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2023.06.10 06:38 Videowulff I am currently designing a board game prototype. For someone who is very busy what would be a recommended end game? Self Manufacturing/Selling out of home and keeping profits. Or pitching/selling it to a company and getting royalities?
Between several different project, maintaining my home, full time job, being the primary cook of the family, streaming, etc; my time is pretty much on a razor's edge. I see posts on forums with the whole "If you were really serious about this, you'd drop everything and self publish the game." - usually with the reasoning that pitching/selling the idea is selling out and giving up your "baby".
I am just trying to get different Points of View from this group to hear pros and cons. I know that the pros for self publishing is that you basically get 100% of the profits when you finally get to that point but the cons is the quality control, being responsible for the manufacturing, shipping, etc.
Selling it means you only get a % and need to negotiate how the rights work. But you also don't worry about the artwork, distribution, or returns. Less profit but also less worry as it is being taken care of by another company.
What is your opinion?
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I am just trying to get different Points of View from this group to hear pros and cons. I know that the pros for self publishing is that you basically get 100% of the profits when you finally get to that point but the cons is the quality control, being responsible for the manufacturing, shipping, etc.
Selling it means you only get a % and need to negotiate how the rights work. But you also don't worry about the artwork, distribution, or returns. Less profit but also less worry as it is being taken care of by another company.
What is your opinion?
2023.06.10 06:37 Imaginary-Zebra-3589 New Aniara fan fiction short story - The Lost Voices of Aniara: A Space Saga
Introduction
The short story you are about to read was created/inspired/based on a variety of sources related to or about Aniara. Aniara rock opera (Seventh Wonder) - The Great Escape, the Aniara wikipedia page, the Aniara film, poem etc. So if you read something and it sounds familiar, it's probably because it comes from or is based on, one of those sources. I have also tried to incorporate some of the thoughts and ideas expressed here on aniara, so some of you may see that reflected. I have not read everything that has to do with the Aniara universe, but I have found many of the resources listed on aniara very helpful in creating this short story. Thank you for those. I have also included a couple alternate endings.
Also, this story belongs to everyone, so everyone should feel free to to fill in the blanks, add to, subtract, or change any part of the story, in anyway they see fit.
I dedicate this short story to all the fans of Aniara, this story is for you and of course the late Harry Martinson.
Like many people who watched the film 'Aniara', I was mesmerized/traumatized by it. It really had a profound effect on me. So much so that I decided to write this fan fiction short story. I am not a writer. The short story that you are about to read is my (very) amateurish tribute to the film. I apologize in advance for all of the grammaspelling and other errors. Despite the (many) flaws of this short work, I hope that you can see what I was attempting to do. Anyway without further or do, I present to you:
The Lost Voices of Aniara: A Space Saga
WE CROWN THE SKIES WITH OUR TIARA, THE LIFE AND FATE OF ANIARA
Note: The following represents the most complete (so far) chronicle of events that happened onboard the Aniara.
Year 18 - Song of Melancholy - My name is Benjamin Jenkins, but everyone calls me "Benny", I am proud to announce that I am the new "Captain" of the mighty space "cruise ship" Aniara. Of course, my title could just as easily be the Admiral of Mars or the Conquer of the Universe, or some other ridiculous sounding grandiose title. Sometimes you must laugh in the face of despair otherwise you will go insane. It's all just for fun of course. I was given the title "Captain" by the crew because I was able to restore the communications transmitter. At least I think I was able to retore it? The lights show green for transmitting, so yeah I bet it works, and besides, all of this is being recorded for posterity and it will be placed in a time/memorial capsule. After that the capsule will be sent in the (general) direction of Mars/Home, where hopefully someone finds it. I'm also the Senior Maintenance Tech in charge of repairing/prolonging various ship systems, etc. There are now only a few remaining livable areas of the ship so it's not as much work as one might imagine. And to think 18 years ago, I was just an ordinary passenger, how far through the ranks I've come! As the "Captain" I will now recount the entire history of the Aniara, the various events, the everyday happenings, from the awe inspiring and amazing, to the boring and mundane, great triumphs and crushing defeats, all the feelings of happiness and joy that come with new life and all of the sorrows and despair that come from (too) many deaths and (too) many hardships. All of our great accomplishments, setbacks and everything in between will be laid bare before the entire universe to witness. Our love, our hate, our dreams, our wants and desires, disappointments, anger and fear but above all our HOPE. Our precious HOPE, the only thing we have left, which has kept us alive for so long. Our HOPE that this message will be received, that someone, somewhere will know our story and our struggle, our HOPE that Mars will be successfully terraformed into the paradise that we all know it can be and our HOPE that Earth will be restored to the paradise that it once was. It's all here, it's all being recorded for the future. I will start our saga from the very beginning of our trip all those years ago...
Hour 1 - Routine Voyage - Well, this is it! Soon I and many others will make a new home on Mars... of course if we hadn't ruined the first one...
Week 3 - Without a Map/A Slight Detour - Today the Captain made an announcement that there would be a slight detour in our trip. In order to avoid a collision with space debris, (which would have destroyed the ship) we had to veer off course. Some of the debris hit the nuclear reactor (a very rare event), which forced the crew to eject all of the ship's fuel. The Captain told everyone that we will be able to resume our trip to Mars once the ship passes a celestial body, which should (probably) happen in about two years. Everyone is (understandably) disgruntled by this unfortunate news. As for me I have no one waiting for me on Mars so it's not as bad.
Year 2 - Wait and See - After several long months of trying out all of the various amusements and other distractions, I was starting to get bored, so I spoke with one of the senior crew members and asked if I could volunteer to do something, anything. Also a job would help keep my mind off our current situation.
Today, my request to work was approved and now I'm part of the crew. My job is to do general maintenance tasks around the ship. I also help take care of the algae, which are used to supply the ship with oxygen and food. It's not a very challenging task, in fact I find it very tedious, but the algae are crucial for the ship's survival, so it gives me a sense of purpose and on top of that I also earn extra points.
Eventually, because of my (part time) job in maintenance, I would come to know every nook and cranny of the Aniara. On one particular day I noticed a slight problem (Electrostatic Diffusion Impaction or EDI) with the ship's air filtration mechanism. I was quick to inform my supervisor about the issue and together we fixed it immediately. If I hadn't spotted the problem, it could have gotten much worse and that would have been catastrophic for the crew and passengers. Afterwards my supervisor bought me a shot of (rationed) Dutch brandy. Other than that, nothing of note has really happened. Everyone is basically in a holding pattern.
One last thing. I've heard a disturbing rumor that there is no celestial body for us to turn around at... If this is true then, that would mean... But for now all we can do now is wait and see...
Year 3 - The Yurg/The Passing of Mima - A memorial was set up to honor the end of Mima. So much joy had she given us. On the wall among the thousands of drawings, pictures, and sad goodbye letters was a poem that went like this:
We sit and stare at all the marvels that she brings us.
Mima lead the way.
Shine your light!
Be the beacon of hope at night.
Perfect grace in the barren house of space.
Shine your light!
Blind us when reality bites.
We so need the magic she does.
Many rumors are going around about what happened to Mima. People say that the Mimarobe (MR) was the one that ended up causing Mima to die. As for me, personally, I don't believe it. The Mimarobe just didn't seem like the type. A few times after I got off from work, when I walked to the end of the long line of people waiting to see Mima, the Mimarobe would come out and say "Ok, everyone that's it that's enough for today, you have to leave now, sorry." My own personal opinion is that she was just trying to give Mima a break, so even though I was of course disappointed, I completely understood. Sometimes we all just need a break. Sometimes things just get to you and you start to feel overwhelmed. I understood the feeling. Mima was like us in that way. Anyway, Rightly or wrongly the Mimarobe was locked up in the ships brig, her and another woman, I think she was one of the pilots,Isabella\, I think was her name but I might be wrong. Oh well, our lives must go on, much sadder of course, but that's life, I guess. ****Isagel, the pilots name was Isagel, her and the Mimarobe would later become a couple.
Year 4 - The Cults - Strange things have started happening. Various cults have sprung up all over the ship with bizarre and strange names. One of these (that I am a member of) is called the ゴールデンサンライト・フォーエバー・クラブ - Gōrudensanraito Fōeba Kurabu - which roughly means the Golden Sunlight Forever Club. Some of these phony cults are/were created as a disguise to have outrageous sex orgies. The cult that I am part of is one of these. (HELL YEAH!). The other cults are very boring, stare out the window and worship the stars or something like that, types. (Glad I'm not a member of those!).
Year 5 - The Calculation - A few weeks ago I met someone special (Carmen) at one of the "worship" services. I've seen her before a few times, but this is the first time that we "connected" and it was amazing. I'm glad that she accepts my physical imperfections (burns scars). Now we are a couple and have left the cult.
Fantastic news! The Captain has announced that an Emergency Refuel Rescue Probe is on its way! The news of the rescue probe has had an electrifying effect on the crew and passengers. Everyone is so excited that no one even cares that we will have to wait just over a year for it to get to us. People are starting to clean and pick up trash again, and the sex clubs and other cults are starting to go away (in anticipation of a return to proper civilization). Now we have hope again! Thank GOD!
Year 6 - The Spear - The rescue probe is almost here. (Only one week away!) I also have even more great news! Mygirlfriend fiancée is pregnant!, now I will be a Father just like I always wanted! I have spoken to Captain Chefone and he has agreed that he will marry us on the day that the Aniara turns around and heads (finally) back to Mars/our new HOME! Even though it will take us several more years to get back, it will have been worth it to me. I am grateful for the "slight detour" we had to endure, because it allowed me to meet the love of my life! Now with our precious child on the way, I am truly happy. PURE JOY - beyond all words...
Something is wrong... After an entire year of training and preparation, the crew has successfully grappled the refuel probe and brought it on board. Everyone expected that within a few days, (a week at most) that we would turn around, but it's been three weeks and nothing. Every day the passengers ask the crew what's going on? When will we turn around? and every day we get the same answer: "Soon, everything is going according to plan, just be patient." People are starting to doubt and lose hope. I even walked right up to Captain Chefone but he knew what I was going to ask and he brushed me aside very angrily saying "Not now, I'm busy!". Now I don't know what to think. One minute I have a future and the next nothing. How can this be? I don't understand! WHY?
Catastrophe! After work I went straight to my quarters to sleep, it had been an exhausting day. Just after I fell asleep, I was awakened by a rumbling. Then, over the speaker came the announcement: Return immediately to your cabins and fasten your seat belts! Since I was already in bed, and had no idea what was going on, I quickly fastened my belt. When it was all over [missing] passengers and crew left. I was told that it happened because of something called "bow shock", which [missing] kind of like a shock wave. The bow shock had badly damaged many systems. [missing] so now I've been "promoted" to Senior Maintenance Tech. Repairs must [missing] don't have any more spare parts for [missing] so many are dead...
Today the Mimarobe completed her beam-screen project. So now when you look outside you can see beautiful waterfalls and green fields etc. I try not to look at it too much. For me its just too painful...
Year 7 - The Fall of Heaven - Today marks the one year anniversary of the arrival of the so-called "Emergency Refuel Rescue Probe". What a very official and grand sounding name for a giant stupid looking dart or as some call it "The Spear". I've even heard some people refer to it as the "Devil's Javelin", but whatever you call it, it's of no use to us. The Astronomer had once told me before she died "supposedly" from a heart attack, (rumors say she was murdered by the captain, I don't doubt it) that all the work and tests they had done on the probe were useless and that even the hardest drills were simply ground into dust without even making so much as a scratch on the probe. Despite a literal barrage of tests and every possible experiment known, even using our most advanced lasers, they had achieved NOTHING! That was the moment I realized that we would never make it home. I even visted "The Spear" once, it was years after all the experiments had ended. There was a time when the area was heavily guarded by the crew and only authorized personnel were allowed in. Of course when I went to see it nobody was around, nobody cared, everyone had given up on it long ago. I saw all of the black marks from what must have been hundreds, if not thousands of desperate attempts to get inside it, or just to figure out what the damn thing was supposed to be. On the floor all around it were small heaps of black and silver metalic dust, remnants of our strongest and hardest drills, remnants of our hope. Our best and brightest couldn't even figure out what it was made of, let alone figure out how to use it to take us home.
I beat my hands against it over and over and I cried out my pain and anger at it. "You were supposed to save us!" "You were supposed to take us home!" You Damn! stupid thing, help us! save us!" But of course it was all useless my cries went unanswered, all I did was injure my hands and hurt my soul, assuming I even have one. After that I (I'm ashamed to admit it)... in complete and total desperation... I got down on my hands and knees in front of it and begged it to save us. "Oh, great magic spear, please save us and I will do anything, anything..."
After I had exhausted and humiliated myself I got up and went back to my quarters broken and alone. All hope was lost before my visit with "the spear" and afterwords it didn't even exist, not even as a word, as though there had never even been such a thing or concept as "hope".
I had been struck by the spear, just like everyone else, head on. My now ex-fiancée and I have split up. Things just weren't the same after the procedure. I don't blame her at all for our break-up, after talking about it, we agreed that if there was now no chance for us to make it home then... what was the point? I went with her when she had the procedure done. But before we went I secretly met with the doctor who would perform the operation and told her what I wanted done after. She told me that I was sick... that it was "disgusting", and what did I plan on doing with "it". I told her that it shouldn't matter, none of this matters, then I pulled out an EFR (emergency food ration). EFRs could remain edible for an indefinite period of time. (In theory they could last for hundreds of years.) Here I said, "one now and one when I get what I want". The doctor was stunned, I knew what she was going to say and I interrupted her and said,"Unlike everyone else I saved my emergency rations." "I only have the two left (I was lying) so don't try to extort me for more." After years of eating only algae, EFRs were (almost) more valuable than oxygen. Of course the doctor agreed and I got what I wanted. It might sound crazy but I had a plan. Fate had taken my family away, but I was prepared to defy even the gods themselves. I was determined that I would have my FAMILY! No matter what! Nothing and no one, no force of nature, no power in all the universe would take that from me. NO! NEVER!
I asked me a question, no reply.
I dreamt me a life and live a lie.
Dream me a nightmare...
I traveled the stars but passed them by.
For trapped on Aniara, here was I.
...always been leaving.
Year 8 - [missing]
Year 9 - The Daily Grind - I have now returned to reality. I have stopped all of the sick and sad mind games that I have being torturing myself with. I once created a "plan" to do the impossible, but no more, no more. Everyday now seems like an endless pointless, struggle. Sometimes [missing] and hours. Some of my co-workers stopped [missing] for now that's all any of us can do...
Year 10 - The Jubilee - Tonight at the Light-Year Hall, those of us that are still left are going to "celebrate" the 10th anniversary of our 3 week voyage to Mars or as I like to call it the "never ending space adventure" Ha!
Captain Chefone gave the Mimarobe a medal for her creation of the beam-screen device. I sat in the front row and couldn't help but notice that one of the Captains wrists was bandaged, probably from another suicide attempt...
Year 11 - Hope Restored - My ex-fiancée is dead. She commited suicide like so many others before. I was hard at work trying to revive the algae (they had been neglected for some time) when my assistant rushed in and told me the news. "They were about to send her body into space, you have to hurry if you want to see her". I immediately and literally dropped everything I was doing. The algae pack I had been working on fell and splashed on the floor as I ran out the door as fast as I could. As luck would have it, I made it just in time to see her, and I even had time to cut a lock of her hair. I then kissed her one last time and said "Goodbye my love... but, goodbye is not forever."
Then that was it, off she went into the empty, endless, void. She was gone I told myself, but not dead. I squeezed the lock of hair in my hand and vowed that I would bring her back to life, somehow, someway, I would make things right, we would live the life we were supposed to have. I would make it happen. It would happen. Suddenly, I felt a force deep inside me rushing to the surface. It had been years but I knew what it was, It had returned to me, a feeling of exuberation, of joy and the certainty of knowing that everything would be okay. I now resurrected my "plan" and now I had a reason to live again, I had a purpose, and now I had......HOPE! And this time I was determined that I would never lose hope again. NEVER!
Year 12 - Return of the Cults - Some of the old cults have started making a come back... However this time they are no longer sex/fun cults, because after so many years of eating just algae, almost everyone has lost their sex drive/ability to reproduce... I think because the type algae on board was genetically modified to produce the maximum amount of oxygen possible, so it was never intended to be used as a permanent main source of nutrition. If we had access to more than just the one type, things might be different...
Year 13 - Foward, Foward into the cold empty night! We ride! - Captain Chefone is dead. Suicide. I knew he had been on the brink the past few years so it's not much of a surprise. I would often hear him say to himself "We should have been home by now." Of course he was right, we should have, but instead here we are stuck on this eternal "voyage of the damned".
A week after Captain Chefone died, I found myself walking by his quarters. I had the sudden impulse to go inside. I don't know what it was (probably just morbid curiosity), but I think I just wanted to find some answers...
I was surprised to find that his quarters were just as much of a mess as mine. (And everyone else's.) I think because he was the Captain, I expected a lot more. (He was only human.) After looking around the room, I went over to his desk and inside I found the Aniara's Offical Ships Log, but the electronic notepad was damaged beyond repair (on purpose). However, underneath it was a small paper notebook. "Ah, I said out loud, now this should be interesting." When I opened the notebook I was immediately disappointed. Most of the pages were torn out and those few that remained had been harshly scribbled over.
On one of the few pages not missing or completely marked over was written this: Today, we almost lost the entire ship, were it not for my quick and decisive actions as Captain. [illegible] an incredibly rare occurrence [illegible] critically damaged our main nuclear reactor. [illegible] only seconds [illegible] forcing me to [illegible] off course [illegible] have power for some time. This evening I will break the news to the passengers in such a way that will cause the least amount of panic and at the same time not destroy their hope. If they knew the real situation, it would only cause unnecessary chaos. In this way, I will maintain order and keep the passengers safe. Fear and [illegible] as Captain of Aniara [illegible] that is now my primary job. [illegible] now like aShepherd Father and the passengers my sheep children. In many ways we are very lucky, [illegible] this trip, Aniara's sister ship crashed into Jupiter heading towards the Orion belt colony. Everyone on onboard was killed.
On another page was written this: The rescue refuel probe is here. [illegible] turned out to be [illegible] not what I expected. I have [illegible] for clarification, [illegible] Mars [illegible] -----cation. Testing will continue. I still remain confident that [illegible] the project called "[illegible] ---elin" can still be used in someway to turn the ship around and resume course.
The last two pages were so scribbled over that I could barely make out any words let alone a full sentence. I did however, notice what looked like the word "Devil" written over and over. Very strange. I left the Captain's quarters with more questions than answers...
Year 14 - [missing]
Year 15 - The Light Show Ends - Today the projection device created by MR, (Everyone still calls her the 'Mimarobe' as a sign of respect.) had to be shut down to conserve power. The Mimarobe often expressed to me her regret at not being more forceful with Captain Chefone in explaining the problem with Mima. She told me that if she could back in time she would say to the Captain:
"Just imagine what it will be like if Mima isn't here... do you understand how hellish the situation will become? My life is dedicated to this program and I'M TELLING YOU, IT WILL BURN OUT AND DIE! Imagine if people can temporarily go back to earth by turning on a light switch, now imagine if the bulb blows up, and there's no replacement..." "I know how important Mima is and you don't get it!"
The beam-screen seemed like a great idea at the time to keep everyone's spirits up, but in many ways it may have done more harm than good. People lost their minds staring all the time at something they knew they would never have...
Year 16 - [missing]
Year 17 - [missing]
Year 18 - The Time/Memorial Capsule - The Mimarobe was the one that came up with the idea for a time/memorial capsule. She (like all of us) has suffered greatly, but from time to time she would show a small spark of her old self. The idea, while slow to catch on, would eventually give those of us still left a renewed sense of purpose. (People now had a reason to get out of bed.) But, it was I who would take the idea and transform it into something greater. Our first attempt at creating the capsule was successful (it was little more than a metal box) but at the same time, as the Mimarobe pointed out it looked too much like a large coffin. I agreed. We could do better. We had to do better. But we had to be careful [missing] effecting power systems. I asked the Mimarobe if she could sketch a better design. After two days the Mimarobe presented me with a new design, it was beautiful, but simple, yet elegant. Above the sketch was were the words, "Heart of Aniara." The name was perfect. We would fill the "Heart of Aniara", with our art and our poetry, with our hopes, dreams and wedding rings. We would pour into it our stories, our struggles, our trials and tribulations, we would fill it with the tear drops from our very souls.
The "Heart of Aniara" is almost complete. It has taken an entire [missing] solid effort to build and everyone took turns polishing it, so now it shines like the golden sun. We also wrote [missing] and painted two large red hearts on the sides. It [missing] long and on the inside are different [missing] created using metal partitions. [missing] was instrumental in its consruction...
Year 19 - A Slight Delay - Disaster! Several Power systems, including all emergency back up systems across the ship have begun failing for some unknown reason. [missing] working around the clock to figure out what is wrong... I don't know how much longer we can hold on...
We finally found the [missing] will work for the time being, but [missing] restored power [missing] will do for now...
Year 20 - The Heart of Aniara - At last the time has come for our send off. Everything is ready. As the "Captain" of Aniara it is my great honor to commision this new vessel "Heart of Aniara". Behind me I heard someone whisper "vessel?". I continued, "It is my firm belief that the "Heart of Aniara" will make it back home to Mars and everyone will know our stories..."
A moment before send off, I told everyone to wait. Theres one more thing left. I then slid open a hatch on the side and told everyone that I hated to do this to them, but I was going to Mars with my family. The Mimarobe approached me with a half smile on her face and said in a very serious tone "Good Luck, Captain Benny", "tell everyone on Mars hi for us and that we wish we were there." I smiled and promised that I would. Then to my suprise all the others came up to me, with some shaking my hand and congratulating me, asking me to say hi to their family and friends as well. I then ducked down into the newly christened "Heart of Aniara." Then the hatch was sealed. A small rechargable electric candle that I brought with me, provided the only light. Knowing that we would be leaving in a moment I opened a small box, took Carmen (lock of ex-fiancée's hair) and Sarah Ann (small jar with dead fetus) and held them together in my left hand against my chest. I could feel my heart beating with a mixture of fear and excitement. I took out a small children's book with my right hand and began reading it from the beginning. It was my daughter's favorite. It was called "The Duck and the Noodle." "Daddy are we there yet?" I laughed as tears ran down my face and said "Yes, my little princess noodle were almost there."
The Memorial Capsule lauched into space with a loud whoosh...
(Mimarobe, MR) - When everyone had just got through waving goodbye and were getting ready to leave, the view screen turned on and with it a pre-recorded message from Captain Benny. "To celebrate this great day, I have arranged for you a "Grand Feast", then he paused. A few people exchanged questioning looks. Then the Captain spoke again. "You see", he said with a smile, "Unlike all of you, I saved my emergency rations. You will find them hidden inside the mattress in my quarters, enjoy!" "Also, you will find two bottles of wine, yes! real wine!" Before the video even finished several people had started shuffling as fast as the could to Captain Benny's quarters. The Captain wasn't lying, it appeared that he had indeed saved almost all of his emergency rations for some special occasion(s).
What a feast it was! To make it fair for everyone we took all of the rations and put them together to create a kind of giant stew. Each of us not only savored each precious spoonful, we cherished it as though it was a long lost loved one. It is not an exaggeration to say that each bite was chewed one hundred times or more and then held in the mouth for ten minutes or longer, swishing the pulpy liquid around and around. I even saw one person spit the food back into their bowl and then put it back into their mouth, over and over again. That seemed a little bit unusual to me, but everyone should enjoy their last real meal the way they want. As for the wine their was enough for everyone to have a shot glass filled to the brim. We talked about the "Great Feast" for months afterword...
Year 21 - [missing]
Year 22 - The Living Dead - (Mimarobe, MR) We've had to abandon almost the entire ship to conserve power, but basically were stillgood alive... I still dream about Isagel and our son from time to time...
Year 23 - [missing]
Year 24 - The Sarcophagus - A few remaining survivors, including the Mimarobe, sit cross-legged in a dimly lit room. One of the few survivors speaks in a rhapsodic manner about the divine power of sunlight on Earth.
The Aniara slowly descends into final darkness...
Note: Years 25 through 5,981,406 are missing.
Year 5,981,407 - Lyra Constellation - The Aniara, derelict, frozen and devoid of human life - reaches the Lyra constellation and approaches a planet as verdant and welcoming as Earth was formerly. It quickly passes by continuing on into the endless void of space...
Date Unknown - The Warm Embrace - Ages come, Ages gone, Aniara soon embraced, engulfed by warmth and shine, newest born crimson light, Aniara far from home, aflame, not even ashes remain.
Epilogue: Year 100 - The Triumph of Hope - Despite the faliure of many valiant rescue attempts, including all attempts at communication, we remain confident that those onboard the Aniara knew that they were not forgotten. It is difficult to imagine (the speaker momentarily shuttered), the impossible challenges they endured. The story of their lives will remain in the collective hearts of humanity for all time. It is our hope that we will do right by them, now and in the future. We vow to never repeat the mistakes of the past... and that is why today, on the one hundredth anniversary since the Aniara was lost, we reach across time and space to bring their souls back home, home to this sacred place... We hereby consecrate this new park as the "Aniara Memorial Park and Museum Complex." As you walk through these doors, one of the first things you will notice is the "Heart of Aniara" on display. Along the walls are the names and pictures of the passengers and crew, their artwork, poetry, and most importantly, the stories of their lives, their hopes, dreams and wedding rings...
Aniara Memorial Plaque: We ourselves are the sorrow, we are also the joy, everything human is rooted in humanity, and no human being can escape humanity, not her hatred and her self-degradation, nor the joy she spreads, nor the love she forms.
Date [redacted] - Project "Devil's Javelin" - Status report #[redacted] - As of today's date we are aware of a total of four "spear-like objects" [redacted] and has contextualized that there are many more as yet discovered. Because of [redacted] we now know they are made of [redacted] and probably come from [redacted] the first was found on Earth 86 years ago, at the bottom of the Pacific Ocean. The second one was discovered by the crew of the Aniara [redacted] years ago. The third was found here on Mars, near [redacted] and moved to its present secure location. The fourth and newest one was found when [redacted] the far side of the Moon. [redacted] buried inside the [redacted] impact crater. We have yet to discover the purpose of these "spear-like objects."
After [redacted] to prevent another type of incident. [redacted] have been able to gain access to the inside of the one here on Mars. [redacted] only after [redacted] and the entire team. [redacted] using the most advanced technology and research methods. Dr. [redacted] found [redacted] which is impossible and should not exist. However, we must now come to grips with the horror that this new revelation about humanity has [redacted] general public must never find out...
THE END?
Alternate ending 1
Year 5,981,407 - The Sarcophagus World Destroyer - As the ship Aniara descended towards the lush and green planet, the crew rejoiced. Or at least they would have if they hadn't all been dead. After thousands of millennia wandering through space, they had found a planet that was almost identical to Earth.
The planet's gravity was very strong, and the ship had become trapped in the planet's gravitational pull and started hurtling towards the surface.
The Aniara crashed into the planet with a deafening roar, causing massive destruction and sending out shockwaves that rippled across the surface.
As the dust settled, it became clear that the landing had been catastrophic. Plant and animal life had been completely obliterated, and the once green planet was now a barren wasteland. Soon not a single living thing was left to witness the horror and the devastation that had been caused.
Another beautiful, thriving, planet, a blue and green jewel, once teeming with life has been turned into a lifeless barren wasteland...
Alternate ending 2
Year 5,981,407 - The Second Chance Sarcophagus - As the ship Aniara descended towards the lush and green planet, the crew rejoiced. Or at least they would have if they hadn't all been dead. After thousands of millennia wandering through space, they had found a planet that was almost identical to Earth.
The planet's gravity was very strong, and the ship had become trapped in the planet's gravitational pull and started hurtling towards the surface.
One one-trillionth of a second after the Aniara crashed into the planet the mysterious spear-like probe on board finally awakened. A God-Like Power. In that one one-trillionth of a second the Aniara was scanned by the powerful probe and the events and lives of the crew had become known to it. At the same time, both the ship and the planet were saved by a force field of immense power. The ship was now resting safely on the surface of the lush, green planet. The probe had determined that the primitive life forms on board were worthy of a second chance at life and it was able to resurrect the entire crew and all the passengers from microscopic DNA that had been left. The Aniara was perfectly restored and even the Mima had been brought back. The crew and passengers awoke to find themselves in a veritable Garden of Eden, a paradise. Maybe this time things would go better and the mistakes from the past would not be repeated...
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The short story you are about to read was created/inspired/based on a variety of sources related to or about Aniara. Aniara rock opera (Seventh Wonder) - The Great Escape, the Aniara wikipedia page, the Aniara film, poem etc. So if you read something and it sounds familiar, it's probably because it comes from or is based on, one of those sources. I have also tried to incorporate some of the thoughts and ideas expressed here on aniara, so some of you may see that reflected. I have not read everything that has to do with the Aniara universe, but I have found many of the resources listed on aniara very helpful in creating this short story. Thank you for those. I have also included a couple alternate endings.
Also, this story belongs to everyone, so everyone should feel free to to fill in the blanks, add to, subtract, or change any part of the story, in anyway they see fit.
I dedicate this short story to all the fans of Aniara, this story is for you and of course the late Harry Martinson.
Like many people who watched the film 'Aniara', I was mesmerized/traumatized by it. It really had a profound effect on me. So much so that I decided to write this fan fiction short story. I am not a writer. The short story that you are about to read is my (very) amateurish tribute to the film. I apologize in advance for all of the grammaspelling and other errors. Despite the (many) flaws of this short work, I hope that you can see what I was attempting to do. Anyway without further or do, I present to you:
The Lost Voices of Aniara: A Space Saga
WE CROWN THE SKIES WITH OUR TIARA, THE LIFE AND FATE OF ANIARA
Note: The following represents the most complete (so far) chronicle of events that happened onboard the Aniara.
Year 18 - Song of Melancholy - My name is Benjamin Jenkins, but everyone calls me "Benny", I am proud to announce that I am the new "Captain" of the mighty space "cruise ship" Aniara. Of course, my title could just as easily be the Admiral of Mars or the Conquer of the Universe, or some other ridiculous sounding grandiose title. Sometimes you must laugh in the face of despair otherwise you will go insane. It's all just for fun of course. I was given the title "Captain" by the crew because I was able to restore the communications transmitter. At least I think I was able to retore it? The lights show green for transmitting, so yeah I bet it works, and besides, all of this is being recorded for posterity and it will be placed in a time/memorial capsule. After that the capsule will be sent in the (general) direction of Mars/Home, where hopefully someone finds it. I'm also the Senior Maintenance Tech in charge of repairing/prolonging various ship systems, etc. There are now only a few remaining livable areas of the ship so it's not as much work as one might imagine. And to think 18 years ago, I was just an ordinary passenger, how far through the ranks I've come! As the "Captain" I will now recount the entire history of the Aniara, the various events, the everyday happenings, from the awe inspiring and amazing, to the boring and mundane, great triumphs and crushing defeats, all the feelings of happiness and joy that come with new life and all of the sorrows and despair that come from (too) many deaths and (too) many hardships. All of our great accomplishments, setbacks and everything in between will be laid bare before the entire universe to witness. Our love, our hate, our dreams, our wants and desires, disappointments, anger and fear but above all our HOPE. Our precious HOPE, the only thing we have left, which has kept us alive for so long. Our HOPE that this message will be received, that someone, somewhere will know our story and our struggle, our HOPE that Mars will be successfully terraformed into the paradise that we all know it can be and our HOPE that Earth will be restored to the paradise that it once was. It's all here, it's all being recorded for the future. I will start our saga from the very beginning of our trip all those years ago...
Hour 1 - Routine Voyage - Well, this is it! Soon I and many others will make a new home on Mars... of course if we hadn't ruined the first one...
Week 3 - Without a Map/A Slight Detour - Today the Captain made an announcement that there would be a slight detour in our trip. In order to avoid a collision with space debris, (which would have destroyed the ship) we had to veer off course. Some of the debris hit the nuclear reactor (a very rare event), which forced the crew to eject all of the ship's fuel. The Captain told everyone that we will be able to resume our trip to Mars once the ship passes a celestial body, which should (probably) happen in about two years. Everyone is (understandably) disgruntled by this unfortunate news. As for me I have no one waiting for me on Mars so it's not as bad.
Year 2 - Wait and See - After several long months of trying out all of the various amusements and other distractions, I was starting to get bored, so I spoke with one of the senior crew members and asked if I could volunteer to do something, anything. Also a job would help keep my mind off our current situation.
Today, my request to work was approved and now I'm part of the crew. My job is to do general maintenance tasks around the ship. I also help take care of the algae, which are used to supply the ship with oxygen and food. It's not a very challenging task, in fact I find it very tedious, but the algae are crucial for the ship's survival, so it gives me a sense of purpose and on top of that I also earn extra points.
Eventually, because of my (part time) job in maintenance, I would come to know every nook and cranny of the Aniara. On one particular day I noticed a slight problem (Electrostatic Diffusion Impaction or EDI) with the ship's air filtration mechanism. I was quick to inform my supervisor about the issue and together we fixed it immediately. If I hadn't spotted the problem, it could have gotten much worse and that would have been catastrophic for the crew and passengers. Afterwards my supervisor bought me a shot of (rationed) Dutch brandy. Other than that, nothing of note has really happened. Everyone is basically in a holding pattern.
One last thing. I've heard a disturbing rumor that there is no celestial body for us to turn around at... If this is true then, that would mean... But for now all we can do now is wait and see...
Year 3 - The Yurg/The Passing of Mima - A memorial was set up to honor the end of Mima. So much joy had she given us. On the wall among the thousands of drawings, pictures, and sad goodbye letters was a poem that went like this:
We sit and stare at all the marvels that she brings us.
Mima lead the way.
Shine your light!
Be the beacon of hope at night.
Perfect grace in the barren house of space.
Shine your light!
Blind us when reality bites.
We so need the magic she does.
Many rumors are going around about what happened to Mima. People say that the Mimarobe (MR) was the one that ended up causing Mima to die. As for me, personally, I don't believe it. The Mimarobe just didn't seem like the type. A few times after I got off from work, when I walked to the end of the long line of people waiting to see Mima, the Mimarobe would come out and say "Ok, everyone that's it that's enough for today, you have to leave now, sorry." My own personal opinion is that she was just trying to give Mima a break, so even though I was of course disappointed, I completely understood. Sometimes we all just need a break. Sometimes things just get to you and you start to feel overwhelmed. I understood the feeling. Mima was like us in that way. Anyway, Rightly or wrongly the Mimarobe was locked up in the ships brig, her and another woman, I think she was one of the pilots,
Year 4 - The Cults - Strange things have started happening. Various cults have sprung up all over the ship with bizarre and strange names. One of these (that I am a member of) is called the ゴールデンサンライト・フォーエバー・クラブ - Gōrudensanraito Fōeba Kurabu - which roughly means the Golden Sunlight Forever Club. Some of these phony cults are/were created as a disguise to have outrageous sex orgies. The cult that I am part of is one of these. (HELL YEAH!). The other cults are very boring, stare out the window and worship the stars or something like that, types. (Glad I'm not a member of those!).
Year 5 - The Calculation - A few weeks ago I met someone special (Carmen) at one of the "worship" services. I've seen her before a few times, but this is the first time that we "connected" and it was amazing. I'm glad that she accepts my physical imperfections (burns scars). Now we are a couple and have left the cult.
Fantastic news! The Captain has announced that an Emergency Refuel Rescue Probe is on its way! The news of the rescue probe has had an electrifying effect on the crew and passengers. Everyone is so excited that no one even cares that we will have to wait just over a year for it to get to us. People are starting to clean and pick up trash again, and the sex clubs and other cults are starting to go away (in anticipation of a return to proper civilization). Now we have hope again! Thank GOD!
Year 6 - The Spear - The rescue probe is almost here. (Only one week away!) I also have even more great news! My
Something is wrong... After an entire year of training and preparation, the crew has successfully grappled the refuel probe and brought it on board. Everyone expected that within a few days, (a week at most) that we would turn around, but it's been three weeks and nothing. Every day the passengers ask the crew what's going on? When will we turn around? and every day we get the same answer: "Soon, everything is going according to plan, just be patient." People are starting to doubt and lose hope. I even walked right up to Captain Chefone but he knew what I was going to ask and he brushed me aside very angrily saying "Not now, I'm busy!". Now I don't know what to think. One minute I have a future and the next nothing. How can this be? I don't understand! WHY?
Catastrophe! After work I went straight to my quarters to sleep, it had been an exhausting day. Just after I fell asleep, I was awakened by a rumbling. Then, over the speaker came the announcement: Return immediately to your cabins and fasten your seat belts! Since I was already in bed, and had no idea what was going on, I quickly fastened my belt. When it was all over [missing] passengers and crew left. I was told that it happened because of something called "bow shock", which [missing] kind of like a shock wave. The bow shock had badly damaged many systems. [missing] so now I've been "promoted" to Senior Maintenance Tech. Repairs must [missing] don't have any more spare parts for [missing] so many are dead...
Today the Mimarobe completed her beam-screen project. So now when you look outside you can see beautiful waterfalls and green fields etc. I try not to look at it too much. For me its just too painful...
Year 7 - The Fall of Heaven - Today marks the one year anniversary of the arrival of the so-called "Emergency Refuel Rescue Probe". What a very official and grand sounding name for a giant stupid looking dart or as some call it "The Spear". I've even heard some people refer to it as the "Devil's Javelin", but whatever you call it, it's of no use to us. The Astronomer had once told me before she died "supposedly" from a heart attack, (rumors say she was murdered by the captain, I don't doubt it) that all the work and tests they had done on the probe were useless and that even the hardest drills were simply ground into dust without even making so much as a scratch on the probe. Despite a literal barrage of tests and every possible experiment known, even using our most advanced lasers, they had achieved NOTHING! That was the moment I realized that we would never make it home. I even visted "The Spear" once, it was years after all the experiments had ended. There was a time when the area was heavily guarded by the crew and only authorized personnel were allowed in. Of course when I went to see it nobody was around, nobody cared, everyone had given up on it long ago. I saw all of the black marks from what must have been hundreds, if not thousands of desperate attempts to get inside it, or just to figure out what the damn thing was supposed to be. On the floor all around it were small heaps of black and silver metalic dust, remnants of our strongest and hardest drills, remnants of our hope. Our best and brightest couldn't even figure out what it was made of, let alone figure out how to use it to take us home.
I beat my hands against it over and over and I cried out my pain and anger at it. "You were supposed to save us!" "You were supposed to take us home!" You Damn! stupid thing, help us! save us!" But of course it was all useless my cries went unanswered, all I did was injure my hands and hurt my soul, assuming I even have one. After that I (I'm ashamed to admit it)... in complete and total desperation... I got down on my hands and knees in front of it and begged it to save us. "Oh, great magic spear, please save us and I will do anything, anything..."
After I had exhausted and humiliated myself I got up and went back to my quarters broken and alone. All hope was lost before my visit with "the spear" and afterwords it didn't even exist, not even as a word, as though there had never even been such a thing or concept as "hope".
I had been struck by the spear, just like everyone else, head on. My now ex-fiancée and I have split up. Things just weren't the same after the procedure. I don't blame her at all for our break-up, after talking about it, we agreed that if there was now no chance for us to make it home then... what was the point? I went with her when she had the procedure done. But before we went I secretly met with the doctor who would perform the operation and told her what I wanted done after. She told me that I was sick... that it was "disgusting", and what did I plan on doing with "it". I told her that it shouldn't matter, none of this matters, then I pulled out an EFR (emergency food ration). EFRs could remain edible for an indefinite period of time. (In theory they could last for hundreds of years.) Here I said, "one now and one when I get what I want". The doctor was stunned, I knew what she was going to say and I interrupted her and said,"Unlike everyone else I saved my emergency rations." "I only have the two left (I was lying) so don't try to extort me for more." After years of eating only algae, EFRs were (almost) more valuable than oxygen. Of course the doctor agreed and I got what I wanted. It might sound crazy but I had a plan. Fate had taken my family away, but I was prepared to defy even the gods themselves. I was determined that I would have my FAMILY! No matter what! Nothing and no one, no force of nature, no power in all the universe would take that from me. NO! NEVER!
I asked me a question, no reply.
I dreamt me a life and live a lie.
Dream me a nightmare...
I traveled the stars but passed them by.
For trapped on Aniara, here was I.
...always been leaving.
Year 8 - [missing]
Year 9 - The Daily Grind - I have now returned to reality. I have stopped all of the sick and sad mind games that I have being torturing myself with. I once created a "plan" to do the impossible, but no more, no more. Everyday now seems like an endless pointless, struggle. Sometimes [missing] and hours. Some of my co-workers stopped [missing] for now that's all any of us can do...
Year 10 - The Jubilee - Tonight at the Light-Year Hall, those of us that are still left are going to "celebrate" the 10th anniversary of our 3 week voyage to Mars or as I like to call it the "never ending space adventure" Ha!
Captain Chefone gave the Mimarobe a medal for her creation of the beam-screen device. I sat in the front row and couldn't help but notice that one of the Captains wrists was bandaged, probably from another suicide attempt...
Year 11 - Hope Restored - My ex-fiancée is dead. She commited suicide like so many others before. I was hard at work trying to revive the algae (they had been neglected for some time) when my assistant rushed in and told me the news. "They were about to send her body into space, you have to hurry if you want to see her". I immediately and literally dropped everything I was doing. The algae pack I had been working on fell and splashed on the floor as I ran out the door as fast as I could. As luck would have it, I made it just in time to see her, and I even had time to cut a lock of her hair. I then kissed her one last time and said "Goodbye my love... but, goodbye is not forever."
Then that was it, off she went into the empty, endless, void. She was gone I told myself, but not dead. I squeezed the lock of hair in my hand and vowed that I would bring her back to life, somehow, someway, I would make things right, we would live the life we were supposed to have. I would make it happen. It would happen. Suddenly, I felt a force deep inside me rushing to the surface. It had been years but I knew what it was, It had returned to me, a feeling of exuberation, of joy and the certainty of knowing that everything would be okay. I now resurrected my "plan" and now I had a reason to live again, I had a purpose, and now I had......HOPE! And this time I was determined that I would never lose hope again. NEVER!
Year 12 - Return of the Cults - Some of the old cults have started making a come back... However this time they are no longer sex/fun cults, because after so many years of eating just algae, almost everyone has lost their sex drive/ability to reproduce... I think because the type algae on board was genetically modified to produce the maximum amount of oxygen possible, so it was never intended to be used as a permanent main source of nutrition. If we had access to more than just the one type, things might be different...
Year 13 - Foward, Foward into the cold empty night! We ride! - Captain Chefone is dead. Suicide. I knew he had been on the brink the past few years so it's not much of a surprise. I would often hear him say to himself "We should have been home by now." Of course he was right, we should have, but instead here we are stuck on this eternal "voyage of the damned".
A week after Captain Chefone died, I found myself walking by his quarters. I had the sudden impulse to go inside. I don't know what it was (probably just morbid curiosity), but I think I just wanted to find some answers...
I was surprised to find that his quarters were just as much of a mess as mine. (And everyone else's.) I think because he was the Captain, I expected a lot more. (He was only human.) After looking around the room, I went over to his desk and inside I found the Aniara's Offical Ships Log, but the electronic notepad was damaged beyond repair (on purpose). However, underneath it was a small paper notebook. "Ah, I said out loud, now this should be interesting." When I opened the notebook I was immediately disappointed. Most of the pages were torn out and those few that remained had been harshly scribbled over.
On one of the few pages not missing or completely marked over was written this: Today, we almost lost the entire ship, were it not for my quick and decisive actions as Captain. [illegible] an incredibly rare occurrence [illegible] critically damaged our main nuclear reactor. [illegible] only seconds [illegible] forcing me to [illegible] off course [illegible] have power for some time. This evening I will break the news to the passengers in such a way that will cause the least amount of panic and at the same time not destroy their hope. If they knew the real situation, it would only cause unnecessary chaos. In this way, I will maintain order and keep the passengers safe. Fear and [illegible] as Captain of Aniara [illegible] that is now my primary job. [illegible] now like a
On another page was written this: The rescue refuel probe is here. [illegible] turned out to be [illegible] not what I expected. I have [illegible] for clarification, [illegible] Mars [illegible] -----cation. Testing will continue. I still remain confident that [illegible] the project called "[illegible] ---elin" can still be used in someway to turn the ship around and resume course.
The last two pages were so scribbled over that I could barely make out any words let alone a full sentence. I did however, notice what looked like the word "Devil" written over and over. Very strange. I left the Captain's quarters with more questions than answers...
Year 14 - [missing]
Year 15 - The Light Show Ends - Today the projection device created by MR, (Everyone still calls her the 'Mimarobe' as a sign of respect.) had to be shut down to conserve power. The Mimarobe often expressed to me her regret at not being more forceful with Captain Chefone in explaining the problem with Mima. She told me that if she could back in time she would say to the Captain:
"Just imagine what it will be like if Mima isn't here... do you understand how hellish the situation will become? My life is dedicated to this program and I'M TELLING YOU, IT WILL BURN OUT AND DIE! Imagine if people can temporarily go back to earth by turning on a light switch, now imagine if the bulb blows up, and there's no replacement..." "I know how important Mima is and you don't get it!"
The beam-screen seemed like a great idea at the time to keep everyone's spirits up, but in many ways it may have done more harm than good. People lost their minds staring all the time at something they knew they would never have...
Year 16 - [missing]
Year 17 - [missing]
Year 18 - The Time/Memorial Capsule - The Mimarobe was the one that came up with the idea for a time/memorial capsule. She (like all of us) has suffered greatly, but from time to time she would show a small spark of her old self. The idea, while slow to catch on, would eventually give those of us still left a renewed sense of purpose. (People now had a reason to get out of bed.) But, it was I who would take the idea and transform it into something greater. Our first attempt at creating the capsule was successful (it was little more than a metal box) but at the same time, as the Mimarobe pointed out it looked too much like a large coffin. I agreed. We could do better. We had to do better. But we had to be careful [missing] effecting power systems. I asked the Mimarobe if she could sketch a better design. After two days the Mimarobe presented me with a new design, it was beautiful, but simple, yet elegant. Above the sketch was were the words, "Heart of Aniara." The name was perfect. We would fill the "Heart of Aniara", with our art and our poetry, with our hopes, dreams and wedding rings. We would pour into it our stories, our struggles, our trials and tribulations, we would fill it with the tear drops from our very souls.
The "Heart of Aniara" is almost complete. It has taken an entire [missing] solid effort to build and everyone took turns polishing it, so now it shines like the golden sun. We also wrote [missing] and painted two large red hearts on the sides. It [missing] long and on the inside are different [missing] created using metal partitions. [missing] was instrumental in its consruction...
Year 19 - A Slight Delay - Disaster! Several Power systems, including all emergency back up systems across the ship have begun failing for some unknown reason. [missing] working around the clock to figure out what is wrong... I don't know how much longer we can hold on...
We finally found the [missing] will work for the time being, but [missing] restored power [missing] will do for now...
Year 20 - The Heart of Aniara - At last the time has come for our send off. Everything is ready. As the "Captain" of Aniara it is my great honor to commision this new vessel "Heart of Aniara". Behind me I heard someone whisper "vessel?". I continued, "It is my firm belief that the "Heart of Aniara" will make it back home to Mars and everyone will know our stories..."
A moment before send off, I told everyone to wait. Theres one more thing left. I then slid open a hatch on the side and told everyone that I hated to do this to them, but I was going to Mars with my family. The Mimarobe approached me with a half smile on her face and said in a very serious tone "Good Luck, Captain Benny", "tell everyone on Mars hi for us and that we wish we were there." I smiled and promised that I would. Then to my suprise all the others came up to me, with some shaking my hand and congratulating me, asking me to say hi to their family and friends as well. I then ducked down into the newly christened "Heart of Aniara." Then the hatch was sealed. A small rechargable electric candle that I brought with me, provided the only light. Knowing that we would be leaving in a moment I opened a small box, took Carmen (lock of ex-fiancée's hair) and Sarah Ann (small jar with dead fetus) and held them together in my left hand against my chest. I could feel my heart beating with a mixture of fear and excitement. I took out a small children's book with my right hand and began reading it from the beginning. It was my daughter's favorite. It was called "The Duck and the Noodle." "Daddy are we there yet?" I laughed as tears ran down my face and said "Yes, my little princess noodle were almost there."
The Memorial Capsule lauched into space with a loud whoosh...
(Mimarobe, MR) - When everyone had just got through waving goodbye and were getting ready to leave, the view screen turned on and with it a pre-recorded message from Captain Benny. "To celebrate this great day, I have arranged for you a "Grand Feast", then he paused. A few people exchanged questioning looks. Then the Captain spoke again. "You see", he said with a smile, "Unlike all of you, I saved my emergency rations. You will find them hidden inside the mattress in my quarters, enjoy!" "Also, you will find two bottles of wine, yes! real wine!" Before the video even finished several people had started shuffling as fast as the could to Captain Benny's quarters. The Captain wasn't lying, it appeared that he had indeed saved almost all of his emergency rations for some special occasion(s).
What a feast it was! To make it fair for everyone we took all of the rations and put them together to create a kind of giant stew. Each of us not only savored each precious spoonful, we cherished it as though it was a long lost loved one. It is not an exaggeration to say that each bite was chewed one hundred times or more and then held in the mouth for ten minutes or longer, swishing the pulpy liquid around and around. I even saw one person spit the food back into their bowl and then put it back into their mouth, over and over again. That seemed a little bit unusual to me, but everyone should enjoy their last real meal the way they want. As for the wine their was enough for everyone to have a shot glass filled to the brim. We talked about the "Great Feast" for months afterword...
Year 21 - [missing]
Year 22 - The Living Dead - (Mimarobe, MR) We've had to abandon almost the entire ship to conserve power, but basically were still
Year 23 - [missing]
Year 24 - The Sarcophagus - A few remaining survivors, including the Mimarobe, sit cross-legged in a dimly lit room. One of the few survivors speaks in a rhapsodic manner about the divine power of sunlight on Earth.
The Aniara slowly descends into final darkness...
Note: Years 25 through 5,981,406 are missing.
Year 5,981,407 - Lyra Constellation - The Aniara, derelict, frozen and devoid of human life - reaches the Lyra constellation and approaches a planet as verdant and welcoming as Earth was formerly. It quickly passes by continuing on into the endless void of space...
Date Unknown - The Warm Embrace - Ages come, Ages gone, Aniara soon embraced, engulfed by warmth and shine, newest born crimson light, Aniara far from home, aflame, not even ashes remain.
Epilogue: Year 100 - The Triumph of Hope - Despite the faliure of many valiant rescue attempts, including all attempts at communication, we remain confident that those onboard the Aniara knew that they were not forgotten. It is difficult to imagine (the speaker momentarily shuttered), the impossible challenges they endured. The story of their lives will remain in the collective hearts of humanity for all time. It is our hope that we will do right by them, now and in the future. We vow to never repeat the mistakes of the past... and that is why today, on the one hundredth anniversary since the Aniara was lost, we reach across time and space to bring their souls back home, home to this sacred place... We hereby consecrate this new park as the "Aniara Memorial Park and Museum Complex." As you walk through these doors, one of the first things you will notice is the "Heart of Aniara" on display. Along the walls are the names and pictures of the passengers and crew, their artwork, poetry, and most importantly, the stories of their lives, their hopes, dreams and wedding rings...
Aniara Memorial Plaque: We ourselves are the sorrow, we are also the joy, everything human is rooted in humanity, and no human being can escape humanity, not her hatred and her self-degradation, nor the joy she spreads, nor the love she forms.
Date [redacted] - Project "Devil's Javelin" - Status report #[redacted] - As of today's date we are aware of a total of four "spear-like objects" [redacted] and has contextualized that there are many more as yet discovered. Because of [redacted] we now know they are made of [redacted] and probably come from [redacted] the first was found on Earth 86 years ago, at the bottom of the Pacific Ocean. The second one was discovered by the crew of the Aniara [redacted] years ago. The third was found here on Mars, near [redacted] and moved to its present secure location. The fourth and newest one was found when [redacted] the far side of the Moon. [redacted] buried inside the [redacted] impact crater. We have yet to discover the purpose of these "spear-like objects."
After [redacted] to prevent another type of incident. [redacted] have been able to gain access to the inside of the one here on Mars. [redacted] only after [redacted] and the entire team. [redacted] using the most advanced technology and research methods. Dr. [redacted] found [redacted] which is impossible and should not exist. However, we must now come to grips with the horror that this new revelation about humanity has [redacted] general public must never find out...
THE END?
Alternate ending 1
Year 5,981,407 - The Sarcophagus World Destroyer - As the ship Aniara descended towards the lush and green planet, the crew rejoiced. Or at least they would have if they hadn't all been dead. After thousands of millennia wandering through space, they had found a planet that was almost identical to Earth.
The planet's gravity was very strong, and the ship had become trapped in the planet's gravitational pull and started hurtling towards the surface.
The Aniara crashed into the planet with a deafening roar, causing massive destruction and sending out shockwaves that rippled across the surface.
As the dust settled, it became clear that the landing had been catastrophic. Plant and animal life had been completely obliterated, and the once green planet was now a barren wasteland. Soon not a single living thing was left to witness the horror and the devastation that had been caused.
Another beautiful, thriving, planet, a blue and green jewel, once teeming with life has been turned into a lifeless barren wasteland...
Alternate ending 2
Year 5,981,407 - The Second Chance Sarcophagus - As the ship Aniara descended towards the lush and green planet, the crew rejoiced. Or at least they would have if they hadn't all been dead. After thousands of millennia wandering through space, they had found a planet that was almost identical to Earth.
The planet's gravity was very strong, and the ship had become trapped in the planet's gravitational pull and started hurtling towards the surface.
One one-trillionth of a second after the Aniara crashed into the planet the mysterious spear-like probe on board finally awakened. A God-Like Power. In that one one-trillionth of a second the Aniara was scanned by the powerful probe and the events and lives of the crew had become known to it. At the same time, both the ship and the planet were saved by a force field of immense power. The ship was now resting safely on the surface of the lush, green planet. The probe had determined that the primitive life forms on board were worthy of a second chance at life and it was able to resurrect the entire crew and all the passengers from microscopic DNA that had been left. The Aniara was perfectly restored and even the Mima had been brought back. The crew and passengers awoke to find themselves in a veritable Garden of Eden, a paradise. Maybe this time things would go better and the mistakes from the past would not be repeated...
2023.06.10 06:22 AgileLeg8671 Is it possible to ask your primary care doctor for alcohol medication?
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2023.06.10 06:14 iluvadamdriver I’m seeing a lot of doctors currently, but do not have answers yet. Wondering if anyone here has any insight about what to expect or ideas about my current condition? I’m a 27F, 5’1, 115 lbs, no notable medical history except for what I’m about to type
Hi everyone. I have been dealing with mystery symptoms for about 7 years now and am curious if my story is similar to anyone’s here or if anyone can weigh in on what to expect with follow up testing. Over the course of these symptoms, they have gotten worse each year, with new symptoms, and I have been dealing with a daily ongoing “flare” possibly since February 1st.
Over the last 7 years, I experience very frequent cold or flu like symptoms (swollen painful glands, sore throat, congestion, dry cough, chest pain, headache, dull ear ache) that are never Covid, the flu or strep. The only thing to help those symptoms is either a lot of rest for days or a steroid taper.
Other symptoms that have come over the years that I have been dealing with daily for over 4 months: joint pain, neuropathy/burning/tingling/numbness in my hands and sometimes feet, hair loss, extreme fatigue, weakness, heavy limbs, stiffness and discomfort when I wake up and usually before bed, chronic daily hives, unexplained large bruises on legs only, petechiae from barely touching legs, rash on chest and sometimes face (not malar) that disappears quickly, scaly lesions that pop up on neck and scalp. I have also been treated for low iron, low hemoglobin and low ferritin with iron infusions since 2020.
The biopsy of my hives was inconclusive. The biopsy of one of the neck/scalp lesion showed seborrheic dermatitis, which I have never had before. I had a negative lip biopsy for Sjögrens.
All of my bloodwork and urine have been normal except for consistently low c3 and c4.
I have seen dermatology, hematology, infectious disease, a GI specialist, ENT, allergist and countless primary cares over the years. I am currently seeing a rheumatologist.
My rheum has ruled out all possible infections and vitamin deficiencies and I understood what she said to mean she believes the low complements to be caused by either an autoimmune disorder (despite negative ANA and ENA panels) or a deficiency of the immune system. I see an immunologist in 2 weeks. My rheumatologist wants to see me back in a month and a half for further testing.
What can I expect for monitoring with her moving forward? Is it still possible this is all autoimmune? Has anyone else gone through this before getting a diagnosis? Could my ANA still eventually be positive? What would the monitoring and follow up testing look like?
I do not have a history of any infections. I feel like all of my own research always comes back to Lupus, but I know there are a lot of other explanations out there. I am just concerned about going years without treatment if that is the case, as my life has drastically changed since February and my symptoms seem to get worse with time. I take Zyrtec daily and just started 15mg of Meloxicam prescribed by my rheum for the joint pain.
I also want to note that one infection we looked into was syphilis. I did not believe it to be syphilis and I do not have a history of STDs, nor have I ever had symptoms of syphilis. However, my PCR test was non reactive, my FTA-ABS was reactive, but then my TP-PA and rash biopsy were both non reactive. The infectious disease doctor believed it to be a false positive, but I felt that was worth mentioning.
Any advice or insight would be helpful. Thank you in advance!
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Over the last 7 years, I experience very frequent cold or flu like symptoms (swollen painful glands, sore throat, congestion, dry cough, chest pain, headache, dull ear ache) that are never Covid, the flu or strep. The only thing to help those symptoms is either a lot of rest for days or a steroid taper.
Other symptoms that have come over the years that I have been dealing with daily for over 4 months: joint pain, neuropathy/burning/tingling/numbness in my hands and sometimes feet, hair loss, extreme fatigue, weakness, heavy limbs, stiffness and discomfort when I wake up and usually before bed, chronic daily hives, unexplained large bruises on legs only, petechiae from barely touching legs, rash on chest and sometimes face (not malar) that disappears quickly, scaly lesions that pop up on neck and scalp. I have also been treated for low iron, low hemoglobin and low ferritin with iron infusions since 2020.
The biopsy of my hives was inconclusive. The biopsy of one of the neck/scalp lesion showed seborrheic dermatitis, which I have never had before. I had a negative lip biopsy for Sjögrens.
All of my bloodwork and urine have been normal except for consistently low c3 and c4.
I have seen dermatology, hematology, infectious disease, a GI specialist, ENT, allergist and countless primary cares over the years. I am currently seeing a rheumatologist.
My rheum has ruled out all possible infections and vitamin deficiencies and I understood what she said to mean she believes the low complements to be caused by either an autoimmune disorder (despite negative ANA and ENA panels) or a deficiency of the immune system. I see an immunologist in 2 weeks. My rheumatologist wants to see me back in a month and a half for further testing.
What can I expect for monitoring with her moving forward? Is it still possible this is all autoimmune? Has anyone else gone through this before getting a diagnosis? Could my ANA still eventually be positive? What would the monitoring and follow up testing look like?
I do not have a history of any infections. I feel like all of my own research always comes back to Lupus, but I know there are a lot of other explanations out there. I am just concerned about going years without treatment if that is the case, as my life has drastically changed since February and my symptoms seem to get worse with time. I take Zyrtec daily and just started 15mg of Meloxicam prescribed by my rheum for the joint pain.
I also want to note that one infection we looked into was syphilis. I did not believe it to be syphilis and I do not have a history of STDs, nor have I ever had symptoms of syphilis. However, my PCR test was non reactive, my FTA-ABS was reactive, but then my TP-PA and rash biopsy were both non reactive. The infectious disease doctor believed it to be a false positive, but I felt that was worth mentioning.
Any advice or insight would be helpful. Thank you in advance!
2023.06.10 06:12 Suinej Finally got in to cardiology
I’ve been having symptoms (dizziness when standing up, increased heart rate when standing up, palpitations, heat intolerance, pre-syncope, etc…) for about 25 years and they’ve recently been getting more frequent and more intense. Previous doctors chalked it up to anxiety and gave me anti anxiety medicine, which never helped.
My new primary care doctor thought it might be due to POTS and referred me to cardiology. I had a 2 week cardiac event monitor that showed I have occasional PVC’s that aren’t concerning in and of themselves. I’ve been tracking my symptoms for a few months, logging my blood pressure, catching the palpitations with my Apple Watch when I can, and even have data where I did the poor man’s tilt table a few times at home.
I brought all of this information plus a list of symptoms from the Cleveland Clinic’s website (where I have 16 out of the 21 highlighted) to the cardiology CNP. None of it mattered.
The intake nurse took my heart rate and blood pressure “laying down” on the exam table, then sitting up, then standing up. She didn’t do any period of rest before doing this, didn’t take into consideration that I’m on metoprolol, and my legs were hanging off the end of the table. My heart rate and blood pressure didn’t change much. The CNP came in and said that I didn’t “meet the criteria for POTS” because my blood pressure didn’t change, but she put in my chart that it’s likely “vasovagal etiology”. Which doesn’t make sense since that is indicated by a drop in blood pressure.
She also said in her 20 years of working in cardiology she has never ordered a tilt table test. She thinks they’re outdated, “torture”, and something older doctors use. She did, however, order one for me anyway since my primary care doctor and a different CNP had mentioned getting one done. She also ordered an echocardiogram just to make sure there’s nothing else going on with my heart. So, we’ll see.
Any helpful tips and/or information while I wait for testing?
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My new primary care doctor thought it might be due to POTS and referred me to cardiology. I had a 2 week cardiac event monitor that showed I have occasional PVC’s that aren’t concerning in and of themselves. I’ve been tracking my symptoms for a few months, logging my blood pressure, catching the palpitations with my Apple Watch when I can, and even have data where I did the poor man’s tilt table a few times at home.
I brought all of this information plus a list of symptoms from the Cleveland Clinic’s website (where I have 16 out of the 21 highlighted) to the cardiology CNP. None of it mattered.
The intake nurse took my heart rate and blood pressure “laying down” on the exam table, then sitting up, then standing up. She didn’t do any period of rest before doing this, didn’t take into consideration that I’m on metoprolol, and my legs were hanging off the end of the table. My heart rate and blood pressure didn’t change much. The CNP came in and said that I didn’t “meet the criteria for POTS” because my blood pressure didn’t change, but she put in my chart that it’s likely “vasovagal etiology”. Which doesn’t make sense since that is indicated by a drop in blood pressure.
She also said in her 20 years of working in cardiology she has never ordered a tilt table test. She thinks they’re outdated, “torture”, and something older doctors use. She did, however, order one for me anyway since my primary care doctor and a different CNP had mentioned getting one done. She also ordered an echocardiogram just to make sure there’s nothing else going on with my heart. So, we’ll see.
Any helpful tips and/or information while I wait for testing?
2023.06.10 06:09 iluvadamdriver I don’t have diagnosed lupus, but this sub has been so helpful and welcoming to me that I’m bringing this question here. Truly any comments or advice would be appreciated!
Edit to add: formatting and false Positive syphilis info
Hi everyone. I have been dealing with mystery symptoms for about 7 years now and am curious if my story is similar to anyone’s here or if anyone can weigh in on what to expect with follow up testing. Over the course of these symptoms, they have gotten worse each year, with new symptoms, and I have been dealing with a daily ongoing “flare” possibly since February 1st.
Over the last 7 years, I experience very frequent cold or flu like symptoms (swollen painful glands, sore throat, congestion, dry cough, chest pain, headache, dull ear ache) that are never Covid, the flu or strep. The only thing to help those symptoms is either a lot of rest for days or a steroid taper.
Other symptoms that have come over the years that I have been dealing with daily for over 4 months: joint pain, neuropathy/burning/tingling/numbness in my hands and sometimes feet, hair loss, extreme fatigue, weakness, heavy limbs, stiffness and discomfort when I wake up and usually before bed, chronic daily hives, unexplained large bruises on legs only, petechiae from barely touching legs, rash on chest and sometimes face (not malar) that disappears quickly, scaly lesions that pop up on neck and scalp. I have also been treated for low iron, low hemoglobin and low ferritin with iron infusions since 2020.
The biopsy of my hives was inconclusive. The biopsy of one of the neck/scalp lesion showed seborrheic dermatitis, which I have never had before. I had a negative lip biopsy for Sjögrens.
All of my bloodwork and urine have been normal except for consistently low c3 and c4.
I have seen dermatology, hematology, infectious disease, a GI specialist, ENT, allergist and countless primary cares over the years. I am currently seeing a rheumatologist. She has ruled out all possible infections and vitamin deficiencies and I understood what she said to mean she believes the low complements to be caused by either an autoimmune disorder (despite negative ANA and ENA panels) or a deficiency of the immune system.
I see an immunologist in 2 weeks. My rheumatologist wants to see me back in a month and a half for further testing.
What can I expect for monitoring with her moving forward? Is it still possible this is all autoimmune? Has anyone else gone through this before getting a diagnosis? Could my ANA still eventually be positive? What would the monitoring and follow up testing look like?
I do not have a history of any infections. I feel like all of my own research always comes back to Lupus, but I know there are a lot of other explanations out there. I am just concerned about going years without treatment if that is the case, as my life has drastically changed since February and my symptoms seem to get worse with time.
I take Zyrtec daily and just started 15mg of Meloxicam prescribed by my rheum for the joint pain.
I also want to note that one of the infections mt rheum looked into was syphilis. I did not believe it to be syphilis and I do not have a history of STDs, nor have I ever had symptoms of syphilis. However, my PCR test was non reactive, my FTA-ABS was reactive, but then my TP-PA and rash biopsy were both non reactive. The infectious disease doctor believed it to be a false positive, but I felt that was worth mentioning that I did at one point have a false positive for syphilis antibodies.
Any advice or insight would be helpful. Thank you in advance!
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Hi everyone. I have been dealing with mystery symptoms for about 7 years now and am curious if my story is similar to anyone’s here or if anyone can weigh in on what to expect with follow up testing. Over the course of these symptoms, they have gotten worse each year, with new symptoms, and I have been dealing with a daily ongoing “flare” possibly since February 1st.
Over the last 7 years, I experience very frequent cold or flu like symptoms (swollen painful glands, sore throat, congestion, dry cough, chest pain, headache, dull ear ache) that are never Covid, the flu or strep. The only thing to help those symptoms is either a lot of rest for days or a steroid taper.
Other symptoms that have come over the years that I have been dealing with daily for over 4 months: joint pain, neuropathy/burning/tingling/numbness in my hands and sometimes feet, hair loss, extreme fatigue, weakness, heavy limbs, stiffness and discomfort when I wake up and usually before bed, chronic daily hives, unexplained large bruises on legs only, petechiae from barely touching legs, rash on chest and sometimes face (not malar) that disappears quickly, scaly lesions that pop up on neck and scalp. I have also been treated for low iron, low hemoglobin and low ferritin with iron infusions since 2020.
The biopsy of my hives was inconclusive. The biopsy of one of the neck/scalp lesion showed seborrheic dermatitis, which I have never had before. I had a negative lip biopsy for Sjögrens.
All of my bloodwork and urine have been normal except for consistently low c3 and c4.
I have seen dermatology, hematology, infectious disease, a GI specialist, ENT, allergist and countless primary cares over the years. I am currently seeing a rheumatologist. She has ruled out all possible infections and vitamin deficiencies and I understood what she said to mean she believes the low complements to be caused by either an autoimmune disorder (despite negative ANA and ENA panels) or a deficiency of the immune system.
I see an immunologist in 2 weeks. My rheumatologist wants to see me back in a month and a half for further testing.
What can I expect for monitoring with her moving forward? Is it still possible this is all autoimmune? Has anyone else gone through this before getting a diagnosis? Could my ANA still eventually be positive? What would the monitoring and follow up testing look like?
I do not have a history of any infections. I feel like all of my own research always comes back to Lupus, but I know there are a lot of other explanations out there. I am just concerned about going years without treatment if that is the case, as my life has drastically changed since February and my symptoms seem to get worse with time.
I take Zyrtec daily and just started 15mg of Meloxicam prescribed by my rheum for the joint pain.
I also want to note that one of the infections mt rheum looked into was syphilis. I did not believe it to be syphilis and I do not have a history of STDs, nor have I ever had symptoms of syphilis. However, my PCR test was non reactive, my FTA-ABS was reactive, but then my TP-PA and rash biopsy were both non reactive. The infectious disease doctor believed it to be a false positive, but I felt that was worth mentioning that I did at one point have a false positive for syphilis antibodies.
Any advice or insight would be helpful. Thank you in advance!
2023.06.10 06:07 iluvadamdriver What to expect? And can anyone relate to these symptoms? I am lucky to have resources and a lot of doctors, but I’m feeling very defeated due to lack of answers/ongoing symptoms
Edit to add: formatting and false Positive syphilis info
Hi everyone. I have been dealing with mystery symptoms for about 7 years now and am curious if my story is similar to anyone’s here or if anyone can weigh in on what to expect with follow up testing. Over the course of these symptoms, they have gotten worse each year, with new symptoms, and I have been dealing with a daily ongoing “flare” possibly since February 1st.
Over the last 7 years, I experience very frequent cold or flu like symptoms (swollen painful glands, sore throat, congestion, dry cough, chest pain, headache, dull ear ache) that are never Covid, the flu or strep. The only thing to help those symptoms is either a lot of rest for days or a steroid taper.
Other symptoms that have come over the years that I have been dealing with daily for over 4 months: joint pain, neuropathy/burning/tingling/numbness in my hands and sometimes feet, hair loss, extreme fatigue, weakness, heavy limbs, stiffness and discomfort when I wake up and usually before bed, chronic daily hives, unexplained large bruises on legs only, petechiae from barely touching legs, rash on chest and sometimes face (not malar) that disappears quickly, scaly lesions that pop up on neck and scalp. I have also been treated for low iron, low hemoglobin and low ferritin with iron infusions since 2020.
The biopsy of my hives was inconclusive. The biopsy of one of the neck/scalp lesion showed seborrheic dermatitis, which I have never had before. I had a negative lip biopsy for Sjögrens.
All of my bloodwork and urine have been normal except for consistently low c3 and c4.
I have seen dermatology, hematology, infectious disease, a GI specialist, ENT, allergist and countless primary cares over the years. I am currently seeing a rheumatologist. She has ruled out all possible infections and vitamin deficiencies and I understood what she said to mean she believes the low complements to be caused by either an autoimmune disorder (despite negative ANA and ENA panels) or a deficiency of the immune system.
I see an immunologist in 2 weeks. My rheumatologist wants to see me back in a month and a half for further testing.
What can I expect for monitoring with her moving forward? Is it still possible this is all autoimmune? Has anyone else gone through this before getting a diagnosis? Could my ANA still eventually be positive? What would the monitoring and follow up testing look like?
I do not have a history of any infections. I feel like all of my own research always comes back to Lupus, but I know there are a lot of other explanations out there. I am just concerned about going years without treatment if that is the case, as my life has drastically changed since February and my symptoms seem to get worse with time.
I take Zyrtec daily and just started 15mg of Meloxicam prescribed by my rheum for the joint pain.
I also want to note that one of the infections mt rheum looked into was syphilis. I did not believe it to be syphilis and I do not have a history of STDs, nor have I ever had symptoms of syphilis. However, my PCR test was non reactive, my FTA-ABS was reactive, but then my TP-PA and rash biopsy were both non reactive. The infectious disease doctor believed it to be a false positive, but I felt that was worth mentioning that I did at one point have a false positive for syphilis antibodies.
Any advice or insight would be helpful. Thank you in advance!
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Hi everyone. I have been dealing with mystery symptoms for about 7 years now and am curious if my story is similar to anyone’s here or if anyone can weigh in on what to expect with follow up testing. Over the course of these symptoms, they have gotten worse each year, with new symptoms, and I have been dealing with a daily ongoing “flare” possibly since February 1st.
Over the last 7 years, I experience very frequent cold or flu like symptoms (swollen painful glands, sore throat, congestion, dry cough, chest pain, headache, dull ear ache) that are never Covid, the flu or strep. The only thing to help those symptoms is either a lot of rest for days or a steroid taper.
Other symptoms that have come over the years that I have been dealing with daily for over 4 months: joint pain, neuropathy/burning/tingling/numbness in my hands and sometimes feet, hair loss, extreme fatigue, weakness, heavy limbs, stiffness and discomfort when I wake up and usually before bed, chronic daily hives, unexplained large bruises on legs only, petechiae from barely touching legs, rash on chest and sometimes face (not malar) that disappears quickly, scaly lesions that pop up on neck and scalp. I have also been treated for low iron, low hemoglobin and low ferritin with iron infusions since 2020.
The biopsy of my hives was inconclusive. The biopsy of one of the neck/scalp lesion showed seborrheic dermatitis, which I have never had before. I had a negative lip biopsy for Sjögrens.
All of my bloodwork and urine have been normal except for consistently low c3 and c4.
I have seen dermatology, hematology, infectious disease, a GI specialist, ENT, allergist and countless primary cares over the years. I am currently seeing a rheumatologist. She has ruled out all possible infections and vitamin deficiencies and I understood what she said to mean she believes the low complements to be caused by either an autoimmune disorder (despite negative ANA and ENA panels) or a deficiency of the immune system.
I see an immunologist in 2 weeks. My rheumatologist wants to see me back in a month and a half for further testing.
What can I expect for monitoring with her moving forward? Is it still possible this is all autoimmune? Has anyone else gone through this before getting a diagnosis? Could my ANA still eventually be positive? What would the monitoring and follow up testing look like?
I do not have a history of any infections. I feel like all of my own research always comes back to Lupus, but I know there are a lot of other explanations out there. I am just concerned about going years without treatment if that is the case, as my life has drastically changed since February and my symptoms seem to get worse with time.
I take Zyrtec daily and just started 15mg of Meloxicam prescribed by my rheum for the joint pain.
I also want to note that one of the infections mt rheum looked into was syphilis. I did not believe it to be syphilis and I do not have a history of STDs, nor have I ever had symptoms of syphilis. However, my PCR test was non reactive, my FTA-ABS was reactive, but then my TP-PA and rash biopsy were both non reactive. The infectious disease doctor believed it to be a false positive, but I felt that was worth mentioning that I did at one point have a false positive for syphilis antibodies.
Any advice or insight would be helpful. Thank you in advance!
2023.06.10 05:45 sookie_stacks Advice needed - 3days diarrhea, now blood
Hello-
Have a vet appt tmw at 8 am but need advice while I stress out. 60 lb out mix male neutered dog. History of frequent anal gland expressions, in hydrolyzed diet due to gut sensitivity. Timeline of events
Sunday: 2 p.m, noticed licking at butt. Made mental note to call Vet on Monday and schedule anal gland expression. Dog gets these regularly (every 1-2 months).
Sunday: 4 p.m. shaking, yelping, lethargic. Take to Vet ER. sedate, do rectal exam. Nothing found except one full gland. Discharged.
Sunday night- Monday morning: dog extremely restless, not coming out of sedation well, bad night of sleep
Monday morning: dog guarding rear, tail tucked, take back to ER. Sedated and checked. Told either inflammation or muscle strain. Prescribed carprofen and gaba.
Monday evening: finally returning to normal. Primary vet check up scheduled for following Monday.
Tuesday: doing well, no concerns.
Wednesday: last morning of regular stool. Noticed liquid (no solid at all) diarrhea starting in afternoon. Appetite normal. Took off carprofen per primary vet, still on gaba and added probiotic and omeprazole per vet.
Continued Diarrhea, still not one bit of solid stool and multiple accidents in home overnight wed-today. Moved up primary vet check up to 8am tmw. More lethargic, clearly just not feeling well. Evening meal- did not finish all food, less energetic, etc.
30 min ago: accident in home. Blood in “stool” aka liquid. Called ER, told use my judgement but can wait till primary care in morning.
Was something missed? Should my primary care have pushed to see dog sooner? I’m the one that moved it tomorrow instead of waiting Monday.
Advice/reassurance appreciated.
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Have a vet appt tmw at 8 am but need advice while I stress out. 60 lb out mix male neutered dog. History of frequent anal gland expressions, in hydrolyzed diet due to gut sensitivity. Timeline of events
Sunday: 2 p.m, noticed licking at butt. Made mental note to call Vet on Monday and schedule anal gland expression. Dog gets these regularly (every 1-2 months).
Sunday: 4 p.m. shaking, yelping, lethargic. Take to Vet ER. sedate, do rectal exam. Nothing found except one full gland. Discharged.
Sunday night- Monday morning: dog extremely restless, not coming out of sedation well, bad night of sleep
Monday morning: dog guarding rear, tail tucked, take back to ER. Sedated and checked. Told either inflammation or muscle strain. Prescribed carprofen and gaba.
Monday evening: finally returning to normal. Primary vet check up scheduled for following Monday.
Tuesday: doing well, no concerns.
Wednesday: last morning of regular stool. Noticed liquid (no solid at all) diarrhea starting in afternoon. Appetite normal. Took off carprofen per primary vet, still on gaba and added probiotic and omeprazole per vet.
Continued Diarrhea, still not one bit of solid stool and multiple accidents in home overnight wed-today. Moved up primary vet check up to 8am tmw. More lethargic, clearly just not feeling well. Evening meal- did not finish all food, less energetic, etc.
30 min ago: accident in home. Blood in “stool” aka liquid. Called ER, told use my judgement but can wait till primary care in morning.
Was something missed? Should my primary care have pushed to see dog sooner? I’m the one that moved it tomorrow instead of waiting Monday.
Advice/reassurance appreciated.
2023.06.10 05:41 jmamen Primary Care Doc
We are looking for a new primary care doc in Wichita. We are a little bit “crunchy”, so we prefer western medicine with a more holistic approach. Basically someone who is not going to push prescriptions as the first and only solution, but know when it is appropriate to bring in.
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2023.06.10 05:32 eddieEXTRA Natural Gas Rates are through the roof!
Today I saved a cremation center in Oakland, CA 40% ($508k over 5 years) by pitting local energy suppliers against each other in a bidding war. They were paying nearly $40k per month! Cremation is one of the highest consumers of natural gas, you take care of humanities loved ones, and deserve better rates—which is why I want to help you.
Here’s what do:
Have a great weekend! :)
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Here’s what do:
- I don’t work for an energy company, so I’m unbiased when selecting who will get you the best rate.
- Once a bill is entered into our reverse auction system, the bigging frenzy takes a week to find out your savings and nothing changes to your bill except a new lower rate.
- Deregulation law is your right (Google if you're in a state with deregulated energy)—so if you don’t have a competitive and stable rate, you’re losing money daily.
- There won’t be any hidden fees or rate spikes during your agreement—all that’s required is a bill, I will never ask for personal or payment info.
Have a great weekend! :)
2023.06.10 05:25 my_dad_is_an_ad Summary of some current issues with Barbarian class
There's a lot of conversations about which classes are powerful, tiers, etc. This isn't about that. These are a few personal observations about where the design of the class seems to contradict itself, or provides few/no options to players. These could probably be improved.
7 reasons weapon swapping is in a bad place
Some problems with core skills
Rupture is ineffective because there is no way to scale bleed duration; any moment that could be used to apply rupture could be used to stack more bleeds, and the maximum bleed duration is 5 seconds; all of them tick at the same time. There's no reason to use it unless you're invested in either the explosion or a 4 second attack speed buff. If the buff were longer based on number of bleeds, it might be worth it. If we could scale bleed duration, it would definitely be worth it. It's also weird that the class has an extra skill for removing bleeds. It seems very odd. It's also a bit weird to not see a bludgeoning weapon based skill in the weapon mastery tier which applies daze and vulnerable or something. Like some kind of armor crush.
Keystone passives
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7 reasons weapon swapping is in a bad place
- In its basic form, it provides no inherent value. There is no incentive to swap weapons.
- Ideally, each attack uses the player's most powerful weapon. Some skills have weapon type restrictions (bludgeoning/slashing).
- There are no aspects interacting with this system directly (e.g. "1h slashing also counts as bludgeoning").
- Building around weapon swapping (Walking Arsenal) requires very stable gear (high level), you can't really rely on multiple weapons being similar in power when you frequently change them.
- This system works against weapon expertise since we can only have one weapon expertise enabled, which can only apply to one weapon.
- Further, almost all builds can only fit 2 direct damage skills into their build, as barb relies heavily on self-buffs to survive and deal damage. Swapping requires at least 3, with one of the 3 allowing the opposite type of the other two (slashing vs. bludgeoning).
- Finally, the only basic skill which is in a good place is Lunging Strike, since barbs have such a high demand for mobility (melee), and low availability of mobility (long cooldowns without large investment).
- Everyone uses lunging strike because the class does not function without its mobility
- Frenzy's attack speed buff is so short it can't actually be used as an off-skill for the buff. Since lucky hit is normalized to the increased speed, it actually doesn't even really benefit much from its own attack speed mechanic, instead making it a basic skill which requires time to ramp, which is very strange.
- Bash is designed around stuns, which has extremely low/no impact on gameplay. Stun is a defensive mechanic, and it generally only affects a small number of enemies at once, for a very short time (or merely increases the boss's stagger). Investing is a waste outside of (maybe) equal level PvP, or some kind of exotic stun-support build for extremely specialized groups of players.
Some problems with core skills
- The class seems designed so that it should only use one core skill. That's fine, but some of the core skills don't stand up to different types of content well.
- Rend has a very small and difficult to target AoE; when surrounded by enemies, it's often the case that name locking (skills centering their targeting not where you click on PC, but on the nearest enemy to your cursor) cause the skill to miss or be inaccurate. If skills centered their targeting on your cursor instead of an enemy near your cursor, it would probably be a lot better for players on PC.
- Upheaval seems like it's mostly useful in the overworld or for some large groups of small enemies. Maybe it needs to be improved for when you use it to hit just one enemy.
- Double swing is surprisingly small range, and requires dual wield (two weapons). Finding two good weapons is a lot harder than finding one good two-hander. The benefits it provides are all either relatively insignificant, or easier to achieve elsewhere due to the conditions placed on them.
- We get ~3 slots for utility skills. This is because lunging strike, a core skill, and an ultimate skill are more or less required. Shouts and defensives dominate this part of the bar, because we must generate resources, and survive, and mostly, shouts provide those things.
- Too much of iron skin's power is provided by aspects, making it a worse choice than e.g. challenging shout. Also, Temerity is such a strong unique that iron skin is an unjustifiable investment.
- Ground stomp is an aoe stun. Stuns generally aren't very useful outside of equal-level PvP. The aspects related to ground stomp provide additional damage for it, but unfortunately they're the variety of aspect which changes based on the item power of the item it was taken from. This makes it more difficult to rely on as a primary source of power. The walking arsenal aspect for it is interesting, but a very hard sell with a 30 second timer. Even rank ~13 ground stomp is relatively unimpressive, and again mostly useless against bosses.
- Kick is almost good with power kick, except it still doesn't count as a core skill, so it doesn't synergize with any of your keystones, and it locks out your fury for spending on cores. Also, even with those downsides, it still has two charges and a big cooldown. Even without going power kick, the button isn't worth pressing - generally knockbacks are counterproductive to Barb (and other class's) damage. We prefer vacuum. Knockdown is effectively stun, so it's not worth much in PvE. Maybe this skill is okay in equal-level PvP.
- I think many people want Leap to be good. With lunging strike, the mobility is mostly redundant/unnecessary. If we didn't have lunging strike, the cooldown would be too long on Leap to make it work, really, without a ton of investment. It seems weird to need to invest a lot just to be able to engage your enemies. Some of the aspects read okay for it, but ultimately the dps and utility on this skill are not useful. With the right investment, it's good for resource generation. That seems like the best reason to run it today, which has nothing to do with what makes leap, well, leap.
- Charge is problematic for all the reasons leap and ground stomp are problematic. Honestly, if all three of these skills vacuumed at the end (end of charge, end of leap, before or after ground stomp), they would be wildly more usable. Similarly, if the earthquake aspects related to them could be applied to items without worrying about what item power the aspect came from, it would be a lot more usable. Maybe at level 100 fully investing in these mechanics could work, but it seems unlikely given how they behave today.
- Steel grasp, even with the unique, doesn't really fulfill the expectations set by its description. I don't see much of a reason to use it outside of pvp.
Rupture is ineffective because there is no way to scale bleed duration; any moment that could be used to apply rupture could be used to stack more bleeds, and the maximum bleed duration is 5 seconds; all of them tick at the same time. There's no reason to use it unless you're invested in either the explosion or a 4 second attack speed buff. If the buff were longer based on number of bleeds, it might be worth it. If we could scale bleed duration, it would definitely be worth it. It's also weird that the class has an extra skill for removing bleeds. It seems very odd. It's also a bit weird to not see a bludgeoning weapon based skill in the weapon mastery tier which applies daze and vulnerable or something. Like some kind of armor crush.
Keystone passives
- The walking arsenal keystone..I really don't know what's going on with that design direction but it needs a rework, badly.
- Unconstrained...again, this one feels a bit uncreative. Why do we care if berserking is longer? Our build will either apply it consistently, so duration doesn't matter, or it won't. It's trivial to get nearly 100% uptime on berserking if you want it, and it's honestly not even that great to begin with.
- Gushing Wounds bleed keystone requires crit and crit damage investment, which seems fine, but is only achievable in later tiers of gear; would be nice if this was more effective earlier on
- Unbridled Rage is the bread and butter for most players. It works because of how generic it is - you always have to have a core skill, and it turns up the damage and resource costs. It's boring, but effective. One major problem is that because this keystone exists and is strong, any build which doesn't rely on a core skill for damage is immediately a bit of a joke. E.g. even if you wanted to use all brawling skills, you'd have a hard time getting much value out of any of the existing keystone passives.
2023.06.10 05:25 coolgal20 Help me (potential bowel infection, Metronidazole/flagyl, pain; rifaximin)
Hello everyone, Today, I (female, 35 years old) went to the emergency room due to severe abdominal distension and a throbbing pain on the lower left side that had persisted for the past five days. A few months ago, I tested positive for hydrogen. During my hospital visit, my blood levels showed high inflammatory markers, leading the docs to suspect a bowel infection. They prescribed me Metronidazole for treatment. Due to concerns from all of you, I expressed my reluctance to take the medication, as I didn't want to temporarily resolve one issue only to face another problem later. The doctor advised me to take the prescription, consider it, and consult my primary care physician for further advice. He also kind of made a threat that my condition could worsen if I don’t take it and that it’s all really a gamble. He said that it was not broad spectrum and would only stay in my bowel. I also questioned how the doctor arrived at the diagnosis of a bowel infection without conducting any specific tests, to which he responded that it was based on my pain location and symptoms.
Now, I'm wondering how I can recover without taking Metronidazole. The Facebook Rifaximin dude said he could get it to me within three days. I'm curious if Rifaximin would be effective against a potential bowel infection. I also asked the doctor about the risks associated with treating a possible infection without a confirmed diagnosis, and he explained that in emergency situations, the priority is to do what appears to be the most likely treatment to prevent any life-threatening complications.
I also asked the doctor about potential issues with my gallbladder, liver kidney or a pancreas function due to fat malabsorption and issues with my stool and he said that none of those organs have anything to do with fat malabsorption?? so I really question everything he said. I will bring these things up with my primary care physician.
I'm so worried about the prospect of the IV medication wearing off by morning- it was SO PAINFUL. I would greatly appreciate any guidance or advice you can offer to help me make an informed decision. Thank you.
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Now, I'm wondering how I can recover without taking Metronidazole. The Facebook Rifaximin dude said he could get it to me within three days. I'm curious if Rifaximin would be effective against a potential bowel infection. I also asked the doctor about the risks associated with treating a possible infection without a confirmed diagnosis, and he explained that in emergency situations, the priority is to do what appears to be the most likely treatment to prevent any life-threatening complications.
I also asked the doctor about potential issues with my gallbladder, liver kidney or a pancreas function due to fat malabsorption and issues with my stool and he said that none of those organs have anything to do with fat malabsorption?? so I really question everything he said. I will bring these things up with my primary care physician.
I'm so worried about the prospect of the IV medication wearing off by morning- it was SO PAINFUL. I would greatly appreciate any guidance or advice you can offer to help me make an informed decision. Thank you.
2023.06.10 05:24 knesha Restructurarea sistemului de educatie
Salut tuturor, cu ocazia situatiei actuale m-am gandit ca ar fi bine daca am face si o restructurare a sistemului de educatie. Sistemul pe care il avem este invechit si nu mai corespunde timpurilor in care ne aflam. De aceea m-am gandit cum ar arata un sistem modern de educatie in care se pune accentul pe ceea ce este important.
Hai sa nu ne mai mintim: In afara de medic, avocat, inginer si programator nimic nu mai are un salariu decent. Este clar ca acestea sunt slujbele viitorului. Problema este ca sistemul de invatamant nu pregateste copii pentru aceasta lume. De aceea propun eliminarea a oricarui materii care nu are legatura cu aceste patru domenii !
Ma gndesc din clasa a cincea SA SE SCOATA TOATE MATERIILE inafara de: biologie, matematica, chimie, fizica si sa se mai introduca: programare, medicina, avocatura si inginerie. Si atat !
Restul disciplinelor se pot invata de fiecare elev in timpul liber daca acesta doreste, ele nereprezentand o importanta. Cine vrea sa invete istorie, geografie, desen, muzica, etc este liber sa o faca pe cont propiu. La fel cu limbile straine.
Bineinteles nu sunt expert in educatie, mi-am dat o ideie si sunt deschis la feed-back, constructiv daca se poate, si astept parerile voastre. Asta nu reprezita decat o observare a lumii in care traim si observatiea mea. Multumesc.
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Hai sa nu ne mai mintim: In afara de medic, avocat, inginer si programator nimic nu mai are un salariu decent. Este clar ca acestea sunt slujbele viitorului. Problema este ca sistemul de invatamant nu pregateste copii pentru aceasta lume. De aceea propun eliminarea a oricarui materii care nu are legatura cu aceste patru domenii !
Ma gndesc din clasa a cincea SA SE SCOATA TOATE MATERIILE inafara de: biologie, matematica, chimie, fizica si sa se mai introduca: programare, medicina, avocatura si inginerie. Si atat !
Restul disciplinelor se pot invata de fiecare elev in timpul liber daca acesta doreste, ele nereprezentand o importanta. Cine vrea sa invete istorie, geografie, desen, muzica, etc este liber sa o faca pe cont propiu. La fel cu limbile straine.
Bineinteles nu sunt expert in educatie, mi-am dat o ideie si sunt deschis la feed-back, constructiv daca se poate, si astept parerile voastre. Asta nu reprezita decat o observare a lumii in care traim si observatiea mea. Multumesc.
2023.06.10 05:21 TheDarkstarChimaera Thief in the June 27 Balance Patch
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I'm Iskarel. I maintain the PvE Thief builds and guides on Snow Crows
With a PvE perspective, I'm going to run through the changes, discuss their impact, and talk about current meta builds and how they're impacted.
Want the build-by-build cliff notes? Skip to the bottom, search for "tl;dr"
I know this is a lot. Think of it as a reference document.
A LOT has changed. The builds aren't unrecognizable but the texture has changed almost across the board.
Ever used a build with Thief runes? Just don't stand directly in front of the target.
What fewer players will know is that there's a small set of skills that actually need you to be ~180-degrees behind your target.
Which way does Sabetha face during her Flame Wall?
I'm not going to answer these questions because the answers don't matter anymore! This skill expression is now gone.
Just backstab from any angle.
Ah but "defiant foes"? What isn't included there?
Can you backstab Primordus in the Harvest Temple strike if your group stays on the left vs right side, when looking from the center towards the dragon?
BTW Drakkar is made up 17 prop pieces, and you can only cast Deadeye's Mark on one of them. Don't play Deadeye here, you're trolling yourself. :D
Yeah this ain't it, chief. This is still a defensive and mobility-oriented traitline.
The damage modifier in Endless Stamina can't compete with Deadly Arts or Critical Strikes, even when combined with the Power in Swinder's Equilibrium.
The other stuff is maybe interesting for solo open world champions but Shadow Arts is already quite capable at that, and Condition Thief has a lot more toys to work with when solo compared to Power.
It's something but this traitline still feels ironically directionless.
The coefficient we have on the wiki, drawn from the Game's API, is 4.10. ANet lists a 1.50 (per hit, so 4.50 total) nerfed to 0.70. So... Uh...
Let's say Throw Magnetic Bomb's damage is nerfed to 50% of its current damage. Or there about.
So next patch, one Throw Magnetic Bomb is close to the damage of one Staff 2, but the damage comes out over time (during our Assassin Signet burst) and the cast animation is faster than Staff 2.
This damage increase is valuable because
This increase the DPS of the first and second part of the chain well beyond the last hit.
The optimal DPS rotation now involves interrupting the chain after the 2nd hit.
That's not easy to do on most professions, which have a limited number of viable interrupts, but we're Thief, baby!
Staff Strike, Staff Bash, Weakening Charge. Repeat. Throw in a Fist Flurry. Save your Palm Strike. Yeah. This sort of thing.
Calculations done by REMagic42 ( training-accident-36 ) show the following
You could just not do this. That's up to you. The build is getting buffed by ~4,000 DPS next patch but it still has all the old problems. Don't know those? Read here
Left, a great player who provides benchmarks for Power and Condition Daredevil, already tested Condition Daredevil with cooldown-traited Impairing Daggers and found them simply worse in group content vs Devourer Venom. You can read more on his benchmark.
So the Impairing Daggers cooldown reduction (CDR) doesn't matter to us.
A cooldown reduction for Channeled Vigor would've been cool!
I'm going to go out on a limb here and assume that the damage of Detonate Plasma will not be worth its cast time purely from a DPS perspective, especially on a Condition Build, but you might still get some boon uptime from Daredevils on fights like Matthias and Twin Largos' Kenut.
You can now permanently sunset your Celestial/Ritualist gear for Boon Thief. Will you use it for Alacrity Specter later? I don't now, I don't know how much Alacrity is given by that trait. We'll talk more later. :)
This is NOT Unstable Artifact BTW. That skill is still worth using for both Power and Condition DPS.
Cursed Artifact is like throw-Plaguelands, and an Ethereal field at that. It's free real estate on the Condition Build.
Time in a Bottle is squad-wide alacrity AND quickness. Take that, Chronomancer! It's only found in Cold War and randomly in EoD strikes. :)
Firstly, this increases the damage dealt by the lower difficulty Be Quick or Be Killed Dagger Deadeye rotation (if you've ever heard someone described Dagger Deadeye as 5111151115111, that's this).
I assume what this means is that if you do NOT have a marked target, you can cast a cantrip to get a new F2. That's cool and rather handy for the new Quickness build.
That problem is now eliminated for Power. You don't need to know the timing, you don't need to know where to throw Shadow Flare. Just Do your backstab, cast Shadow Flare for one damage packet, cast it again, go for another Backstab. No fuss, no skill expression, no frustration, no learning curve.
I don't like this change, I understand why other people like this change. I think it's dumb to change this. If you don't like self-reveal, consider not playing the class that uses Stealth and Revealed for its DPS output.
This is a nice perk. The important thing is that this trait gives us an extra F2 charge every time we use a Stolen Skill...That's for Quickness.
This trait is also valuable to Condition Deadeye builds (particularly since there's a 4/9 chance they get a stolen skill that applies damaging conditions!) and to Power Pistol-Pistol Deadeye. See more of that here.
It's lower cooldown on boonstrip which is neat? Matches No Pain No Gain time in Fractals, I suppose.
Just use a Power Mesmer, they passively breathe boonstrip.
Oops! All cantrips
Well, what if we don't have to generate Might?
Then we have two options:
3 cantrips with no Improvisation
Stealth attacks? Naw, just spam F2s without Malice.
"Filler" initiative skills used to build up to an Initiative reset at max Malice? Nope, don't care, whatever has the best initiative-to-damage ratio is what we're running.
Thief Dagger is about matched with Thief sword for auto attack damage but Dagger is home to the centralizing Cloak & Dagger → Backstab combo. This does huge damage from any direction—flanking is gone!
Sword, by contrast, suffers a DPS loss when using any dual wield skill, Headshot, or Black Powder. The only DPS gain skills are Cloak & Dagger (but the stealth attack for sword is BARELY worth using, you could actually just cast Cloak & Dagger twice in a row and do just as well), and Sword 2...without using the return-to shadowstep. Meaning Sword 2 has a 15-second cooldown. Just to do slightly more than the auto-attack.
Need CC? Pack an off-hand pistol and fill time with auto-attacks, they're very good.
What about Pistol?
Ally-targeting is clunky.
Single-target support is nonviable. We have encounters that apply arena damage to all players, and each player in the squad can take damage from the same AoE and it's the healer's job to keep the whole team up.
A "lesser effect". Reduced duration? Great, what's the point of that? You might as well just make it all the reduced duration.
Does "splashed" Shadow Sap not even grant protection to the other allies? Great, we won't use it.
Hopefully this will just be something like reduced Barrier or Healing, and the Boons are intact, but it's already been confirmed by the new member of the design team, Trig, on a Twitch Stream (Mighty Teapot's?) that Endless Night will not give Quickness to "splashed" allies.
Maybe this skill shouldn't give quickness at all. Why is the design team not skill splitting? What are they afraid of?
This rotation was initially theorycrafted by Left when Specter was first showed off. I did some early proof-of-concept on the build, then Left took it over and improved it to around 51,000 DPS.
That's a lot of damage!
Watch that video briefly, and notice how I swap between the enemy and my allies, applying one skill to the target then the Endless Night beam to my allies.
When Specter applies barrier to an ally, they receive a stack of Rotwallow Venom, which applies a short-duration stack of torment to a single enemy just like normal venoms.
Each cast of Endless Night back then was 21 applications of Rotwallow Venom, with more Torment duration than we have now.
ANet killed that build back during beta by making the beam target a single enemy, nerfing the quickness application, nerfing Rotwallow Venom duration, nerfing Specter's Torment damage modifier, nerfing Consume Shadows to require charging up.... The list goes on.
Why do I bring this up?
Yes.
The auto-attack chain will be twice as strong when targeting allies, vs targeting the enemy.
Endless Night is not worth using against an enemy target, but it might be worth using on allies. This rotation won't have room for auto attacks, so I'm not pinning any hopes to this.
No, the optimal damage rotation will probably be Twilight combo, Siphon, and Shroud skills on the enemy, then filling time with Scepter skills on allies. We will probably spend less time in Shroud because those autos are just so cracked...
Perfect?
We don't know. And now it's DPS is very closely tied to the DPS build because they're doing nearly the exact same thing.
This has never happened to Firebrand, trust me.
Buffed to 40.2 if you do the new degenerate 1a 1b 2 1a 1b 2 rotation that interrupts our auto chain.
Still screwed by all the usual stuff.
Mag Bomb damage normalized. Cool. Still amazing utility on that skill.
No need to flank with Premeditation Rifle is nice. Swapping Impact to an Accuracy sigil (or not doing that, and losing crit chance) was ~1,200 DPS loss, so that's avoided. I don't mind losing flanking here that much because Flanking wasn't make-or-break adrenaline pumping like dagger. It was just a boring loss.
It will play okay, but pretttttttttty similar to utility-spam builds that people hate, with the added bonus of casting TWO skills for every application of quickness.
You can tune this to your liking BUT
One of us. One of us!
This is getting no changes, by the way. It'd be a huge amount of effort from the studio's programmers for one elite spec, for one profession, largely in one game mode (instanced PvE), with a small player base.
Probably just not happening. Not a question of "want to", it's a question of resource management AND doing this right.
Remember stealth-tanking Old Lion's Court? Because they didn't apply Revealed, then they only applied Revealed once and Deadeye just Shadow Melded out of it?
You can still run Consume Shadows for team healing/barrier.
Will it run Consume Shadows? Not for optimal damage anymore.
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I'm Iskarel. I maintain the PvE Thief builds and guides on Snow Crows
With a PvE perspective, I'm going to run through the changes, discuss their impact, and talk about current meta builds and how they're impacted.
Want the build-by-build cliff notes? Skip to the bottom, search for "tl;dr"
I know this is a lot. Think of it as a reference document.
A LOT has changed. The builds aren't unrecognizable but the texture has changed almost across the board.
Flanking is Dead (for most endgame bosse)
To make them more reliable in endgame PvE content, all effects that benefit when the player strikes from the flank or from behind now always apply their benefits when striking defiant foes.Not all players know that "flanking" or "from behind or the sides" just means—don't be in front of the target.
Ever used a build with Thief runes? Just don't stand directly in front of the target.
What fewer players will know is that there's a small set of skills that actually need you to be ~180-degrees behind your target.
- Thief Backstab (deals double damage from behind)
- Thief Sword Stealth Attack (only dazes from behind)
- Ranger Greatsword Hilt (dazes from the front, stuns from behind. This basically doesn't matter in PvE)
- Mesmer Downstate phantasm (deals more damage if the phantasm hits from behind. Hey it's like a Thief!)
Which way does Sabetha face during her Flame Wall?
I'm not going to answer these questions because the answers don't matter anymore! This skill expression is now gone.
Just backstab from any angle.
Ah but "defiant foes"? What isn't included there?
Can you backstab Primordus in the Harvest Temple strike if your group stays on the left vs right side, when looking from the center towards the dragon?
You would have to be on the right side. The left is the dragon's face.Which way does Conjured Amalgamate face?
When approaching CA's platform, it is facing to your right. This also applies to the hands. Stand on the left side of the platform, and "above" the hands (closer to the portal leading away from this encounter).Which way do the hands on Adina face?
2 o'clock (north), 5 o'clock (northwest), 7 o'clock (south), 10 o'clock (southeast)These are non-defiant "prop" type enemies. Also included here is Drakkar, the Octovine, and Tequatl. IIRC.
No, I don't know why.
Just use your rifle and pierce two hands with Spotter's Shot + Death's Judgment! That's better than remembering these facing positions.
BTW Drakkar is made up 17 prop pieces, and you can only cast Deadeye's Mark on one of them. Don't play Deadeye here, you're trolling yourself. :D
Acrobatics Mental Gymnastics
Yeah this ain't it, chief. This is still a defensive and mobility-oriented traitline.The damage modifier in Endless Stamina can't compete with Deadly Arts or Critical Strikes, even when combined with the Power in Swinder's Equilibrium.
The other stuff is maybe interesting for solo open world champions but Shadow Arts is already quite capable at that, and Condition Thief has a lot more toys to work with when solo compared to Power.
It's something but this traitline still feels ironically directionless.
Improvisational Theater of War
Improvisation: This trait now reduces the cooldowns of all utility skills by a certain percentage when you steal, instead of recharging a random skill.Interesting! We can now use this trait predictably, resetting the cooldown of all our utility skills. On the surface that's good because it means we'll always get value out of the reset...unless our skill uses are staggered. More on that later.
Previously: this trait would randomly reset one of your utility skills, with a cooldown on the effect. If it chose a skill already on cooldown, it would have no effect. It could not reset the cooldown of an un-triggered but prepared Preparation.
Mag Bomb Delenda Est.
Currently this skill's damage-per-cast-time is roughly double that of Daredevil Staff 2, Weakening Charge. Notably, the cast time is short because it pulses damage.The coefficient we have on the wiki, drawn from the Game's API, is 4.10. ANet lists a 1.50 (per hit, so 4.50 total) nerfed to 0.70. So... Uh...
Let's say Throw Magnetic Bomb's damage is nerfed to 50% of its current damage. Or there about.
So next patch, one Throw Magnetic Bomb is close to the damage of one Staff 2, but the damage comes out over time (during our Assassin Signet burst) and the cast animation is faster than Staff 2.
But is it worth losing Executioner?
Probably not. Executioner is approximately 9.52% damage on a fight that spends 50% of its time above 50% target HP and 50% of time below (due to Ferocious Strikes).
That's a lot of damage to be made up by another use of a stolen skill!
Daredevil's Bound to be Good
Bound: Increased power coefficient from 1.75 to 3.5This ratchets up the damage of our dodge so that it beats the damage-per-cast-time of Punishing Strikes (skill 1 part C) and Staff 5, while still losing to Staff Strike and Staff Bash (skill 1 parts A/B), Staff 2, and Fist Flurry/Palm Strike.
This damage increase is valuable because
- (A) it makes dodging better for damage, on top of the damage modifiers provided by Havoc Specialist and Bounding Dodger
- (B) if we get excess endurance from our helpful allies, burning it off to maintain our modifiers hurts our DPS less on the future patch.
Auto chain go brrrr
Staff Strike, Staff Bash: Increased power coefficient.... Uh oh.
This increase the DPS of the first and second part of the chain well beyond the last hit.
The optimal DPS rotation now involves interrupting the chain after the 2nd hit.
That's not easy to do on most professions, which have a limited number of viable interrupts, but we're Thief, baby!
Staff Strike, Staff Bash, Weakening Charge. Repeat. Throw in a Fist Flurry. Save your Palm Strike. Yeah. This sort of thing.
Calculations done by REMagic42 ( training-accident-36 ) show the following
- new auto chain interrupt rotation: 40,252
- old benchmark rotation: 38,593
You could just not do this. That's up to you. The build is getting buffed by ~4,000 DPS next patch but it still has all the old problems. Don't know those? Read here
Let's Get Physical (Lights out, follow the noise)
Various Physical Skill cooldown reductionsThese are neat and strictly a positive.
Left, a great player who provides benchmarks for Power and Condition Daredevil, already tested Condition Daredevil with cooldown-traited Impairing Daggers and found them simply worse in group content vs Devourer Venom. You can read more on his benchmark.
So the Impairing Daggers cooldown reduction (CDR) doesn't matter to us.
A cooldown reduction for Channeled Vigor would've been cool!
This skill basically gives you a get-out-of-jail-free dodge if you're ever scared that burning all your dodges for Havoc Specialist will leave you vulnerable. You can get a dodge with Withdraw on a shorter cooldown but that travels backwards from your facing direction which can be scary.Impact Strike is still worse defiance-bar to cooldown ratio vs Basilisk Venom, but any improvement is nice. This skill is good when you can't guarantee all hits of Basilisk Venom will hit your target, or when you need to CC more frequently than Basilisk's cooldown allows.
This skill is also very useful for maintaining Lotus Training uptime when playing Condition Daredevil. If you can't keep hitting the boss with your auto-attack chain and F1 Steal, you will run out of endurance and lose your condition damage buff. Use Channeled Vigor to maintain buff uptime when you can't hit the boss. (This tip comes from Left!)
Death-onate Plasma and "Boon Thief"
Farewell, Boon Thief. Without Quickness, we can no longer role-compress all those shiny boons in Plasma into a Quickness Build.I'm going to go out on a limb here and assume that the damage of Detonate Plasma will not be worth its cast time purely from a DPS perspective, especially on a Condition Build, but you might still get some boon uptime from Daredevils on fights like Matthias and Twin Largos' Kenut.
You can now permanently sunset your Celestial/Ritualist gear for Boon Thief. Will you use it for Alacrity Specter later? I don't now, I don't know how much Alacrity is given by that trait. We'll talk more later. :)
Also Icebrood Saga exists
These really don't matter. Unstable Reagent is maybe a DPS increase, I don't have a log with it for cast time.This is NOT Unstable Artifact BTW. That skill is still worth using for both Power and Condition DPS.
Cursed Artifact is like throw-Plaguelands, and an Ethereal field at that. It's free real estate on the Condition Build.
Time in a Bottle is squad-wide alacrity AND quickness. Take that, Chronomancer! It's only found in Cold War and randomly in EoD strikes. :)
Dumbed-down-eye
Deadeye Stolen Skill splash support
Stolen Skills now grant their beneficial effects around the caster.These are mostly "splash" uptimes of boons, but you can also get superspeed and a modest heal. Neat! Deadeye providing a token amount of squad value beyond its DPS and CC output.
Deadeye Malicious Intent buff
Malicious Intent: Increased Malice gain from 1 to 2 in PvE onlyThis is actually big!
Firstly, this increases the damage dealt by the lower difficulty Be Quick or Be Killed Dagger Deadeye rotation (if you've ever heard someone described Dagger Deadeye as 5111151115111, that's this).
1 more Malice pip after each Mark and Stealth attack boost the damage modifier of Malicious Backstab. I don't have a quick estimate for this increase yet.Secondly, this is wonderful for the Dagger-Dagger Maleficent Seven rotation.
All Power Dagger skills (Heartseeker, Dancing Dagger, Cloak & Dagger) are single-damage packet skills (with the exception of Dancing Dagger when bounced from your main target, to another enemy, and back to your main target). This means they have only one chance to score a crit, and thus only one chance to earn 2 Malice instead of 1.
Power Thief derives 15% critical chance from Critical Strikes' Keen Observer trait, which demands the player stay above 75% HP. You won't have 100% uptime of this trait in many raid fights, especially if your healer is slacking. If the current Dagger Deadeye benchmark was performed at 75% player HP, without drastically altering gear to accommodate for the missing critical chance, the benchmark could lose up to 12,000 DPS!, dropping it nearly into support territory.
This Malicious Intent buff gives you a safety cushion for one of those Initiative skills to score a non-crit, making the rotation more robust in endgame encounters. It does NOT reduce the minimum number of Initiative skills needed to reach maximum Malice: that is still 3 with Malicious Intent and 4 without. It does reduce the maximum needed by 1 skill, which is also great!
Quickly Fire For Effect
This trait no longer requires a target to grant boons to allies.Er, it doesn't require one right now. Specifically, if you Mark a target, you can use your F2 and gain boons even if your stolen skill is obstructed by terrain. If you have your enemy targeted while outside 1,500 range you will get an out of range error that stops you from casting F2, but simply untargeting the enemy will let you use the skill to get boons. If you are obstructed or out of range, you don't hit the target.
I assume what this means is that if you do NOT have a marked target, you can cast a cantrip to get a new F2. That's cool and rather handy for the new Quickness build.
Shadow Flare isn't real, it can't hurt you
Shadow Flare: Reduced cooldown from 30 to 20 seconds. This skill only damages once instead of pulsing. Activate the flip-over Shadow Swap to trigger another damage instance from your original location.Deadeye dumbed down. Navigating self-reveal with pulsing damage skills on DPS Deadeye has been a hallmark of modern builds for several years—Shadow Flare for Power, Thousand Needles for Condition.
That problem is now eliminated for Power. You don't need to know the timing, you don't need to know where to throw Shadow Flare. Just Do your backstab, cast Shadow Flare for one damage packet, cast it again, go for another Backstab. No fuss, no skill expression, no frustration, no learning curve.
I don't like this change, I understand why other people like this change. I think it's dumb to change this. If you don't like self-reveal, consider not playing the class that uses Stealth and Revealed for its DPS output.
Fun in the Chamber
One in the Chamber: This trait now also increase the damage of F2 Stolen Skills in addition to its previous effectsIn case anyone is unfamiliar with Deadeye—it doesn't have access to any core Stolen Skills. No Mag Bombs here!
This is a nice perk. The important thing is that this trait gives us an extra F2 charge every time we use a Stolen Skill...That's for Quickness.
This trait is also valuable to Condition Deadeye builds (particularly since there's a 4/9 chance they get a stolen skill that applies damaging conditions!) and to Power Pistol-Pistol Deadeye. See more of that here.
Binding Shadow, my beloved
Binding Shadow - Reduced cooldown from 30 to20 seconds in PvE.Cool! I love—
This skill now immobilizes marked targets instead of knocking them downOh. Uhhh it already immobilized them. I assume it immobilizes them more? That sucks, this was an amazing breakbar skill, particular on Condition Deadeye where it applied several poison stacks (natively, and via Panic Strike with Immobilize) and gave an extra F2 charge from One in the Chamber.
It's lower cooldown on boonstrip which is neat? Matches No Pain No Gain time in Fractals, I suppose.
Just use a Power Mesmer, they passively breathe boonstrip.
Quickness Deadeye builds
Three options!Oops! All cantrips
This option will spam out cantrip like nobody's business to meet the voracious demand of Might uptime.So that's our 24-might upkeep option. It's not pretty, and it's Cantrip spam. ANet said we wouldn't have this in the game anymore.
Fire For Effect grants 8 stacks of Might for 12 seconds. The with-Alacrity cooldown of Cantrips are: 16 (Binding Shadow, Shadow Flare), 20 seconds (Malicious Restoration heal), 25 seconds (Mercy, Shadow Gust). When using Mercy, the cooldown of F1 is effectively the cooldown of Mercy, plus minimally the cast time of the F2, plus the cast time of F1 again.
So some of our Might is locked behind 25+ seconds. Building for 100% Might Duration would be devastating for our DPS output. We could cover 100% Might uptime with a single trio of F2 casts anyway—Binding Shadow, Malicious Restoration, Shadow Flare—but that would not take tactical advantage of the natural Deadeye's Mark cooldown.
Instead, we'll cover Quickness with two sets of F2 casts, staggered across the duration of our Might stacks. Left has an old benchmark demonstrating this technique.
Well, what if we don't have to generate Might?
Then we have two options:
3 cantrips with no Improvisation
This option will maintain a burst of 24 might as we apply quickness, or we can space out the stolen skills to maintain at least 8 stacks indefinitely. Sounds pretty good!Improvisation
We'll probably still be using Shadow Flare because it's just good damage, and Improvisation selects for builds that use active utility skills, not passive signets. We might even be able to use Malicious Intent instead of One in the Chamber for this build, earning us more damage on Malicious Backstab.So we have options.
Quickness Deadeye weapon options (We don't have those! )
Maleficent Seven is the only equalizer at work that allows bad weapons to do somewhat okay, and without that, we're back to shopping with the to the usual harsh restriction of "the best single skill out of all these weapons crushes the validity of all other options".Stealth attacks? Naw, just spam F2s without Malice.
"Filler" initiative skills used to build up to an Initiative reset at max Malice? Nope, don't care, whatever has the best initiative-to-damage ratio is what we're running.
Thief Dagger is about matched with Thief sword for auto attack damage but Dagger is home to the centralizing Cloak & Dagger → Backstab combo. This does huge damage from any direction—flanking is gone!
Sword, by contrast, suffers a DPS loss when using any dual wield skill, Headshot, or Black Powder. The only DPS gain skills are Cloak & Dagger (but the stealth attack for sword is BARELY worth using, you could actually just cast Cloak & Dagger twice in a row and do just as well), and Sword 2...without using the return-to shadowstep. Meaning Sword 2 has a 15-second cooldown. Just to do slightly more than the auto-attack.
Need CC? Pack an off-hand pistol and fill time with auto-attacks, they're very good.
What about Pistol?
It's just weaker.Shortbow?
It sucks really bad against single targets.Rifle? This is the sniper spec!
It sucks if you don't have Maleficent Seven for infinite Initiative and either stealth utility skills or Silent Scope to unlock Death's Judgment.
Specter, rant about single-target/ally-target support
Ally-targeted scepter skills now also grant a lesser effect to additional allies in a radius around the target.I don't know why ANet is so obsessed with single target support for PvE Specter, but they'll learn its untenable eventually. They've been gradually walking back the single target focus ever since release, and we are now about 15 months past Specter's official release and coming up on 2 years since it's beta.
Ally-targeting is clunky.
Single-target support is nonviable. We have encounters that apply arena damage to all players, and each player in the squad can take damage from the same AoE and it's the healer's job to keep the whole team up.
A "lesser effect". Reduced duration? Great, what's the point of that? You might as well just make it all the reduced duration.
Does "splashed" Shadow Sap not even grant protection to the other allies? Great, we won't use it.
Hopefully this will just be something like reduced Barrier or Healing, and the Boons are intact, but it's already been confirmed by the new member of the design team, Trig, on a Twitch Stream (Mighty Teapot's?) that Endless Night will not give Quickness to "splashed" allies.
Maybe this skill shouldn't give quickness at all. Why is the design team not skill splitting? What are they afraid of?
The Dark Side of Scepter Splash
If you paid attention to Specter during its beta testing, you might be aware of a very weird build that used Endless Night (Scepter Pistol dual wield beam skill that granted quickness and 7-packets of Barrier to 3 allies, if you could pierce through the allies).This rotation was initially theorycrafted by Left when Specter was first showed off. I did some early proof-of-concept on the build, then Left took it over and improved it to around 51,000 DPS.
That's a lot of damage!
Watch that video briefly, and notice how I swap between the enemy and my allies, applying one skill to the target then the Endless Night beam to my allies.
When Specter applies barrier to an ally, they receive a stack of Rotwallow Venom, which applies a short-duration stack of torment to a single enemy just like normal venoms.
Each cast of Endless Night back then was 21 applications of Rotwallow Venom, with more Torment duration than we have now.
ANet killed that build back during beta by making the beam target a single enemy, nerfing the quickness application, nerfing Rotwallow Venom duration, nerfing Specter's Torment damage modifier, nerfing Consume Shadows to require charging up.... The list goes on.
Why do I bring this up?
Scepter Autos on Allies
Currently the scepter auto chain applies 54 seconds of Torment (in the form of multiple stacks). If the scepter auto chain can instead apply barrier to 3 allies, then this balloons to 72 seconds without Strength of Shadows, or 108 seconds with Strength of Shadows.Yes.
The auto-attack chain will be twice as strong when targeting allies, vs targeting the enemy.
Endless Night is not worth using against an enemy target, but it might be worth using on allies. This rotation won't have room for auto attacks, so I'm not pinning any hopes to this.
No, the optimal damage rotation will probably be Twilight combo, Siphon, and Shroud skills on the enemy, then filling time with Scepter skills on allies. We will probably spend less time in Shroud because those autos are just so cracked...
Second Opinion, moving away from Consume Shadows
Ever since beta all forms of Specter have run Consume Shadows—Alacrity, DPS, Heal. This is because Consume Shadows can apply barrier to allies, giving them Rotwallow venom. The other adept traits are purely defensive, so they're not used by the DPS and Alacrity builds...and Consume Shadows is an extremely potent healing tool. So potent, it's been nerfed repeatedly!Charged time reduced from instant to 4 seconds, maximum shroud cut by more than 50%, conversion ratio reduced from 100 to 50%Second Opinion will grant bonus Condition Damage, more with a Scepter. This should be, at minimum, +80/+80, which will beat the ~800 DPS provided by perfect Rotwallow Venom application from Consume Shadows.
Perfect?
If your allies are too injured and Consume Shadows only heals them overflowing into Barrier, you won't give them Rotwallow.
Traversing Dusk no longer gives Alacrity
This is just a heal trait now. That's just what it does.Shadestep is the new Alacrity trait
Oh. Uh. I'll keep it quick.- This reduces our gameplay from 2 separate rotations with their own quirks and different Shroud lengths, to 1—the DPS rotation.
How do you give alacrity? Just go into shroud and push buttons.\2. Ever been kicked out of Shroud by incoming damage in a raid/strike/open world meta? No more Alacrity uptime for you. Better refill your Shadow Force quickly—and Larcenous Torment generates Shadow Force FAR more slowly than Traversing Dusk
How do you do DPS? Just go into shroud and push buttons.
Alacrity Specter's Well cooldowns were inaccessible inside Shadow Shroud because we inherited a shroud, not just a kit like Druid's Celestial Avatar or Holosmith's Photon Forge.
Druid Spirits off cooldown while in CA? Don't care, you can push em.
Specter wells off cooldown while in Shadow Shroud? You might be gaining DPS from shroud skills, or healing from Consume Shadows, but you're losing Alacrity uptime. Is that tradeoff worth it?
Doesn't matter anymore. Just do the benchmark DPS rotation.
You're too slow? Then your alacrity uptime will suffer. You need to be on pace with going in and out of shroud, just like the DPS rotation. Difference is, if you're bad at this, it's going to frustrate other people.
This is not the hardest rotation in game to optimize and you of course have the option to make it easier with Ritualist gear (which you should do anyway if you plan to still run Consume Shadows, will be a two-fold personal DPS loss).
How much DPS will ANet allow this build to have?Fun fact: Traversing Dusk's 1% Shadow Force per ally in your shadowstep scales indefinitely, not just up to 5 players. That gives you colossal Shadow Force generation in crowded metas and even raids.Want to use your Siphon on ally? No you don't, that's valuable Shadow Force generation you need to maintain tempo for Alacrity.
Again, you can wear Ritualist gear to soften this loss.
Want to have the utility of Well of Bounty? Well, previously that utility was tied to your Alacrity uptime, your DPS uptime (lingering outside shroud for Well of Bounty was a loss), and your healing output (Traversing Dusk, and maintaining tempo in/out of Shadow Shroud for Consume Shadows).
Now you can take Well of Bounty and have it on demand, at a DPS loss.
Previously you could have just take advantage of the long Stability duration to cast this well early, or delay it slightly to cover the mechanic.
We don't know. And now it's DPS is very closely tied to the DPS build because they're doing nearly the exact same thing.
This has never happened to Firebrand, trust me.
tl;dr It's dangerous to read all that up there! Skip to here!
Condition Daredevil
Unchanged by Impairing Daggers cooldown reductionPower Daredevil
Buffed to ~38.6 if you do the old rotation.Buffed to 40.2 if you do the new degenerate 1a 1b 2 1a 1b 2 rotation that interrupts our auto chain.
Still screwed by all the usual stuff.
Mag Bomb damage normalized. Cool. Still amazing utility on that skill.
Boon Thief
Dead. Deadeye killed it.Power Dagger Deadeye
Much easier to play. Splashes some cute boons onto its subgroup, at random. Have to see if Shadow Flare is still worth using. Hopefully, right?Power Rifle Deadeye
Silent Scope uses Shadow Flare, I hope that's still worth using.No need to flank with Premeditation Rifle is nice. Swapping Impact to an Accuracy sigil (or not doing that, and losing crit chance) was ~1,200 DPS loss, so that's avoided. I don't mind losing flanking here that much because Flanking wasn't make-or-break adrenaline pumping like dagger. It was just a boring loss.
Quickness Deadeye
I hope you like pushing 5 and 1 a whole lot because that's almost all this is. Also pushing cantrips for F2 charges to provide quickness.It will play okay, but pretttttttttty similar to utility-spam builds that people hate, with the added bonus of casting TWO skills for every application of quickness.
You can tune this to your liking BUT
IF YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MANY WAYS THIS GAME'S ENEMIES CAN APPLY REVEALED TO YOU THEN YOU'RE IN FOR A TREAT WHEN YOU PICK UP QUICKNESS DEADEYE NEXT PATCH :D
It won't really prevent you from applying quickness but it will tank your DPS and fracture your soul.One of us. One of us!
This is getting no changes, by the way. It'd be a huge amount of effort from the studio's programmers for one elite spec, for one profession, largely in one game mode (instanced PvE), with a small player base.
Probably just not happening. Not a question of "want to", it's a question of resource management AND doing this right.
Remember stealth-tanking Old Lion's Court? Because they didn't apply Revealed, then they only applied Revealed once and Deadeye just Shadow Melded out of it?
DPS Specter
Buffed by Second Opinion, dubiously buffed by targeting allies with the auto chain.You can still run Consume Shadows for team healing/barrier.
Alacrity Specter
I don't know. Presumably the shroud skills will allow us to provide at least 50% uptime with a non-degenerate rotation (one that doesn't have us spending all our time in shroud). Said degenerate rotation is naturally policed by the fact our shroud absorbs incoming damage.Will it run Consume Shadows? Not for optimal damage anymore.
Alac Share Specter
Just change your grandmaster from Strength of Shadows to Shadestep and do the normal rotation. Should do at least 50% uptime, unless Alac specter is just nonviable and can't maintain Alacrity.2023.06.10 05:16 jemstonejessy Part time babysitting- how much to charge? What questions to ask?
I have about five years experience, but haven't babysat for almost ten years with one exception. So I'm a little out of the game, but am great with kids.
I have very limited information, as I'm waiting to hear back about meeting in person to discuss further. But here's what I have:
I would be primarily caring for a child with special needs, age unknown at this time, 2 days a week for 8.5 hr day shifts with occasionally a third day (assuming 8.5 hrs as well).
Occasionally, I would also be sitting the mother's relative's children. 3 children ages unknown.
TL;DR What is a fair rate (West Michigan, USA) for the primary child who is special needs? And the rate for all four children?
What kind of questions should I be asking?
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I have very limited information, as I'm waiting to hear back about meeting in person to discuss further. But here's what I have:
I would be primarily caring for a child with special needs, age unknown at this time, 2 days a week for 8.5 hr day shifts with occasionally a third day (assuming 8.5 hrs as well).
Occasionally, I would also be sitting the mother's relative's children. 3 children ages unknown.
TL;DR What is a fair rate (West Michigan, USA) for the primary child who is special needs? And the rate for all four children?
What kind of questions should I be asking?
2023.06.10 05:03 chlwong Need to get some opinions on my build. RX 6800XT vs RTX 4070 vs RX 6950XT
I'm looking at finally doing a full new build from my current 1060 6gb. I'm trying to keep costs below $2,000 CAD - lower the better.
TLDR:: It's between RX6800XT, RTX4070, and RX6950XT.
I'm re-using my storage drives and fans, but kinda stuck on the GPU right now. Been through a rabbit hole of which of the 3 I should get and figured i'd drop a post here to see what people think of the build so far.
Timing isn't an issue - I don't mind keeping an eye on deals.
I guess one big question I keep running into is "If prices all being equal, which of the 3 should I be getting if I don't plan on upgrading in the next couples years?" I don't care that much about RT or DLSS or FSR, just looking for the best option right now, but I do use my PC for editing photos using adobe (not sure if that matters much)
Why i'm hesitant on each one? RX 6800XT -- mainly want to do some SLIGHT future proofing. The RX 6950XT is only a little more expensive so why not spend a little bit more for the extra performance?
RTX 4070 -- Lower VRAM. Might be an issue in the future because I do enjoy some of the AAA games and would like to play those with higher visuals. A little more pricey it seems but looks like the price is dropping to be similar to the other 2.
RX 69050XT -- Giganto card and reading about how much power it uses. I'm not entirely sure it's that big a deal to me but wanted to hear other people's thoughts about it. Is the extra cost worth it including the power consumption?
General build using RX 6950 XT:
PCPartPicker Part List
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TLDR:: It's between RX6800XT, RTX4070, and RX6950XT.
I'm re-using my storage drives and fans, but kinda stuck on the GPU right now. Been through a rabbit hole of which of the 3 I should get and figured i'd drop a post here to see what people think of the build so far.
Timing isn't an issue - I don't mind keeping an eye on deals.
I guess one big question I keep running into is "If prices all being equal, which of the 3 should I be getting if I don't plan on upgrading in the next couples years?" I don't care that much about RT or DLSS or FSR, just looking for the best option right now, but I do use my PC for editing photos using adobe (not sure if that matters much)
Why i'm hesitant on each one? RX 6800XT -- mainly want to do some SLIGHT future proofing. The RX 6950XT is only a little more expensive so why not spend a little bit more for the extra performance?
RTX 4070 -- Lower VRAM. Might be an issue in the future because I do enjoy some of the AAA games and would like to play those with higher visuals. A little more pricey it seems but looks like the price is dropping to be similar to the other 2.
RX 69050XT -- Giganto card and reading about how much power it uses. I'm not entirely sure it's that big a deal to me but wanted to hear other people's thoughts about it. Is the extra cost worth it including the power consumption?
General build using RX 6950 XT:
PCPartPicker Part List
| Type | Item | Price |
|---|---|---|
| CPU | AMD Ryzen 5 7600X 4.7 GHz 6-Core Processor | $309.98 @ Amazon Canada |
| CPU Cooler | Noctua NH-U9S 46.44 CFM CPU Cooler | $74.95 @ Amazon Canada |
| Motherboard | ASRock B650 PRO RS ATX AM5 Motherboard | $229.99 @ Newegg Canada |
| Memory | Corsair Vengeance RGB 32 GB (2 x 16 GB) DDR5-6000 CL36 Memory | $169.99 @ Newegg Canada |
| Video Card | XFX Speedster MERC 319 Radeon RX 6950 XT 16 GB Video Card | $869.00 @ Canada Computers |
| Case | NZXT H5 Flow ATX Mid Tower Case | $119.99 @ Canada Computers |
| Power Supply | *Thermaltake Toughpower GF3 TT Premium 750 W 80+ Gold Certified Fully Modular ATX Power Supply | $119.99 @ Memory Express |
| Prices include shipping, taxes, rebates, and discounts | ||
| Total (before mail-in rebates) | $1923.89 | |
| Mail-in rebates | -$30.00 | |
| Total | $1893.89 | |
| *Lowest price parts chosen from parametric criteria | ||
| Generated by PCPartPicker 2023-06-09 23:02 EDT-0400 |
2023.06.10 04:56 ProwlerPetronius0 Im on rock bottom, lost everything, never learned a proper way to make money and live a decent life, I dont want to be trapped forever working for 5$ an hour for the rest of my life!
I inherited an apartment from my grandmother, I lost it all, scammed out of my mind by the British government that promised my wife residency once I bring her there with me, in a years time we lost nearly everything, had to leave both of us and our small baby we just had!In Belize I lost the last amounts of money I had left to my father in law who lied to us about land that he have for us to sell and use to build our house, Im on rock bottom now, have only basic 9yrs primary and secondary czech education, Im smart, speak ENG from when I was a small kid, built my first gaming pc when I was 12 by my own hands and no help but youtube, Im fit and strong, good fighter, perfect security, but for the love of god I cant find a decent job!I dont want to be stuck in a trap working for 5 to 10$ an hour for the rest of my life NEVER being able to afford a house for my family!Having to keep my two baby boys and wife in poverty and suffering!Im not a bad person, never lie never steal never fuc* over nobody!I dont deserve this!Instead of studying high school I took off with my family and help my mom and stepdad settle down in England to this day they dont know English and use me as an interpreter at every occasion, they gone back to Czechia now, long broke up, Im in Belize with my wife, my grandpa took a HUGE loan to pay for visa and flight tickets for my wife and me, (Visa for wife and kids not me I got cz passport) but what once we get there?You pay 2000$ rent and make 2000$ a month!How will I manage!How can I take care of my fam?!Do I truly have to use my skillset to do evil?Do I have to start murder for money and other sh*t?!
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2023.06.10 04:53 Building_Prudent Can my CA back out and obtain earnest money?
We’re in escrow as sellers in CA. All cash buyer. Only contingency was 14 days for inspection. Buyer requested 2 repairs and contract to agree to repairs was signed and executed. 3k worth of repairs later, I’m finding that my buyer wants to back out on day 12 due to home insurance quotes.
We’re in escrow for our new home across the country so yeah, if this buyer backs out, we lose our home. 👌
My question is - not liking your home insurance quote has nothing to do with the inspection which has already been agreed upon and resolved.
Can our buyer obtain her earnest money for this reason? Or claim inspections even though all parties have signed that it was taken care of?
We’re 2 days away from losing our earnest money for our new home and missed out on some awesome buyers. This is so stressful.
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We’re in escrow for our new home across the country so yeah, if this buyer backs out, we lose our home. 👌
My question is - not liking your home insurance quote has nothing to do with the inspection which has already been agreed upon and resolved.
Can our buyer obtain her earnest money for this reason? Or claim inspections even though all parties have signed that it was taken care of?
We’re 2 days away from losing our earnest money for our new home and missed out on some awesome buyers. This is so stressful.
2023.06.10 04:47 scorpiaswife Congenital Horner’s Syndrome and Numbness of the Affected Side of the Body
Hello! I have never posted here before so I hope this is correct
For background information: I am a 20 year old female. My height is 5’6 and I weigh around 160ish pounds. I do not smoke and never have.
I have had Horner's all my life. It affects my right eye. My pupils are different sizes and I have minor heterochomia. I had an eyelid lift surgery for it a few years ago.
The underside of my right arm is numb and the numb sensation ends at my wrist. My right armpit is also numb. Im pretty sure I've always been like this, I just happened to finally notice it about a year ago. I saw my primary care doctor about the numbness and she said it was normal due to my Horner's.
Despite the fact my doctor said it's fine, I cannot help but be a little worried. Is this a known thing? I know that most of the symptoms of Horner's have to do with the eyes and face but can it extended to the rest of your body as well?
Thanks!
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For background information: I am a 20 year old female. My height is 5’6 and I weigh around 160ish pounds. I do not smoke and never have.
I have had Horner's all my life. It affects my right eye. My pupils are different sizes and I have minor heterochomia. I had an eyelid lift surgery for it a few years ago.
The underside of my right arm is numb and the numb sensation ends at my wrist. My right armpit is also numb. Im pretty sure I've always been like this, I just happened to finally notice it about a year ago. I saw my primary care doctor about the numbness and she said it was normal due to my Horner's.
Despite the fact my doctor said it's fine, I cannot help but be a little worried. Is this a known thing? I know that most of the symptoms of Horner's have to do with the eyes and face but can it extended to the rest of your body as well?
Thanks!
2023.06.10 04:45 alexarom10 Infected Surgical Incision?
29F 5’9” 170 pounds Non smoker Take hiprex and oral contraception
Hello! On May 31st I got chin and neck lipo as well as a chin implant. Surgery went as planned and recovery has been going normal. However, today I went to my primary care for my Pap smear, and they said I had a fever (100.4 tympanic). I felt absolutely fine and the last three days I have started getting back to my regular activities. I do however get very anxious at the doctor as I have health anxiety, and I told the nurse maybe it’s my nerves. She was adamant that it’s not possible that my temp would be higher due to nerves. When I saw the doctor, she said she wasn’t concerned and if I felt fine she’s not worried. She glanced at the incision site as well (very briefly and not extremely close). However, after leaving the doctor I looked at my incision site and I did notice it is red around it. I went home and took my oral temp and it was 98.6, and forehead temp which was 98.8. Should I be concerned? My surgeons office is closed for the weekend so I unfortunately can’t contact them until Monday. Also something to note is I was on ten days of keflex and just finished Tuesday. I saw a nurse at the surgeons office yesterday and she took off the dressings and said everything was fine. I am unsure if it was red yesterday or not as I my first time looking at it was today. I would love to and would appreciate hearing your thoughts!
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Hello! On May 31st I got chin and neck lipo as well as a chin implant. Surgery went as planned and recovery has been going normal. However, today I went to my primary care for my Pap smear, and they said I had a fever (100.4 tympanic). I felt absolutely fine and the last three days I have started getting back to my regular activities. I do however get very anxious at the doctor as I have health anxiety, and I told the nurse maybe it’s my nerves. She was adamant that it’s not possible that my temp would be higher due to nerves. When I saw the doctor, she said she wasn’t concerned and if I felt fine she’s not worried. She glanced at the incision site as well (very briefly and not extremely close). However, after leaving the doctor I looked at my incision site and I did notice it is red around it. I went home and took my oral temp and it was 98.6, and forehead temp which was 98.8. Should I be concerned? My surgeons office is closed for the weekend so I unfortunately can’t contact them until Monday. Also something to note is I was on ten days of keflex and just finished Tuesday. I saw a nurse at the surgeons office yesterday and she took off the dressings and said everything was fine. I am unsure if it was red yesterday or not as I my first time looking at it was today. I would love to and would appreciate hearing your thoughts!
2023.06.10 04:44 TheAviotorDemNutzz Since we talk a lot about rates, here is an informative take on why rates will likely hit 5.25%
I think people will need to prepare of rates to hit 5.25%. I don't want to mince words, the BoC will likely hike at least one more time, but likely twice more, because it would be extremely unusual for them to go into a pause, hike, and then pause again, also taking into consideration they said yesterday:
Bank of Canada deputy governor Paul Beaudry says recent economic data suggests the risk of sticky inflation has gone up, prompting the central bank’s decision to raise interest rates on Wednesday. Beaudry said economic data released since April “tipped the balance” for the central bank. “We've had an accumulation of evidence – on many fronts, over time and across a whole set – that tell us that inflation seems to be more sticky and it's going to be harder to get it down to that 2 per cent," Beaudry said. Beaudry says the rapid rise in consumer spending took the central bank by surprise, while buyers appear to be returning to the housing market. “When we looked at the dynamics in inflation combined with excess demand, that really has increased the risk that we are not going to be able to get inflation down without a bit more monetary tightening,” Beaudry said
https://www.bnnbloomberg.ca/rate-hike-prompted-by-higher-risk-of-sticky-inflation-boc-s-beaudry-1.1930724
If they are thinking core inflation is getting sticky then there is is a good chance there could be 2 more hikes in store. It is also very important to note even if a recession starts they might not be able to cut rates, it's important to look at history and see what happened the last time we had this level of inflation. From the WSJ:
Were the Fed to ease because of growth fears before inflation has been vanquished, it would risk repeating its stop-and-go tightening of the 1970s, which economists now see as a costly policy error. To avoid that mistake, “the Fed may not be able to pivot and cut rates quickly or at all” if a recession begins later this year, said Krishna Guha, vice chairman of Evercore ISI, in a recent report.
“Stop-and-go” refers to how the Fed oscillated between raising rates to tame inflation and then backing off to shore up growth—succeeding at neither. It began in the late 1960s, when Chairman William McChesney Martin Jr. paused rate rises during a recession scare. It worsened under Fed Chairman Arthur Burns, who raised rates significantly between 1972 and 1974 but cut them the following year in the midst of a sharp recession. Inflation fell but settled at still-elevated levels.
“The problem in the 1970s was you tightened. You hit the labor market. And you eased up, and you never took care of the problem,” said Peter Hooper, global head of economic research at Deutsche Bank. Ultimately, it took a change in tactics by the Fed in 1981 under Chairman Paul Volcker to raise rates to far higher levels for inflation to come down and stay down.
Mr. Hooper, who began his career at the Fed in 1973, thinks Mr. Powell won’t repeat those mistakes because the central bank has exhaustively studied them.
https://www.wsj.com/articles/for-the-fed-easing-too-soon-risks-repeat-of-stop-and-go-1970s-11657454403
So I would make arrangements for what you need to do with rates at 5.25% today, instead of in a panic a couple months down the line.
Thanks to u/_wpgbrownie_ for this insightful compilation.
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Bank of Canada deputy governor Paul Beaudry says recent economic data suggests the risk of sticky inflation has gone up, prompting the central bank’s decision to raise interest rates on Wednesday. Beaudry said economic data released since April “tipped the balance” for the central bank. “We've had an accumulation of evidence – on many fronts, over time and across a whole set – that tell us that inflation seems to be more sticky and it's going to be harder to get it down to that 2 per cent," Beaudry said. Beaudry says the rapid rise in consumer spending took the central bank by surprise, while buyers appear to be returning to the housing market. “When we looked at the dynamics in inflation combined with excess demand, that really has increased the risk that we are not going to be able to get inflation down without a bit more monetary tightening,” Beaudry said
https://www.bnnbloomberg.ca/rate-hike-prompted-by-higher-risk-of-sticky-inflation-boc-s-beaudry-1.1930724
If they are thinking core inflation is getting sticky then there is is a good chance there could be 2 more hikes in store. It is also very important to note even if a recession starts they might not be able to cut rates, it's important to look at history and see what happened the last time we had this level of inflation. From the WSJ:
Were the Fed to ease because of growth fears before inflation has been vanquished, it would risk repeating its stop-and-go tightening of the 1970s, which economists now see as a costly policy error. To avoid that mistake, “the Fed may not be able to pivot and cut rates quickly or at all” if a recession begins later this year, said Krishna Guha, vice chairman of Evercore ISI, in a recent report.
“Stop-and-go” refers to how the Fed oscillated between raising rates to tame inflation and then backing off to shore up growth—succeeding at neither. It began in the late 1960s, when Chairman William McChesney Martin Jr. paused rate rises during a recession scare. It worsened under Fed Chairman Arthur Burns, who raised rates significantly between 1972 and 1974 but cut them the following year in the midst of a sharp recession. Inflation fell but settled at still-elevated levels.
“The problem in the 1970s was you tightened. You hit the labor market. And you eased up, and you never took care of the problem,” said Peter Hooper, global head of economic research at Deutsche Bank. Ultimately, it took a change in tactics by the Fed in 1981 under Chairman Paul Volcker to raise rates to far higher levels for inflation to come down and stay down.
Mr. Hooper, who began his career at the Fed in 1973, thinks Mr. Powell won’t repeat those mistakes because the central bank has exhaustively studied them.
https://www.wsj.com/articles/for-the-fed-easing-too-soon-risks-repeat-of-stop-and-go-1970s-11657454403
So I would make arrangements for what you need to do with rates at 5.25% today, instead of in a panic a couple months down the line.
Thanks to u/_wpgbrownie_ for this insightful compilation.
2023.06.10 04:44 ryanrudolf 11 years apart - and I love them both!
 | I rebuilt my old Thinkpad and came up with this from my spare pile. Gonna bring this and the Steam Deck on a long haul trip! submitted by ryanrudolf to thinkpad [link] [comments] Specs for comparison between the two - X220 specs * Legendary Thinklight and 7row keyboard * 16GB DDR3 RAM * 2TB SATA SSD * AWUS 1900 mPCIE wifi card * TPLINK internal Bluetooth 5.0 USB dongle * Intel i5 2540M * VGA, DP, USB2.0 and USB3.0 via expresscard * whopping 1366x768 TN panel * future upgrade - additional 256GB mSATA SSD Steam Deck specs * 16GB LPDDR5 RAM * 2TB NVME SSD * Realtek 8822CE wifi card * Bluetooth 5.0 * USB C port * Custom AMD APU 0405 * 1280x800 panel |