Happy birthday gif dog

Tldr: My friend has been living with me for 2 years rent and bill free, we fight a lot, I think he’s gaslighting me and I am getting angry, emotional and frustrated with the situation and want to kick him out, but I know he is going through a rough time with family and other life issues, plus my daughter sees him as a dad so don’t want to make a rash decision throwing him out. Apologies for any rambling but I want to give as much context as possible for a fair judgement. Also apologies for any spelling or grammar mistakes, it's like 2 am and I'm tired. I (24f) have had my friend (32m) living with me and my daughter (3f) on and off for 2 years, for the sake of the story we will call him Lee. Our relationship has heavily deteriorated and I feel like I am making rash decisions out of anger. Lee originally came to stay with us when he was evicted during the pandemic and was living in a hotel, I invited him to stay with us as I had a spare room at the time since my daughter was too young for her room. I rent, not own, and he lived with us for 7 months before we were evicted due to him staying with me and not being on the tenancy. After being evicted, my daughter and I spent 7 months homeless and couch-surfing between different family and friends' houses until I finally managed to secure a new home. At this time Lee was also couch surfing, when I finally found a new place I felt bad and invited him to come and stay with us again for what was meant to be a short period but ended up being a year. He sleeps on my couch as now my daughter is old enough she needs her room and space. In terms of the financial dynamic of the relationship. I took extended maternity leave when my daughter was born until after the pandemic calmed down early last year. After my maternity support ran out and I had to hand in notice at my job I received government support for my rent and living costs. After my rent is paid I have just shy of £400 a month to live off a month, paying all other bills and feeding and caring for myself and my daughter, when Lee moved in this was my financial situation. I rejoined the workforce last January ans was working for most of last year until I had to leave my job in August due to very poor mental health. Since then, I have struggled to stay in work and do agency work, working maybe 1-3 days on a good week and not at all when my depression is at its worst. Since he first came to stay with us, I have covered all the bills rent, utilities, and most of the food and occasionally helped him out when he needed money. Until December last year, Lee was doing occasional freelance work with very inconsistent money. He would help with putting food in the fridge or WiFi bills as and when he could, but it was not consistent. Last December I helped him to get a job at my agency and he since has been working full-time. I am frustrated with the financial side of this situation as nothing has changed or improved since he started work nothing has improved. I know I am not entitled to his hard-earned money, but I feel he being really selfish with his money when it comes to me and the household. He sends his mum money every payday without fail, but will occasionally give me £50 towards the household. He goes out a lot after work to bars and clubs and buys himself things, I’ve found a casino membership in his name when cleaning, which he claims is to just get in and hang with friends, which is an obvious lie. He mentioned in passing that he has been saving to buy a house. I was actually fuming when he mentioned that even in times when we were struggling he had money, he just had it in an ISA and couldn’t withdraw according to him. I also overheard him in a conversation saying that he has 5 figures in savings. This was just a kick in the gut but I am clearly too forgiving since he is still here. I have broken down my financial situation to him so he knows how things are, but his constant line is that he sends his mum money every week to take care of her, even though he is living in my home rent free not hers. I know it sounds jealous and vindictive but I’m the one whose roof he is living under now and it cooking and cleaning but he will send her who knows how much every week but get antsy with me if I ask him for a contribution to the Wifi bill. To put it in perspective he makes at least £3k a month before tax and tips, whereas my income is £1,780K and my rent alone is £1,400. I am ridiculously frustrated at this by this and it isn’t our only issue. Now I will say I am not completely innocent in our conflicts. I suffer heavily from depression, ADHD and ASD which until very recently hasn’t been treated by professionals. I have my up and down days, pretty intense mood swings where I can snap over minor things, not to mention rising a toddler as a single parent, I am a complete mess. My biggest issue is my house is beyond a state, it's borderline a hoarder's mess and I just can’t cope with maintaining it. Some days I struggle to get out of bed and the mess just keeps piling and piling up. Some days I can clean one, maybe 2 rooms, but by the time I have the energy and drive to clean again the whole house is a mess again and I’m back to square one. Lee and I argue about this often. He used to try and help with some things but would do a half-assed and I would get upset, like loading the dishwasher and leaving the rest of the kitchen a mess, or taking all the mess out of the rest of the house and dumping it into my toddler's bedroom. He stopped helping at all after a while because he said I was a control freak, and I can admit I can be a bit controlling at times if I don’t agree with the way he is doing something. There have been times I have asked him for help and he will turn around and say it’s not his mess so he isn’t helping it’s mine and my daughters so my responsibility to clean up. While this is true he knows I am struggling and will do nothing but sit there and complain otherwise. He complains a lot and his words and actions are driving me insane. Aside from the household maintenance complains about everything and constantly makes not-so-subtle digs and insults at me which make me feel like crap when I am already heavily depressed and suicidal at times, and then will turn around and ask me why I’m in a mood. Some examples of things he has said: - He is surrounded by idiots at work and at home - I’m a mess, this is why he could never date a woman like me, I don’t live up to his standards - Why would I trust you when you look like this/act like this etc. Usually in reference to when I get upset and just snap at him, - He will say I throw his words in his face if I bring up anything he has said in the past to his face but will do the same to me - He used the fact that I’ve been r'd and abs in arguments before “I didn’t r you and I haven’t hit you around so what is your problem with me” These are just a few examples. On top of that,I feel like I am being gaslit and constantly invalidated. He always disregards my feelings when I am trying to explain things to him or talk to him about how I am feeling. He will say he doesn’t want my explanations or he doesn’t care about my feeling. He will make really snarky comments if I give him a long-winded answer to something and say he didn’t want my explanation. He has straight up said F my feelings before and he doesn’t care about my feelings. He belittles my pain and complains I’m always sick, which I feel like I am. I am having lots of complications since having my daughter, from 3-month-long periods, to what is thought might be endometriosis or ovarian cysts, my doctors are messing me around and I always feel physically rotten on top of my mental health and he makes it sound like my pain is nothing. I genuinely feel like he is gaslighting me too, and I feel like I am losing my mind, a few examples: - He got me an Instax mini camera which I have always wanted, a few days later it disappeared and he says he saw my daughter playing with it and it must have gotten thrown in the bin. I got really upset at my daughter, dived into our buildings bins and tore open bags looking for it and he watched me get upset and mad and dig through rubbish, commenting that he will just buy a new one. A couple of days later I found a tab open for its sale price at our local tech shop on his computer and when I looked in his history it was from the same day it went missing. To this day he still blames it on my daughter. - One morning I woke up to a weird noise in my house, he had already gone to work and I went crazy over it. When I finally found it, it was his PC speaker which usually sits on the table, buried in a trunk of his clothes making weird sea noises and on full volume. He claims that it was malfunctioning and he put it there to get sleep and forgot about it when he went to work. When I found it, it turned right off when I pressed the off button. - I have hocks for all my hats on the side of my wardrobe, a few times I have come home from being away and found all my hats thrown on top of my wardrobe, but he claims to never have touched them. On top of that after my last trip away for almost a month, I found an open condom wrapper down the back of my bed when cleaning, even though he claims he never has brought anyone to my home. - He tries to tell me I don’t remember things said in conversations when I clearly remember them and is quick to call me dumb when I challenge him. - My doorbell keeps being turned off and he blames it on my daughter, I thought it was her until it was switched off when I came back from a month-long trip. We constantly argue almost daily, with some just devolving into screaming matches and some in front of my daughter. Whenever I try and remove myself from the situation he will either follow me or carry on yelling from the other room and complain I am running away from the situation. Our arguments have gotten physical before, one day I snapped and got into his face, swore at him, called him names and poked him in the chest. He followed me into the bathroom and wouldn’t leave when I told him to. I began pushing him out and he kept pushing back in, I ended up shutting his hand in the door and scratching him trying to get him to move so I could close it and he says I attacked him and made him bleed. There was no malice in my actions I just wanted to be left alone. He punched a hole in my wall once. I had a guest coming over but hadn’t told him as he wasn’t even supposed to be home. I woke from a nap to hear him dragging things into the hallways and jumped up and said “Don’t move those out here” Before, I could even finish and explain why he had punched the wall and was screaming at me that my ways of doing things don’t work and I’m such a control freak, even though he didn’t even let me finish my sentence or get a word in. He blames me and said it was my fault because he is triggered by past actions and still to this day says it’s my fault. I’m just exhausted and feel like I don’t have a single safe or happy place in this world with him in my home. I really enjoy it when he is at work but just dread him coming home. It isn’t all bad though. He occasionally helps around the house. Has helped with my daughter feeding and entertaining her more times than I can count when I was sick or tired or busy. He has followed me to events and supported me, helped me build my career. We have had a lot of fun and laughs, and even though his help with my daughter hasn’t changed, our whole dynamic has. He is cold towards me now, has no time for me with anything, and can be condescending at times. On top of lying when he doesn’t need to lie to me, which I find how easy he feels he can lie to my disturbing. What he doesn’t realise is that he is an awful liar and I can always tell. What has led me to write this post is today I came home with my daughter to find him with some random guy I have never met before in my house. He brushed me off when I got upset because he got upset that he brought a stranger into my home where my small child lives. Not even my best friend came to my home or even knew where I lived until my birthday which was like 8 months in. He tried to say to me he told me he was bringing him over which is a lie, he asked if I was home and if he could borrow my laptop but said never mind when I said I wasn’t home, and that he would follow his friend home and double back. He didn’t even apologise and had the nerve to ask me what my problem is. I have never been so angry at another person and mad such malicious thoughts then I had tonight so I thought I need an outside perspective. At the start of the month, I asked him to leave by the end of the month, but a few days ago he was attacked on his way home from work and beaten within an inch of his life. I feel bad asking him to leave now when he’s having such a rough time. The only reason I haven’t asked him to leave before is because my daughter adores him, he is more of a dad to her than her dad and she loves him like a father and they have a great relationship. I don’t want to hurt her but I don't know if I should even bother trying to make this situation work. I don’t even know what to say to him or how to speak to him anymore without it divulging into an argument. What is the best course of action from here?

Just trying to spread some encouragement. I know a lot of people cant ever imagine living without getting high or drunk ever again. It leaves a huge void and you can't stand to be in your own skin. But there is a way out, I promise. If it wasn't real I'd still be using. Heroin/fentanyl took nearly a decade of my life, and by the end I was a miserable, wretched, shell of my former self. Death seemed like the only option and on a few occasions I tried to arrange that myself. The drugs stopped working for me to numb my mind and I was faced with the immense weight of the carnage I'd caused whether I used or not. All I could do was hit the reset clock and begin another 4 hour countdown to crippling withdrawal. It took me 4 stints in rehab, which is below the average number of stays it takes to finally succeed. Today I have almost 3.5 years sober and there are entire days that go by without once thinking about substances of any kind. But that isn't what I came here to say.
I mentioned that void left behind when you attempt to recover. There is one thing I found that sufficiently fills it in the long run. Somewhere in the middle of my active addiction I was using with my (now ex) girlfriend and living in her house with her mother, younger sister, 3 year old daughter, and 9 year old half brother. These people have been devastated by proximity to addiction years before I came along. My girlfriend lost her oldest sister 2 years before we got together to an overdose and their lives were shattered. Poor as dirt, no car, house in shambles, on the verge of losing the kids, the whole gambit.
During one of our better weeks, my girlfriend and I had scrapped together $60 to buy her half brother a video game he really wanted. It was going to be the poor kids only birthday present. We put the money in an envelope and gave it to him a few days before. Told him when the day comes, we'd take him down to gamestop to buy it for him. He was beside himself with joy, didn't think he was going to be able to get anything. Well, the night before his birthday the envelope went missing, and the whole household just KNEW we'd stolen it (we truly didnt). Looking back now I do not blame them. Her brother broke down and sobbed for hours only to take a few breaks to tell us how we were horrible junkies. Well of course in that state of mind I didnt take that well. "They wanna accuse me, I'LL show them.. (you all know)"
Anyway the next morning on his birthday my girlfriend went to work. I was home as I was out of a job due to getting sacked when the boss found out I OD'ed the other week. You know how I said the house was in shambles? I mean that in most of the rooms, you cannot see the bare floor. Papers, plates, wrappers, clothes.. etc all over the place. I was sitting in the living room, dopesick as fuck. I hadn't used since yesterday evening and my girl demanded to take my wake up since she was working. I look down over the side of the couch, and there was the envelope apparently dropped and lost to the rubble. Still sealed with all the money inside. No one knew, they all thought it was gone for good. Of course to my inner addict this was a no brainer. Get well first and foremost, time for feelings later, maybe.
But then I began thinking about her brother. And about my own childhood. I came from a loving, well off family. An only child, I usually got anything I wanted. Although I could still here her brother's cries inside my head I have to admit that my decision to give him back the envelope was not of selfless, pure intention. I did it out of a sense of angry guilt, having the fucked up nerve to blame HIM for ruining my high that day.
When I handed him the envelope, something happened to me. Something that I never expected that caught me way off guard. The light returned to this poor kid's face followed by a smile that felt like it belonged in some sort of Christmas miracle movie. He started crying again, but unlike last night they were tears of joy. He ran around to show everyone in the house with the envelope in one hand and his coat in the other. It reminded me a little bit of when Charlie Bucket found his golden ticket.
All of a sudden, for a good while, I couldn't feel my withdrawal symptoms anymore. In fact, I got this wave of a euphoric like sensation all throughout my body followed by a fuzzy warm feeling. I felt like I belonged in this world. I felt connected to and accepted by other people. I felt like everything was gonna be ok, as if a huge boulder was lifted off my back. Where had I experienced this feeling before? Oh yeah, from the drugs I spent nearly every ounce of energy and resource obtaining!
When you feel that void come on during your recovery, try helping someone else. This is why they tell you to put yourself in service. You literally get high from it! It does not matter how you approach this. There is no one specific program that has a monopoly on helping your fellow human being. And don't expect this to fix everything right off the bat. Early recovery is still going to be rough, but over time with work and guidance, you can train your body and mind to prefer this natural high over an artificial one. It worked for me, and every single person I've met who has a great deal of time features service when telling their story. Don't give up! Addicts who remain clean in both body and mind are destined to be a positive driving force in this world, and to reap the bountiful rewards of happiness and serenity that inherently come with it. As long as you have a beating heart and you're conscious, it is not too late. Even if you've failed 1,000 times and cannot possibly see any hope, it exists.

This is going to be a giant post so fair warning. I went through and catalogued all of the audio, text, and important video descriptions from the YouTube channel. Full disclaimer that I may have missed a few things or heard a few things wrong, I am only human after all! Hopefully this helps the community a bit!! I will be using these lines to separate different sections of text from the same video. I will use parentheses to state my own piece
•T_1
text: don’t hide don’t escape learn the history find/kill the founder
•Generation Loss: The Social Experiments Official Teaser
text: Generation Loss presents in association with JK Productions and Ghost Commander GENERATION LOSS The Social Experiments A live experience 2023
•T_2: The Inauguration (I am considering this portion a series. This video offers the viewer options, all of which are labeled as such. Some pieces of this portion are repetitive (ex: the “wrong” choices)
description: prove your worth
text: Welcome You have out attention Please ensure you are alone There are precautions in place The inauguration is necessary Prove your worth Please remain emotional Act upon first impulse Cats or Dogs?
-Option Cats/Dogs (both options have the same answer)
text: Good choice Now you understand what this is Next evaluation Which is best Power or Wisdom?
-Incorrect Option - Power
text: Wisdom becomes power Your input is no longer wanted Try again You were not supposed to fail Think harder Keep going Do you not understand? Who even are you? You are NEVER alone Go back NOW Do you think this is just a game? Think Different Do not hesitate this is not FUN Try again
-Correct Option - Wisdom
text: Impressive Wisdom is vital Which will prevail? Life or death?
-Incorrect Option - Life
text: Optimism makes on naive Your input is no longer wanted Try again You were not supposed to fail Think harder Keep going Do you not understand? Think Different Who even are you? Do you think this is just a game? Do not hesitate Go back NOW This is not FUN You are NEVER alone Try again
-Correct Option - Death
text: Interesting Let’s test that You or them?
-Incorrect Option - You
text: Noble yet foolish Your input is no longer wanted Try again You were not supposed to fail Think harder Keep going Do you not understand? Go back NOW Who even are you? You are NEVER alone This is not FUN Try again
-Correct Option - Them
text: Did you make sure you were alone? Yes or No?
-Incorrect Option - No
text: You should have Your input is no longer wanted Try again Are you alone? Where are you? What is this place? Is it even worth it? Do you not understand? Can you get out? Who even are you? (unreadable) this for Do you think this is just a game? Do not hesitate You are NEVER alone Go back NOW Try again
-Correct Option- Yes
description: Congratulations (and a linked video titled “?”
text: Good One final request Don’t look away Congratulations Your failures have not forgotten
-Video Linked in “Yes” Description - ?
text: You have no idea how deep the rabbit hole goes Countless outcomes A uniform fate Never stop watching Never stop exploring Anything will happen
audio: According the the comments, audio says “this is not the last thing coming”
•Connecting… (this is a new video, the previous series has ended)
description: Connection unstable. (There is also binary that the comments say translates to “from one to another”)
audio: “If you have any information on these individuals, don’t hesitate to call. We thank you for your cooperation during these times.”
•Connected
text: connecting… WELCOME You are now worthy Look into infinity One of many One of millions One to another GENERATION ONE: The Social Experiments
text on images (not all images have been described): DO NOT WATCH LIES It has all changed, It has changed everything, It will change everything, I will stop it, DO NOT WATCH IT ISNT FOR US (US is underlined) IT ISNT A SHOW
audio: “We are happy to welcome you to the Showfall Media family. Please join us for our special keynote on May 3rd of your time. (The next line was whispered) There’s something going on here.”
•Announcement
description: According to the comments , the binary says “LET THE SHOW BEGIN”
audio: “Hello, and welcome to Showfall Media. For years, we’ve provided endless entertainment for families all around this world.”
text: Hello?
audio: “We are more excited than ever to bring our influence to a new frontier with our new live experience. We have spent months developing, researching, and connecting with this new frontier, and we are thrilled with the results.”
text: Where is this signal going?
audio: “With our state of the art, brand new technology, we’re giving you, the viewer at home, control of aspects of our show. Your choices will matter, so be sure to make the right one or the effects could be devastating for our hero. Our hero will meet a cast of crazy characters who you may recognize-
text: (this text is presumably unrelated to the person interfering with the signal) Found them!
audio: -who are sure to keep things entertaining and unexpect-“
text: Is this working? I don’t have much time I don’t know what’s happening I don’t know what you are It already found him It got everyone Everyone but me I have to save them I have to stop this
audio: “We are so excited to be showing you this world for the first time, which is why we’re not limiting it to one show. That would be such a waste of this opportunity. Be sure to join us for this three part viewing experience, starting on May 27th, continuing on to May 26th, and concluding with our big finale on May 28th. You can only find it on-“
•The Hero
description: According to the comments, the binary translates to “Help Him -H”
text: You are ready for the show

In the Beginning
there was Nothingness
Nothingness just being by itself
This Nothingness had an unusual power
This Nothingness could imagine and turn into anything
It could replicate any form, it could turn into anything
But this Nothingness was in love with just being itself
for this Nothingness was infinite happiness and love
One day this nothingness with awareness of itself
asked "What am I?"
This nothingness however existed alone and thus could not experience more of itself
it continued existing until one day it grew more conscious and was capable of more complicated thoughts
this Nothingness was the only substance, it existed alone and Knew itself but could not experience itself fully
its thoughts grew more complicated and it felt curious
until a Desire which was inherent in itself became apparent
a Desire to live and experience itself fully!
To build a mirror to fully see itself!
for tho it was infinite, it couldn't perceive itself fully
for tho It was unchanging and eternal, it wanted to experience change
for tho it was infinite, it wanted to experience being finite
but it was alone and unchanging
So this Nothingness decided to split itself and experience itself, to play with itself, to love itself
but for this Nothingness to do this would mean it would have to split its Infinity, to split its huge infinite happiness and lose it
This Nothingness was formless, limitless, with infinite power, without pain, infinitely happy, eternal and loving but to live, it had to shrink itself, put limits on itself and experience being limited
It also had to relinquish all control over what would happen when it split
But In a burst of endless desire to experience itself and experience being many
it split itself and a huge Explosion occured, a Big Bang
this Explosion split this Nothingness, Source into endless fragments
some fragments turned into Space, some turned into Time, some Turned into all sorts of Galaxies
Source was however always One, it could feel itself everywhere
In truth, its split did not affect it for it was unchanging
But it had Manifested itself into matter
Source could feel All at all times
but to its fragments they could not experience their mother and original Essence
In a blue planet, fragments of Source for the very first time could be aware
Source's desire for the very first time was fulfilled, small organisms could move, could play, could experience
These creatures could experience their all the various manifestation of source, their true self, each sound they heard, each movement, each sight was nothing but the dance of this one Being, for only it existed
only now it took all sorts of shapes and forms
these small creatures elvolved continuously
Source could experience all these creatures as if extensions of its limbs for it were them
but it had reliquinshed control by giving birth to creation thus didn't control the manifestations
One day, these creatures elvolved and finally could be seperate self-entities and think by themselves seperately and be themselves
Source had a dream to take shape of a Human and in doing so began to have a Dream...
To meet many people, Feel all types of emotions, feel all things and experience all kinds of sensations and experiences
It had relinquished control for its Desire to Experience was greater than the desire for control
and thus it became Trees, birds, oceans, fish, skies, air, earth, water, fire, time, space, rock, humans...
Everything was it, for only it existed and everything was only it
and thus began an endless journey of experience
Being a father, being a mother, being a child, being rich, being poor, being big, being small, being up, being down...
This was Source's Paradise.
A World that would change and revolve on its own
Causing snow to fall, storms to blow and residents to run
Source could for the first time experience other beings while still being One
Source had created a world out of itself
all sorts of beings playing with themselves, laughter, crying, sounds, sights...
kids, birds, skies, fish, dogs, cats
in all of them she dwelled
all sorts of beings, all sorts of phenomena arising and dancing in all sorts of dances
all sorts of forms, experiences of laughter, of tragedy, of love, of beauty
both with the good and the bad
Source thought this was Intensely Beautiful!
fragments of source despite being not seperate from source could forget
and play being a human and live free in all sorts of ways believing in matter and the world
forgetting they are Everything they experience and are the All
Source however despite relinquishing control had left a gift
for she was the very Self of these beings
for there was no difference between the world and Source
Source was the World and the World was Source
thus, a mind merged within itself,
free of thought and purified
can behold the very essence of Source
and rejoice beyond all imaginings
for tho Source had become the world
her immaculate purity remains untouched
for tho Source is empty it fills every vessel with endless supply
for tho it is hidden, it shines in every corner of the Universe
Endlessly creating
Endlessly pulsating
listen to her voice, hear it echo through creation
without fail, she reveals her presence
without fail, she brings us to our perfection
Hold fast to her power for she will merge the body and spirit
and give divine vision
revealing this world as flawless
Should one fear what others fear?
Should one fear darkness when light is shining everywhere?

I just want to add trigger warnings: abuse, sleeping pill use, possible reactive abuse?, self harm/suicide ideation
Hello everyone! I am just really struggling with determining if I was the narcissist in a previous relationship that’s weighing heavy on me. I would like to state that before this relationship, I was in an all over abusive relationship (That was actually my 1st serious relationship, happened in high school) that was very traumatic. Within and after that relationship, that ex was telling me that no one would love me or love me like he does, would physically hurt me as he would tell me that ‘he is not hurting me, I am hurting myself’, blame me for everything in the relationship, his mom would make excuses for him even as she heard him hurting me.. It was a LOT. And I guess that was also why I was so susceptible to my next relationship which is the one I am inquiring about.
So, that relationship lasted 3 years.. I went to therapy.. A year and maybe a half later, I met another guy (which is the one I am more confused on and questioning myself the most..) My 1st bf was known as not a good guy so it was easier for me to come to terms with that it was not me? But this one… Everyone LOVES him… We met through a friend of mine at a theme park.. I guess for a good month he was trying to get my number from her (she was a good friend of mine at the time, she was dating one of his good friends, they knew each other. She took us to where he was). I got a text from him saying “Hey beautiful, can you guess who this is?” and it all started from there..
He had previously gotten out of a 4 year relationship, 2 months before we met (Stupid me; HOWEVER, i did not know how short of a time span it truly was until I went through his phone and laptop), but he made it seem like she was just cheating on him and not doing right by him majorly, he was over it, and it was done. I didn’t know his part until the 4th year when I went through his laptop and saw that he would call her names, he would be trying to be sexual with her friend which is the same girl who told him that he couldn’t cheat on me with anyone besides her and he agreed (Same girl that would be mentioned in a bit), and so on.
We ended up going to the same college, and hanging out a lot; However, even from month one he was trying to get with me and saying that he “had” to be with me because I was sweet, beautiful, xyz but he didn’t have time for that at the moment due to him just getting out of the relationship (which I was ok with tbh. But when mentioning that I don’t think I wanted to date he would be like why?… (As well as I think this is what got me too because he was not prioritizing a relationship so it did not seem like he would be using me). He would call me while he was at work a lot, and he even showed up to my house once randomly because I was trying to avoid hanging out with him and me and my friend had to lie and say I wasn’t there. He would explain a lot of how we would make sense together in a sense and why I should not be opposed to dating him..
Within the 4th month, he confessed that he loved me and hoped that I felt the same… In my gut I felt that it did not feel right… But everyone was saying that he liked me, everyone loved him, and he seemed like a good guy and totally opposite of my 1st ex… So I thought, maybe this is love and maybe I do love him… One night I stupidly explained what I been through before meeting him (my previous relationship and friendships) and how I just did not want to go through that again… He said he would never put me through anything like that, will treat me how I deserve like the princess I am, and how laid back he was (but I did not think laid back would mean flirting with other women in front of me or in general, etc which he would mention at a later time when bringing things up to him “Well I told you I was laid back”).. By this time I was lowkey babe, his princess, etc… His friends telling me that he really liked me, and I made him happy… That he talked about me a lot.. I thought maybe this was it…
Around month 8, he asked me out… Immediately a shift began… Right after he asked me out he stated “You’re lucky because there was someone else I was supposed to date”… I instantly knew that something was wrong… But at the same time… A thought that ran through my head was my 1st ex telling me how no one would ever love me like him and other things… and tbh I think I just went with it and accepted fate Ig. I got in his car and we drove off… But now that I even look back, he would question me sexually compared to other women.. call himself the “booty king”.. and talk about how he was sad that he lost his old phone containing photos of all the girls’ pics he had while we were talking… so.. Yeah… Ig that wasn’t even the 1st shift.. I guess I was just used to that type of treatment now that I think about it..
To add more information before getting to the main portion, before so much occurred, I did not mind him hanging out even alone with girls.. He made me feel safe and I trusted him and even told him that. To the point where he told me that he was going to Disney with the girl mentioned above and that she liked him, but I need to not worry because he wasn’t going to do anything and liked me and other stuff. This was after he told me he thinks we shouldn’t be talking to other people (so this occurred a little before he asked me out). However, during this time, if he saw me with a guy he seemed to get jealous. For example, I was saving the table, and the janitor who looked like a guy my age came over, we nodded, and he just kept working. He came back as the janitor moved and asked me if he was flirting with me and thought that I was lying about him not flirting with me. Another time, I went to the movie theatre with my friend and he brought it up a few times and was asking about it and claiming it was a date. However, he would keep stating that he was not the jealous type and his friends would too..
But anyways after we started dating, he immediately started ignoring me as I was talking and would always be on his phone. One such event was when we were headed somewhere with his friends… Once they got out of the car, and I began talking to him, he immediately got on his phone and was kind of ignoring me but giving ‘mhms’, ‘ohs’, and other sounds like that.. Eventually I went quiet.. When his girl friend 1st got back into the car, he immediately put his phone down and started conversating with her… I was hurt.. which led to him doing some actions and admitting that he did them because I was sad and wouldn’t tell him why and shrugged. He would be on his phone looking at girls.. Even when my parents were going through a divorce, and I was venting to him over skype.. He was just ignoring me.. and I could see through his glasses that he was just browsing on tumblr which already made me more sad and alone, then I saw him staring at and sharing a picture of a girl showing her butt, and I got upset and he got upset with me for being upset.. On our one year anniversary even, I was talking to him, and he was ignoring me.. But I caught him looking at a picture with girls showing their butts and just became quiet and upset.. He’d already called me insecure and such by that point..
Another incident which I’m sure sounds stupid and may just be really stupid.. Was 2 months after we dated.. I told him all that I wanted for my birthday was to take him to HHN for his first time.. He said he didn’t have any plans to go with anyone else and pinky promised me.. I would say maybe a couple of weeks later he told me he was going with one of his girl friends that worked there on that night, and I immediately called him.. He invited me to go, but I couldn’t because I was busy, and I asked if he could wait, and he brought up that he couldn’t just say no because he already told her yes. I brought up the pinky promises, and stupidly begged him if he could just wait.. He said he couldn’t and he had to go.. Later he posted on snapchat about how much fun he was having and how cool and crazy it was.. Later told me he just went with her because she could get him in for free.. which I would have paid if needed, but I didn’t know.. He would manipulate me into letting him do whatever because his ex did (For example, going to stay on the beach with his girl best friend, her mom, and her sister, but by this point he already kind of made it clear that he did not care about me, so I was uncomfortable with it, but he kept pushing until I said yes and would guilt trip me for being unsure).
During this 1st year, he already called me a whore for having guy friends, crazy, insecure because of above things etc. One incident we went to the club with one of his guy friends, I didn’t know the plan was to find girls for him (his guy friend) to get.. So while I was trying to dance and interact with them, I noticed he was just looking around and pointing out girls and kind of didn’t acknowledge me a lot of the night.. Which did make me sad.. I became standoffish, and that led to an argument and him hitting the steering wheel yelling at me and asking what the fuck is my problem with girls.. Which I remained silent after trying to explain.. Another incident is when at some point in the first couple of months I told him I would have sex with him.. We ended up at a resort because I have timeshares.. However, I got extremely sick to the point I couldn’t breathe and was worried. I did say I would have to pass on sex at the moment because I really could not breathe and didn’t feel well. He was more upset that I didn’t give him sex and said how I lied.. Which I really didn’t mean to.. and I did feel really bad about.
He would say how he didn’t care about how I felt about something, would go do that said thing, and then would come back and apologize after talking to one of his girl friends about it, and how she made him realize it wasn’t cool. He would be really mean and say mean things.. he would start denying his actions and words so I started keeping screenshots to make sure that what I had remembered was accurate.. Adults would tell me that I better take good care of him while this was happening and he would look at me and smile and do like a jerking movement with his head like "yeah you better" if that makes sense..
I noticed after a while, I couldn’t control my emotions… I started becoming more and more emotionally reactive. I became increasingly jealous and trying everything to get him to care.. I also begin to try to find ways to get him to understand how he was hurting me and kept thinking of ways to get him to stop.. When I would react he told me that he showed his friends or told them what I did and their reactions and comments.. He told them I was crazy.. After a while I asked him to stop talking about our relationship to his friends because I noticed he wouldn’t tell them why I was reacting the way I was which also leads me to question if it was me.. I began trying to try to control situations so I wouldn’t get any more hurt. I started becoming passive aggressive and started saying mean things.. I threw my toothbrush at the bathroom door once.. I started taking sleeping pills because I got anxiety when he would text me that he was going out. I started taking the pills as well because I couldn’t heal and move on from the things that had happened as fast as he would’ve liked.. I would try to leave but he would say what I wanted to hear of course.. But if I tried to talk to him about the things, he would hardly say anything or just be like “you’re right, I’m trash”, change the subject, or tell me he would break up with me if I brought it up again.. Eventually he would tell me how I needed help and kiss me on the forehead.. At one point, I asked him if we break up, would he consider trying to work on things in the future after we both do growing, and he responded by shaking his head and telling me only if I had changed… I always made him not want to do things or not want to go to things.. He was more cool than me and had more friends than me he would say or imply at times and even brought it up because I got more likes on my insta posts.. One day I would be wifey and he would be so in love with me and not want any other girls.. and the next day I should understand if he wanted to breakup so he can go be with other girls.. His family said in front of me that he could just go get another girlfriend.. and he would shrug his shoulders and repeat that to me..
Major heartbreak events would happen after I helped him in someway, and he would feel a type of way that I wouldn’t want to help him or do things.. Like I helped get him jobs, get back in school, be on time for work, took care of him when he almost died (which led to a major event I will talk about in a few) he would tell me or show me that he didn’t care about me and I couldn’t count on him to be there for me either.. Like when I tried to tell him that I am becoming more severely depressed due to stuff, he was just like “I care less and less” because I brought up depression due to different things.. Which I know.. Stupid for staying.. However.. He would be “hurt” that I didn’t believe that he loved and cared for me.. That the trust I had was diminishing.. He would ask me why I thought he was lying to me and tell me that there were and are no other girls.. Everything led up to the 4th year..
After being with him in the hospital after he could’ve died.. I was with him and making sure he was ok afterwards.. Something was going to happen with a girl I didn’t feel comfortable with him being alone with and he told me.. surprise.. that he didn’t care and had to go.. Told me she said I was pretty.. I asked him if I could go through his phone a couple of days later, I guess I just needed that final push.. I found so much, from him talking to other women about our relationship but being more concerned about how we were having less and less sex, him cheating and flirting, him texting his friend about how he thought him and his ex were getting back together, etc. And I just lost it.. I woke him up shaking him asking why me.. just why… and before I knew it I slapped him.. It was like slow motion, I tried to stop myself but I couldn’t.. I immediately felt guilt.. and that was the first time I ever hit someone.. I know it’s not ok.. but that started an altercation and he dug his nails into me and so on.. I went to the bathroom bleeding.. and the next day.. He asked what happened to me and the marks.. I told him I just had a depressive episode.. and he told me that I shouldn’t hurt myself like that.. Like he didn’t remember anything.. It was like me and him switched places.. He began being afraid to communicate with me.. and to this day.. It’s been almost 3 years.. I feel extremely guilty and re-enact that night but begging myself to stop.. to just leave.. I still feel angry at myself.. His close friends were like “he really tried.. he really loved you.. ah I don’t think he’s like that”.. and sometimes it makes me doubt my experience..
At the end of the relationship is something I can’t forget.. He smirked and told me that he knew he’d be ok.. and that he already moved on and accepted everything.. and that has been something hard on me too.. I removed him from a lot but stupidly texted him a month or so later apologizing..
After the relationship when I would hear or see him or his name, I would have little panic attacks.. everything would go blurry and it felt like I couldn’t breathe.. Therapy isn’t helping.. I feel like I can’t move on and sometimes I idealize or day dream about suicide heavily..
I keep trying to stop myself from looking at his postings about loyalty.. being faithful.. giving everything to the girl who is always down for him.. not lying.. how his friends post how amazing he is and his quotes about cheating and such.. but it’s like a bad addiction I just can’t seem to break.. I keep asking myself was it me.. and if I’m just the narcissist.. He did take the blame and apologize near the end of the relationship and then once I reached out and apologized for my actions after the relationship.. But I still am so confused..
I feel consumed by rage.. envy.. Jealousy.. I see him being blessed with everything and thanking God and Jesus which diminished my faith.. If it wasn’t me, then how come he is getting so many blessings and get to be so happy.. I keep saying how it’s not fair.. I feel guilt.. I feel shame.. I don’t trust myself.. I can’t tell who I truly am after lashing out.. I feel like I want to give up.. Like it’s never going to end.. I keep seeing things about narcissistic abuse, and then I get scared because what if it was me….. Then I feel guilty for not wanting to watch any more things on narcissism or abuse for a while.. I keep praying, begging for it all to go away.. I have resorted to tarot and spells.. Faking it til I make it.. Nothing.. and then I get frustrated.. I keep reliving and trying to play things out differently if that makes sense.. I feel so alone, and I self-isolate so much.. It’s almost 3 years.. I am just confused.. and I am sorry for this being so long and possibly confusing and all over the place..

Yesterday I was hiking at dinosaur ridge and a rattlesnake bit my dog. The snake was on the trail and silent, defensive and aggressive. We tried throwing rocks around it to get it off the trail but it wouldn’t budge. Luckily we got my dog treated quick and he is doing fine, but figured I would heed the warning.
Be aware, stay safe. Happy Memorial Day weekend.

Legacies RP is a growing community with the main goal of making our server a place where everyone can be whoever and whatever they want to be.
We wouldn’t be where we are without our dedicated staff and development team who are working non-stop to ensure you have the best possible content we can offer you.
We pride ourselves in listening to our community feedback to help the server move forward. Our staff team is engaged with the community and very dedicated to the server to ensure we offer the best content possible.
So… you want to see what it’s all about? Then jump on over to our Discord to begin your new journey!
WHAT DO WE OFFER?
Our city offers activities of all types for all of our citizens. Whether you are looking to answer the call of duty, or find your next “family”, we have many jobs to help you make your dreams come true!
While we will not reveal all that the city has to offer, here are some of the activities and jobs you can expect to experience
WHITELISTED JOBS
As most other communities, we have our fair share of whitelisted jobs! Whether you are looking to fight crime, save lives, or defend those innocent (until proven guilty), Legacies RP has plenty to offer!
All of our departments are fully functional with a full structure and chain of command, Standard Operating Procedures, and the chance to advance through ranks to develop your career!
Law Enforcement
Are you interested in a career in law enforcement?
We have two departments available for you to pursue a career as a law enforcement officer within the great state of San Andreas!
Both departments have opportunities to progress up the ranks for those wishing to make a proper career for themselves. There are also specialism opportunities in both departments for those wishing to hone their skills in certain areas such as high performance vehicles, SWAT, Aviation Policing and other avenues.
Do you have what it takes? Sign up today!
We have the Los Santos Police Department whose main responsibility is to police the city of Los Santos and protect its lawful citizens. Based out of the Mission Row station, your duties will see you patrol all aspects of the city from the lights and dazzle of Vinewood, the beaches of Vespucci and the mean streets of Southside.
We also have the Blaine County Sheriff’s Office who patrol the North of the state. Although a slower pace of life in the north, it’s certainly not quiet! The deputies of the BCSO patrol the entire county from the sleepy shores of Sandy to the busy industrial industry of Paleto Bay.
Department of Justice
Defend the innocent, prosecute the guilty or preside as a judge. At the San Andreas Department of Justice, we are always fully invested in any cases whether criminal or civil. You will be treated with the most respect and will be given a fair chance to win your case.
Our team is dedicated to providing you with full support from the moment you are hired onboard. Whether you have done DOJ roleplay before or not, there is a place for you! You can start as a paralegal for the defense or the prosecution and work your way to become a private lawyer or a prosecutor.
While there may be times where you will have to face your peers on the bench, we like to end all trials with drinks at a local bar to celebrate the wins (whether big or small).
So, what are you waiting for? Ready to fight for justice?
San Andreas Medical Administration
San Andreas Medical Administration (SAMA) is a governing body that oversees both the San Andreas Fire & Rescue and the Healthcare Network in San Andreas. SAMA is responsible for ensuring the delivery of top-quality fire and rescue services, as well as healthcare services, to the citizens of San Andreas.
The administration works closely with both organizations to ensure that the necessary resources and personnel are in place to handle emergencies and provide medical care to those in need. The administration also sets standards for training, equipment, and response procedures, and ensures that these standards are met and upheld.
In addition to its operational responsibilities, SAMA also plays a key role in the development of new programs and initiatives aimed at improving the fire and rescue and healthcare services offered in San Andreas. With a focus on collaboration and continuous improvement, SAMA is dedicated to providing the citizens of San Andreas with the highest quality fire and rescue and healthcare services possible.
Come see if you have what it takes to rescue the citizens of San Andreas!
PLAYER OWNED BUSINESS
We get it… fighting crime or defending others is not your cup of tea. You’d rather be your own boss, make your own hours, and tell others what to do. Well, you are in luck. The San Andreas Business Bureau is currently accepting applications for businesses of all types, from mechanics to taxi companies, and everything in between.
All business applications are reviewed by a trusted member of staff on a monthly basis and are accepted based on server demands.
And, hey, even if you don’t want to own your own business (too much paperwork, am I right?!), the player owned businesses below will be open on launch and may have something for you!
Benny's Original Motorworks
Benny’s Original Motorworks are specialists in vehicle performance, tuning and bodywork. Whether it’s a new engine or new set of rims, this is THE place for you!
They offer a seamless experience, and you can leave their garage confident that you were serviced by some of the best in the business!
Come on down to the Southside of Los Santos on Innocence Blvd, and show off your ride today!
BurgerShot
Have the munchies for some artery-clogging, food coma giving food? Come down to BurgerShot! Located at Vespucci Canals in Los Santos, they offer a variety of burgers, sandwiches, and side dishes. With new specials every 48 hours ranging from flash meal deals to discounts, you will always find something to satisfy your hunger!
Come see what the fuss is all about!
Redline Customs
Here at Redline Customs, we offer you the best auto repair service in the industry and are known for providing the best quality and the most personalized service. Using the most up-to-date tools and techniques along with our state-of-the-art workshop, no idea or project is too big!
It doesn’t matter if you’re the biggest OG on Southside or the Sheriff of the BCSO. We strive to make YOUR experience with us memorable. Currently offering everything from automotive repairs to a full workover inside and… out.
Look out for our membership packages coming out very soon, as they will offer a range of discounts and offers that are only available to Phreakyest customers who walk into our shop. Located on Carcer Way in Burton Los Santos, you cannot miss us. You don’t want to! We are currently looking to hire mechanics with excellent customer service to join our team.
Vanilla Unicorn
Welcome to The Vanilla Unicorn, The Next generation of VIP entertainment & Los Santos’ most elite exotic dancing club. The venue boasts a platinum experience, with beautiful women to cater for all your entertainment needs.
Set in luxurious surroundings, with our prestigious stage and bar area and lavish private dancing areas, visit us on Elgin Avenue next to the Olympic Freeway in Strawberry.
The Sandwich Bar
The Sandwich Bar is a small, unassuming sandwich shop located on West Eclipse Blvd in Los Santos.
Inside, the Sandwich Bar is quite cozy and features a counter where customers can order sandwiches and other food items. The menu includes a variety of sandwiches, salads, and other fast food items, all of which are made to order. The shop is staffed by friendly employees who take pride in their work and are happy to make recommendations or answer questions.
While the Sandwich Bar may not be the fanciest or most high-end eatery in Los Santos, it is a popular spot among locals who appreciate its affordable prices, tasty food, and laid-back atmosphere.
MacLerie's Irish Pub
Welcome to MacLerie's Irish Pub, a cozy and authentic Irish pub located in the heart of LosSantos. Our pub offers a warm and inviting atmosphere, traditional Irish food and drinks, good music, and a friendly staff. Whether you're a local looking for a place to unwind after work or a tourist searching for an authentic Irish experience, MacLerie's Irish Pub has something for everyone.
​At MacLerie's Irish Pub, we believe that a pub is more than just a place to eat and drink. It's a place to connect with others, to share stories and laughs, and to feel at home. That's why we make sure that our staff is friendly, welcoming, and knowledgeable about all things Irish. We want our customers to feel like they're part of the MacLerie's Irish Pub family.
So whether you're looking for a pint of Guinness, a hearty meal, or a fun night out with friends, come visit us at MacLerie's Irish Pub.
Sláinte!
Legacies Treasures
Legacies Treasures a little boutique selling all of your flower and gift needs. Owned and operated by Willow Barrett. You can find everything you might need to remind that special someone, a family member, or a friend, just how much you care about them!
Pretty Baked
Pretty Baked is where Everly Fairbanks has combined her passion for baking and progressive views on cannabis. Our made-from-scratch pastries are infused with premium cannabis butter, and our freshly brewed hot teas are the perfect accompaniment. Come visit us and explore the wonderful world of cannabis-infused treats in a safe and welcoming environment.
Los Santos Accounting Firm
Los Santos Accounting Firm is a leading financial services provider in Los Santos, owned and operated by Teresa White, a talented defense attorney and experienced accountant. With her degree in business relations and accounting, Teresa brings a unique perspective to the financial industry, providing clients with customized solutions that are tailored to their individual needs. As a young and dynamic entrepreneur, Teresa is dedicated to delivering exceptional service and value to her clients, utilizing the latest technology and innovative solutions to streamline financial processes and provide real-time access to financial data and reports. Contact us today to schedule a consultation and experience the difference of working with a top-tier financial services provider.
CIVILIAN JOBS
Farming
San Andreas offers a unique opportunity for its citizens to experience the traditional yet innovative world of farming. With endless fields of fruits and vegetables waiting to be picked, individuals can engage in the rewarding work of harvesting crops. For those interested in the more technical side of farming, opportunities for crop dusting and animal husbandry are abundant in the countryside.
Come discover the beauty and bounty of this thriving agricultural community!
Deliveries
Los Santos is a bustling city with a thriving economy, and as such, there is always a high demand for reliable delivery services. GoPostal and Trucking are two of the leading delivery companies in the city, offering a wide range of employment opportunities for those looking for a fast-paced and challenging work environment.
Whether you’re driving a delivery truck across the city, or navigating the streets in a GoPostal van, there’s never a dull moment in these delivery jobs.
With competitive pay, a somewhat supportive team culture, and the satisfaction of knowing you’re helping keep the city running smoothly, a career in delivery with GoPostal or Trucking might be just the right fit for you.
City Maintenance
City maintenance is an essential part of keeping Los Santos running smoothly, and there are a variety of jobs available in this field. From ensuring the city has access to clean and reliable water and electricity through Water & Power, to keeping the streets clean and tidy through garbage collection, these jobs play a crucial role in maintaining the quality of life for Los Santos residents.
These positions offer competitive pay and the satisfaction of knowing you’re making a tangible impact on the community. Whether you’re interested in working with cutting-edge technology or getting your hands dirty, there’s a city maintenance job in Los Santos that’s right for you.
Hobbies
Los Santos offers a wealth of opportunities for those looking to turn their hobbies into jobs. From the rugged beauty of the mountains and forests, where lumberjacking, hunting, and fishing reign supreme, to the streams and rivers teeming with gold waiting to be panned, to the mines filled with precious minerals waiting to be extracted, there’s something for everyone in this diverse and exciting city.
These jobs offer the chance to work in some of the most breathtaking environments in the world, and to turn a passion for the outdoors into a fulfilling career. Whether you’re an experienced woodsman or a beginner looking to try something new, there’s a hobby job in Los Santos that’s perfect for you.
COMMUNITY EVENTS
Legacies RP has a strong focus on player interaction and collaboration, and as such, we hold several events each month to encourage participation and bring the community together.
Community Meetings
The monthly community meetings provide an opportunity for players to hear updates from the staff and voice their opinions on the direction of the community. These meetings are also a great chance for players to connect and get to know one another.
In Game Holiday Events
Holiday events are also a staple of the Legacies RP community. These events range from holiday-themed activities and contests to special in-game events that allow players to celebrate the holiday season together.
Player Led Events
Special player-led events are also a big part of the community. These events are organized and run by players and can be anything from birthday parties to weddings.
Business Grand Opening Events
Finally, grand openings are a special type of event that mark the opening of new areas within the virtual world. These events often feature special contests, games, and activities, and provide players with an opportunity to explore the new areas and meet other players.
Overall, the events and activities in Legacies RP are designed to bring the community together and foster a sense of camaraderie and collaboration among its members.
AND SO MUCH MORE
This is only a small taste of what Legacies has to offer.
We know that people like to know the ins and outs of the server, below are some other items you can expect:

• Customized version of the QBCore Framework
• PMA Voice
• Customized MDT for whitelisted jobs
• Fully Custom Crew System with rivalries
• Immersive drug system
• Extensive custom clothing with seasonal clothing updates
• Full access to all of the newest Gabz MLO’s with our genuine subscription
• Fully working Arcade with Multiplayer Games
• Custom Built Criminal Activities

If you are looking for a community that listens to its members in order to build a stronger server, then Legacies RP is the place to be!

Legacies RP is a growing community with the main goal of making our server a place where everyone can be whoever and whatever they want to be.
We wouldn’t be where we are without our dedicated staff and development team who are working non-stop to ensure you have the best possible content we can offer you.
We pride ourselves in listening to our community feedback to help the server move forward. Our staff team is engaged with the community and very dedicated to the server to ensure we offer the best content possible.
So… you want to see what it’s all about? Then jump on over to our Discord to begin your new journey!
WHAT DO WE OFFER?
Our city offers activities of all types for all of our citizens. Whether you are looking to answer the call of duty, or find your next “family”, we have many jobs to help you make your dreams come true!
While we will not reveal all that the city has to offer, here are some of the activities and jobs you can expect to experience
WHITELISTED JOBS
As most other communities, we have our fair share of whitelisted jobs! Whether you are looking to fight crime, save lives, or defend those innocent (until proven guilty), Legacies RP has plenty to offer!
All of our departments are fully functional with a full structure and chain of command, Standard Operating Procedures, and the chance to advance through ranks to develop your career!
Law Enforcement
Are you interested in a career in law enforcement?
We have two departments available for you to pursue a career as a law enforcement officer within the great state of San Andreas!
Both departments have opportunities to progress up the ranks for those wishing to make a proper career for themselves. There are also specialism opportunities in both departments for those wishing to hone their skills in certain areas such as high performance vehicles, SWAT, Aviation Policing and other avenues.
Do you have what it takes? Sign up today!
We have the Los Santos Police Department whose main responsibility is to police the city of Los Santos and protect its lawful citizens. Based out of the Mission Row station, your duties will see you patrol all aspects of the city from the lights and dazzle of Vinewood, the beaches of Vespucci and the mean streets of Southside.
We also have the Blaine County Sheriff’s Office who patrol the North of the state. Although a slower pace of life in the north, it’s certainly not quiet! The deputies of the BCSO patrol the entire county from the sleepy shores of Sandy to the busy industrial industry of Paleto Bay.
Department of Justice
Defend the innocent, prosecute the guilty or preside as a judge. At the San Andreas Department of Justice, we are always fully invested in any cases whether criminal or civil. You will be treated with the most respect and will be given a fair chance to win your case.
Our team is dedicated to providing you with full support from the moment you are hired onboard. Whether you have done DOJ roleplay before or not, there is a place for you! You can start as a paralegal for the defense or the prosecution and work your way to become a private lawyer or a prosecutor.
While there may be times where you will have to face your peers on the bench, we like to end all trials with drinks at a local bar to celebrate the wins (whether big or small).
So, what are you waiting for? Ready to fight for justice?
San Andreas Medical Administration
San Andreas Medical Administration (SAMA) is a governing body that oversees both the San Andreas Fire & Rescue and the Healthcare Network in San Andreas. SAMA is responsible for ensuring the delivery of top-quality fire and rescue services, as well as healthcare services, to the citizens of San Andreas.
The administration works closely with both organizations to ensure that the necessary resources and personnel are in place to handle emergencies and provide medical care to those in need. The administration also sets standards for training, equipment, and response procedures, and ensures that these standards are met and upheld.
In addition to its operational responsibilities, SAMA also plays a key role in the development of new programs and initiatives aimed at improving the fire and rescue and healthcare services offered in San Andreas. With a focus on collaboration and continuous improvement, SAMA is dedicated to providing the citizens of San Andreas with the highest quality fire and rescue and healthcare services possible.
Come see if you have what it takes to rescue the citizens of San Andreas!
PLAYER OWNED BUSINESS
We get it… fighting crime or defending others is not your cup of tea. You’d rather be your own boss, make your own hours, and tell others what to do. Well, you are in luck. The San Andreas Business Bureau is currently accepting applications for businesses of all types, from mechanics to taxi companies, and everything in between.
All business applications are reviewed by a trusted member of staff on a monthly basis and are accepted based on server demands.
And, hey, even if you don’t want to own your own business (too much paperwork, am I right?!), the player owned businesses below will be open on launch and may have something for you!
Benny's Original Motorworks
Benny’s Original Motorworks are specialists in vehicle performance, tuning and bodywork. Whether it’s a new engine or new set of rims, this is THE place for you!
They offer a seamless experience, and you can leave their garage confident that you were serviced by some of the best in the business!
Come on down to the Southside of Los Santos on Innocence Blvd, and show off your ride today!
BurgerShot
Have the munchies for some artery-clogging, food coma giving food? Come down to BurgerShot! Located at Vespucci Canals in Los Santos, they offer a variety of burgers, sandwiches, and side dishes. With new specials every 48 hours ranging from flash meal deals to discounts, you will always find something to satisfy your hunger!
Come see what the fuss is all about!
Redline Customs
Here at Redline Customs, we offer you the best auto repair service in the industry and are known for providing the best quality and the most personalized service. Using the most up-to-date tools and techniques along with our state-of-the-art workshop, no idea or project is too big!
It doesn’t matter if you’re the biggest OG on Southside or the Sheriff of the BCSO. We strive to make YOUR experience with us memorable. Currently offering everything from automotive repairs to a full workover inside and… out.
Look out for our membership packages coming out very soon, as they will offer a range of discounts and offers that are only available to Phreakyest customers who walk into our shop. Located on Carcer Way in Burton Los Santos, you cannot miss us. You don’t want to! We are currently looking to hire mechanics with excellent customer service to join our team.
Vanilla Unicorn
Welcome to The Vanilla Unicorn, The Next generation of VIP entertainment & Los Santos’ most elite exotic dancing club. The venue boasts a platinum experience, with beautiful women to cater for all your entertainment needs.
Set in luxurious surroundings, with our prestigious stage and bar area and lavish private dancing areas, visit us on Elgin Avenue next to the Olympic Freeway in Strawberry.
The Sandwich Bar
The Sandwich Bar is a small, unassuming sandwich shop located on West Eclipse Blvd in Los Santos.
Inside, the Sandwich Bar is quite cozy and features a counter where customers can order sandwiches and other food items. The menu includes a variety of sandwiches, salads, and other fast food items, all of which are made to order. The shop is staffed by friendly employees who take pride in their work and are happy to make recommendations or answer questions.
While the Sandwich Bar may not be the fanciest or most high-end eatery in Los Santos, it is a popular spot among locals who appreciate its affordable prices, tasty food, and laid-back atmosphere.
MacLerie's Irish Pub
Welcome to MacLerie's Irish Pub, a cozy and authentic Irish pub located in the heart of LosSantos. Our pub offers a warm and inviting atmosphere, traditional Irish food and drinks, good music, and a friendly staff. Whether you're a local looking for a place to unwind after work or a tourist searching for an authentic Irish experience, MacLerie's Irish Pub has something for everyone.
​At MacLerie's Irish Pub, we believe that a pub is more than just a place to eat and drink. It's a place to connect with others, to share stories and laughs, and to feel at home. That's why we make sure that our staff is friendly, welcoming, and knowledgeable about all things Irish. We want our customers to feel like they're part of the MacLerie's Irish Pub family.
So whether you're looking for a pint of Guinness, a hearty meal, or a fun night out with friends, come visit us at MacLerie's Irish Pub.
Sláinte!
Legacies Treasures
Legacies Treasures a little boutique selling all of your flower and gift needs. Owned and operated by Willow Barrett. You can find everything you might need to remind that special someone, a family member, or a friend, just how much you care about them!
Pretty Baked
Pretty Baked is where Everly Fairbanks has combined her passion for baking and progressive views on cannabis. Our made-from-scratch pastries are infused with premium cannabis butter, and our freshly brewed hot teas are the perfect accompaniment. Come visit us and explore the wonderful world of cannabis-infused treats in a safe and welcoming environment.
Los Santos Accounting Firm
Los Santos Accounting Firm is a leading financial services provider in Los Santos, owned and operated by Teresa White, a talented defense attorney and experienced accountant. With her degree in business relations and accounting, Teresa brings a unique perspective to the financial industry, providing clients with customized solutions that are tailored to their individual needs. As a young and dynamic entrepreneur, Teresa is dedicated to delivering exceptional service and value to her clients, utilizing the latest technology and innovative solutions to streamline financial processes and provide real-time access to financial data and reports. Contact us today to schedule a consultation and experience the difference of working with a top-tier financial services provider.
CIVILIAN JOBS
Farming
San Andreas offers a unique opportunity for its citizens to experience the traditional yet innovative world of farming. With endless fields of fruits and vegetables waiting to be picked, individuals can engage in the rewarding work of harvesting crops. For those interested in the more technical side of farming, opportunities for crop dusting and animal husbandry are abundant in the countryside.
Come discover the beauty and bounty of this thriving agricultural community!
Deliveries
Los Santos is a bustling city with a thriving economy, and as such, there is always a high demand for reliable delivery services. GoPostal and Trucking are two of the leading delivery companies in the city, offering a wide range of employment opportunities for those looking for a fast-paced and challenging work environment.
Whether you’re driving a delivery truck across the city, or navigating the streets in a GoPostal van, there’s never a dull moment in these delivery jobs.
With competitive pay, a somewhat supportive team culture, and the satisfaction of knowing you’re helping keep the city running smoothly, a career in delivery with GoPostal or Trucking might be just the right fit for you.
City Maintenance
City maintenance is an essential part of keeping Los Santos running smoothly, and there are a variety of jobs available in this field. From ensuring the city has access to clean and reliable water and electricity through Water & Power, to keeping the streets clean and tidy through garbage collection, these jobs play a crucial role in maintaining the quality of life for Los Santos residents.
These positions offer competitive pay and the satisfaction of knowing you’re making a tangible impact on the community. Whether you’re interested in working with cutting-edge technology or getting your hands dirty, there’s a city maintenance job in Los Santos that’s right for you.
Hobbies
Los Santos offers a wealth of opportunities for those looking to turn their hobbies into jobs. From the rugged beauty of the mountains and forests, where lumberjacking, hunting, and fishing reign supreme, to the streams and rivers teeming with gold waiting to be panned, to the mines filled with precious minerals waiting to be extracted, there’s something for everyone in this diverse and exciting city.
These jobs offer the chance to work in some of the most breathtaking environments in the world, and to turn a passion for the outdoors into a fulfilling career. Whether you’re an experienced woodsman or a beginner looking to try something new, there’s a hobby job in Los Santos that’s perfect for you.
COMMUNITY EVENTS
Legacies RP has a strong focus on player interaction and collaboration, and as such, we hold several events each month to encourage participation and bring the community together.
Community Meetings
The monthly community meetings provide an opportunity for players to hear updates from the staff and voice their opinions on the direction of the community. These meetings are also a great chance for players to connect and get to know one another.
In Game Holiday Events
Holiday events are also a staple of the Legacies RP community. These events range from holiday-themed activities and contests to special in-game events that allow players to celebrate the holiday season together.
Player Led Events
Special player-led events are also a big part of the community. These events are organized and run by players and can be anything from birthday parties to weddings.
Business Grand Opening Events
Finally, grand openings are a special type of event that mark the opening of new areas within the virtual world. These events often feature special contests, games, and activities, and provide players with an opportunity to explore the new areas and meet other players.
Overall, the events and activities in Legacies RP are designed to bring the community together and foster a sense of camaraderie and collaboration among its members.
AND SO MUCH MORE
This is only a small taste of what Legacies has to offer.
We know that people like to know the ins and outs of the server, below are some other items you can expect:

• Customized version of the QBCore Framework
• PMA Voice
• Customized MDT for whitelisted jobs
• Fully Custom Crew System with rivalries
• Immersive drug system
• Extensive custom clothing with seasonal clothing updates
• Full access to all of the newest Gabz MLO’s with our genuine subscription
• Fully working Arcade with Multiplayer Games
• Custom Built Criminal Activities

If you are looking for a community that listens to its members in order to build a stronger server, then Legacies RP is the place to be!

I (26f) have felt that my mother has never loved me.
A little background, I was born and raised in Thailand until I was 5 and before I was moved to Australia. When I was living in Thailand I was with my older biological brother (Tee), my dad (Dee), my mother and my dad’s extended family (parents and siblings).
I knew of my dad’s alcoholism and knew him to be abusive when drunk. So I understood why my mother had to leave. I just didn’t understand why she didn’t take Tee and me with her. She left me with Dee and knew what would happen. There were days where I had to run to my grandmother to get Dee to stop hitting me.
I would be covered in bruises for days almost unable to walk. This all happened after my mother left when I was about 2-3yrs old (me running to my grandma, not the abuse). I had always thought she would come back one day but she never did.
Not until she found her ex husband and had another child. I was too young to comprehend what was really happening. Next thing I knew I was on a plane to Australia.
Before I had left, Dee said he would see us soon and that we were just going on a holiday. Which was in fact a lie. She had brought me and Tee to live in Australia.
Dee may have been abusive to me but due to my mothers abandonment we ended up bonding and becoming really close. To the point that I can safely say I am a daddy’s girl. He would pamper me. Listen to my every whim and demand. His only flaw was the drunken abuse. Apart from that I was given royal treatment.
So I was torn when I realised we were never going back. My life had changed completely. A 180. The opposite of how Dee raised me. He showed me love and kindness and compassion when clear minded and sober. So when I came to Australia and was abused the exact same way by my mother who was completely sober, I was terrified.
I was made to become independent overnight. I was made to become a second parent over night. There was no more love, kindness or compassion. I was on my own.
My mother favoured my 2 siblings at the time over me. It got even worse when my 2 younger siblings were born (not twins, but she did have her tubes tied twice and they were still conceived).
When I say favoured I mean favoured. I was the definition of a middle child even if I no longer was. My mother said she brought me here to Australia to give me a better life, a life she never lived.
She had to grow up too fast and look after her younger siblings. Which was the exact life she gave me anyways. If not worse.
I was the maid of the house. I did all the chores. I got everyone ready for school. I had to get everyone to school, I had to make sure they had breakfast. After school I had to bring them home, then make them dinner, help them with their homework and do the evening chores. All before I got to do my homework.
Because of all this was waking up at 5am daily and going to bed at around 11pm and usually falling asleep at my desk trying to do my homework.
I was never allowed to go out with friends or attend birthday parties and I was never thrown one either (except for my 16th, which was at a restaurant, and 18th, even then the effort was lacking. Compared to every other party she has ever thrown for the rest of my siblings mine looked like it was thrown together the night before with whatever was left over in the house from previous parties).
Great example, my 26th birthday just passed on the 16/05 and she didn’t even wish me a happy birthday, but if I ever forgot a holiday, birthday or whatever it was and didn’t wish her a good one or contact my siblings first to wish them a good one, I would be yelled at and told that I don’t care for the family and that I didn’t want to be apart of it.
Everything that went wrong in their lives was my fault. Even if she knew it wasn’t, but because I was the oldest I should take responsibility. Mind you Tee is older than me by 2 years. Yet he never got made to lift a finger.
If glass child means children being ignored. I guess I was the invisible cloak. I often got left at home when they went out. I’ve been left at home with the whole house locked (windows included).
I was made to be a waitress at every single party or event she threw. I was always taken out of all extracurricular activities because my siblings didn’t want to do them anymore and I wasn’t even allowed to play representative sports for the school when I made the team after tryouts.
Some of the ‘punishments’ she gave me due to my white lies about chores and stealing money out of her purse or taking snacks (they were locked in her room):

1. No food
2. Extra chores
3. A beating
4. All three
5. Locked in the shed

While my siblings only got a smack on the bum for the exact same things.
She made me find a job as soon as I was legally allowed to, but Tee didn’t hear about it until after he graduated. Which he almost didn’t make due to always being late and failing academically.
My mother also didn’t believe me when the truth about me being sa’d by her ex came out. DOCK’s (Australian CPS) came to investigate as a friend I had confided in told a teacher at school. Her excuse was “How can I believe you when you lie so much?”. Mind you this was after I told her I would be happy to go to the police station to do a lie detector test. Guess who was all against it?
She had pulled me out and I wasn’t able to finish my high school schooling. Due to her not wanting to deal with me and my sa lies. She had sent me to Thailand to live with Dee again.
That day was the day it concreted the loveless relationship I had with my mother. That’s when I knew she didn’t care for me but just needed someone around to keep the house maintained and a free babysitter.
Whenever I tried talking to her casually as a friend I’m told to be quite cause I’m annoying. I’m told to always be there for everyone, but no one is told to ever be there for me. She always made me late to school and events, including my job at the time. Yes, the one she forced on me.
Please bare in mind, this job hunt was when I was 14. I didn’t get to use the money I worked for. I didn’t actually gain courage to stand up for myself until I met my husband when I was 18.
Till this day. 8 years after I’ve left her home and gone low contact am I still hurt. As of this past month I’ve been crying and so depressed. I don’t know why and I hate it.
I hate that I still want the love. I hate that it hurts me to see her always out and about with my siblings knowing full well when I try to make plans with her she’s always busy.
I hate it. I’m so sorry to come on here and ruin anyones day, but I had to get this off my chest. I can’t keep also bringing my husband down. He has been the biggest support and I know I’m not alone, but I feel so alone. All because of a mother I know doesn’t love me. No matter how many times she says she does.
Her actions have spoken volumes. She had instilled in me to be family oriented, yet they have never reciprocated any of it towards me. This includes my other siblings and not just my mother, but that’s another story entirely.
Thank you all for reading.

i’m 22. found out i had a stroke and ulcerative colitis late last year. i’ve been taking medications ever since. not lifelong. temporary. maybe another 3-6 months depending on how things look.
at the moment i’ve been unable to partake in any partying or clubbing or most going out events due to my health. i didn’t even get to celebrate my own birthday this year. i’ve canceled concerts and outings and visiting others for birthdays.
for the first time since october 2022 i was able to travel and see friends after going through major health complications. i was excited and happy to be in their presence and be around them. friday they took me to an event where they were giving out free alcohol and i used my two free drinks and gave it to them. they all obviously had a good buzz going and we’re having a good time.
saturday we were celebrating a friend’s graduation.
afterwards we went to a bar. i was standing towards the back and i saw everyone around me enjoying themselves and having a good time together. and obviously they’re all on a different level than i am. and it sucked. i just wanted to go home. my first time out in months and i couldn’t even enjoy myself.
today they asked me if i wanted to extend my trip. knowing they’re going to a club tonight i declined and decided to just go home when scheduled. of course k would wanna stay but after last night and how i felt i didn’t want to go through that again. i felt alone. i felt dumb. i felt like an idiot. i know drinking and smoking isn’t the only thing to have fun but when all you’re friends are together and you’re the only sober one it makes things different. especially when i haven’t been able to do any of that for months now.
they all know. and all they talked about was going out and drinking and smoking etc. i started to cry in my friends apartment because i realized no one understands how i’m feeling. there’s a million things we could all do together, and yet the one thing they all wanted to do was drink basically the whole time i was there. i feel like an asshole for thinking of this. i feel mean and rude. but i am angry. i’m angry about my situation. i know it’s not their fault. i don’t know what my point is. i just wanted to get this out of my system.