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So we are together for more than 4 years, and during all that time my GF is making significantly less money than me (like, for a long time it was half the money I make). And I'm not even making that much, maybe an average pay for where I live. Because of this for these past years I wasn't really able to be financially stable, so to say, because it was always like "please buy me a coffee" or "please give me gas money" or "please give me 10$ for something", for a long time I also had to carry a bigger part of food spendings (we live together), so every month I'm down to square one, with almost no savings and nothing even bought for myself. I don't really need lots of stuff, but damn, I want to treat myself once in a while.
With time I developed a system for us to spent only a fixed amount of money on groceries and it was really working. So I am more or less aware of my incomes and spendings, but still she was regularly asking for money here and there. Recently she got a good new job which pays more (still less than I make but with short term prospects of making more than me), and I was kind of relieved, so we planned to move to a better (and more expensive) apartment, I managed to save up some money in the past few months and I was planning to buy some nice shit for myself and for the new apartment (where we live together, mind you). But here comes the moving day (right in the beginning of a new month so she got her paycheck like 1-2 weeks ago) and she says she has no money again, so I had to pay almost my full monthly pay for the rent, advance and all that shit. Keep in mind, we were talking about moving and actively looking for an apartment for a month minimum, so she was aware that we were going to move and pay that much money at once. So now she owes me half of her paycheck as well, so next month she's gonna be broke again. So the cycle continues.
If at this point you might have thoughts that she buys something in secret, like drugs or booze or whatever, but no, I can assure you.
That said, she never holds back in spending money not even for herself, but for everyone else. Like, we are going for a dinner to my parents, she buys candy for the kids, wine for mom, groceries to cook something for them. Sometimes she even buys something for me, something I don't necessarily need.
Every time I start even a remote conversation about the dinero, not even insinuating that she is broke again and I have to carry us through with rent and shit, she just gets pissed at me and says something like "you always tell me how stupid I am with my money". We had one of these conversations yesterday and it was the same thing. After all these years she says that she tries to keep it together with her spendings, but for the love of god I can't see it.
Fuck man, I'm really close to breaking up with her just over this, I love her, but I want to buy shit for myself and just feel stable once for 4 years of this and not grab money from my savings account (which is fucking miserable as is) just to get by.

I knew I was poor ever since I was a kid, my dad wasn’t really there cause he was always in jail and when he was he was physically and mentally abusive. But no matter what I still loved him. My mom was never home so it was pretty much just me older sister and the god awful middle sister. My dad knew that I would ho beyond earth for him, and he used that to his advantage. When he needed a key to the house so he wouldn’t have to break in he would just ask me, and I would give it to him, if he needed me to talk him up I would, if he needed me to say he was with me to the police, I would. But after a while I lost count on how many times he said he was going to get clean or that he would stop going to jail. I stoped needing him, I was finally okay that he wasn’t in my life, till he got out again, he went to a freedom house to get clean. And when he was a year clean he asked my sister and I to live with him cause he knew how bad my living situation was. We said yes. My mom was livid and said that we are betraying her but I was just trying to get out of a bad situation. It was going so great. My dad got married, I loved her, he had another kid with her, life was great! Till it wasn’t. Beginning of freshman year i rejoined cheer, I was in cheer for 7-8th grade. So when I joined I thought it would be awesome and fun, but no. The coach hated me for one, the girls where bullies and I sucked. I wasn’t the lowest of low and was having mental breakdowns right before practice. So when my dad found out I wanted to quit he went ballistic. He refused to let me quit till he found out I was cutting myself. He let me quit on the part of me being grounded till the end of football season. But he took everything I used to keep myself from thinking of kym or self harm. So once again I was really low. I was getting yelled at every time I Would cry, he finally ungrounded me and said I was making everyone else miserable, during this time I had to babysit my little brother a lot, my step mom had work but my father just got fired for relapsing on drugs, we thought it was a 1 time thing but no. Ima need to do a update I can hardly see rn from my crying.

Hello. I am in the process of putting up a large capacity Poultry house (40K to 50K) capacity per building. Part of good farm management is adherence to periodic visual spot checks of livestock and confirming that the automated equipment is working properly, amongst other day to day tasks.
I tried looking online for a turn key solution to fit the general bill, but I could not seem to find one.
My question: Is there a turn key solution out there, both hardware and software, whose sensors I can locate in specific areas where one can scan their RFID TAG so that I can track that a process has been done or at the very minimum. I can place a particular staff in a specific location at a specific time?
If there isn’t a turn key solution. How hard would it be for me to repurpose an existing solution to satisfy my specific need.
Thank you for everyone’s input in advance.
Arnold

This story is back from 6th grade, there was a guy in my class(let us call him Jacob) who used to have a crush on me I didn't even know him before but in the seventh grade I came to know him got a tini tiny crush on him and told my best friend about it she was like "yeah good finally someone you can gush about all the time" then a few months later my crushes friends told me that he had a crush on me I didn't know what to do so I pretended that I didn't hear it and after that, a few weeks went by my crush on him was getting removed as I found someone else I liked(my current bf) and not to mention that the guy I used to have a crush on was one of my family friends. So I decided to tell my best friend about the new guys I started to like a little and she was like "Gurl I know that you are obsessed with Jacob are you sure? cus I see him staring at you from across the class". I was like yea I know that I had a crush on him for a while but now it is kinda going away. a month later my new crush went away to his native place for a while. I know this sound complicated but I kinda started to have a crush on Jacob again. so I decided to confess to him but I didn't do it right away this was the time around valentines Day so I decided to do it then but I feel ill for 4 days so after my cold a fever went away I was back to school and I realized that a BFF had gotten close to Jacob I thought that it is ok and all and my stupid ass didn't even confess to Jacob my BFF told me that she wanted to talk to jacob alone and I approved the place they went to talk was a very silent place there was no notice a few days later it was my BFFs birthday which is 3 days before mine Jacob wished her but not me then i realized that something fishy was going on i confessed my BFF then started acting weird then i realized the jacob was flirting with my friends i immediately confronted him then I shifted school now it has been 9 years I'm going to his house for dinner:!!!

soooooooo, everyone who told me that being abused/assaulted would make me "great at spotting red flags" owes me 20 bucks.
i met someone back in 2020 over the web, and when they moved to my country, we became a couple, because i felt like we got along and i wanted to support them. they knew about my assault, and all my baggage, and supported me.
... except that's not the whole truth. the truth is, they fell for me first, and for two years, pursued me. i turned them down because i was scared of committing, after what i'd been through. but they kept pushing. so eventually i caved--they had nobody in this country! i didn't want them to be alone!
we ended up together, they maybe lovebombed the shit out of me in hindsight, and then it all came crashing down.
there were other red flags. twice, they'd physically assaulted their friends. at least twice that i know of. they had a laundry list of "cruel" past partners/friends. they had multiple mental illnesses that they were not getting therapy or medication for.
but for a few months, they loved me. or at least acted like it. we had sex and i only broke down crying once because the sight of blood triggered me. after everything, that was pretty incredible. they doted on me, and hugged me, and wrote me letters about how they wanted to marry me someday.
then things got weird. they started talking about other women--specifically one they met at work, who made sexual propositions towards them at least twice. these two moved in together almost immediately (my ex's housing situation was unstable and i live far away, so it logistically made sense), and began spending all their time together. they literally became just like her, in some ways.
i got jealous--especially when my ex would tell me shit like "haha so-and-so wants to get high and make out with me!" or gush about their other "workplace crushes." i have trauma from being cheated on, and i made this apparent, but they found it "hot" that i got possessive, so they... ignored my discomfort. for their own pleasure.
sounds familiar, huh? i'm not saying it's as bad as my assault was. but having my boundaries pressed on for the sake of THAT just feels so... gross.
and i let them get off on my fucking trauma responses, because hey, their life was hard.
the worst part is that we didnt even break up then. we broke up because their new roommate--the one who'd made passes at them (and me, once!)--hated me, and verbally abused me in a spontaneous confrontation while i was alone. this included misgendering me, accusing me of faking a rape flashback when i spent the night at their house, and more. it happened for hours, in the middle of the night. my family thought i'd gone missing--it was fucking traumatic.
my ex also... accused my being a bit needier than usual (gee wonder why! whatever could have triggered me!) of being abusive/controlling their behaviour, and... somehow... their roommate insisted this had given my ex dissociative identity disorder, and they now had an "alter" that was "protecting me" from them. i was a bit needy and sometimes demanding around the end of our relationship, but like...
i'm not stupid. i know that isn't how that works. maybe it was just an excuse to explain away all the texts between the two of them showing my ex being so excited to break up with me. some were even from when my ex and i were out together!
anyways. not the point. they dumped me--because even after all this mstreatment, i couldnt leave.
and it just... feels a lot like the relationship where i was assaulted. both of them just... dumped their trauma on me, used me to get off (even when it fucking hurt me), and then left when i started showing symptoms they didn't like and/or they could replace me with someone new.
i want to tell them off. but i know that's just because when i'm not angry, i start thinking about me. i start thinking about how in every romantic relationship i've been in, i just do double-duty as a therapist and a fucking fleshlight. i'm just something to use and then abandon for something better. i feel like i'm less than a person.
i hate them for making me feel like this, but i hate myself because it's becoming a pattern. please, someone help me. tell me it gets better. someone tell me i'm not replaceable and i'm not doomed to be abused by everyone. i just need to hear it from somebody.

I'm going to attend a timeshare presentation for a vacation deal, my first time ever.
I am in a relationship but no evidence that my fiance and I are "cohabitating." We have our bills sent to our own properties, which are currently rented out. She doesn't even have citizenship in the US.
Can I just attend these meetings alone, even if she's traveling with me?
I also posted this in /Frugal because Hilton offers some excellent vacation packages and points as long as you attend a timeshare presentation for 2-3 hours. I have no intention of actually buying a timeshare.

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So just yesterday one of our neighbours (35/F) came to our house for a normal catch with my mother (52/F) and while talking she mentioned how she is the only one who does every household work in her house even when she was working. Apparently her husband forced her to leave the job a few years back (she was a teacher in a very reputed school) because he wasn't earning and it was shameful for him to watch his wife go to work🤦🏻‍♀️ Then she goes on and says and I quote "maine na apne bete ko ek din bol dia tha k aj tum bartan saaf kardo aur wo ek dm hairan ho gaya, ki mummy ap mujhe aise kaise bol sakte ho, mai thodi karunga bartan saaf. Usne apne papa ko phone Mila dia ki mummy muje bartan saaf karne ko bol Rahi Hain. Uske papa ne b muje suna dia ki ye kyu karega kaam. Aise nahi bolte bacche ko." And this bachha is in 11th standard.
My mother was stunned to speak, she subtly mentioned how everyone in our family knows to cook and is supportive but I guess the neighbour aunty couldn't understand that. This disturbed me from inside as we live in a Tier 1 Metro city in a posh colony and everyone around seems well educated- working decently. But this incident just made me furious and I am here to rant. I don't think we are changing as a society. Even with so much awareness the women of this society will be seen as homemakers no matter what she does. She will be respected only if we do household work, serve and obey our husband. This is sickening and saddening. I am a 25F and scared to end up in such a family after marriage.

This is a slightly odd one. Cross posted from legal advice sub to check there's no credit score concerns or anything.
I've just had about a dozen TSG officers turn up at my door, looking for an old tenant who lived here at some point, and rented (I believe) off the people we bought the house from. Which, as you can imagine, was an exciting start to my morning.
Police were perfectly polite when they realised I wasn't who they were looking for, and whole they didn't explain why they were looking for this gentleman, they did say he has just applied for a credit card at this address, where he clearly no longer lives. Is there anything I can or indeed should do to try and prevent this? At the moment if we receive post in his name (happens maybe once or twice a month) we just return to sender with a note that the addressee no longer lives at this address. Is that enough?

I'm a relatively high-income earner (not a millionaire by any means, but I take home 6 figures a month).
I've been meaning to buy a home for a while now. Any advice on how I can get a housing loan?
My credit is really bad due to issues that cropped up during the pandemic (my business went kaput, and I ended up defaulting on the company's loans, etc. Long story, involving pierced corporate veils due to directly paying payroll from my own account, etc.)
I keep trying to find an actual rent to own property listing (i.e. wherein I rent the place and title stays with the owner, and they transfer to me once I've paid off the entire balance+interest). Most 'rent to own' listings aren't really like that--they're outright purchase-with-financing...which is literally just buying with a mortgage.
So far, my options seem to be:

1. Rich Private Lender who will either lend me the funds or they'll buy the property and I'll 'rent-to-own' from them.
2. Bank Lending/Loan Officer who is willing to look the other way and approve my application
3. I start selling drugs or launch and OnlyFans (LOL)

Any advice?

Hi all, I'm an INTL freshman looking for housing. My hopes for getting a scholarship was also dashed, but since the notice came so late (this morning) I have no other options to change schools. While I've already secured a spot for the first year already, prices are very steep and I'm worried about the financial burden it places on my family.
I'm looking at UniLodge places and found this (800 Swanston Studio) which seems...oddly spacious for the price it's asking(?). If anyone here has lived at this particular UniLodge address, what was your experience with it? and should I try looking at its other locations?
Thank you so much in advance!

Beginning to look for apartments in SF (generally not looking into the larger luxury buildings or large management companies). Trying to a get a sense of what budget I can work within and am wondering how large of a percent discount people have been getting on rent. For context, I'm looking for studios and 1br and am hoping to get base rent < 2300. I've seen some people mention that they were able to get 10-15% off after negotiating, this would raise my search budget to around 2600. Is this a realistic rent negotiation that I can expect in the current market?

I’m 22F, currently living as a junior designer in a biggest city in my country. I want to move to another city with a beach next year. (After 2 years of working here) I went there several times before, lived about a month 2 years ago. Its my favorite city.
I was depressed for few months working here. I went there for few days to freshen up. I loved it. The beach life really fits my personality and lifestyle.
It will be pretty hard to get a designer job there. If I do it will be very low income, same as now. Rent will be little cheaper.
My parents say it might be an unreasonable choice to move there just because I like it. I work in a small company now, so they expect me to work in a bigger one after my experience in this small one. They tell me, I’m too young and should be in a big city, working in a big company, earning money.
I didn’t take a year off my college, got job even before I graduated. I want some fun vacation life for a while.. I’m tired.
What should I do? I’m not sure if i can post here but Any advice would be appreciated!

I'm a relatively high-income earner (not a millionaire by any means, but I take home 6 figures a month).
I've been meaning to buy a home for a while now. Any advice on how I can get a housing loan?
My credit is really bad due to issues that cropped up during the pandemic (my business went kaput, and I ended up defaulting on the company's loans, etc. Long story, involving pierced corporate veils due to directly paying payroll from my own account, etc.)
I keep trying to find an actual rent to own property listing (i.e. wherein I rent the place and title stays with the owner, and they transfer to me once I've paid off the entire balance+interest). Most 'rent to own' listings aren't really like that--they're outright purchase-with-financing...which is literally just buying with a mortgage.
So far, my options seem to be:

1. Rich Private Lender who will either lend me the funds or they'll buy the property and I'll 'rent-to-own' from them.
2. Bank Lending/Loan Officer who is willing to look the other way and approve my application
3. I start selling drugs or launch and OnlyFans (LOL)

Any advice?

We have been renting our own place for 2 years now, never had any issues problems complaint, anything. My partner and I want to move somewhere else now and myself is still a student (who is also working, and my partner is working as well and we also have a fair amount of money saved) and loads of nice house do not accept student just because of our reputation. I really don't find it correct.... We have been so careful, never late with rent/bills etc and yet people don't accept us It's just frustrating.

Sooo why the fuck.. am i leaving a friends house… I go to the gas station like 5 mins away from my house and it was this boy (prolly like 17, 18) and his pretty white pit bull INSIDE the station… i walk up but was about to walk away cuz im scared of big dogs… so i walk back to my car and the boy is like “nahh u ok.. hes good” so i go in…the dog is cool, smells me and keeps movin…thenn a man walks up behind me to go in and the dog GOES OFF… like crazy… The boy ended up holding the dog by the skin of his neck cuz he doesnt have a collar for him.. He looked so defeated… so does “RED” (his dogs name).
So me.. i remember i have hella extra dog stuff.. i tell him wait 5-10 mins while i run home to grab some things… I go home get a collar that i bought that was wayy too big for one of my babies, a leash, dog food, dog treats, bottled water and dog bowls & take it back to the gas station.. Along with a lil money for the boy..
To my surprise he didnt leave.. he took it and thanked me… put the collar on Red and the dog drank the water like he was so thirsty… he thanked me again and i left feelin full.. it felt good that i could help
Now im here sad cuz i wish i could help MORE….. like i know i cant… i am far from rich… Im just here trying to get it for myself… This made me realize why ppl get tired, and depressed, although their life doesnt seem bad from the outside..TO ME
i think i over empathize?
I SERIOUSLY think this has to do with why ppl want to end their lives early sometimes..
LIKE why is life like this??? when u just want good for everyone??? How can i thrive and be out having a ball tonight when so many ppl and their animals are suffering?!
If i sent this to my friends, they would clown me… I really wanted to though..
Please dont be mean just gimme the thumbs down if u dont like and if u understand.. talk to me
Am i just too much??
Idk.

It was this girl I feel in love with after knowing her for maybe a month. A week ago she came over my house and slept over for maybe 2 days. She made a little bit of insults but also suggested to me that I should move in with her and start over. Maybe start a new life in a new city for the time being. She asked me to be her roommate and move in with her. Mind you she was the one who packed my clothes and literally forced me to move in with her so I did thinking this might be a good idea since I’ll go to a new city. Once we arrived at her house I noticed her attitude started to change plus her other roommates are lesbians and I’m the only male figure in the house. Her roommates noticed how nice I was to her and they saw that from how I presented myself. On the second day she started to say so many insults to me that I never heard before from her. I was shocked by the things she said. Said things such has I don’t like the way you dress/walk/act/talk(talking proper). These are the reasons she said she wasn’t attracted to me which came from her mouth. The term that came out her mouth was she wanted a hood ***** not a gentlemen. I didn’t know what to say to her. I told her I use to act like that but I changed because it wasn’t getting me anywhere. Than she said maybe I should go back to acting like it maybe I could sell some drugs and get some money. So after this I’m confused and just in a state of shock. Idk why she acted like this when I was so sweet to her. She’ll call me when a boy she liked called her ugly. Crying on the phone and asking me if I think she is ugly. I’ll say the most sweetest things to her to boast up her confidence. On another occasion her sister told me why I’m I so nice to her and this gave me the idea to leave so I left. I was skeptical that maybe she is using me like a doormat. She texted me and I didn’t reply until a day later. She rushed and called my phone crying that I don’t want you leave. I want you to be apart of my life. Idk why she did that when the first time I ever had a conversation with her she said you are so nice why don’t I ever attract good men in my life like you. Every man I attract is the opposite of you. Idk what happened and I’m confused. I just want to know why would a girl suddenly hate you.

I’m 22F, currently living as a junior designer in a biggest city in my country. I want to move to another city with a beach next year. (After 2 years of working here) I went there several times before, lived about a month 2 years ago. Its my favorite city.
I was depressed for few months working here. I went there for few days to freshen up. I loved it. The beach life really fits my personality and lifestyle.
It will be pretty hard to get a designer job there. If I do it will be very low income, same as now. Rent will be little cheaper.
My parents say it might be an unreasonable choice to move there just because I like it. I work in a small company now, so they expect me to work in a bigger one after my experience in this small one. They tell me, I’m too young and should be in a big city, working in a big company, earning money.
I didn’t take a year off my college, got job even before I graduated. I want some fun vacation life for a while.. I’m tired.
What should I do? Any advice would be appreciated!

Is anyone else sick to the back teeth of many ex-Londoners are moving here recently? I appreciate I’m writing this from a place of anger as my neighbours (young family) have recently been forced out of their place by their landlord and have been replaced by a dreadful couple from London. Everywhere you go nowadays you will encounter that snivelling Home Counties accent and experience the massive sense of entitlement synonymous with a life lived in London. Leith is unrecognisable these days, even compared with 7-8 years ago. It used to be the case that London was a Hoover sucking in all the vacuous people who thought they were hot shit and we largely dodged those types but not anymore. Anyway, if you’re reading this and are considering relocating from London to Edinburgh - please don’t! Keep your high rents, housing crisis and stinking attitude to yourselves thank you very much.

TW: SA.
Do you remember August 2019? I do, it was like yesterday and forever ago all at the same time.
You were suppose to come visit, and we were going to meet for the first time since becoming friends online 10 years prior. I really thought this was the best time and I couldn’t be more excited. That was, until my relationship started to fall apart right before our eyes. I was struggling a lot to work, and with my mental health. I was finally decompressing after leaving such an abusive environment. I had been moved out for 1 year.
Anyways, I started a new job, I started new meds and I was feeling really good, except I still couldn’t afford to pick you up from the airport or find someway too, I planned to use my paycheque but then I was being broken up with.
This was my first real relationship, you know that. I thought I had found my one; and actually to this day I still believe that because we are still together. It turns out we were young and stupid, and took a big situation and made it worse but we needed some time to figure that out. Anyways, that’s not really the story here.
What I want to tell you, is why I couldn’t just accept my breakup, leave him, move back home and somehow make our plans work.
The truth is my step dad was abusing me, not just physically and emotionally but also sexually. This had gone on between the ages of 9 years old and 18 years old. I couldn’t go home and I couldn’t let my relationship end because I had no where to go, and the only person who knew the truth was my then boyfriend (now fiancé).
I couldn’t tell you, because at that point I couldn’t tell anyone. The only reason my fiancé knew is because it came up in person one time, when discussing his own personal experience. I was still trying to process what happened and how it was affecting my relationship, my mental health and honestly my own relationship with myself. All I knew was that if my relationship ends I would have to go back and I couldn’t.
It wasn’t because I was picking a boy who I’d only been with for a year and a half over you. It was because I was just starting to get better, and I could not regress again… I just couldn’t. I know I wouldn’t have made it.
I am deeply sorry that I fucked everything up, and I wish I hadn’t spent so many years lying to everyone about what was really going on.
I did want to tell you too, that in 2021, I told my mom the truth, I told my grandma and I told my sister. I shortly then told my other family and friends. After that, I made the very brave decision to report a historical SA case. In august of 2021, he was arrested. He got out the next day, or the same day I can’t remember but he was given a court order that he had to leave my mothers house. That didn’t happen until October 2021, but we’ve been free since.
This past February, I testified in front of a judge in a preliminary hearing to see if my case would make it to a trial. It did. February of next year, I will testify in court again at a trial.
I have gone to so much therapy, I regulated my medication, I stopped medicating with drugs, alcohol etc. I realize my mistakes, and so much more. I am the best me that I can be and I want you to know that I am better now. I am incredibly sorry for my selfish actions and I will never be able to make up for that, but I hope maybe one day you will understand. I hope you are doing better too btw.
I believe you graduated this year didn’t you? Congratulations! I know you worked really hard, and I bet your dad is so proud up there.
I realize even saying all of this wouldn’t really change anything and that is exactly why I don’t intend to send this to you, and I’m just simply getting it off my chest. But I did want to put it out there, I know you used to be a lurker here so here goes nothing.
C, I will always love and cherish our friendship ; you were truly incredible and got me through some of the most horrific things ai have ever experienced. I wish nothing but good things for you, and maybe just maybe one day we can reconnect, until then take care.
Love always, K Y

People say "there has to be something in your life to be thankful for!". Why, God why, do I have to continuously be "thankful" for this fucking garbage life I live?
Not ONE thing ever goes as planned. Everything in my life is low quality and cheap. My bank account is always empty. I live with my mom because I have shit genetics and can't work a full time job. I work part time. I feel sick at work and I end up needing to leave like an absolute fucking loser. I'm so utterly ashamed of it. Why can't my body just work right???
I'll probably never have my own God damn house to live in due to the fact I don't make any substantial money. It makes me sick to think about. I don't want to live in moms house for eternity, but what are the alternatives? NOTHING!
I drive an embarrassing piece of shit car. I have a degree and no fucking career. I'm tired. I'm sick of it all. It's like life has made me it's fucking prisoner!!!!!!!
Every day and every night I'm plagued by GUILT, FRUSTRATION, HUMILIATION, and just straight depression. Non stop. The thoughts don't let me fucking sleep.