I've been staring at five flower species for the past ten minutes and I've seen one bumblebee and one fly. Is this normal?

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Oh no… we had probably 50 out in our sunroom that seemed to appear over night. I have no idea where they’re coming from.
Our sunroom doors aren’t flush and have air gaps. So I could see them crawling in through there? We don’t have any inside our actual house. I went into the sun room ceiling and didn’t see them up there, I also didn’t see any moisture damage up there to attract them either. I’m at a loss on what caused this and how serious it is.
I’ve sprayed and killed all of them in our sunroom and vacuumed them up. Just waiting to see if more surface. Any ideas / advice?

last night was a new one.
I said to myself in the mirror with my eyes All the way up close so my eye was just one and I said Duḥkha is never ever ever going to go away.
but that does not mean that I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.
I screamed at myself to let go.
LET GO LET GO LET GO PLEASE FUCKING JUST LET THE FUCK GO AND THEN I GAVE MYSELF LOVE AND I LET THE UNIVERSE FULFILL ME BACK UP WITH ENERGY THAT I DESPERATELY NEEDED BECAUSE I GAVE SO MUCH AND IT WAS TIME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SO I HAVE THE ENERGY TO HAVE META COMPASSION AND UNDYING AND UNIVERSAL LOVE FOR MYSELF AND ALL ENTITIES IN THE UNIVERSE.
Duḥkha is never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever going to go away.
but it does not mean I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.

Anglo/U.S culture is solely responsible for promoting the most enraging, race-baiting stereotypes against many different ethnicities (including White people) and if they ceased to have global impact a lot of racial sexual stereotypes leveled at the unfortunate ethnic/gender combinations as well as unequal slant to favoring certain IR pairings based on wicked racism would disappear over night.

March, 1919.
After facing a 9 hours long trip, Viktor arrives at Lucrein and is received by it's cousin Ivan and his old friend Nikolay, both already living in the town for four years. It's safe to say that this town is the most facinating one Viktor ever saw in his life but that doesn't mean that the city was in it's best shape, the war has left deep scars that will take long to heal.
Their new home also wasn't the best nor the worst Viktor has lived in, but the constant water shortages became a annoying issue. After a cold bath and a cup of coffee, the three dressed their uniforms and went to work in a furniture factory, one of the few ones still open. As they arrive, Viktor observes the factory state, a grey, dusty place with old machinery, surely surviving the civil war was a tough task for the small company and it's employees.
Viktor then starts doing his task, maintaining and fixing the machines, initially is hard to understand them but thanks to his past experience fixing agricultural machines for landowners and some advice from older co-workers, he was able to pull it off. When the three arrive home, they have to deal with the fact that the three wages combined barely can cover the bills and food expenses and they have families at home to help, but they won't give up.
​
May, 1919.
The three are worried and fear being fired, their april wages were delayed and they already passed through eight days of hunger, they get another cold bath and don't even take breakfast as the three start their shifts at 6:00am and finish at 17:00pm, enduring such long workdays just because there aren't many better jobs around and they need cash to help their families since dustbowl wasn't soft for the small farmer, at least they finally receive their wages this month and decide to celebrate going for a walk in the town.
The night is pleasant, the moon makes a great company and the city lights are brighter as ever, the vehicles pass by and the people in the streets look determined to pass through the many hardships head on, the three go into a bar and drink a little but agreeing to not spend too much in only one night. Finally they decide to finish one of their few celebrative months going to the top of a green hill to reflect and talk about the future, with only the starts and the night creatures as witnesses.
​
October, 1919.
They receive the news that Nikolay's sister, Svetlana is about to give birth, after some pondering, Ivan and Viktor decide to join him and, after getting a very needed one-week leave without pay, the three make their way to the Aliev family ranch near Istront. At arrival, they found out that the baby would probably come to this world in two or three days, while Ivan and Viktor helped with the homeworks, Nikolay and the father would assist Svetlana and the midwife in any possible need.
Finally the day arrives, Svetlana sweats and screams, the baby's father and Nikolay seem to sweat even more as they distribute cigars to the family members and friends, preparing to throw a grand welcoming party for the new family member, at some point the two are called inside the room while Ivan and Viktor wait anxiously in the kitchen, after some more screaming, the midwife gives the bad news, the baby was stuck and medical help was needed, Viktor quickly called an ambulance but thanks to another heritage of the war, a destroyed infraestructure, the ambulance would take too long, Nikolay and Ivan even tried to drive Svetlana to the hospital in her husband truck but it was too late, she and the baby unfortunately died at the hospital entrance.
​
November, 1919.
It takes some time for the three to recover from such events, Nikolay, of course, was more affected then Ivan and Viktor as both start to work to ensure the payment of their bills. Rumors of a massive strike are raised through the town and Ivan decides to take part in it while Viktor is more skeptical about it.
Then, on the 11th day of the month, the strike really occurs, Ivan joins the sizeable demonstrations while Viktor stays home with Nikolay, the strike in Lucrein severely affects the industry and services companies and lasts two weeks as soon the demonstrations are dispersed, some achieve to be employed again while others not and the improvements for the workers are minimum and the scale of them differs from factory to factory. Viktor and Nikolay return to their posts while Ivan gets a job in another place.
​
December 31, 1919.
A small gathering of tired workers can be seen at the furniture factory in a New Year celebration, cheap booze and some good food are being served in two tables and the employees, foreman and even the boss himself are cheering and toasting. The three friends toast as the fireworks show starts and everyone goes to the roof to see it, Nikolay, Ivan and Viktor hug eachother and hope their future will be as brighter as those fireworks sweeping the darkness out of the sky.

I'm a male in my early 20's. I've known him since we were teens, hes always been chill but a year and a half ago he started making jokes about killing me. It started as small "haha I will kill you" stuff. Jokey friend stuff. Then it just straight up became him saying "I'm going to kill you" to me. I confronted him about it and he stopped for a bit. He's made various different off color jokes towards me about my race and sexuality, everything under the sun. As I'm writing this I'm at work but just last night as we were talking I catch him looking at guns online and when I leant in to check he scrolls away. When we were teens a mutual friend got touchy with him and I think he resents me for it since I introduced them but I had no idea that guy would do that and I've brought up to him various times that I don't condone that shit and if I could find the guy I'd beat his ass. He says he let it go but I don't believe him. He hasn't changed since we were teens he still watches all the same stuff, plays the same games, and wears some of the same clothes even. He doesn't have any social media and hasn't made any new friends since hs. He's just a total shut in. Most days it's just me coming home from work, and then popping in his room to talk. If he starts making me feel uncomfortable I'll either bring it up or leave.
I do not feel safe, I've pleaded to him, I've asked him to shake my hand and tell me for sure that I can trust him (I have audio of this and screenshots of me pleading and asking if we're good. Not gonna post for now)
I don't want to just go sleep at a friend's house because he knows where I work and could still find me. I don't want to stay with family because I don't want them involved. I want to believe that I'm just paranoid and maybe he's just fucking with me to fuck with me but this feeling in my gut makes me want to breakdown and cry in mid daylight. This post is absolutely a cry for help. I need to know exactly how much I need to save up and where are some cheap but safe places I can go to start a new life. I'm ready to just throw it all away and only take the clothes on my back. I'm at a point where I've been sleeping on the floor and taking cold showers to get used to being uncomfortable. Again this post is quite literally a cry for help if you've been in a situation where you up and left please talk to me and help me unravel this

Hi! I just want to start off and say I am truly embarrassed that it has gotten to this point. I was pretty neglected as a child... so I am working through that as a new mom, and it has made this all very difficult.
We have been holding my son to sleep since he was born. We have had some good random good nights, but he always needs to be held, patted, pacifier, the works. There are some times where he can be butt patted back to sleep in the crib but usually we have to take him out and hold him on the bed.
With teething, illnesses, milestones, etc, the bad nights are way more common than the good. I am at my wits end, losing patience, making mistakes at work, etc.
During the day, we follow wake windows of 2.5 to 3 hours, depending on how tired he seems. I will hold him for around 9 mins and then put him down (if he lets me). He wakes up 30-40 mins later and won't go back down unless I pick him up again. (Even with that, it rarely happens) I pay his butt or try to leave him in the crib but he gets riled up so the nap is usually shot. He naps 3 times with the last one being at 4 (I know that's a problem but if I don't then he's done with naps at like 1:30/2... And wants to go to bed at like 5?)
At night we do a bath, read to him and then put him down around 7. He wakes briefly atleast 3 times (but goes right back down)... Then from 2:30am/3 on, he will be relentless and I usually end up holding him in bed until 630am.
The last time I tried CIO with him, I did up to 5 minutes and he was sceaming so hard he was hyperventilating. It then took what felt like hours to get him back down. I bought an air mattress for the living room and want to really commit to this. I am suffering and I am so, so, tired. Please help me.

Hi, I am Adrian, 26 and from the UK pic of me on profile. Have some time spare and nothing planned. So thought to meet new people and chat. Learn about someone and keep each other company. Looking for some relaxed and chill chats, long or short term. Mainly looking for girls. Can be from anywhere. Creeps and weirdos will be blocked
Introduce yourself and tell me your name, age and where you are from
About me:
I am a great cook; Love to bake; I am a great listener; I like to cuddle; Great at conversating and will keep you up all night ; Have some of the cutest puppies youll ever see however covered in dog hair most of the time; Like taking life at a slower pace

Daydreams are fantasic and a fun way to pass the time. I love 'what would you do' questions and with the fact that the 'Queen of BL houses', (the death stair house) is up for sale, it got me thinking. If l had the money would l buy it? Which led me on to 'if you had the money to make it happen, what BL related thing would you like to do'.
So that got me thinking and here is my plan. I would organise a trip around the most iconic BL sites that myself and the users l interact with the most often wanted to see. It would be a multi country stop over and last for about a month so we really get to enjoy the area and culture. While we are doing the tour we are thinking up of a series that will be discussed with a producer in Japan and organised during the last few days of our trip. We would all get ownership rights. It would be a psychological very grown up toxic 'adult' 15 episide long series that looks at the mental changes one has to go through as an adult when they realise they are not straight and the person they have fallen hard for is a sexy sexy murderer with morals. They then beome 'murder lovers' travelling the world 'fighting and fuxing'. There are cops after them.
I would assign each of my user friends a role for the project based on what l attribute their skill to be due to our interactions. I have paid for everything and they do not need to spend a penny apart from their own souvenirs. I would have Kimura Tatsunari as the main lead (Togawa from 'Old Fashioned Cupcake) and Takeda Kouhei (Nozue OFC) as the murderer love interest. As a side couple l would have Machida Keita (Kurosawa from Cherry Magic) and Izuka Kenta (Kuzumi from the Pornographer) as the detective partners thrown together to catch the serial killer. They hate each other at first and suspect the other is the killer, but their lust for each other overpowers their reasoning and the fall hard. They get murdered, but not by our main guys.... season 2 plot maybe? We would also have small parts to play that can be shot in one day before we all go home.
Each night during the trip we have a presentation. So everyone gets the chance to Fujin their little hearts out to an audience that just gets it! I fly us all out again for a private screening of the first episode. The whole thing would be phenominal, a true once in a lifetime experience that would be remembered for the rest of our lives.
So if you had the money, what would you do? Also apologies for any spelling mistakes. I am typing this on my phone and l am very excited and thus spelling mistakes will happen as my fingers fly over the small screen.

Hi everyone one, I (M32) recently found out my fiance (F33) of 8 years had an emotional and physical affair with another man for 3 months. It ended between them a month ago and she was looking to get back with me without me knowing of the affair. I found out last week and ended the relationship, we had two dogs and a house together. I told her sister she had an affair and have evidence of what she has done. We have split the dogs and are in the process of selling the house. I have moved back into my parents house and left her with one dogs. I still love her and I was so attached to our family and the life we had. Its killing me to push her away but I feel I have no option. How do you overcome the pain and the loss? She says she is crying every day, and is apologising for not 'handling things well' however at the same time she says she did not regret what she has done, she is also making me out to be the bad guy for reading her private letters which is how I found all this out and she says she wasn't happy for a long time. She also says I am being cruel for blocking her on social media, her family dog has also just died and I am feeling so many different emotions for her. I love her so much everytime I go to the house to sort things out for selling the property I burst into tears, I'm having to empty the house I worked so hard to fill.
It all started in December when she went away to her hometown in europe for 3 weeks (we live in the UK) she came back and was very distant I knew somthing was off but couldn't put my finger on it. In January I found her hiding messages on her phone, I didn't ask to see the messages but she told me she wasn't happy with me and the relationship and that she was messaging her friends about the problems we were having. I tried to communicate with her and we agreed to start working on our relationship to make things better. In February she told me she wanted to split up with me (one week after having an amazing valentines day together) then changed her mind so that we were just on a break to clear her head. I straight up asked her if there was another man and she said no and then gaslight me about being paranoid of her hiding her phone in January. Over the months of March and April (during our break) I worked tirelessly on self improvement to try and fix our problems, I took her on some small dates and hung out with her at the house making her feel special. We went away for a weekend together on holiday and spent nights together watching netflix getting food. Everything seemed to be improving or so I thought.
Two weeks ago I was cleaning the house and came across a letter in her office that was addressed to another man, written in Spanish. I translated it and to my horror realised she had been having an affair (mostly enotional) with a man in her hometown in Spain. I read that they met in December and had been messaging which turned into an emotional affair for months and had sex at least once in easter, she was also sending him photos, the guy then messed her around and they ended it as he didn't want a relationship. They were saying they were in love and the guy was promising to marry her. This whole time I was giving her space to clear her head it seems she was invested in this other guy until it didn't work out between them, it seems she convinced herself to come back to me afterwards.
I don't know what to do, I feel disrespected, betrayed, lied to and humiliated by someone who I trusted for 8 years. I feel like a second option/ safety net. I still love her so much and the dogs are like children to me, over the past 5 months I have been put through hell trying to convince her to give our relationship another chance and I have found out that for the majority of this time she was having an affair with another man. We were doing things together to try and improve the situation at the same time she was still texting this guy.
I have read all the details between her and this other man, which I think has traumatised me slightly, when I told her about the letter she was in shock that I found it. I told her I only translated a small portion, she lied to me and said it was only a one night stand. A few days ago I told her I actually translated the whole thing and know everything and she is really angry I read her personal and private letters. She is saying what she did wasn't cheating as they had sex when we were meant to be on a break, however during this break we were doing things to rebuild our relationship and had agreed not to see anyone else. And it also seems the emotional affair started in December long before she wanted to go on a break. I think she may have been trying to monkeybranch from me to another man and then it didn't work out so she came back to me.
Since then, I told her the relationship was over and took one of the dogs and moved to my parents. I am in so much heartbreak right now and dont know what to do. She says she came back to me as she realised everything we had and that she could be happy with me, and that I wasn't a second option but she is not properly apologising about the affair and she is giving me a hard time for reading her private notes. Pushing her and one of the dogs away is absolutely killing me as I love them so much, she says she is crying each day in the house alone and has no one to support her. I am a very empathetic person and it's making me feel very guilty for cutting and running out the house but I have no idea what to do. The day after I told her I found the letters I extended an olive branch saying we could go to couples therapy but she didn't agree as she said the emotions were too raw. She also said she did not want to sacrifice her freedom or privacy, but at the same time told me she is missing me like crazy. Its getting to the point now I am just making her angry and dislike me more by asking for her side of the story but she is giving any information.
Has anyone been in a similar situation can provide any advice/ experience? I am very conflicted as I am so heartbroken, still love her, miss the dog, feel guilty for her suffering and I am grieving the death of the future we had planned. Also scared of the future and having to start from scratch. The more I look back on the past 5 months there were many red flags but I didn't take them seriously as I loved and trusted her so much. She is saying she wanted to get back with me, but the mood is turning sour between us as we are selling the house. It would be easy for me to just agree, but I would also be humiliated as all my friends and family know what has happened to me. She is now acting hot and cold, ignoring my messages and still angry. I think I already know we are done but my heart is so attached, I feel I won't get over this for a very long time and it has shattered my self confidence and social skills. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

last night was a new one.
I said to myself in the mirror with my eyes All the way up close so my eye was just one and I said Duḥkha is never ever ever going to go away.
but that does not mean that I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.
I screamed at myself to let go.
LET GO LET GO LET GO PLEASE FUCKING JUST LET THE FUCK GO AND THEN I GAVE MYSELF LOVE AND I LET THE UNIVERSE FULFILL ME BACK UP WITH ENERGY THAT I DESPERATELY NEEDED BECAUSE I GAVE SO MUCH AND IT WAS TIME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SO I HAVE THE ENERGY TO HAVE META COMPASSION AND UNDYING AND UNIVERSAL LOVE FOR MYSELF AND ALL ENTITIES IN THE UNIVERSE.
Duḥkha is never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever going to go away.
but it does not mean I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.

Didn’t make it until it was winding down and there was trash EVERYWHERE all over the streets. I’ve never seen it get like that…. and i go most weeks

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It's very atmospheric, but I can't quite place it?

last night was a new one.
I said to myself in the mirror with my eyes All the way up close so my eye was just one and I said Duḥkha is never ever ever going to go away.
but that does not mean that I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.
I screamed at myself to let go.
LET GO LET GO LET GO PLEASE FUCKING JUST LET THE FUCK GO AND THEN I GAVE MYSELF LOVE AND I LET THE UNIVERSE FULFILL ME BACK UP WITH ENERGY THAT I DESPERATELY NEEDED BECAUSE I GAVE SO MUCH AND IT WAS TIME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SO I HAVE THE ENERGY TO HAVE META COMPASSION AND UNDYING AND UNIVERSAL LOVE FOR MYSELF AND ALL ENTITIES IN THE UNIVERSE.
Duḥkha is never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever going to go away.
but it does not mean I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.

last night was a new one.
I said to myself in the mirror with my eyes All the way up close so my eye was just one and I said Duḥkha is never ever ever going to go away.
but that does not mean that I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.
I screamed at myself to let go.
LET GO LET GO LET GO PLEASE FUCKING JUST LET THE FUCK GO AND THEN I GAVE MYSELF LOVE AND I LET THE UNIVERSE FULFILL ME BACK UP WITH ENERGY THAT I DESPERATELY NEEDED BECAUSE I GAVE SO MUCH AND IT WAS TIME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SO I HAVE THE ENERGY TO HAVE META COMPASSION AND UNDYING AND UNIVERSAL LOVE FOR MYSELF AND ALL ENTITIES IN THE UNIVERSE.
Duḥkha is never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever going to go away.
but it does not mean I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.

Background: I have two human children, one of which used to have a pretty severe dog phobia, so I understand I have some bias here in terms of already feeling ANGRY at people who walk with their dogs off leash and let them just run up to people.
This morning I was walking my five-month old baby and a large dog ran up to us to “play”, with his owner pretty far behind. I called out to him “your dog needs to be on a leash!” - he called for his dog, the dog ignored him, and the guy started COUNTING “1…2…” (!!!) meanwhile my baby is on the ground being “played with”. By then the guy gets to us and pulls the dog off and says “he’s nice, he likes to play.” I said again that he needs to be on a leash and then the guy says, “He likes to run.” I said, “It’s the law.”
But now I’ve been thinking about it and feel like - who enforces this law? How do you report someone? What happens? I know that the answers to those questions will be different in every city, but does anyone have experience actually enforcing leash laws? TIA

Does anybody know what the likely issue is? I've been to 3 different urologists and never seem to get a diagnosis. I've been dealing with ED in general for 4-5 years now and I've noticed that a lot of the penis fills up except for the base, which causes the partial erection to wobble. For context, I take 300mg of Buproprion and 20mg of Paroxetine (Paxil) per day, but my ED predates taking any medication. I've been on nofap since early January, it hasn't improved my erections yet but I feel more sexual blood rush when I'm in bed at night.

Hi M,
It's been about 2 weeks since I last said anything to you. Still, everyday I wish you'd just reach out and tell me you cared. I understand that the relationship is over, neither of us were happy. I get it. However you're treating me like the last 5 years meant nothing. You threw me in the gutter after a night of drinking. You wouldn't let me see our cat one more time. You let your mother steal my things. You changed your number. I stayed after you cheated on me twice. When I fucked up I told you it would be fucking hard and not to stay if you're going to lose family over me. All this time I knew you only stayed because you hadn't had something else set up yet. It sucks being fucking right all the time. I think I always knew the kind of person you were, I just wouldn't let myself see you as such. You're still my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I beat myself up for still caring; still worrying about you.
Know that when the guilt catches up to you I'll still have the grace to treat you like a friend even though you went out of your way to cut me down.
Fuck you, I love you.
~J

Has anyone experienced this before?
I’m 35F, 5”7, 155lbs, Caucasian, not on any medications.
I had the symptoms of a gallstone attack three weeks ago. The day after I started getting itchy all over, dark urine, jaundice in the whites of my eyes, fatigue and pain in my upper abdominal area.
After a week of these symptoms I got blood tested and it showed liver inflammation. My doctor wanted me to go for an ultrasound but it would take at least a week to get in, even if she marked it as urgent. I was still in pain so five days later I went to emerg. They did an ultrasound and blood tests. My bilirubin and GGT had gone down but my ALT/AST numbers increased. Ultrasound showed lots of gallstones, including clusters, but couldn’t see bile duct blockage or infection. Because of this, I wasn’t eligible for emergency surgery and they sent me home. They put me on the surgery list but said it could take a few months.
Several days after this my doc ordered more blood work. ALT/AST increased again and are both in the 600s. A week later (total time now three weeks) Im still peeing dark yellow urine, slightly jaundiced, nauseated, and have pain in my liver. I get lightheaded. Apparently internal medicine said that they’ve seen liver enzymes that have taken awhile to come back down after a gallstone attack. However, something to me feels off. I’m resting and staying hydrated but not improving at all. I’m losing weight and can’t do my normal activities.
I have more blood work in a couple days to do a liver panel and rule out super rare autoimmune diseases. We have already ruled out infectious diseases. in a likeliness is my gallbladder. With that said, im worried that unless I have a feveinfection, or an active bile duct blockage, I won’t be able to have surgery more urgently and will feel I’ll for months.
Has anyone gone through this before? We’re you considered an urgent case when your liver enzymes remained elevated? It’s been three weeks and I’m feeling anxious.

last night was a new one.
I said to myself in the mirror with my eyes All the way up close so my eye was just one and I said Duḥkha is never ever ever going to go away.
but that does not mean that I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.
I screamed at myself to let go.
LET GO LET GO LET GO PLEASE FUCKING JUST LET THE FUCK GO AND THEN I GAVE MYSELF LOVE AND I LET THE UNIVERSE FULFILL ME BACK UP WITH ENERGY THAT I DESPERATELY NEEDED BECAUSE I GAVE SO MUCH AND IT WAS TIME TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SO I HAVE THE ENERGY TO HAVE META COMPASSION AND UNDYING AND UNIVERSAL LOVE FOR MYSELF AND ALL ENTITIES IN THE UNIVERSE.
Duḥkha is never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever going to go away.
but it does not mean I have to suffer.
I choose not to suffer.
I choose to love myself with meta compassion.
I choose to love others with meta compassion.