with my current education and background that's just not likely. I just would find it extremely stressful to try to budget off a 40-45K salary.
Option A: Go back to school and do an online post-bac bachelors or online masters in CS, Accounting, Finance, and etc. and gain work experience while obtaining degree
Option B: Continue to apply to jobs, suck it up and work a job that pays 40-45K, gain few years of work experience and apply to higher paying jobs or work towards promotions and move upwards in a company.
One part of me just wants to experience the working world and not have to do school or worry about grades, exams, and etc as I can always do school later on if I want to change career paths. Another part of me says it would be great investment to do school now and potentially not have to deal with the stress of budgeting off a 40-45K salary.
How bad is an employment gap? I am looking to find volunteer work while I figure things out just to get rid of this gap. Any suggestions on how to move forward and what to do? I am late 20's btw.
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I have a BS in Environmental Science / Natural Sciences
I have never worked a paid job before and do not have paid work experience, all my prior experiences I list on my resume are volunteer based as I was mainly focused on doing volunteer based work to gain admission into a healthcare program graduate school. My most recent volunteer work was healthcare shadowing December 2021 and non-shadowing volunteer work December 2018.
I am having a difficult time figuring out what jobs I am even qualified for and have just been applying for admin type jobs such as "administrative assistant" and "executive assistant" job titles.
I believe what is preventing me from getting a job is my strict salary requirements at the very min I'd like to make 55-60K for my first job but with my current education and background that's just not likely. I just would find it extremely stressful to try to budget off a 40-45K salary.
Option A: Go back to school and do an online post-bac bachelors or online masters in CS, Accounting, Finance, and etc. and gain work experience while obtaining degree
Option B: Continue to apply to jobs, suck it up and work a job that pays 40-45K, gain few years of work experience and apply to higher paying jobs or work towards promotions and move upwards in a company.
One part of me just wants to experience the working world and not have to do school or worry about grades, exams, and etc as I can always do school later on if I want to change career paths. Another part of me says it would be great investment to do school now and potentially not have to deal with the stress of budgeting off a 40-45K salary.
How bad is an employment gap? I am looking to find volunteer work while I figure things out just to get rid of this gap. Any suggestions on how to move forward and what to do? I am late 20's btw.
2023.06.10 19:24 Logic_Phalanx The Quran: A Book of Signs
 | بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم submitted by Logic_Phalanx to islam [link] [comments] The Noble Quran is not a book of science, it’s a book of Signs. Literally, being that this is what “Ayat” means. And so rich in signs it is indeed, spanning in its miraculous nature all manner of Human inquiry, needs, and desires. A Timeless Treasure, a Divine Document. The more you read and explore, the more depth you discover. Among its many wonders is that it reveals more of its Divine nature as time passes. As human scientific endeavor unveils more of this mundane reality, the Quran unveils more of its transcendent signs. This is true across geography, astronomy, biology, chemistry, astrophysics, quantum physics, and more. Those latter two especially have captured my interest in the deepest ways as of late. Today I wanted to share a simple but beautiful example which has just been discovered via emergent technology and research within literally the past week. Allahu Alam, and may we continue to reap the bounties this blessed Book offers. The Most Merciful states repeatedly that: إِنَّ فِى ٱلسَّمَـٰوَٰتِ وَٱلْأَرْضِ لَـَٔايَـٰتٍۢ لِّلْمُؤْمِنِينَ ٣ Surely in ˹the creation of˺ the heavens and the earth are signs for the believers. [45:3] Oh. How very true this is. ثُمَّ ٱسْتَوَىٰٓ إِلَى ٱلسَّمَآءِ وَهِىَ دُخَانٌۭ فَقَالَ لَهَا وَلِلْأَرْضِ ٱئْتِيَا طَوْعًا أَوْ كَرْهًۭا قَالَتَآ أَتَيْنَا طَآئِعِينَ ١١ Then He turned towards the heaven when it was ˹still like˺ smoke, saying to it and to the earth, ‘Submit, willingly or unwillingly.’ They both responded, ‘We submit willingly.’ [41:11]فَقَضَىٰهُنَّ سَبْعَ سَمَـٰوَاتٍۢ فِى يَوْمَيْنِ وَأَوْحَىٰ فِى كُلِّ سَمَآءٍ أَمْرَهَا ۚ وَزَيَّنَّا ٱلسَّمَآءَ ٱلدُّنْيَا بِمَصَـٰبِيحَ وَحِفْظًۭا ۚ ذَٰلِكَ تَقْدِيرُ ٱلْعَزِيزِ ٱلْعَلِيمِ ١٢ So He formed the heaven into seven heavens in two Days, assigning to each its mandate. And We adorned the lowest heaven with ˹stars like˺ lamps ˹for beauty˺ and for protection. That is the design of the Almighty, All-Knowing.” [41:12]As the linked article published only 5 days ago explains:
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2023.06.10 19:21 Aloo13 I feel like I've wasted the last 10 years of my life. How can I improve?
Hello everyone, I'm not even sure exactly what I need to work on, but I figured having some outside perspective may benefit me to some degree so here I am. I feel like I have done nothing since graduating high school 10 years ago, especially when compared to peers. This may be long and convoluted, as I chronologically recount my experiences, so bare with me. I appreciate any advice I get here!
I did finish a science degree at a local university, which I regret in retrospect due to the lack of resources and lack of pushing me out of my boundaries. I had social anxiety that affected me functionally back then and also a few bad experiences, which resulted in a bad first year gpa-wise. This really shot me down and I struggled to raise my GPA to a competitive mark for vet school, which I was initially seeking. I started with signs of depression and feeling inadequate to my peers who seemed to be doing fine that year. I also had very little guidance in terms of university. My father tried to help, but his experiences were different from mine. The academic advisors at my university were also a 'revolving door' and so were often new and unfamiliar with the university and programs. Approaching graduation, I really thought If I made it out with a degree, I'd have decent career opportunities, which didn't happen. I tried applying to multiple places, but I am in a bilingual city and am not bilingual, so all I could manage were minimum wage jobs, while many friends were bilingual and at least got into government jobs. I graduated with no student debt, but ultimately felt frustrated at being unable to obtain a career. Luckily I do have great parents who have been awesome supports and encouraged me on.
I spent a gap year working and then went back into university under a different degree, hoping to raise my grades this time to apply to medical school. I obtained a scholarship that covered part of my tuition. I did actually do well, but then the pandemic hit- this combined with multiple projects and part-time jobs I was juggling spiraled me into burn out. I also got into a new romantic relationship and although he was a great guy, he demanded more of me than I could give and I realized we wanted different things, so I broke it off. Simultaneously, I dealt with a few situations that spiraled me into deeper depression. I cried nearly every other day for 3-4 months. I lost a few friends who I had realized were not good friends and pretty self-centered. However, that also meant I only had two friends left, who were not close by. Following the burn-out, I knew there was no way I could write the MCAT and go through the admissions process, so I applied to an accelerated nursing program and was accepted. I liked that nursing provided a definite opportunity for employment, as well as travel and flexibility in a shorter period of time.
Here is where I am at now:
I am half way through the program and nursing is not what I thought. I plan to continue the program as I think not having a career at this point is contributing to my depression and I hear nursing is different in real practice. We have unions for nurses here and it is a good career nevertheless. But I do feel a sense of loss for what I want to be and really struggle with retrospections, regretting previous choices. I want more for myself, but at this point, my depression has caused me to be constantly tired and worn out. I also feel that my memory has gotten bad. I feel as if I am a burden to my parents and wish I could do more for them. They have been so good to me and have worked so hard that I wish I could treat them instead of having them look out for me. I feel a sense of shame with having no career accomplishment nor significant other and this holds me back from connecting with peers, as I assume judgement or no commonality.
I don't really have a social life anymore. The one friend whom I have been close with often compares our situation these days (as far as looking up a nurse's salary) and that really does hurt me. I don't think it comes from malicious intent, but it has kept me from reaching out to her and I'm finding myself slowly closing up from other potential friends. I struggle with romantic connection. I am not really sure why, but I am extremely cautious in romantic relations and struggle finding someone I am truly attracted too. I did start with romantic relationships later in life than many.
My 10 year HS reunion is coming up this summer and I am absolutely not going; however, this has just made me feel a pit of despair concerning my choices and current situation. At this point, I'm just a professional student and I can't believe 7 years of schooling has gone by seemingly so fast. My depression has just been spiraling the past 2-3 years and it is something I constantly fight. Therapy is unfortunately not an option, as I don't have the finances for it. I truly think that if I hadn't such kind, understanding, and supportive parents, I would have become suicidal. However, sometimes I feel I don't deserve their unconditional love because I have done nothing to be proud of. I have even avoided going to family events, as I fear comparison to my cousins, who I deem more successful than myself.
I really do want to get better and strive for better. I have worked through my social anxiety, which no longer impedes me like it did in my early 20's. However, now it is feelings of despair and inadequacy that plagues my mind and causes me to be excessively tired with anhedonia on many days.
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I did finish a science degree at a local university, which I regret in retrospect due to the lack of resources and lack of pushing me out of my boundaries. I had social anxiety that affected me functionally back then and also a few bad experiences, which resulted in a bad first year gpa-wise. This really shot me down and I struggled to raise my GPA to a competitive mark for vet school, which I was initially seeking. I started with signs of depression and feeling inadequate to my peers who seemed to be doing fine that year. I also had very little guidance in terms of university. My father tried to help, but his experiences were different from mine. The academic advisors at my university were also a 'revolving door' and so were often new and unfamiliar with the university and programs. Approaching graduation, I really thought If I made it out with a degree, I'd have decent career opportunities, which didn't happen. I tried applying to multiple places, but I am in a bilingual city and am not bilingual, so all I could manage were minimum wage jobs, while many friends were bilingual and at least got into government jobs. I graduated with no student debt, but ultimately felt frustrated at being unable to obtain a career. Luckily I do have great parents who have been awesome supports and encouraged me on.
I spent a gap year working and then went back into university under a different degree, hoping to raise my grades this time to apply to medical school. I obtained a scholarship that covered part of my tuition. I did actually do well, but then the pandemic hit- this combined with multiple projects and part-time jobs I was juggling spiraled me into burn out. I also got into a new romantic relationship and although he was a great guy, he demanded more of me than I could give and I realized we wanted different things, so I broke it off. Simultaneously, I dealt with a few situations that spiraled me into deeper depression. I cried nearly every other day for 3-4 months. I lost a few friends who I had realized were not good friends and pretty self-centered. However, that also meant I only had two friends left, who were not close by. Following the burn-out, I knew there was no way I could write the MCAT and go through the admissions process, so I applied to an accelerated nursing program and was accepted. I liked that nursing provided a definite opportunity for employment, as well as travel and flexibility in a shorter period of time.
Here is where I am at now:
I am half way through the program and nursing is not what I thought. I plan to continue the program as I think not having a career at this point is contributing to my depression and I hear nursing is different in real practice. We have unions for nurses here and it is a good career nevertheless. But I do feel a sense of loss for what I want to be and really struggle with retrospections, regretting previous choices. I want more for myself, but at this point, my depression has caused me to be constantly tired and worn out. I also feel that my memory has gotten bad. I feel as if I am a burden to my parents and wish I could do more for them. They have been so good to me and have worked so hard that I wish I could treat them instead of having them look out for me. I feel a sense of shame with having no career accomplishment nor significant other and this holds me back from connecting with peers, as I assume judgement or no commonality.
I don't really have a social life anymore. The one friend whom I have been close with often compares our situation these days (as far as looking up a nurse's salary) and that really does hurt me. I don't think it comes from malicious intent, but it has kept me from reaching out to her and I'm finding myself slowly closing up from other potential friends. I struggle with romantic connection. I am not really sure why, but I am extremely cautious in romantic relations and struggle finding someone I am truly attracted too. I did start with romantic relationships later in life than many.
My 10 year HS reunion is coming up this summer and I am absolutely not going; however, this has just made me feel a pit of despair concerning my choices and current situation. At this point, I'm just a professional student and I can't believe 7 years of schooling has gone by seemingly so fast. My depression has just been spiraling the past 2-3 years and it is something I constantly fight. Therapy is unfortunately not an option, as I don't have the finances for it. I truly think that if I hadn't such kind, understanding, and supportive parents, I would have become suicidal. However, sometimes I feel I don't deserve their unconditional love because I have done nothing to be proud of. I have even avoided going to family events, as I fear comparison to my cousins, who I deem more successful than myself.
I really do want to get better and strive for better. I have worked through my social anxiety, which no longer impedes me like it did in my early 20's. However, now it is feelings of despair and inadequacy that plagues my mind and causes me to be excessively tired with anhedonia on many days.
2023.06.10 19:12 Titanmaniac679 Tips for someone knew to AP classes
I'm going into 11th grade soon, and in 11th grade, I'm going to be taking AP US History and AP Computer Science A.
In my 10th grade year, I excelled in regular World History and regular Computer Science, so I felt like giving myself a push. I'm going to dedicate my summer to studying AP US History, Java, and Chemistry (I'm taking the regular course for Chemistry). I'm also going to taking Geometry for summer school, and when I'm done with summer school Geometry, I'm going to study for Algebra 2. Here is my planned schedule for next year:
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In my 10th grade year, I excelled in regular World History and regular Computer Science, so I felt like giving myself a push. I'm going to dedicate my summer to studying AP US History, Java, and Chemistry (I'm taking the regular course for Chemistry). I'm also going to taking Geometry for summer school, and when I'm done with summer school Geometry, I'm going to study for Algebra 2. Here is my planned schedule for next year:
- English 3
- Algebra 2
- Spanish 1
- AP US History
- AP Computer Science A
- Chemistry
- AP English Language and Composition
- Pre-Calculus (or AP Calculas AB or AP BC if I can take Pre-Calculus over the summer)
- AP Government and Economics (since in my school, both have to be taken in senior year)
- Spanish 2
- AP Physics (if I don't feel like it, I might take AP Enviromental Science instead)
- (Maybe?) AP Statistics
2023.06.10 19:08 ruin777 There is a particular staircase that no student is allowed to use in my school. I now know why…
I always wondered why we were never able to use this staircase in school, but the teachers, staff and the headmaster were able to use them. I never knew where the bottom of the staircase was, because I always saw the teachers walking up the stairs but never walking down the stairs. In every assembly, the headmaster ordered us not to use the staircase, though we already knew not to.
One time, the class clown said he was going to go down the staircase that we weren’t supposed to use, and our physics teacher grabbed him and she screamed at him to not go down there. He ended up sitting back down, snickering as some students were whispering to each other and some exchanged confused glances with one another.
This made me more fixated on knowing more about the staircase. I’d wander around the school, looking to find where the bottom of the staircase was, but I’d never find it. I’d spend my break time asking different people about what they know about the staircase, and if they knew any rumors about them. Every rumor they’d say, I’d write down in my notebook. One rumor someone said was that a student in the 7th grade went down the staircase and was never seen again. Another rumor was that our maths teacher kills anyone who goes down the staircase. Though most of the rumors sounded quite stupid, I still wrote them down.
At some point, my friend Josh started noticing how curious I was about the staircase. Josh was quite a fearless guy. He would do anything dangerous, as if he was on a suicide mission, like the time when we had a science experiment and he thought that touching the bunsen burner would be a good idea. He ended up getting severe 3rd degree burns on his hand, which took around a year to heal, and also became the prime example of what not to do in a science experiment. That was only one of the things he did, but I won't go into detail about the others..
2 days ago, as we were sitting on one of the benches after school, Josh asked “Why don’t you just go down the stairs?”
“I don’t want to get suspended, I have a good record unlike you,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“I have a plan though.”
“It better not be stupid….”
That’s when he pulled a notebook out of his bag, and drew two stick figures.
“The one with the smiley face is me, and the one with the sad face is you. Do you understand?” He said.
“I do.”
“We’re going to do this pretty early. About 3 or 4am… we’re going to break into the school. Don’t worry though, I’ve done it before and succeeded.” He started to draw a gate, then drew the stick figure representing me climbing over, and the stick figure representing him over the gate, as it waited for me to climb down.
“This plan is kind of stupid,” I said, observing his rushed drawings.
“Do you want to see what’s under those stairs or not?”
“I do…”
“Then listen. So after we break in, we’ll need to be pretty quiet. No talking until we actually get into the building. We’ll need flashlights, so we’ll both bring our phones. When we get into the building you need to follow me. The stairs are near where our classroom is, remember?” He explained, with a moderately harsh tone. That’s how I knew he was serious.
“Okay, it kind of makes sense… I’m gonna go now though, tomorrow we’ll go through the plan again. Make sure to write it down, see you tomorrow Josh!” I said, picking up my backpack and leaving.
The next day, at break, Josh showed me his notebook which contained a detailed plan, explaining exactly what he had said the day before, but in more depth. Though I was hesitant to go through with the plan, I did really want to see those stairs….I had been so determined to know every single thing about those stairs, and this was like a once in a lifetime chance for me. So I agreed to the plan. That was yesterday.
I had my alarm set for 2:30 am. I got ready which took about 20 minutes. At around 2:55 am, I was out the house. From my house to my school was walking distance, so it was easy for me to get there. When I got there, I was quite surprised to see Josh already there, in front of the gate, looking at the floor.
“Oh you’re here already? Should we start now?” He asked.
“Yeah sure, why not?” I said.
That’s when he started climbing up the gate. I made sure to watch his technique so I could do the same when he was done. He climbed up the gate fairly quickly, then climbed down the gate, and he was in.
“Your turn.”
I slowly started climbing the gate, my arms shaking a bit every time I climbed higher. Eventually I was able to get down.
“Okay, now to get inside the building we need to use the back of the building. There’s a door there, and for some reason it’s never locked,” He whispered, and I nodded.
We started walking at a fast pace, making sure not to step on anything that would make noise.
When we finally entered the building, I followed Josh. Using the flashlight on my phone, we slowly made our way up the stairs, being careful of our surroundings. After what felt like forever, we finally found the staircase.
“Are you ready?” He whispered.
“Of course.”
We started going down, step by step. It looked normal, and I didn’t get why we couldn’t use it. As we were going down further and further, a foul odor hit my nose, and started getting stronger and stronger as we went down.
“What is that smell?” I asked, holding my nose with one hand and holding my phone with the other.
“You smell it too? It’s horrible,” He said. Though the smell was tormenting our nostrils, we kept on going. I started getting quite tired. I felt like I had been waking down those stairs for an eternity. At some point, as I continued to point my flashlight downwards, I saw something. Something abnormal… out of this world. I held Josh’s arm so he wouldn’t go down any more steps. He was about to open his mouth to speak until he also saw what i was seeing, and immediately closed his mouth.
We saw darkness. But in that darkness were faces. Some were crying, some were smiling. But as they looked directly into our eyes, their faces became angry. Full of hatred. They started screaming, and shouting unintelligible words. They reached their arms out to us. That’s when the darkness started rising, and I screamed at Josh to run, hyperventilating as tears streamed down my face.
I rapidly ran up the stairs, as the darkness slowly consumed our every step. As Josh was running though, he tripped up a step and fell. I screamed, and heard the sound of synchronized laughter and the sound of Josh screaming in agony and terror, as the creatures pulled him into the void. I kept running up and up the stairs and didn’t dare to look behind me. Somehow I was able to reach the top of the stairs, and when I did I collapsed to the floor, shaking uncontrollably, tears still streaming down my face as I covered my face, screaming.
Someone tapped my shoulder, and as I uncovered my face I realized it was my physics teacher. She stared at me, with a mix of emotions on her face. She held her hand out, gesturing me to get up. When I got up I realized she wasn’t the only one there… all the teachers that taught my class were there, in a line all staring at me. Some were crying, some just stared blankly at me with no expression.
“You’re going to have to go to the headmasters office, I’m sorry..” She said, her voice slightly quivering.
When we arrived, she opened the door and as she shut it, I heard the sound of the door locking. That’s when I realized, this wasn’t the headmasters office….
That was a few hours ago, now i’m still here. My phone’s on 46%, and I’m just sitting here, wondering if it was worth it. I should’ve just listened. Now I’ve lost my best friend and I’m going to rot here, and if anyone finds me they’ll only find my decaying body. I’m posting this for everyone to know my story, and to say goodbye.
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One time, the class clown said he was going to go down the staircase that we weren’t supposed to use, and our physics teacher grabbed him and she screamed at him to not go down there. He ended up sitting back down, snickering as some students were whispering to each other and some exchanged confused glances with one another.
This made me more fixated on knowing more about the staircase. I’d wander around the school, looking to find where the bottom of the staircase was, but I’d never find it. I’d spend my break time asking different people about what they know about the staircase, and if they knew any rumors about them. Every rumor they’d say, I’d write down in my notebook. One rumor someone said was that a student in the 7th grade went down the staircase and was never seen again. Another rumor was that our maths teacher kills anyone who goes down the staircase. Though most of the rumors sounded quite stupid, I still wrote them down.
At some point, my friend Josh started noticing how curious I was about the staircase. Josh was quite a fearless guy. He would do anything dangerous, as if he was on a suicide mission, like the time when we had a science experiment and he thought that touching the bunsen burner would be a good idea. He ended up getting severe 3rd degree burns on his hand, which took around a year to heal, and also became the prime example of what not to do in a science experiment. That was only one of the things he did, but I won't go into detail about the others..
2 days ago, as we were sitting on one of the benches after school, Josh asked “Why don’t you just go down the stairs?”
“I don’t want to get suspended, I have a good record unlike you,” I said, rolling my eyes.
“I have a plan though.”
“It better not be stupid….”
That’s when he pulled a notebook out of his bag, and drew two stick figures.
“The one with the smiley face is me, and the one with the sad face is you. Do you understand?” He said.
“I do.”
“We’re going to do this pretty early. About 3 or 4am… we’re going to break into the school. Don’t worry though, I’ve done it before and succeeded.” He started to draw a gate, then drew the stick figure representing me climbing over, and the stick figure representing him over the gate, as it waited for me to climb down.
“This plan is kind of stupid,” I said, observing his rushed drawings.
“Do you want to see what’s under those stairs or not?”
“I do…”
“Then listen. So after we break in, we’ll need to be pretty quiet. No talking until we actually get into the building. We’ll need flashlights, so we’ll both bring our phones. When we get into the building you need to follow me. The stairs are near where our classroom is, remember?” He explained, with a moderately harsh tone. That’s how I knew he was serious.
“Okay, it kind of makes sense… I’m gonna go now though, tomorrow we’ll go through the plan again. Make sure to write it down, see you tomorrow Josh!” I said, picking up my backpack and leaving.
The next day, at break, Josh showed me his notebook which contained a detailed plan, explaining exactly what he had said the day before, but in more depth. Though I was hesitant to go through with the plan, I did really want to see those stairs….I had been so determined to know every single thing about those stairs, and this was like a once in a lifetime chance for me. So I agreed to the plan. That was yesterday.
I had my alarm set for 2:30 am. I got ready which took about 20 minutes. At around 2:55 am, I was out the house. From my house to my school was walking distance, so it was easy for me to get there. When I got there, I was quite surprised to see Josh already there, in front of the gate, looking at the floor.
“Oh you’re here already? Should we start now?” He asked.
“Yeah sure, why not?” I said.
That’s when he started climbing up the gate. I made sure to watch his technique so I could do the same when he was done. He climbed up the gate fairly quickly, then climbed down the gate, and he was in.
“Your turn.”
I slowly started climbing the gate, my arms shaking a bit every time I climbed higher. Eventually I was able to get down.
“Okay, now to get inside the building we need to use the back of the building. There’s a door there, and for some reason it’s never locked,” He whispered, and I nodded.
We started walking at a fast pace, making sure not to step on anything that would make noise.
When we finally entered the building, I followed Josh. Using the flashlight on my phone, we slowly made our way up the stairs, being careful of our surroundings. After what felt like forever, we finally found the staircase.
“Are you ready?” He whispered.
“Of course.”
We started going down, step by step. It looked normal, and I didn’t get why we couldn’t use it. As we were going down further and further, a foul odor hit my nose, and started getting stronger and stronger as we went down.
“What is that smell?” I asked, holding my nose with one hand and holding my phone with the other.
“You smell it too? It’s horrible,” He said. Though the smell was tormenting our nostrils, we kept on going. I started getting quite tired. I felt like I had been waking down those stairs for an eternity. At some point, as I continued to point my flashlight downwards, I saw something. Something abnormal… out of this world. I held Josh’s arm so he wouldn’t go down any more steps. He was about to open his mouth to speak until he also saw what i was seeing, and immediately closed his mouth.
We saw darkness. But in that darkness were faces. Some were crying, some were smiling. But as they looked directly into our eyes, their faces became angry. Full of hatred. They started screaming, and shouting unintelligible words. They reached their arms out to us. That’s when the darkness started rising, and I screamed at Josh to run, hyperventilating as tears streamed down my face.
I rapidly ran up the stairs, as the darkness slowly consumed our every step. As Josh was running though, he tripped up a step and fell. I screamed, and heard the sound of synchronized laughter and the sound of Josh screaming in agony and terror, as the creatures pulled him into the void. I kept running up and up the stairs and didn’t dare to look behind me. Somehow I was able to reach the top of the stairs, and when I did I collapsed to the floor, shaking uncontrollably, tears still streaming down my face as I covered my face, screaming.
Someone tapped my shoulder, and as I uncovered my face I realized it was my physics teacher. She stared at me, with a mix of emotions on her face. She held her hand out, gesturing me to get up. When I got up I realized she wasn’t the only one there… all the teachers that taught my class were there, in a line all staring at me. Some were crying, some just stared blankly at me with no expression.
“You’re going to have to go to the headmasters office, I’m sorry..” She said, her voice slightly quivering.
When we arrived, she opened the door and as she shut it, I heard the sound of the door locking. That’s when I realized, this wasn’t the headmasters office….
That was a few hours ago, now i’m still here. My phone’s on 46%, and I’m just sitting here, wondering if it was worth it. I should’ve just listened. Now I’ve lost my best friend and I’m going to rot here, and if anyone finds me they’ll only find my decaying body. I’m posting this for everyone to know my story, and to say goodbye.
2023.06.10 19:04 storiesof-adreamer 25 [F4M] #Nashville/USA - Looking for my special subby boyfriend for a GFD long term relationship!
(If this post is still up, I'm still looking!)
Hey there. I really want to develop a female led/slight gentle femdom relationship with a special guy.
When a lot of men see the term "female led relationship," they think, "Oh, the woman will make all the decisions with no input on what I think/want."
Are there dynamics like that? I'm sure there is. Personally, I'm not looking to be "the boss" or "above" you in any way. I want us to be equal... but have you give up control to me in a few other ways. :)
What do I mean? Keep reading on!
● ABOUT ME ●
You can call me Dreamer for now. (I'll tell you my real name once we get to know each other) Please do NOT call me Miss, Master, Dominatrix or Ma'am.
I'm 25 years old and an INFJ-T. I live in Nashville, Tennessee, USA (AKA Music City) and I'm on Central Standard Time. I'm a Black woman and I stand 5 feet, 7 inches tall. My eyes are brown and I wear glasses. I don't have any tattoos or piercings at the moment.
One thing I want to mention is that I'm plus size, AKA a bigger girl. I'm undergoing a vertical sleeve gastrectomy in two months to lose the excess weight I have in a sustainable and permanent way. I'm ready to regain my body and be healthy and confident again. I'd love to have you by my side throughout my journey!
As far as personality goes, I'd describe myself as empathetic and sweet. I like to help others as much as I can. In person, I tend to be rather shy at first. People tend to mistake that for weakness or gullibility. I'm anything but; my strength lies in introspection and quiet observation. I notice every nuance of a person's actions, words, body language, vibe... my intuition hasn't steered me wrong yet!
● INTERESTS ●
I won't go into detail on every single interest that I have but I'll talk about my biggest ones that you'll likely hear me mention the most.
✨️Writing✨️
I've been writing since I was six years old, but I started taking it seriously around 13 years old. All in all, it's been 19 years. As of right now, I primarily write Fanfiction but in the past, I've written short stories, poetry and I even tried to learn how to write screenplays at one point.
I wrote my first full-length book in 2018/2019. I started the sequel in early 2020, but I'm still working on it. I lost a LOT of inspiration during the pandemic but I'm finally writing for it again.
If you also enjoy writing, I'd love to "talk shop" with you and maybe we can exchange some of our past works.
✨️Music✨️
Music has gotten me through a lot over the years. Yeah, yeah, I know everyone says that. But it truly has. It's shaped my life and introduced me to a lot of things and people that I probably never would've done or met otherwise.
There's no point in saying I like xyz genre because I've listened to pretty much everything. The only ones I truly hate are country and gangster rap. If you want specifics, though... I've been a HUGE twenty one pilots fan for 9 years. (I have more merch, stickers and other random shit than I care to admit to lmao) I also love other artists like Amber Run, Purity Ring, Phantogram, Daughter, Lorde, OneRepublic... plus tons more.
I've always had this dumb idea of a guy and I confessing to each other through playlists with songs that make us think fondly about each other...
God, I'm single.
✨️Photography✨️
I've been into photography for 10 years and I've had my DSLR for eight years. (It's definitely the camera version of 'Ol Reliable) I enjoy nature and portrait photography. I'd love to show you some of my work and get your thoughts on it.
✨️TV/Movies✨️
TV genres I like: Animation (like Spongebob), comedy, drama, documentaries (disaster and crime ones are my favorites), true crime (like Forensic Files), old sitcoms (like Sanford and Son) and cooking and baking competitions/reality TV (like Kitchen Nightmares US and UK, Hell's Kitchen, Master Chef, The Great British Baking Show, etc)
Movie genres I like: Animation, drama, comedy, action, psychological thrillers and science fiction. I thoroughly loved The Greatest Showman so one could say I like musicals but it's the only one I've seen so not sure if that really counts. Comic book movies are pretty alright too, but I really haven't seen anything past the first Avengers movie lmaooooo.
I say this as unpretentiously as possible, but I haven't seen most popular TV shows or movies that your average person likes. I think the last "popular" thing I watched was that Jeffrey Dahmer series on Netflix. (mainly out of morbid curiosity because everyone was freaking out about it... and because I think Evan Peters is a cutie) I only saw a few episodes and then forgot to watch the rest of it, but it wasn't as horrific as everyone was saying. Maybe I've watched too much Forensic Files and I'm desensitized lmao.
✨️Video and computer games✨️
Video game genres I like: Adventure, action-adventure, RPGs & JRPGs, Strategy... basically anything that is relatively fun and not horror related.
Some of my all-time favorites: Kingdom Hearts II, Ratchet and Clank, Journey, Final Fantasy VII and Final Fantasy X.
As far as computer games, the only thing I play on a regular basis is The Sims 2 and The Sims 4. As a kid, I loved simulator and time-management games; some old favorites are the RCT series, Simcity: Rush Hour, the first four Diner Dash games, the Delicious series and Burger Shop 2 (which I still have on my computer actually lmao)
✨️Other random interests✨️
Art, traveling, people watching, researching random topics on Wikipedia and watching YouTube, especially channels with old shows and movies.
☆ CAREER ☆
My last position was working nights at a psychiatric hospital. I'm looking for something new at the moment.
☆ SCHOOLING ☆
I'm officially a college student at 25. Yay! Feel free to ask me more about it, I'd love to talk.
☆ ET CETERA ☆
I really love dogs and cats. I have three cats and they're little demons but I love them to death. I also love small animals like ferrets, bunnies and snakes!
My main love languages are words of affirmation, quality time and gift giving/receiving. To be honest, though, there's elements of each language that I enjoy or relate to in one way or another.
I don't smoke and I drink every so often. Otherwise, I'm vaccinated and DDF.
● ABOUT YOU ●
I'm looking for a guy between the ages of 23-33 years old. I might be willing to talk to someone within two years in either direction (so 21 min and 35 max) if you meet all my other preferences/wants. If you're younger than 21 or older than 35, though, please don't contact me.
Please be single and emotionally available. I won't interact with anyone already in a relationship or married (even if you're separated or in a "dead bedroom," you're STILL married) and I'm especially not interested in poly/ENM. I'm 100% monogamous.
Hair is super important to me! I prefer medium length to long hair, something I can stroke and play with a lot lmao.
I have a REALLY big soft spot for blue and/or doe eyes, but don't let that deter you. If you have kind eyes, I'll fall in love with them, no matter their color!
I tend to like softer facial features and even softer personalities. Are you super masculine in public but a total softie in private? Lovely! Are you less masculine but a little more feminine? Great! Are you androgynous or otherwise fall somewhere in between? I can dig it!
Key traits that I like in a guy include, but are not limited to: Being sweet, gentle, empathetic, considerate, an active listener, exceptional at communication and willing to go the extra mile for those that you love, be it family, friends, your partner, etc.
With that being said, it's important that you have time for me. I'm not expecting us to talk 24/7 but if you're always too busy to talk to me, this won't work. At some point, I'd like for us to also talk on the phone as our schedules permit, of course.
As I mentioned in the beginning of this post, please be from the USA/North America and willing to meet and get to know each other in person ASAP.
● WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR ●
It's important to me that you're an active listener; what I mean is that you'll make an effort to listen to what I have to say and respond to it accordingly. If I tell you my thoughts on a matter or ask you a question or give you a compliment etc etc, please respond to it. It makes me feel so sad and small if I feel like my thoughts or opinions are not important/relevant.
I can tell pretty quickly if someone is genuinely interested in me or not. Like I said before, I notice everything lol.
I mentioned earlier how one of my love languages is words of affirmation. One of the ways I enjoy that is through compliments. I'm not looking for you to worship the ground I walk on, but being told "You look beautiful" or "When you do xyz, that makes me really happy" makes me feel SO seen and appreciated.
It's incredibly frustrating to send a picture of myself and get a lukewarm response in return. :(
Affection is also super important to me. Holding hands, hugging, kissing, cuddling, touching... all the cute couple shit. I want you to touch me, not in a pervy way, but in an affectionate way. I want to stroke your hair while I hold you close... little things like that make me incredibly happy.
Keep in mind, everything I want from you, I'll give to you in return. I'll always listen and acknowledge you, give you compliments, shower you in affection, plus whatever else makes you feel wanted and appreciated as a person and in a relationship.
● OUR DYNAMIC ●
I always want you to have a choice and be able to voice your opinion. I will never degrade or boss you around in general, but especially when it comes to your personal choices. I'm a switch that used to be a predominant sub and believe me, I've had doms tell me before, "I make the decision on what you wear, what to eat, who you hang out with, etc etc... because I'm your dom and what I say goes."
Some people may like that. More power to them. But I'm not like that. I want you to feel free to express yourself. If you want my opinion, I'll give it to you, of course. But my job is to build you up and support your decisions, no matter how small!
Again, I'm not looking for you to kiss my ass. I'd love for you to take the lead on most decisions (with my input, of course). But I want you to also have a "service" attitude; whether that's helping out with household chores or surprising me with a massage after work or giving me flowers "just because" or helping me paint my toenails lol... just to name some examples. The sky's the limit.
That extends to "the bedroom" as well. I want my pleasure to be just as important to you as yours is to me.
In short? I just want to feel doted on and taken care of. I want to be the most important person in your life and you be the most important person in my life. I want to make you feel special and praise you and tell you how much you mean to me. And I want the same in return. 💓
● "KINKS" ●
This is inevitably gonna come up at some point. I'll say when it comes to my "kinks" (if you want to call them that) I like:
Teasing, edging, telling you when you can cum and begging me for it (I believe it's called orgasm control/denial), moaning, praise, blindfolds, eye contact, body worshiping (you and me), breast worship, oral, fingering and using toys on you.
Been a little curious about pegging someone one day. We'd have to build up to it, of course, because I don't want to hurt you. If you're not into that, though, don't worry! It's definitely not a requirement.
Things I do NOT like (or hard limits) are:
Humiliation, degradation, anything that causes you or me physical, emotional and mental harm, blood, pee, scat, vomit, diapers, CNC, ageplay, raceplay, hitting, slapping, choking or anything else illegal, unethical or otherwise unloving.
● IN CONCLUSION... ●
If you read all of this, good job! Here's a cookie, hope you like chocolate chip. 🍪
Seriously, though, I can't name every little thing I want. Despite the length of this post, I'm not trying to play Build-A-Boy. I realize you have your own caveats and that's totally fine. Let's get to know each other and see what happens. All I ask for, again, is that you want a serious, longterm relationship and not view me as just some sort of "kink dispenser."
Chats or DMs are fine. When you send me a message, please include the following...
• Name or alias • Location • Age • Height, body type, hair cololength, eye color • Your interests/hobbies • Whether you're a sub or a switch • What you're looking for out of a relationship and something (or things) you really enjoyed about my post • A clear, SFW picture of yourself • Your current favorite song (so I know you actually read through all of this) • Whatever else you want to add to catch my attention. The more you can match my "detailed energy," the better.
I won't reply to those who ignore my preferences or the message requirements above. If you send me nudes/dick pics/sexting or FWB requests/rude messages, you will be blocked and reported.
Thank you so much for reading this, and I hope you have a good night!
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Hey there. I really want to develop a female led/slight gentle femdom relationship with a special guy.
When a lot of men see the term "female led relationship," they think, "Oh, the woman will make all the decisions with no input on what I think/want."
Are there dynamics like that? I'm sure there is. Personally, I'm not looking to be "the boss" or "above" you in any way. I want us to be equal... but have you give up control to me in a few other ways. :)
What do I mean? Keep reading on!
● ABOUT ME ●
You can call me Dreamer for now. (I'll tell you my real name once we get to know each other) Please do NOT call me Miss, Master, Dominatrix or Ma'am.
I'm 25 years old and an INFJ-T. I live in Nashville, Tennessee, USA (AKA Music City) and I'm on Central Standard Time. I'm a Black woman and I stand 5 feet, 7 inches tall. My eyes are brown and I wear glasses. I don't have any tattoos or piercings at the moment.
One thing I want to mention is that I'm plus size, AKA a bigger girl. I'm undergoing a vertical sleeve gastrectomy in two months to lose the excess weight I have in a sustainable and permanent way. I'm ready to regain my body and be healthy and confident again. I'd love to have you by my side throughout my journey!
As far as personality goes, I'd describe myself as empathetic and sweet. I like to help others as much as I can. In person, I tend to be rather shy at first. People tend to mistake that for weakness or gullibility. I'm anything but; my strength lies in introspection and quiet observation. I notice every nuance of a person's actions, words, body language, vibe... my intuition hasn't steered me wrong yet!
● INTERESTS ●
I won't go into detail on every single interest that I have but I'll talk about my biggest ones that you'll likely hear me mention the most.
✨️Writing✨️
I've been writing since I was six years old, but I started taking it seriously around 13 years old. All in all, it's been 19 years. As of right now, I primarily write Fanfiction but in the past, I've written short stories, poetry and I even tried to learn how to write screenplays at one point.
I wrote my first full-length book in 2018/2019. I started the sequel in early 2020, but I'm still working on it. I lost a LOT of inspiration during the pandemic but I'm finally writing for it again.
If you also enjoy writing, I'd love to "talk shop" with you and maybe we can exchange some of our past works.
✨️Music✨️
Music has gotten me through a lot over the years. Yeah, yeah, I know everyone says that. But it truly has. It's shaped my life and introduced me to a lot of things and people that I probably never would've done or met otherwise.
There's no point in saying I like xyz genre because I've listened to pretty much everything. The only ones I truly hate are country and gangster rap. If you want specifics, though... I've been a HUGE twenty one pilots fan for 9 years. (I have more merch, stickers and other random shit than I care to admit to lmao) I also love other artists like Amber Run, Purity Ring, Phantogram, Daughter, Lorde, OneRepublic... plus tons more.
I've always had this dumb idea of a guy and I confessing to each other through playlists with songs that make us think fondly about each other...
God, I'm single.
✨️Photography✨️
I've been into photography for 10 years and I've had my DSLR for eight years. (It's definitely the camera version of 'Ol Reliable) I enjoy nature and portrait photography. I'd love to show you some of my work and get your thoughts on it.
✨️TV/Movies✨️
TV genres I like: Animation (like Spongebob), comedy, drama, documentaries (disaster and crime ones are my favorites), true crime (like Forensic Files), old sitcoms (like Sanford and Son) and cooking and baking competitions/reality TV (like Kitchen Nightmares US and UK, Hell's Kitchen, Master Chef, The Great British Baking Show, etc)
Movie genres I like: Animation, drama, comedy, action, psychological thrillers and science fiction. I thoroughly loved The Greatest Showman so one could say I like musicals but it's the only one I've seen so not sure if that really counts. Comic book movies are pretty alright too, but I really haven't seen anything past the first Avengers movie lmaooooo.
I say this as unpretentiously as possible, but I haven't seen most popular TV shows or movies that your average person likes. I think the last "popular" thing I watched was that Jeffrey Dahmer series on Netflix. (mainly out of morbid curiosity because everyone was freaking out about it... and because I think Evan Peters is a cutie) I only saw a few episodes and then forgot to watch the rest of it, but it wasn't as horrific as everyone was saying. Maybe I've watched too much Forensic Files and I'm desensitized lmao.
✨️Video and computer games✨️
Video game genres I like: Adventure, action-adventure, RPGs & JRPGs, Strategy... basically anything that is relatively fun and not horror related.
Some of my all-time favorites: Kingdom Hearts II, Ratchet and Clank, Journey, Final Fantasy VII and Final Fantasy X.
As far as computer games, the only thing I play on a regular basis is The Sims 2 and The Sims 4. As a kid, I loved simulator and time-management games; some old favorites are the RCT series, Simcity: Rush Hour, the first four Diner Dash games, the Delicious series and Burger Shop 2 (which I still have on my computer actually lmao)
✨️Other random interests✨️
Art, traveling, people watching, researching random topics on Wikipedia and watching YouTube, especially channels with old shows and movies.
☆ CAREER ☆
My last position was working nights at a psychiatric hospital. I'm looking for something new at the moment.
☆ SCHOOLING ☆
I'm officially a college student at 25. Yay! Feel free to ask me more about it, I'd love to talk.
☆ ET CETERA ☆
I really love dogs and cats. I have three cats and they're little demons but I love them to death. I also love small animals like ferrets, bunnies and snakes!
My main love languages are words of affirmation, quality time and gift giving/receiving. To be honest, though, there's elements of each language that I enjoy or relate to in one way or another.
I don't smoke and I drink every so often. Otherwise, I'm vaccinated and DDF.
● ABOUT YOU ●
I'm looking for a guy between the ages of 23-33 years old. I might be willing to talk to someone within two years in either direction (so 21 min and 35 max) if you meet all my other preferences/wants. If you're younger than 21 or older than 35, though, please don't contact me.
Please be single and emotionally available. I won't interact with anyone already in a relationship or married (even if you're separated or in a "dead bedroom," you're STILL married) and I'm especially not interested in poly/ENM. I'm 100% monogamous.
Hair is super important to me! I prefer medium length to long hair, something I can stroke and play with a lot lmao.
I have a REALLY big soft spot for blue and/or doe eyes, but don't let that deter you. If you have kind eyes, I'll fall in love with them, no matter their color!
I tend to like softer facial features and even softer personalities. Are you super masculine in public but a total softie in private? Lovely! Are you less masculine but a little more feminine? Great! Are you androgynous or otherwise fall somewhere in between? I can dig it!
Key traits that I like in a guy include, but are not limited to: Being sweet, gentle, empathetic, considerate, an active listener, exceptional at communication and willing to go the extra mile for those that you love, be it family, friends, your partner, etc.
With that being said, it's important that you have time for me. I'm not expecting us to talk 24/7 but if you're always too busy to talk to me, this won't work. At some point, I'd like for us to also talk on the phone as our schedules permit, of course.
As I mentioned in the beginning of this post, please be from the USA/North America and willing to meet and get to know each other in person ASAP.
● WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR ●
It's important to me that you're an active listener; what I mean is that you'll make an effort to listen to what I have to say and respond to it accordingly. If I tell you my thoughts on a matter or ask you a question or give you a compliment etc etc, please respond to it. It makes me feel so sad and small if I feel like my thoughts or opinions are not important/relevant.
I can tell pretty quickly if someone is genuinely interested in me or not. Like I said before, I notice everything lol.
I mentioned earlier how one of my love languages is words of affirmation. One of the ways I enjoy that is through compliments. I'm not looking for you to worship the ground I walk on, but being told "You look beautiful" or "When you do xyz, that makes me really happy" makes me feel SO seen and appreciated.
It's incredibly frustrating to send a picture of myself and get a lukewarm response in return. :(
Affection is also super important to me. Holding hands, hugging, kissing, cuddling, touching... all the cute couple shit. I want you to touch me, not in a pervy way, but in an affectionate way. I want to stroke your hair while I hold you close... little things like that make me incredibly happy.
Keep in mind, everything I want from you, I'll give to you in return. I'll always listen and acknowledge you, give you compliments, shower you in affection, plus whatever else makes you feel wanted and appreciated as a person and in a relationship.
● OUR DYNAMIC ●
I always want you to have a choice and be able to voice your opinion. I will never degrade or boss you around in general, but especially when it comes to your personal choices. I'm a switch that used to be a predominant sub and believe me, I've had doms tell me before, "I make the decision on what you wear, what to eat, who you hang out with, etc etc... because I'm your dom and what I say goes."
Some people may like that. More power to them. But I'm not like that. I want you to feel free to express yourself. If you want my opinion, I'll give it to you, of course. But my job is to build you up and support your decisions, no matter how small!
Again, I'm not looking for you to kiss my ass. I'd love for you to take the lead on most decisions (with my input, of course). But I want you to also have a "service" attitude; whether that's helping out with household chores or surprising me with a massage after work or giving me flowers "just because" or helping me paint my toenails lol... just to name some examples. The sky's the limit.
That extends to "the bedroom" as well. I want my pleasure to be just as important to you as yours is to me.
In short? I just want to feel doted on and taken care of. I want to be the most important person in your life and you be the most important person in my life. I want to make you feel special and praise you and tell you how much you mean to me. And I want the same in return. 💓
● "KINKS" ●
This is inevitably gonna come up at some point. I'll say when it comes to my "kinks" (if you want to call them that) I like:
Teasing, edging, telling you when you can cum and begging me for it (I believe it's called orgasm control/denial), moaning, praise, blindfolds, eye contact, body worshiping (you and me), breast worship, oral, fingering and using toys on you.
Been a little curious about pegging someone one day. We'd have to build up to it, of course, because I don't want to hurt you. If you're not into that, though, don't worry! It's definitely not a requirement.
Things I do NOT like (or hard limits) are:
Humiliation, degradation, anything that causes you or me physical, emotional and mental harm, blood, pee, scat, vomit, diapers, CNC, ageplay, raceplay, hitting, slapping, choking or anything else illegal, unethical or otherwise unloving.
● IN CONCLUSION... ●
If you read all of this, good job! Here's a cookie, hope you like chocolate chip. 🍪
Seriously, though, I can't name every little thing I want. Despite the length of this post, I'm not trying to play Build-A-Boy. I realize you have your own caveats and that's totally fine. Let's get to know each other and see what happens. All I ask for, again, is that you want a serious, longterm relationship and not view me as just some sort of "kink dispenser."
Chats or DMs are fine. When you send me a message, please include the following...
• Name or alias • Location • Age • Height, body type, hair cololength, eye color • Your interests/hobbies • Whether you're a sub or a switch • What you're looking for out of a relationship and something (or things) you really enjoyed about my post • A clear, SFW picture of yourself • Your current favorite song (so I know you actually read through all of this) • Whatever else you want to add to catch my attention. The more you can match my "detailed energy," the better.
I won't reply to those who ignore my preferences or the message requirements above. If you send me nudes/dick pics/sexting or FWB requests/rude messages, you will be blocked and reported.
Thank you so much for reading this, and I hope you have a good night!
- Dreamer
2023.06.10 18:55 PassedPawn_ [TW: Sexual Abuse] Shedding Light on Sexual Abuse against Boys and Men in India
According to a national study on child abuse conducted by the Ministry of Women and Child Development in India with the support of UNICEF, Save the Children and Prayas, it was discovered that child sexual abuse is a widespread problem affecting both boys and girls in the country. The study found that boys also face significant sexual abuse, as more than half of the respondents who reported abuse were boys:
Boys are vulnerable to victimization by both male and female perpetrators, and they usually don't understand that they were sexually abused:
Furthermore, there's a harmful stigma associated with male child victims of sexual abuse. While cases of sexual abuse faced by girls are vastly underreported in India, the NCRB data reveals that cases involving boys are substantially more underreported, despite the enactment of gender-neutral child sexual abuse laws:
The phenomenon of male sexual abuse isn't just confined to the domain of children, either. Delhi-based Centre for Civil Society found that approximately 18% of Indian adult men surveyed reported being coerced or forced to engage in conjugal relations. Of those, 16% claimed a female perpetrator and 2% claimed a male perpetrator.
Source: A Case for Gender-Neutral Rape Laws in India
While we can't say much about the accuracy and conclusions of such surveys, we don't have any official data regarding adult male victims of sexual crimes in India to work with, on account of the failure of our rape and sexual assault laws to recognize them. For a multitude of reasons, there exists a serious scarcity of information about this topic.
Moreover, while discussions on this topic typically center around women, it's worth acknowledging that men also face sexual harassment in significant numbers, as highlighted by the The Economic Times-Synovate Survey:
Some more indications:
This article on The Hindu depicts several instances of sexual harassment faced by men including stalking, sexual harassment at workplace and sexual assault.
In India, the issue of sexual harassment against men is customarily overlooked, with a lack of public awareness and recognition of male vulnerability. Moreover, the absence of comprehensive legal frameworks contributes to the culture of silence surrounding male victimhood:
Some factors that discourage men from speaking up about their encounters:
In 2016, the University Grants Commission issued regulations stating that sexual harassment is a gender-neutral issue, recognizing that male students are equally susceptible to various forms of sexual harassment, just like their female and transgender counterparts. Although this is only applicable to institutions of higher education, it's still a positive development. Additionally, Wipro Technologies and Infosys in Bangalore have gender-neutral complaint committees. It's also worth noting that around 77 countries have already embraced gender-neutral laws. Given the international progress, it's long overdue for India to follow suit.
As a final note, I feel strongly about this subject because, as a male, I've personally been a target of sexual misconduct. I've come across many other men who have reported similar experiences, and I hope that more men feel comfortable sharing their stories so that the distorted narrative of sexual abuse can eventually be challenged.
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A questionnaire was administered to 12,447 children belonging to the five different categories of children in family environment, children in schools, children in institutions, children at work and street children in 13 different states. The major findings of this survey were:(https://www.legalserviceindia.com/legal/article-4985-child-sexual-abuse-in-india.html)
• Out of the total child respondents, 53.22% reported having faced one or more forms of sexual abuse. Among them 52.94% were boys and 47.06% girls.
• The age wise distribution of children reporting sexual abuse in one or more forms showed that though the abuse started at the age of 5 years, it gained momentum 10 years onward, peaking at 12 to 15 years and then starting to decline. This means that children in the teenage years are most vulnerable.
• The significant finding was that contrary to the general perception, the overall percentage of boys was much higher than that of girls.
• In fact 9 out of 13 States reported higher percentage of sexual abuse among boys as compared to girls, with states like Delhi reporting a figure of 65.64%.
• Out of the total child respondents, 20.90% were subjected to severe forms of sexual abuse. Out of these 57.30% were boys and 42.70% were girls.
• 76% children were subjected to other forms of sexual abuse. Out of these 53.07% were boys and 46.93% were girls.
• Assam reported the highest incidence of sexual abuse among both boys and girls. 62.55% boys and 51.19% girls from Assam reported facing one or more forms of sexual abuse, which was highest amongst all the 13 sample states. This was followed by Delhi with 54.66% boys and 22.54% girls and Bihar with 35.89% boys and 30.40% girls reporting high incidence of sexual abuse. The Goa figures of 2.55% boys and 2.17% girls do not seem to be in line with the general perception.
• Across the country, every second child was being subjected to other forms of sexual abuse and every fifth child was facing severe forms of sexual abuse.
• Children on streets, children at work and children in institutional care reported the highest incidents of sexual abuse.
• 77% children did not report the matter to anyone.
• 50% abuses are persons known to the child or in a position of trust and responsibility.
The questionnaire relating to young adults looked at sexual assault in two forms: one penetration of anus and vagina by objects, and second penetration by penis and oral sex. Out of the 2324 young adult respondents, 10.33% reported having been subjected to sexual assault of one or both forms. When looked separately, 9.2% of young respondents reported penetration by penis and 7.4% by objects. The high percentage of young adults reporting penetration by an object is a reflection of the brutality perpetrated on children. The gender break up of all young adult respondents having faced sexual assault during childhood revealed that more males (58.33%) faced one or both forms of sexual assault as compared to females (41.67%).
Boys are vulnerable to victimization by both male and female perpetrators, and they usually don't understand that they were sexually abused:
Other interesting findings included that in India, some of the boys in the sample study were abused by women too, which was not found in other participating countries. The India report went further with the narrative of physical strength to include independence and knowledge about how to have sex. Or only in India did some of the respondents state the expectation for men to know about 'how to have sex'. What was suggested in all the reports was that boys do not appear to understand that boys can be sexually abused. They could give examples of sexual abuse, but the focus always appeared to be the abuse of girls. That is, many of the male respondents did not know what they had experienced was abuse, and often what is legally defined as abuse was described by a boy as experimentation or even as transactional.(https://www.theweek.in/news/india/2022/04/13/decade-after-pocso-campaign-aims-to-highlight-male-sexual-abuse.html)
Furthermore, there's a harmful stigma associated with male child victims of sexual abuse. While cases of sexual abuse faced by girls are vastly underreported in India, the NCRB data reveals that cases involving boys are substantially more underreported, despite the enactment of gender-neutral child sexual abuse laws:
“Crime in India” 2019 report by The National Crime Record Bureau revealed that registration of cases under the POCSO Act has increased by 18.9 per cent. While, of the 26,192 cases filed under POCSO Act that has rape charges, 25,934 were girls, and only 258 were boys. Even after the implementation of POCSO (gender-neutral law), it can be seen that there is a very low rate of reporting and help-seeking among victims of sexually abused boys in India.(https://childsafetyatwork.com/minor-boys-sexual-abuse-an-ignored-reality-in-india/)
The phenomenon of male sexual abuse isn't just confined to the domain of children, either. Delhi-based Centre for Civil Society found that approximately 18% of Indian adult men surveyed reported being coerced or forced to engage in conjugal relations. Of those, 16% claimed a female perpetrator and 2% claimed a male perpetrator.
Source: A Case for Gender-Neutral Rape Laws in India
While we can't say much about the accuracy and conclusions of such surveys, we don't have any official data regarding adult male victims of sexual crimes in India to work with, on account of the failure of our rape and sexual assault laws to recognize them. For a multitude of reasons, there exists a serious scarcity of information about this topic.
Moreover, while discussions on this topic typically center around women, it's worth acknowledging that men also face sexual harassment in significant numbers, as highlighted by the The Economic Times-Synovate Survey:
In an interesting new trend, a substantial 38% of the respondents agreed that in today’s workplaces, even men are as vulnerable to sexual harassment as women. In Hyderabad and Mumbai, 55% of the respondents agreed to this point. Many of the corporates and PSUs ET spoke to agree to this new trend and point out that many male employees do not come out in the open and file complaints because they feel they will not be believed, considering India’s social beliefs. They usually seek a transfer to get out of the situation or find a new job.And, in contradiction to prevailing notions, it's not just men who sexually harass; the survey found that female perpetrators of workplace sexual harassment were as prevalent as male ones.
Some more indications:
During Ungender’s brainchild ‘Project Jagruk’, a sensitization and awareness drive regarding the Sexual Harassment of Women at Workplace (Prevention, Prohibition and Redressal) Act, 2013 conducted in Police Stations of South Delhi, many Police personnel wished to know if the act to applied to men as well. Many male victims of sexual harassment had approached them with complaints. When these police personnel were told that the act specifically applied only to women, they wished to know when men would also be protected from sexual harassment.(https://www.ungender.in/why-india-inc-needs-to-protect-men-against-sexual-harassment-at-workplaces-in-india-case-for-gender-neutral-policies)
This article on The Hindu depicts several instances of sexual harassment faced by men including stalking, sexual harassment at workplace and sexual assault.
In India, the issue of sexual harassment against men is customarily overlooked, with a lack of public awareness and recognition of male vulnerability. Moreover, the absence of comprehensive legal frameworks contributes to the culture of silence surrounding male victimhood:
The issue is so entirely neglected in men that even our legal system is obsolete of laws protecting men from sexual harassment. The sexual assault laws of our country have been devised such as that they clearly state their existence exclusively for women. The sections 354, 509, and 376 of the Indian Penal Code which deal with sexual assault, namely, outraging the modesty of a woman, eve teasing and committing rape of a woman, all assume that men cannot be subjected to these crimes. The Vishakha guidelines which aims to prevent sexual harassment in work places are also just limited to women.(https://indianexpress.com/article/india/sexual-harassment-of-male-a-reality-but-remains-a-taboo)
“According to the Indian law, modesty, if at all, exists only in women,” says ex-IPS officer Uday Sahai on the issue of male sexual harassment. “The only form in which a wrong sexual advancement on a man is recognized as an offence is as sodomy under the 377 section of the IPC. Apart from that there is no law to punish a person for molesting a man,” he further explains.
Some factors that discourage men from speaking up about their encounters:
The fear of not being taken seriously is not the only reason which prevents men from reporting sexual harassment cases. The fear that a female perpetrator may, in fact, use sexual harassment laws to wrongly implicate the male victim (by alleging that it was the man who sexually harassed her) has led many male victims of sexual harassment to not formally complain.(https://www.firstpost.com/india/vijay-nair-sexual-harassment-case-rising-incidents-against-men-emphasise-need-for-gender-neutral-laws-in-india-3452286.html)
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The idea that a woman can sexually harass a man is still considered inconceivable in the Indian society. What makes it even more difficult for men to speak about such incidents openly is the tendency of others to perceive male victims of sexual harassment as "feminine" or "weak". The disbelief surrounding sexual harassment of men by women in India can also be attributed to the absence of data/statistics on this issue. This, in turn, becomes a vicious cycle where the fear of being disbelieved may cause a male victim of sexual harassment to not report such incidents, leading to further lack of statistics in such matters.
In 2016, the University Grants Commission issued regulations stating that sexual harassment is a gender-neutral issue, recognizing that male students are equally susceptible to various forms of sexual harassment, just like their female and transgender counterparts. Although this is only applicable to institutions of higher education, it's still a positive development. Additionally, Wipro Technologies and Infosys in Bangalore have gender-neutral complaint committees. It's also worth noting that around 77 countries have already embraced gender-neutral laws. Given the international progress, it's long overdue for India to follow suit.
As a final note, I feel strongly about this subject because, as a male, I've personally been a target of sexual misconduct. I've come across many other men who have reported similar experiences, and I hope that more men feel comfortable sharing their stories so that the distorted narrative of sexual abuse can eventually be challenged.
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2023.06.10 17:28 C0llege0fCle0patra The Ka Ba Cycle - [The Sleeping Soul Chooses Physical Rebirth]
![The Ka Ba Cycle - [The Sleeping Soul Chooses Physical Rebirth]](https://b.thumbs.redditmedia.com/jiNBK5Pp3UFS8HEEXCeJQ236Tdxfj4nge_juMQusERE.jpg "The Ka Ba Cycle - [The Sleeping Soul Chooses Physical Rebirth]") | "Both you and I have passed through many births; you know them not, I know them all." — Bhagavad-Gitâ submitted by C0llege0fCle0patra to TheAnkhKey [link] [comments] I apologize for not being that active on Reddit recently, I felt like I needed some space from it. It was bothering me that my posts were being stolen [completely copy and pasted, not xposted] with no mentions.. I had to step back and unravel not why it was happening, but why I cared. I was letting something external from my self have power to alter my emotional state. The thing about alchemy and your journey of transformations is it isn't a one-pop-stop. The Great Work is not becoming rich from one single graveyard shift. To get to your centre you will encounter dead-end after dead-end, and sometimes become lost while trying to find your way back to square one. You do not shine a shoe and expect it to remain as such after walking through a puddle of mud. When your soul awakens and you make the connection, there is a point you realize everything external is the puddle of mud that you must walk through gracefully, re-polishing yourself again and again. Letting things affect you minimal amount is key. Neutral. Calm. Still. This is where you will be highly sensitive to energy. Again, water that is still can sense each vibration, boiling water cannot see clearly. You will be able to discern when someone is lying to you, etc. Your awareness is heightened. You have a super power. Wow, ok, I could keep spiraling or actually begin this post. I know I mention the Ka Ba Cycle in most of my posts, that is what I personally call the physical rebirth cycle. Ka is the ancient Egypt/Kemet "Soul" hieroglyph for Ka/Soul The glyph for Ka is arms, which is why I say the ankh without the arms is a keyhole, the ankh with it's arms is key. Awakening your soul is key. Ba is your soul after physical death, when it can travel between worlds [just like Hermes/Mercury] Ba Ba is your head with wings. It is your consciousness free of the limits from physical form. However, if Ka was not awakened during the lifetime, Ba is in a sleep-like trance, and highly disoriented. Consciousness was not expanded. Without knowledge of true self, Ba will cycle down for physical rebirth. Another incarnation, another chance to set yourself free. How does Ba cycle back down? By choosing. Ego has so many material and emotional attachments on Earth, it chooses to come back every time. A relationship ego believes it cannot exist without? It will not see any other option. A life of money or fame that ego cannot part with? Back down. Ego believes it is needed on Earth. Soul understands that illusion. This is the Ka Ba cycle. Until you genuinely know thyself, and unlock the trap door yourself, you will remain part of it completely unbeknownst to you. Everything you have learned hitherto buried into your unconscious, awaiting rediscovery. Once again, this is how Carl Jung described enlightenment, it is making the unconscious conscious, darkness to light, lead to gold. Plato believed all of the answers necessary to transcend are already within us, but are forgotten and it is up to us to remember who we are. ouroboros [These next few paragraphs are from a post of mine 5 months ago on Eternal Return, in case they seem familiar]. Eternal return, or eternal recurrence, relates to the philosophy of predeterminism - in that you are predestined to continue repeating the same events over and over again. An endless and beginning-less cycle of physical reincarnation. Time is an IN-finite circle. Our physical self is IN-finite. Both are illusions. Our inner-self(soul) is immortal and boundless. To explain what I mean: Finite = limitations and restrictions. So, referring to time itself as IN-finite.. time is IN limitations and restrictions. It is one big illusion that help creates the infinite circle of boundaries, where we continue to be physically reborn. Nature (word comes for "nTr" which means GOD in Ancient Egypt) shows the cyclical path of life - the sun rises and sets, annual seasons bring life, death and rebirth etc. Ancient Kemet/Egypt understood this concept of cycles. The Lotus flower(which resembles an aerial view of the Nile) closes and sinks below the water in the darkness, to emerge and open in the light. The Scarab beetle was a reminder of reemergence of life. "As Above, So Below" originates from Thoth - God of Wisdom - The Emerald Tablets. They believed the material daily life cycle was a mirror of the greater cosmos. Herodotus, the ancient Greek historian, Herodotus states that the Egyptians were the first to conceive the idea of the immortality of the soul Pythagoras (who studied in Egypt), taught that after a specific amount of time, the same events occur again - "nothing is entirely new." He taught about the transmigration of the Soul - in which it exists outside of the physical self. The Stoics, possibly inspired by Pythagoreans, incorporated eternal recurrence into their natural philosophy. The Mayans, Aztecs etc all had a cyclical view of the nature of reality. The book of Ecclesiastes in the Hebrew Bible famously states: "What has been will be again, what has been done will be done again; there is nothing new under the sun." The rise of Christianity brought an end to classical theories of eternal return, in the West, which were incompatible with Christian notions of free will and salvation. Here is how I actually see it though.. Christianity is not wrong in saying free will and salvation exist, and as well as eternal return is not wrong either. It is an ultimate truth that is separated into two. My belief is while we are in the INfinite time loop, our free will is halted, or at least appears to be, as we live through the experiences of the outer self - which is just an illusion like time. Once we pierce the veil of reality, our soul(immortal, boundless, wise) has the ability to break free from physical reincarnation. Thus, Salvation. (My next post will be a full breakdown of this, the Soul's Metempsychosis - transmigration/learning/remembering journey.) A revival of the concept of eternal return, is Nietzsche. His view was that you have to will yourself to want to live again, in doing so, your perception changes, thus the experience changes. He believed this concept to be his Great Work. There are many more philosophies and religions that intertwine the cycle of rebirth. Could it be we live in different bodies each time? Or is each incarnation indistinguishable? Are we living through the EXACT same events, the exact same way over and over? It would explain other concepts such as deja vu etc. I believe that we must over come our own illusion of Self. So, whether or not we reincarnate into this exact same life and body, or another, the same things are shown again and again until we reach a breakthrough and learn (or remember). Maybe we do not even start over. Its possible we are reborn into a moment in time, and that we must relive until the core is reached. Ka Ba also means Cube. The Cube Cycle of Lower Consciousness. Hexagons[2 dimensional cube] and cubes play a heavy role in the veil. Planet Saturn, on its North Pole has a hexagonal storm. Saturn is Father Time - a physical limitation. Mental confinement. "To know divine thought, O Souls, you must descend and painfully ascend the path of the 7 planets and their heavens." - Hermes Saturn Plato assigned Cube to Earth. https://preview.redd.it/gyg1qi8tc75b1.jpg?width=318&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=8e0d47a4134abb135243eba615a897ef66442000 Many crystalline structures of elements,minerals,metals etc abundant in our reality are hexagonal or cubed, such as Chitin, Lead, etc. Chitin has been compared to a hexagonal force field [link at end]. Lead, in ancient alchemy, was assigned to Planet Saturn. There are endless examples, be sure to go through my post history. I have another sub dedicated to it, TheSaturnTimeCube Lead Ka Ba The most Holy site in Islam is the Ka'Ba, The Cube. The Sacred House. One of the rituals is Tawaf, going around the cube 7 times counter-clockwise. Is this circling the square rather than squaring the circle? Reverse. As is countering the clock, which suggests a count down. Tik Tok. The first 3 laps are outer, and are fast. The remaining 4 are done closer to the Cube, and at a slower pace. Remember 3 is spiritual, 4 is flesh. Merging above and below = 7. https://preview.redd.it/fe4q1k5dg75b1.jpg?width=640&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=7bb0299c464cc08047892fa81982a11258dc2b8c Above and Below joining, 3+4, = Mer Ka Ba. Mer means light. The above photo is my post from awhile ago, and here is my comment: The merging/conjunction of upper and lower worlds. The death of Duality. The Mer Ka Ba -[Light Cube] The sacred geometry - shared, taught and utilised over many ages. It is said that ancient Egypt learned of it's power from Atlantis. It was 3 words not one. Mer means a specific set of 2 rotating lights that takes the spirit from the lower realm to the upper. The Merkaba Is discussed in the Bible, book of Enoch, Torah, and more. It is ancient, not "new age." I will be making a quick post on why referring to Spiritualism as "new age" which is a term stemming from mid 1800s and is aligning with the narrative of physical science and modern religion - which aligns with separation and duality, not truth. "THE first chapter of Ezekiel [old testament] has played a most fruitful part in the mystical speculations of the Jews. Ezekiel's image of Yahve riding upon the chariot of the 'living creatures - The Chariot (Merkaba) was thus a kind of 'mystic way' leading up to the final goal of the soul. Or, more precisely, it was the mystic 'instrument,' the vehicle by which one was carried direct into the 'halls' of the unseen." The Hebrew word is Merkavah - the two meanings are
Duality. Neutralizing your emotional state at all times allows you to see what duality really is. Here is a duality and cube connection, from my own post that I will link. 64 is the first whole number that is both a perfect square, and **perfect cube. [**Alchemy is the processes of purifying and perfecting]. 64 is the square of 8. 8 being infinity. Being the cube of 4, the number 64 represents the physical world. The Magic Square of Mercury has 64 squares. 8x8 columns that all sum to 260. A magic square, or kamea, is a representation of spiritual forces in a mathematical format. They are typically arranged in such a way that any row is equal to the sum of any column. The Seal of Mercury is created by drawing lines that intersect every number in the square. Magic Square of Mercury Remember Hermes is Mercury aka Quicksilver. On its North Pole - the ALBEDO bond of planet Mercury is 0.088 - this is the fraction of power in the total electromagnetic radiation that is scattered back out into space - AKA how REFLECTIVE - which self reflection is key. Albedo is one of the four main stages of the Magnum Opus in alchemy- the whiteness. It follows the black, nigredo, stage.. it is the washing away impurities, transforming the darkness into light [bringing what is unconscious into conscious, deeper awareness]. So there we have black and white duality. As well, if Mercury's orbital period was rounded up.. it would be 88 days. The I Ching - Book of Changes - Ancient complex system of divination that originated in China during the third millennium BC. These 8 symbols, when combined with each other in every possible configuration - results in 64 hexagrams that make up the book today as expounded by King Wen. The straight together line symbolizes "yes" - while the unattached, separate lines symbolize "no" Togetherness =Yes, Duality =No. Our journey is going every possible route, intersecting - until we find our centre. I Ching The Philosophers Stone in Alchemy is immortality. This is the awakening of the Soul, by learning who you are in stages, all revealed when you have intersected all which ways, just like the I Ching, and the Magic Square. All Paths intersecting in all which ways, but summing to the same - just like the Magic Square. All of which guide you to enter your own mind. Yin and yang is a concept originated in ancient Chinese philosophy that describes how obviously opposite or contrary forces may actually be complementary, interconnected, and interdependent in the natural world, and how they may give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another. Yin and yang transform each other: like an undertow in the ocean, every advance is complemented by a retreat, and every rise transforms into a fall. Thus, a seed will sprout from the earth and grow upwards towards the sky—an intrinsically yang movement. Then, when it reaches its full potential height, it will fall.* The growth of the top seeks light, while roots grow in darkness. As I usually put forth, duality is the nature of this reality...and neutralizing and finding your centre is leads to higher consciousness. 64 -8x8 - black and white tiles on a Chess board - a game of strategy and the journey of the pawn to crown. [Fool to Magician]. “Pawns are ordinary man, attempting to cross the board, through the seven grades of initiation, to reach the eighth square, the goal of the initiate. To attain the eighth state is Paradise Regained, realization, enlightenment, becoming a Mover at Will [Ed., “all-powerful; regal, Queen-like”]. Pawns are ruled by Venus and Mercury, the pair of lovers” (Cooper, J. C., p. 34). Some link the origins with Thoth/Hermes/Mercury., such as Plato " “At the Egyptian city of Naucratis, there was a famous old god, whose name was Theuth; the bird which is called the Ibis is sacred to him, and he was the inventor of many arts, such as arithmetic and calculation and geometry and astronomy and draughts and dice, but his great discovery was the use of letters.” https://preview.redd.it/a3fr1yaci75b1.jpg?width=1500&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=743c806c8304d2c79c08cdcb19e62a1ab691277c Metatrons Cube contains all possibilities. It has the ability to limit and contain, as well as create. Metatrons Cube This leads me back to the G in Freemasonry - Gamut - which means all possibilities. Therefore, whatever you believe the G stands for, you would be correct, as it is a possibility. My post on this linked below. The lowest G, gamma ut, the 7th, in ancient Medieval musical scale, that ascends and descends through the all possibilities, creating music. 7 , 3 + 4 , above and below, spiritual and physical. A right angle. The staircase we go up and down. The planets we ascend and descend, as Hermes stated. My words from my Hermes post: Is Hermes/Mercury a representation of the Awakened Soul? The Rubedo stage...Immortality? [Mercury is red], The summit of the mountain in which you have 360 degree view. Just as when you find your centre and escape duality, you see all sides clearly. Hermes = Man connecting with his own Divine nature through mental transformations, purifying himself and earning the wisdom through the stages of Great Work. The Magic of your mind is revealed when you are ready. You must pass the stages. Until then you are destined, just as the Mad Hatter was, to relive Time. Do we initiate ourselves without realizing? [Mentor - ment=mind]. It seems as though the beginning and end stages [alpha and omga / Nigredo/Rubedo/ Saturn and Mercury] have control of the cycle, until your soul awakes. The "messenger" [Hermes] is your own unconscious. The beginning is the end and the end is the beginning within the alchemical loop. Taming the ego and giving up material attachment, sacrificing physical self for divine self. Giving up what our physical eyes see, for what our inner eye could potentially see. Just like Odin. Believing the impossible, squaring the circle. Unsealing the Hermetically sealed Ka Ba Infinity cycle cube of duality. Not as man am I for free have I become of dimensions and planes. In each, take I on a new body. In each, I change in my form. Know I now that the formless is all there is of form. - Thoth The Eternal Return https://www.reddit.com/TheAnkhKey/comments/100ooh4/a_breakdown_of_the_eternal_return_physical/ Plato's Theory of Recollection [remembering who you are]. https://www.reddit.com/TheAnkhKey/comments/107s8ly/platos_theory_of_recollection_soul_does_not_learn/ Ancient Egypt, Scarab Beetles and Chitin/hexagonal forcefield https://www.reddit.com/TheAnkhKey/comments/12sfnr9/what_did_ancient_egypt_understand_about_scarab/ The G In Freemasonry https://www.reddit.com/TheAnkhKey/comments/13td1ie/what_the_g_in_freemasonry_represents/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web2x&context=3 |
2023.06.10 17:16 what_happened_lol What would you do if you were me? Feeling pretty lost in life rn.
I'm 18 years old and I'm taking my A Levels later this year. It has been a lifelong dream for me to pursue higher education overseas, but I've been a consistent underachiever throughout my high school career. I don't really have any skills or assets. No musical instruments, no sports, no second languages, no artistic talent, no programming ability. My grades are nothing great and I don't have many interesting extracurriculars, so that dream feels borderline elusive. I really need to leave a dysfunctional family situation and come into my own, so this hurts a lot. I've always been ambitious but I lack motivation.
Depression is something I've struggled with for a long time, but I never got help because of how uncomfortable I am opening up to others. I don't have time to get help anytime soon due to school and other commitments, and I really regret not doing so earlier. I've struggled to do work recently. I spend virtually all my time aimlessly browsing the internet, listening to music and sleeping. I've been able to do some reading as well, which is a little more productive but that's about it. I don't even leave the house unless I have to for things like grocery shopping. I'm so drained, physically, emotionally and mentally. I barely even feel anything anymore.I more or less hate everything about myself. The person I am, the way I look, the fact that I've achieved nothing, the fact that I have very few happy, meaningful relationships in my life. I'm also struggling with gender identity at the moment, it's thrown a big wrench into my life and has made the road ahead all the more uncertain and scary.
It feels like I've drawn a really bad hand and I'm more or less screwed, at least for the next 5-10 years. I'm utterly hopeless and exhausted. I have so many dreams but it feels like they're all too good for someone like me. I feel like the biggest failure in the entire world. But I desperately want to be better. What would you do if you were me? Any advice would be greatly, greatly appreciated and if you're reading this I hope you have a nice day ahead :)
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Depression is something I've struggled with for a long time, but I never got help because of how uncomfortable I am opening up to others. I don't have time to get help anytime soon due to school and other commitments, and I really regret not doing so earlier. I've struggled to do work recently. I spend virtually all my time aimlessly browsing the internet, listening to music and sleeping. I've been able to do some reading as well, which is a little more productive but that's about it. I don't even leave the house unless I have to for things like grocery shopping. I'm so drained, physically, emotionally and mentally. I barely even feel anything anymore.I more or less hate everything about myself. The person I am, the way I look, the fact that I've achieved nothing, the fact that I have very few happy, meaningful relationships in my life. I'm also struggling with gender identity at the moment, it's thrown a big wrench into my life and has made the road ahead all the more uncertain and scary.
It feels like I've drawn a really bad hand and I'm more or less screwed, at least for the next 5-10 years. I'm utterly hopeless and exhausted. I have so many dreams but it feels like they're all too good for someone like me. I feel like the biggest failure in the entire world. But I desperately want to be better. What would you do if you were me? Any advice would be greatly, greatly appreciated and if you're reading this I hope you have a nice day ahead :)