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2023.06.10 23:41 bay30three I got ROASTED for posting this on a general sub
(Looooooong post alert)
Hi all.
I only joined Reddit a couple weeks ago after years of occasional lurking, and I posted this on a general sub, and got roasted to the point I had to delete the post to prevent going into negative post karma (I went from 90 post karma down to about 10 over a few hours).
At the risk of seeing a repetition of a barrage of abuse (I was called an idiot/ loser, and my replies got downvoted into being hidden), I re-post it here, just curious if the FIRE crowd has a different perspective.
For the record, I AM NOT doing what I'm doing to scrimp and penny-pinch. I genuinely enjoy my healthy packed lunches over unhealthy bought lunches that takes up 1/2 my lunch break while waiting in queue. I buy tech that suits my needs instead of paying extra for features I don't need. The things I enjoy in life most (running, walking, snap photography on my phone, family movie nights at home) happen to be free or cheap. As for heating in winter, I grew up in South Island of NZ without heating in winter, and my winter school uniform was shorts and I used to ride my bicycle to school through frosted grass, so I'm not about to start heating up the house for the mild Sydney winters. My kids aren't cold, and they keep taking layers off.
So here's the post. Fire away folks!
I am a 40M suburban dad in Sydney. Dual income, 2 children under 6.
I work in a professional capacity, and while I don't want to reveal my annual income, I'll drop a hint and say I paid over 100K in personal income tax last year (wife paid a bit less but not a lot less).
With that sort of income, many will say that just about everything is affordable to me. I am aware there is a cost of living crisis out there, and don't wish to come across as insensitive. However I would l like to share some of my tips on how to live on the cheap.
1) My groceries are cheap
I don't eat meat/fish/eggs/dairy. Yep, full plant based diet since early 2021, for my health/animals and the environment (I've heard all the arguments against veganism so let's not get into it here).
I live on beans/ rice/ vegetables/ fruit/ nuts and seeds. I go through two bags of the 'McKenzie's 12 blend soup mix' per week, at a cost of $4.60 per week. Brown rice I eat costs $19 for 5kg (I usually stock up when they are half price, at $9.50). I consume 200g of rice per day, which is about $2.66 per week when bought on special.
My other staples are steamed/sauteed broccoli, cauliflower, green beans, zucchinis, sweet corn, sweet potato, eggplant, kale, and fresh cherry tomatoes, red capsicum, cucumber, lettuce, as well as chia seeds, hemp seeds, roasted cashews and almonds. These aren't expensive items either.
I don't eat vegan sausages/burger patties or cheese. I eat a whole foods plant based diet.
My snacks are fruit. Usually apples, bananas, kiwifruit, grapes are staples, with occasional berries when they are cheap.
Also I don't buy any processed food. No potato crisps (they were $3-4 per bag when I stopped buying them, but I've recently seen them selling for $6.50 a bag), no biscuits, no chocolate, no lollies, no cakes or cookies or anything with refined sugar.
2) I don't buy lunch when I'm at work
I pack my own lunch the previous night, while I'm cooking dinner. Lunch is basically a 2/3 serving of the vegetables/beans/rice I had the night before. as I find bought lunches are unhealthy, and aren't substantial enough to fill me up. My packed lunch probably costs me $3-4 in ingredients.
I used to buy lunch every day, at a cost of $10-12 daily, which meant around $2500 per year on lunch alone. Now it probably costs around $840.
3) I don't drink alcohol
I went through a craft beewine/cheese/cured meat phase for about 10 years, but gave these up not long after I gave up eating meat or other animal products. I've spent 0 cents on these foods in the past 2 years.
When I was a regular drinker, beers at the pub used to be $7.50 for Tooheys/Resches/Carlton Draught and $9.50 for the likes of Balter, Pirate Life, Feral, but I believe they cost up to $12.50. No thanks.
4) I don't buy coffee or eat in cafes.
I went through a trendy cafe phase in my 20s and 30s, and thought nothing of paying $24 for a cafe breakfast and $4.50 for a large flat white. Now I make my own coffee at home. I buy green beans at a cost for $12 per kg and roast them myself (I bought a coffee roaster for $950 four years ago which has paid for itself many times over), and use 10g of coffee per cup, which works out to be 12 cents per cup. My soy milk costs $2 per litre, and I use around 150mL per cup of coffee, at a cost of 30c per cup. So my coffee costs around 42 cents to make.
I haven't eaten in a cafe for about 5 years now.
5) I almost never order in, or get takeaway
Not that there are many good plant based meal delivery/takeaway options out there anyway, and I find ordering in/takeaway meals to be expensive, unsatisfying, lacking in substance and not worth the cost. I avoid refined sugar and there is far too much in most takeaway meals for my liking. I eat them begrudgingly, occasionally (when my wife orders them).
The cost of a meal is the cost of material, labour, business insurance, electricity/gas, rent, advertising, accounting + the profits.
The cost of my own meals are the cost of the materials + gas/electricity. Huge difference.
I honestly enjoy my own meals more.
6) My fitness routine is free
I don't go to the gym. I do 100 pushups, 20 pull-ups, and 50 sit-ups every day (without fail). I also run a total of 15-20km weekly, and enter 2 marathons a year at a cost of around $100-140 per event. My running shoes cost me around $120-140 every 18-24 months.
7) My entertainment costs very little
I pay $120 per year for a Disney+ subscription, mainly for my children. It has more content than I could watch in my lifetime. We do a Family Movie Night once a week, usually Disney/Pixar animation films.
I also watch stuff on Youtube, and don't pay anything to skip ads or anything.
I have been to the cinema twice in the last 7 years, to see the latest James Bond and Top Gun 2. I stopped going to the movies regularly when the cost of a movie ticket hit $20, also around the time streaming services became available for $10 a month.
8) I don't use heating in winter or cooling in summer.
I am rugged in up 4 layers at the moment. I wear a thermal top, a knitted top, a polar fleece jacket and then an Oodie on top.
In summer I don't use the air con. It's singlets and shorts in summer, and when it gets too hot to sleep, it's a fan on timer to switch off after 1 hour, and it works every time.
I live in a townhouse and pay around $200 per quarter for electricity (for a family of 4). My next door neighbour pays $800 per quarter, as he heats/cools his home all the time.
9) I don't spend much money on clothes or shoes
My favourite clothing brand is yd, my socks are from Target and my shoes are $120 Adidas sneakers.
I have clothes and shoes for every weather and every occasion, and don't buy new clothes or shoes unless I'm replacing old ones to be thrown out.
10) I don't spend much money on the latest tech.
My hp laptop cost me $1200 in 2017. Still runs like new, and unlikely to need an upgrade for another 5 years. My phone is a Samsung S20 FE, which I bought 2.5 years ago for $750.
My Galaxy tablet cost me $280 earlier this year. I buy a new one every 5 years on average.
I can't fathom paying $3000 for a 14 inch Macbook, $1500 for an iPad, or $1400 for an iPhone.
My mobile plan is through a cheap provider at $25 per month.
So there you have it, the reasons why I believe I spend less than 90% of people while earning in the top 1%.
I'm not penny pinching or forcing myself to live like a pauper to save money while denying myself the pleasures I want. We go on overseas holidays 2-3 weeks every year, live in a nice spot in Sydney, own two luxury European cars, and own some pretty nice things.
My hobbies are reading, blogging, going out (which means exploring my favourite parts of Sydney, and taking snaps), posting on various internet forums, watching movies at home.
I grew up in a middle income household and being thrifty was instilled in me from a young age. When I was a student I lived liked a student, and when I started earning I didn't really change my spending habits.
Thanks for reading!
submitted by bay30three to fiaustralia [link] [comments]
Hi all.
I only joined Reddit a couple weeks ago after years of occasional lurking, and I posted this on a general sub, and got roasted to the point I had to delete the post to prevent going into negative post karma (I went from 90 post karma down to about 10 over a few hours).
At the risk of seeing a repetition of a barrage of abuse (I was called an idiot/ loser, and my replies got downvoted into being hidden), I re-post it here, just curious if the FIRE crowd has a different perspective.
For the record, I AM NOT doing what I'm doing to scrimp and penny-pinch. I genuinely enjoy my healthy packed lunches over unhealthy bought lunches that takes up 1/2 my lunch break while waiting in queue. I buy tech that suits my needs instead of paying extra for features I don't need. The things I enjoy in life most (running, walking, snap photography on my phone, family movie nights at home) happen to be free or cheap. As for heating in winter, I grew up in South Island of NZ without heating in winter, and my winter school uniform was shorts and I used to ride my bicycle to school through frosted grass, so I'm not about to start heating up the house for the mild Sydney winters. My kids aren't cold, and they keep taking layers off.
So here's the post. Fire away folks!
I am a 40M suburban dad in Sydney. Dual income, 2 children under 6.
I work in a professional capacity, and while I don't want to reveal my annual income, I'll drop a hint and say I paid over 100K in personal income tax last year (wife paid a bit less but not a lot less).
With that sort of income, many will say that just about everything is affordable to me. I am aware there is a cost of living crisis out there, and don't wish to come across as insensitive. However I would l like to share some of my tips on how to live on the cheap.
1) My groceries are cheap
I don't eat meat/fish/eggs/dairy. Yep, full plant based diet since early 2021, for my health/animals and the environment (I've heard all the arguments against veganism so let's not get into it here).
I live on beans/ rice/ vegetables/ fruit/ nuts and seeds. I go through two bags of the 'McKenzie's 12 blend soup mix' per week, at a cost of $4.60 per week. Brown rice I eat costs $19 for 5kg (I usually stock up when they are half price, at $9.50). I consume 200g of rice per day, which is about $2.66 per week when bought on special.
My other staples are steamed/sauteed broccoli, cauliflower, green beans, zucchinis, sweet corn, sweet potato, eggplant, kale, and fresh cherry tomatoes, red capsicum, cucumber, lettuce, as well as chia seeds, hemp seeds, roasted cashews and almonds. These aren't expensive items either.
I don't eat vegan sausages/burger patties or cheese. I eat a whole foods plant based diet.
My snacks are fruit. Usually apples, bananas, kiwifruit, grapes are staples, with occasional berries when they are cheap.
Also I don't buy any processed food. No potato crisps (they were $3-4 per bag when I stopped buying them, but I've recently seen them selling for $6.50 a bag), no biscuits, no chocolate, no lollies, no cakes or cookies or anything with refined sugar.
2) I don't buy lunch when I'm at work
I pack my own lunch the previous night, while I'm cooking dinner. Lunch is basically a 2/3 serving of the vegetables/beans/rice I had the night before. as I find bought lunches are unhealthy, and aren't substantial enough to fill me up. My packed lunch probably costs me $3-4 in ingredients.
I used to buy lunch every day, at a cost of $10-12 daily, which meant around $2500 per year on lunch alone. Now it probably costs around $840.
3) I don't drink alcohol
I went through a craft beewine/cheese/cured meat phase for about 10 years, but gave these up not long after I gave up eating meat or other animal products. I've spent 0 cents on these foods in the past 2 years.
When I was a regular drinker, beers at the pub used to be $7.50 for Tooheys/Resches/Carlton Draught and $9.50 for the likes of Balter, Pirate Life, Feral, but I believe they cost up to $12.50. No thanks.
4) I don't buy coffee or eat in cafes.
I went through a trendy cafe phase in my 20s and 30s, and thought nothing of paying $24 for a cafe breakfast and $4.50 for a large flat white. Now I make my own coffee at home. I buy green beans at a cost for $12 per kg and roast them myself (I bought a coffee roaster for $950 four years ago which has paid for itself many times over), and use 10g of coffee per cup, which works out to be 12 cents per cup. My soy milk costs $2 per litre, and I use around 150mL per cup of coffee, at a cost of 30c per cup. So my coffee costs around 42 cents to make.
I haven't eaten in a cafe for about 5 years now.
5) I almost never order in, or get takeaway
Not that there are many good plant based meal delivery/takeaway options out there anyway, and I find ordering in/takeaway meals to be expensive, unsatisfying, lacking in substance and not worth the cost. I avoid refined sugar and there is far too much in most takeaway meals for my liking. I eat them begrudgingly, occasionally (when my wife orders them).
The cost of a meal is the cost of material, labour, business insurance, electricity/gas, rent, advertising, accounting + the profits.
The cost of my own meals are the cost of the materials + gas/electricity. Huge difference.
I honestly enjoy my own meals more.
6) My fitness routine is free
I don't go to the gym. I do 100 pushups, 20 pull-ups, and 50 sit-ups every day (without fail). I also run a total of 15-20km weekly, and enter 2 marathons a year at a cost of around $100-140 per event. My running shoes cost me around $120-140 every 18-24 months.
7) My entertainment costs very little
I pay $120 per year for a Disney+ subscription, mainly for my children. It has more content than I could watch in my lifetime. We do a Family Movie Night once a week, usually Disney/Pixar animation films.
I also watch stuff on Youtube, and don't pay anything to skip ads or anything.
I have been to the cinema twice in the last 7 years, to see the latest James Bond and Top Gun 2. I stopped going to the movies regularly when the cost of a movie ticket hit $20, also around the time streaming services became available for $10 a month.
8) I don't use heating in winter or cooling in summer.
I am rugged in up 4 layers at the moment. I wear a thermal top, a knitted top, a polar fleece jacket and then an Oodie on top.
In summer I don't use the air con. It's singlets and shorts in summer, and when it gets too hot to sleep, it's a fan on timer to switch off after 1 hour, and it works every time.
I live in a townhouse and pay around $200 per quarter for electricity (for a family of 4). My next door neighbour pays $800 per quarter, as he heats/cools his home all the time.
9) I don't spend much money on clothes or shoes
My favourite clothing brand is yd, my socks are from Target and my shoes are $120 Adidas sneakers.
I have clothes and shoes for every weather and every occasion, and don't buy new clothes or shoes unless I'm replacing old ones to be thrown out.
10) I don't spend much money on the latest tech.
My hp laptop cost me $1200 in 2017. Still runs like new, and unlikely to need an upgrade for another 5 years. My phone is a Samsung S20 FE, which I bought 2.5 years ago for $750.
My Galaxy tablet cost me $280 earlier this year. I buy a new one every 5 years on average.
I can't fathom paying $3000 for a 14 inch Macbook, $1500 for an iPad, or $1400 for an iPhone.
My mobile plan is through a cheap provider at $25 per month.
So there you have it, the reasons why I believe I spend less than 90% of people while earning in the top 1%.
I'm not penny pinching or forcing myself to live like a pauper to save money while denying myself the pleasures I want. We go on overseas holidays 2-3 weeks every year, live in a nice spot in Sydney, own two luxury European cars, and own some pretty nice things.
My hobbies are reading, blogging, going out (which means exploring my favourite parts of Sydney, and taking snaps), posting on various internet forums, watching movies at home.
I grew up in a middle income household and being thrifty was instilled in me from a young age. When I was a student I lived liked a student, and when I started earning I didn't really change my spending habits.
Thanks for reading!
2023.06.10 23:35 Yankeebot Game Thread: Red Sox @ Yankees - June 10, 2023 @ 07:35 PM EDT
Red Sox @ Yankees - Sat, Jun 10
Game Status: Pre-Game - First Pitch is scheduled for 07:35 PM EDT
Links & Info
- Current conditions at Yankee Stadium: 77°F - Clear - Wind 13 mph, R To L
- TV: National: FOX
- Radio: Red Sox: WCCM 1490 AM (SP) (es), WAMG 890 AM (SP) (es), WEEI 93.7, Yankees: WADO 1280 (es), WFAN 660/101.9 FM
- MLB Gameday
- Statcast Game Preview
| ALE Rank | Team | W | L | GB (E#) | WC Rank | WC GB (E#) |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | Tampa Bay Rays | 47 | 19 | - (-) | - | - (-) |
| 2 | Baltimore Orioles | 39 | 24 | 6.5 (92) | 1 | +3.5 (-) |
| 3 | New York Yankees | 37 | 28 | 9.5 (88) | 2 | +0.5 (-) |
| 4 | Toronto Blue Jays | 36 | 29 | 10.5 (87) | 4 | 0.5 (98) |
| 5 | Boston Red Sox | 32 | 32 | 14.0 (84) | 6 | 4.0 (95) |
| Probable Pitcher (Season Stats) | Report | |
|---|---|---|
| Red Sox | Tanner Houck (3-5, 5.46 ERA, 57.2 IP) | No report posted. |
| Yankees | Domingo German (3-3, 3.69 ERA, 61.0 IP) | No report posted. |
| Red Sox Lineup vs. Germán | AVG | OPS | AB | HR | RBI | K |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| 1 Verdugo - RF | .417 | 1.379 | 12 | 1 | 1 | 1 |
| 2 Yoshida - LF | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 3 Turner, J - DH | .333 | .666 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
| 4 Devers - 3B | .136 | .435 | 22 | 0 | 0 | 9 |
| 5 Duvall - CF | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 6 Casas - 1B | .500 | 2.500 | 2 | 1 | 2 | 0 |
| 7 Arroyo - 2B | .667 | 1.667 | 3 | 0 | 0 | 0 |
| 8 McGuire - C | .500 | 1.667 | 6 | 1 | 1 | 0 |
| 9 Hernández, K - SS | .000 | .000 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 3 |
| 10 Houck - P | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| Yankees Lineup vs. Houck | AVG | OPS | AB | HR | RBI | K |
|---|---|---|---|---|---|---|
| 1 Torres - 2B | .100 | .350 | 10 | 0 | 1 | 1 |
| 2 Donaldson - 3B | .143 | .286 | 7 | 0 | 0 | 4 |
| 3 Calhoun, W - RF | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 4 Stanton - DH | .250 | .650 | 8 | 0 | 1 | 3 |
| 5 Bauers - LF | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 6 LeMahieu - 1B | .000 | .100 | 9 | 0 | 0 | 1 |
| 7 McKinney - CF | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 8 Higashioka - C | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 9 Volpe - SS | - | - | - | - | - | - |
| 10 Germán - P | - | - | - | - | - | - |
Division Scoreboard
MIN 9 @ TOR 4 - Bottom 9, 1 OutKC 1 @ BAL 4 - Top 7, 0 Outs
TEX 6 @ TB 4 - Top 6, 2 Outs
Last Updated: 06/10/2023 05:52:31 PM EDT
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2023.06.10 23:31 spasticspetsnaz Holding on by my fingernails all my life (TW SA)
Sorry in advance for the length of this post, but I can't let it all just keep festering inside. Apologies for any typos.
Life has been hell lately and it's left me dwelling on something I really need to get off my chest.
When I was 12 I began being raped by a "friends" father. I won't go into all the details, but he first used coke, then eventually meth to keep me coming back. Make me willing to degrade and humiliate me in ways I can't allow myself to recall. When they surface I drink until I'm comatose.
The rape, torture and humiliation ended when I turned 14. By that time his wife had left him, taking his son along with her. To this day I don't know if I'll hug him if I see him or beat him to death.
In any case, that made him spiral, he'd always been a "functional" addict. Good at feigning normalcy while a monster his behind the mask. That mask wasn't on when I was with him. He nearly killed me strangling me with a silk scarf multiple times. Stuck needles in my feet. Between my fingers, sodomized me with objects when he was too high to rape me himself. Every session ended with him giving me something to keep me high till the next time. Like clockwork, when I ran out, I went over and he was literally expecting me.
This time was a bit different. He told me to come over the very next night. (I usually went over between 10 and midnight and snuck back in at 3 or 4. I always came in through the back patio door, but it was usually closed, unlocked, but closed. Tonight it was wide open. He didn't like me speaking unless told to, so I silently went through the house. It didn't take long to find him in the bathroom, dead. He'd overdosed. I didn't even touch his body. I just left.
I left in tears, sobbing. Because he'd fucked up my perception of love and intimacy that I genuinely thought he was my lover. Not my rapist, not my sadist.
I was saved, I was finally safe. I was also heartbroken and suicidal. When I got home, I tried to cut off my own penis with a pair of scissors but only ended up with a slice and a lot of blood. Then the detoxing started. After 2 years of stimulants and forcibly going cold turkey with only a basic understanding of what was happening to me. I was a wreck. I'd leave the house all day and just hide away from people crying in drainage ditches or off trail at a nearby park.
This all happened at the beginning of summer, by the time school started again, I was able to stay stable with the help of copious amounts of weed and Robitussin.
But it was my secret, my burden. My parents never knew, my friends never new. And I quieted the trauma by immersing myself in things that interested me. Easier to not think about yourself when your mind is focused on history, or physics, or world religions. It worked for far longer than it should have. But there was a darkness I was keeping at bay. I craved the feeling of being used, being hurt, being humiliated, being raped with no ability to fight back.
I liked women, and men, but I never pursued relationships because I could never trust myself enough to be who I wanted to be around others. Some of those friends I wanted to become lovers I pushed away and burned the bridges I had between them, all because I hated who I was, who I still am to this day.
Eventually I got sober before the drinking killed me. I opened up to my family about what happened, got therapy, got medicated. I even found kink communities I can enjoy myself at from time to time.
But in spite of all this positive progress, I still feel trapped. Destined to a life where the best I can hope for is being kinda okay most days.
Be comfortable being a deviant and damaged goods. And most of the time that's okay with me.
Now I'm not so sure. A dear member of my family nearly died and will be in the ICU for months in total before and after receiving a heart transplant. During the transplant she had a stroke and can now barely speak. It's killing my father taking care of her but he's too stoic to be vulnerable.
Then last week I got a massive amount of dental work done, 13 teeth pulled and 2 bridges. Less than a week later my backpack was stolen with the bridges inside. $3000 worth of dental work gone in an instant and it feels insignificant compared with everything else in my life.
Everything is fucked up and the world's on fire, and at times like this, all I can think of is the last time everything was fucked up and my world was on fire. I feel like I'm hanging on by my fingernails and I just want to let go. Grab a handle of vodka and jump in front of a train.
But I have a family that loves me in spite of all these scars, inside and out. I have nieces and nephews I want to watch grow up and have a normal happy life. One where there's not a monster of self destruction lurking deep inside. People I can guide away from my own mistakes, protect from the monsters that left me black inside.
But it's so hard right now. I never thought I'd say this, but I want to go back to just being depressed. Feeling nothing but emptiness is so much better than this.
So for now I just try to keep moving, day by day, hoping it gets better. I wish I was doing it for myself, but it's for all the others in my life. My mom, my father, my stepfather, all the kids in my life who I can be a positive influence on. I genuinely don't care about my own life, but I care about hurting them. But I just don't know how long that will be enough to keep me going.
Anyway, if you've read this far, thank you and I'm sorry. I'm not looking for advice. I just needed to put all this shit into words. Something about doing so helps.
To end this, all I can say is hold onto the ones you love. Sometimes they're the only ones keeping you from falling into that void. You matter to them, even when you don't matter to yourself.
That's all, Im off, I need a cigarette.
submitted by spasticspetsnaz to TrueOffMyChest [link] [comments]
Life has been hell lately and it's left me dwelling on something I really need to get off my chest.
When I was 12 I began being raped by a "friends" father. I won't go into all the details, but he first used coke, then eventually meth to keep me coming back. Make me willing to degrade and humiliate me in ways I can't allow myself to recall. When they surface I drink until I'm comatose.
The rape, torture and humiliation ended when I turned 14. By that time his wife had left him, taking his son along with her. To this day I don't know if I'll hug him if I see him or beat him to death.
In any case, that made him spiral, he'd always been a "functional" addict. Good at feigning normalcy while a monster his behind the mask. That mask wasn't on when I was with him. He nearly killed me strangling me with a silk scarf multiple times. Stuck needles in my feet. Between my fingers, sodomized me with objects when he was too high to rape me himself. Every session ended with him giving me something to keep me high till the next time. Like clockwork, when I ran out, I went over and he was literally expecting me.
This time was a bit different. He told me to come over the very next night. (I usually went over between 10 and midnight and snuck back in at 3 or 4. I always came in through the back patio door, but it was usually closed, unlocked, but closed. Tonight it was wide open. He didn't like me speaking unless told to, so I silently went through the house. It didn't take long to find him in the bathroom, dead. He'd overdosed. I didn't even touch his body. I just left.
I left in tears, sobbing. Because he'd fucked up my perception of love and intimacy that I genuinely thought he was my lover. Not my rapist, not my sadist.
I was saved, I was finally safe. I was also heartbroken and suicidal. When I got home, I tried to cut off my own penis with a pair of scissors but only ended up with a slice and a lot of blood. Then the detoxing started. After 2 years of stimulants and forcibly going cold turkey with only a basic understanding of what was happening to me. I was a wreck. I'd leave the house all day and just hide away from people crying in drainage ditches or off trail at a nearby park.
This all happened at the beginning of summer, by the time school started again, I was able to stay stable with the help of copious amounts of weed and Robitussin.
But it was my secret, my burden. My parents never knew, my friends never new. And I quieted the trauma by immersing myself in things that interested me. Easier to not think about yourself when your mind is focused on history, or physics, or world religions. It worked for far longer than it should have. But there was a darkness I was keeping at bay. I craved the feeling of being used, being hurt, being humiliated, being raped with no ability to fight back.
I liked women, and men, but I never pursued relationships because I could never trust myself enough to be who I wanted to be around others. Some of those friends I wanted to become lovers I pushed away and burned the bridges I had between them, all because I hated who I was, who I still am to this day.
Eventually I got sober before the drinking killed me. I opened up to my family about what happened, got therapy, got medicated. I even found kink communities I can enjoy myself at from time to time.
But in spite of all this positive progress, I still feel trapped. Destined to a life where the best I can hope for is being kinda okay most days.
Be comfortable being a deviant and damaged goods. And most of the time that's okay with me.
Now I'm not so sure. A dear member of my family nearly died and will be in the ICU for months in total before and after receiving a heart transplant. During the transplant she had a stroke and can now barely speak. It's killing my father taking care of her but he's too stoic to be vulnerable.
Then last week I got a massive amount of dental work done, 13 teeth pulled and 2 bridges. Less than a week later my backpack was stolen with the bridges inside. $3000 worth of dental work gone in an instant and it feels insignificant compared with everything else in my life.
Everything is fucked up and the world's on fire, and at times like this, all I can think of is the last time everything was fucked up and my world was on fire. I feel like I'm hanging on by my fingernails and I just want to let go. Grab a handle of vodka and jump in front of a train.
But I have a family that loves me in spite of all these scars, inside and out. I have nieces and nephews I want to watch grow up and have a normal happy life. One where there's not a monster of self destruction lurking deep inside. People I can guide away from my own mistakes, protect from the monsters that left me black inside.
But it's so hard right now. I never thought I'd say this, but I want to go back to just being depressed. Feeling nothing but emptiness is so much better than this.
So for now I just try to keep moving, day by day, hoping it gets better. I wish I was doing it for myself, but it's for all the others in my life. My mom, my father, my stepfather, all the kids in my life who I can be a positive influence on. I genuinely don't care about my own life, but I care about hurting them. But I just don't know how long that will be enough to keep me going.
Anyway, if you've read this far, thank you and I'm sorry. I'm not looking for advice. I just needed to put all this shit into words. Something about doing so helps.
To end this, all I can say is hold onto the ones you love. Sometimes they're the only ones keeping you from falling into that void. You matter to them, even when you don't matter to yourself.
That's all, Im off, I need a cigarette.
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2023.06.10 23:30 deeptechsharing VA – Defected New House Music June 9th 2023
Genre: Dance / Electro Pop, House, Deep House, Afro House, Tech House, Nu Disco / Disco, Melodic House & Techno, Indie Dance Label: Defected Release Date: 2023-06-09
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Tracklist: 1. Yours – DÓNDE ESTÁ (Extended Mix) (5:16) 2. &ME, Black Coffee – The Rapture Pt.III (Original Mix) (6:57) 3. Ferreck Dawn, Jena – Better (feat. Jena) (Extended Mix) (5:40) 4. FISHER (OZ), Aatig – Take It Off (Extended Mix) (5:26) 5. Catz ‘n Dogz, Lolita Leopard – Diva feat. Lolita Leopard (Extended Mix) (5:01) 6. beatsbyhand, Kali Mija – King Of My Castle (feat. Kali Mija) (Extended Mix) (6:17) 7. Jayda G – When She Dance (Original Mix) (3:22) 8. Lebedev (RU) – The First (Re-Edit) (6:05) 9. The Vision, Ben Westbeech, KON, Andreya Triana – Hallelujah In Heaven (feat. Andreya Triana) (Groove Assassin Extended Edit) (8:02) 10. CINTHIE – Won’t U Take Me (Edit) (4:08) 11. Nelly Furtado, Dom Dolla – Eat Your Man (with Nelly Furtado) (Extended) (6:13) 12. RIMARKABLE, SACRED H3ART – Complications (Extended Mix) (6:09) 13. Aluna, Chris Lake – Beggin’ (Extended Mix) (5:28) 14. Chambray, The Aston Shuffle, Liz Jai – Give It To You (Extended Mix) (4:23) 15. Cory Wells, Sharing-DB.club – Only For Kisses (Original Mix) (6:17) 16. Birdee, Alexandra Prince – Jupiter + Mars (Extended Mix) (7:06) 17. Krewcial – Owo (Original Mix) (6:17) 18. Majestic, Sara Sukkha – Dance All Night (feat. Sara Sukkha) (Extended Mix) (4:41) 19. Jansons – Nite Life (Original Mix) (5:00) 20. Bob Sinclar – Vision Of Paradise (Riva Starr Extended Remix) (6:11) 21. Superlover – Piano Pump (NiCe7 Extended Remix) (6:46) 22. Roach Motel – Wild Luv (Harry Romero Extended Remix) (7:21) 23. Josh Wink – Pan Gloss (Original Mix) (7:03) 24. China Charmeleon, AndileAndy, Ziyon – Tunnel Vision (feat. Ziyon) (Rocco Rodamaal Remix) (6:09) 25. Makez, dreamcastmoe – Phases (feat. dreamcastmoe) (dego Remix) (3:15) 26. Jungle – Dominoes (Original Mix) (2:57) 27. Kitty Amor, SomaDina – I Saw An Angel On The Roof & Wept (Kitty’s Extended Remix) (7:35) 28. Folamour – Poundland Anthem (Original Mix) (5:55) 29. Chris Stussy – All Night Long (Original Mix) (7:06) 30. Acid Jerks – Utopia Vision (Original Mix) (7:04) 31. Eddie Fowlkes – Talking To Me (Extended Mix) (5:16) 32. Jayda G – Meant To Be (Original Mix) (3:44) 33. Artist Code 414C46 & Artist Code 524F43, Artist Code 414C46, Artist Code 524F43 – In Da Hood (Extended Mix) (5:59) 34. Jan Kincl – For a Second (Cycle Dub) (7:24) 35. Jitwam, Hadiya George – phoenix (Original Mix) (2:33) 36. The Natural Curve, Polly Gibbons – I Die (Cody Currie Remix) (6:32) 37. Stefan Braatz, Virgo Four – Everyman Jack (Extended Mix) (6:11) 38. Chloé Caillet, Falle Nioke, Wekafore – In The Middle feat. Falle Nioke & Wekaforé (3:37) 39. Dames Brown, Waajeed – Glory (feat. Waajeed) (Extended Mix) (5:55) 40. HoneyLuv, Seth Troxler, Paul Johnson – Sex & The City (Dirty) (7:46) 41. Cakes Da Killa – Luv Me Nots (DJ Minx Remix) (3:28) 42. Sio, Atmos Blaq – Abandonment Issues (Extended Mix) (6:08) 43. Tobirus Mozelle, Tasty Lopez, GIDEÖN – Brighter Day (Original Mix) (9:56) 44. Jasper James – What You Say (Original Mix) (5:15) 45. Mihalis Safras, Yvan Genkins – Las Solteras (Extended Mix) (5:15) 46. Radio Slave – Wake Up (Extended) (10:32) 47. MD X-Spress – God Made Me Phunky (Jess Bays Extended Remix) (7:23) 48. Butch, Nic Fanciulli – I Want You (Extended Mix) (8:30) 49. Made By Pete, Zoe Kypri – Horizon Red (Black Coffee Remix) (9:25) 50. Intr0beatz – Can’t Wait To Meet You (Original Mix) (7:54)
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Tracklist: 1. Yours – DÓNDE ESTÁ (Extended Mix) (5:16) 2. &ME, Black Coffee – The Rapture Pt.III (Original Mix) (6:57) 3. Ferreck Dawn, Jena – Better (feat. Jena) (Extended Mix) (5:40) 4. FISHER (OZ), Aatig – Take It Off (Extended Mix) (5:26) 5. Catz ‘n Dogz, Lolita Leopard – Diva feat. Lolita Leopard (Extended Mix) (5:01) 6. beatsbyhand, Kali Mija – King Of My Castle (feat. Kali Mija) (Extended Mix) (6:17) 7. Jayda G – When She Dance (Original Mix) (3:22) 8. Lebedev (RU) – The First (Re-Edit) (6:05) 9. The Vision, Ben Westbeech, KON, Andreya Triana – Hallelujah In Heaven (feat. Andreya Triana) (Groove Assassin Extended Edit) (8:02) 10. CINTHIE – Won’t U Take Me (Edit) (4:08) 11. Nelly Furtado, Dom Dolla – Eat Your Man (with Nelly Furtado) (Extended) (6:13) 12. RIMARKABLE, SACRED H3ART – Complications (Extended Mix) (6:09) 13. Aluna, Chris Lake – Beggin’ (Extended Mix) (5:28) 14. Chambray, The Aston Shuffle, Liz Jai – Give It To You (Extended Mix) (4:23) 15. Cory Wells, Sharing-DB.club – Only For Kisses (Original Mix) (6:17) 16. Birdee, Alexandra Prince – Jupiter + Mars (Extended Mix) (7:06) 17. Krewcial – Owo (Original Mix) (6:17) 18. Majestic, Sara Sukkha – Dance All Night (feat. Sara Sukkha) (Extended Mix) (4:41) 19. Jansons – Nite Life (Original Mix) (5:00) 20. Bob Sinclar – Vision Of Paradise (Riva Starr Extended Remix) (6:11) 21. Superlover – Piano Pump (NiCe7 Extended Remix) (6:46) 22. Roach Motel – Wild Luv (Harry Romero Extended Remix) (7:21) 23. Josh Wink – Pan Gloss (Original Mix) (7:03) 24. China Charmeleon, AndileAndy, Ziyon – Tunnel Vision (feat. Ziyon) (Rocco Rodamaal Remix) (6:09) 25. Makez, dreamcastmoe – Phases (feat. dreamcastmoe) (dego Remix) (3:15) 26. Jungle – Dominoes (Original Mix) (2:57) 27. Kitty Amor, SomaDina – I Saw An Angel On The Roof & Wept (Kitty’s Extended Remix) (7:35) 28. Folamour – Poundland Anthem (Original Mix) (5:55) 29. Chris Stussy – All Night Long (Original Mix) (7:06) 30. Acid Jerks – Utopia Vision (Original Mix) (7:04) 31. Eddie Fowlkes – Talking To Me (Extended Mix) (5:16) 32. Jayda G – Meant To Be (Original Mix) (3:44) 33. Artist Code 414C46 & Artist Code 524F43, Artist Code 414C46, Artist Code 524F43 – In Da Hood (Extended Mix) (5:59) 34. Jan Kincl – For a Second (Cycle Dub) (7:24) 35. Jitwam, Hadiya George – phoenix (Original Mix) (2:33) 36. The Natural Curve, Polly Gibbons – I Die (Cody Currie Remix) (6:32) 37. Stefan Braatz, Virgo Four – Everyman Jack (Extended Mix) (6:11) 38. Chloé Caillet, Falle Nioke, Wekafore – In The Middle feat. Falle Nioke & Wekaforé (3:37) 39. Dames Brown, Waajeed – Glory (feat. Waajeed) (Extended Mix) (5:55) 40. HoneyLuv, Seth Troxler, Paul Johnson – Sex & The City (Dirty) (7:46) 41. Cakes Da Killa – Luv Me Nots (DJ Minx Remix) (3:28) 42. Sio, Atmos Blaq – Abandonment Issues (Extended Mix) (6:08) 43. Tobirus Mozelle, Tasty Lopez, GIDEÖN – Brighter Day (Original Mix) (9:56) 44. Jasper James – What You Say (Original Mix) (5:15) 45. Mihalis Safras, Yvan Genkins – Las Solteras (Extended Mix) (5:15) 46. Radio Slave – Wake Up (Extended) (10:32) 47. MD X-Spress – God Made Me Phunky (Jess Bays Extended Remix) (7:23) 48. Butch, Nic Fanciulli – I Want You (Extended Mix) (8:30) 49. Made By Pete, Zoe Kypri – Horizon Red (Black Coffee Remix) (9:25) 50. Intr0beatz – Can’t Wait To Meet You (Original Mix) (7:54)
2023.06.10 23:30 italkwithgod You read it right, God talks to me
I'm not insane, sane enough to know it sounds insane to say God speaks to me. It's real though.
It all started when I was injured as a young man and actually died a few times. It seem I was wanted here though. For 40 years I thought it was a drug induced delusion. I was on a lot of meds then.
But, it happened again last year during a major health scare. Same guy showed up. Doctors say I'm not delusional, just normal crazy. The hold my beer and watch this kind of crazy.
If you're wondering, to me God looks like Mr. Natural. I posted an image that sort of looks like what he looks like. Yep, bizarre. I know. Still it happens, several times a week he just shows up. Sometimes when I'm on the toilet.
I have no insight into future events, we simply talk. Sometimes about the weather, sometimes the events of the day. We talk about the Bible, he didn't write it, BTW. He likes most of the New Testament, it's close to the truth he said. As far as the Old Testament? I'll just say even he likes lobster and shellfish.
We talk about the past and all the paths individuals and humanity as a whole has had a choice to take. Most of us are not smart when choosing the right path. I sure wasn't, he laughed about my antics. He says I'm on the right one now but that can change, for anyone anytime.
It did for the televangelists and tithe crowd. He spoke to most of them, long ago. Since then they have ventured off the path. He no longer speaks to them and said they are lying if they claim so. As far as he is concerned, if you want to help these people enrich themselves more than actually helping others, we all have free choice and it's their money to give away.
God doesn't mind if you live a nice life with a little extra cash on hand. He said it is what you do with the the bulk. Keeping people fed and clothed is important. Everyone has to eat in order to survive. It is about your attitude on life as well. He likes people who go out of their way not to step on ants.
You may wonder why he talks to me. I do too. According to him, I'm easy to talk to and I ask the right questions. Not that he gives answers most of the time.
One thing he was adamant about is, when I do start to speak of him or make videos about him, do not pee on people's legs and say its a warm rain. So many ministers do that behind the pulpit, the vast majority unknowingly do this. God doesn't care for liars about him. That is a bigger insult to him than anything else.
He doesn't cause tornados, hurricanes, or floods. They occur naturally. He cries when deaths occur in these disasters. War is another thing he cries over. It will never stop until people become accepting of others. War is man made. Not his idea.
I will try to post daily and after our talks.
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It all started when I was injured as a young man and actually died a few times. It seem I was wanted here though. For 40 years I thought it was a drug induced delusion. I was on a lot of meds then.
But, it happened again last year during a major health scare. Same guy showed up. Doctors say I'm not delusional, just normal crazy. The hold my beer and watch this kind of crazy.
If you're wondering, to me God looks like Mr. Natural. I posted an image that sort of looks like what he looks like. Yep, bizarre. I know. Still it happens, several times a week he just shows up. Sometimes when I'm on the toilet.
I have no insight into future events, we simply talk. Sometimes about the weather, sometimes the events of the day. We talk about the Bible, he didn't write it, BTW. He likes most of the New Testament, it's close to the truth he said. As far as the Old Testament? I'll just say even he likes lobster and shellfish.
We talk about the past and all the paths individuals and humanity as a whole has had a choice to take. Most of us are not smart when choosing the right path. I sure wasn't, he laughed about my antics. He says I'm on the right one now but that can change, for anyone anytime.
It did for the televangelists and tithe crowd. He spoke to most of them, long ago. Since then they have ventured off the path. He no longer speaks to them and said they are lying if they claim so. As far as he is concerned, if you want to help these people enrich themselves more than actually helping others, we all have free choice and it's their money to give away.
God doesn't mind if you live a nice life with a little extra cash on hand. He said it is what you do with the the bulk. Keeping people fed and clothed is important. Everyone has to eat in order to survive. It is about your attitude on life as well. He likes people who go out of their way not to step on ants.
You may wonder why he talks to me. I do too. According to him, I'm easy to talk to and I ask the right questions. Not that he gives answers most of the time.
One thing he was adamant about is, when I do start to speak of him or make videos about him, do not pee on people's legs and say its a warm rain. So many ministers do that behind the pulpit, the vast majority unknowingly do this. God doesn't care for liars about him. That is a bigger insult to him than anything else.
He doesn't cause tornados, hurricanes, or floods. They occur naturally. He cries when deaths occur in these disasters. War is another thing he cries over. It will never stop until people become accepting of others. War is man made. Not his idea.
I will try to post daily and after our talks.
2023.06.10 23:26 Melty-Snowman 35m introvert looking for daily long term text friends
Where's my fellow introverts at? Or maybe an extrovert to break me out of my shell?
Could use some long term daily chats to help make the days go faster and less boring/lonely. I've always had a hard time making friends all my life. Having awkward social skills and lack of a brain filter will do that top of other issues. Sometimes I'm not super chatty and my answers can be short or concise and that off puts some people because they think I don't care or am uninterested which isn't true. I'm tired of being ghosted. Shit sucks everytime.
A little about me, I work in shitty retail. Can barely afford to breath most days. Working retail has made me pretty pessimistic and negative to the world when you get treated like shit daily. I like watching tv whether streaming, wrestling or basketball. I play video games occasionally, have a Nintendo switch and would love some new friends there, enjoy going on walks weather permitting and enjoy going to thrift stores.
If you've read this long please message me. I have discord as well since reddit sucks mostly for chat
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Could use some long term daily chats to help make the days go faster and less boring/lonely. I've always had a hard time making friends all my life. Having awkward social skills and lack of a brain filter will do that top of other issues. Sometimes I'm not super chatty and my answers can be short or concise and that off puts some people because they think I don't care or am uninterested which isn't true. I'm tired of being ghosted. Shit sucks everytime.
A little about me, I work in shitty retail. Can barely afford to breath most days. Working retail has made me pretty pessimistic and negative to the world when you get treated like shit daily. I like watching tv whether streaming, wrestling or basketball. I play video games occasionally, have a Nintendo switch and would love some new friends there, enjoy going on walks weather permitting and enjoy going to thrift stores.
If you've read this long please message me. I have discord as well since reddit sucks mostly for chat
2023.06.10 23:22 Several-Date4809 The man, The Myth, The Legend, There's no better handicapper than PLATINUMTIPS__BK on INSTAGRAM.. Thank you man, This is indeed my biggest win for the month 🙏☺️
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2023.06.10 23:20 mdvdstoneking Starting Wegovy 1mg
Hi, all. New to the sub, just took my first dose of Wegovy on Thursday evening. Started at 1mg after waiting almost two months for my preferred starting dose (.5mg) to be available. Not ideal, but I was way too eager to wait any longer. PCP advised my side effects might be increased at the higher dose — and what I read here honestly had me pretty scared. But I have to say, it honestly hasn’t been that bad so far.
The first day (yesterday) was admittedly rough. The nausea was about a 7 out of 10 and hit as soon as I got up. It stayed pretty steady throughout the day and made even drinking water difficult. But by yesterday evening, I was actually feeling much better and was able to hydrate and drink a protein shake. Woke up this morning (day 2) with a very mild headache — which could be from the weather — and my stomach feeling fine.
Sticking to high protein lighter meals the next few days, and keeping my fingers crossed things stay steady/stable the rest of the week!
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The first day (yesterday) was admittedly rough. The nausea was about a 7 out of 10 and hit as soon as I got up. It stayed pretty steady throughout the day and made even drinking water difficult. But by yesterday evening, I was actually feeling much better and was able to hydrate and drink a protein shake. Woke up this morning (day 2) with a very mild headache — which could be from the weather — and my stomach feeling fine.
Sticking to high protein lighter meals the next few days, and keeping my fingers crossed things stay steady/stable the rest of the week!
2023.06.10 23:18 Several-Date4809 The man, The Myth, The Legend, There's no better handicapper than PLATINUM TIPS__BK on INSTAGRAM.. Thank you man, This is indeed my biggest win for the month 🙏☺️
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2023.06.10 23:18 JoshAsdvgi The Snake With the Big Feet
 | submitted by JoshAsdvgi to Native_Stories [link] [comments] The Snake With the Big Feet Long ago, in that far-off happy time when the world was new, and there were no white people at all, only Indians and animals, there was a snake who was different from other snakes. He had feet-big feet. And the other snakes, because he was different, hated him, and made life wretched for him. Finally, they drove him away from the country where the snakes lived, saying, "A good long way from here live other ugly creatures with feet like yours. Go and live with them!" And the poor, unhappy Snake had to go away. For days and days, he travelled. The weather grew cold and food became hard to find. At last, exhausted, his feet cut and frostbitten, he lay down on the bank of a river to die. The Deer, E-se-ko-to-ye, looked out of a willow thicket, and saw the Snake lying on the river bank. Pitying him, the deer took the Snake into his own lodge and gave him food and medicine for his bleeding feet. The Deer told the Snake that there were indeed creatures with feet like his who would befriend him, but that some among these would be enemies whom it would be necessary to kill before he could reach safety. He showed the Snake how to make a shelter for protection from the cold and taught him how to make moccasins of deerskin to protect his feet. And at dawn the Snake continued his journey. The sun was far down the western sky, and it was bitter cold when the Snake made camp the next night. As he gathered boughs for a shelter, Kais-kap the porcupine appeared. Shivering, the Porcupine asked him, "Will you give me shelter in your lodge for the night?" The Snake said, "It's very little that I have, but you are welcome to share it." "I am grateful," said Kais-kap, "and perhaps I can do something for you. Those are beautiful moccasins, brother, but they do not match your skin. Take some of my quills, and make a pattern on them, for good luck." So they worked a pattern on the moccasins with the porcupine quills, and the Snake went on his way again. As the Deer had told him, he met enemies. Three times he was challenged by hostile Indians, and three times he killed his adversary. At last he met an Indian who greeted him in a friendly manner. The Snake had no gifts for this kindly chief, so he gave him the moccasins. And that, so the old Ones say, was how our people first learned to make moccasins of deerskin, and to ornament them with porcupine quills in patterns, like those on the back of a snake. And from that day on the Snake lived in the lodge of the chief, counting his coup of scalps with the warriors by the Council fire and, for a long time, was happy. But the chief had a daughter who was beautiful and kind, and the Snake came to love her very much indeed. He wished that he were human, so that he might marry the maiden, and have his own lodge. He knew there was no hope of this unless the High Gods, the Above Spirits took pity on him, and would perform a miracle on his behalf. But the chief had a daughter who was beautiful and kind, and the Snake came to love her very much indeed. He wished that he were human, so that he might marry the maiden, and have his own lodge. He knew there was no hope of this unless the High Gods, the Above Spirits took pity on him, and would perform a miracle on his behalf. So he fasted and prayed for many, many days. But all his fasting and praying had no result, and at last the Snake came very ill. Now, in the tribe, there was a very highly skilled Medicine Man. Mo'ki-ya was an old man, so old that he had seen and known, and understood, everything that came within the compass of his people's lives, and many things that concerned the Spirits. Many times, his lodge was seen to sway with the Ghost Wind, and the voices of those long gone on to the Sand Hills spoke to him. Mo'ki-ya came to where the Snake lay in the chief's lodge, and sending all the others away, asked the Snake what his trouble was. "It is beyond even your magic," said the Snake, but he told Mo'ki-ya about his love for the maiden, and his desire to become a man so that he could marry her. Mo'ki-ya sat quietly thinking for a while. Then he said, "I shall go on a journey, brother. Perhaps my magic can help, perhaps not. We shall see when I return." And he gathered his medicine bundles and disappeared. It was a long and fearsome journey that Mo'ki-ya made. He went to the shores of a great lake. He climbed a high mountain, and he took the matter to Nato'se, the Sun himself. And Nato'se listened, for this man stood high in the regard of the spirits, and his medicine was good. He did not ask, and never had asked, for anything for himself, and to transform the Snake into a brave of the tribe was not a difficult task for the High Gods. The third day after the arrival of Mo'ki-ya at the Sun's abode, Nato'se said to him, "Return to your own lodge Mo'ki-ya, and build a fire of small sticks. Put many handfuls of sweet-grass on the fire, and when the smoke rises thickly, lay the body of the Snake in the middle of it." And Mo'ki-ya came back to his own land. The fire was built in the centre of the Medicine lodge, as the Sun had directed, and when the sweetgrass smouldered among the embers, sending the smoke rolling in great billows through the tepee, Mo'ki-ya gently lifted the Snake, now very nearly dead, and placed him in the fire so that he was hidden by the smoke. The Medicine-drum whispered softly in the dusk of the lodge: the chant of the old men grew a little louder, and then the smoke obscuring the fire parted like a curtain, and a young man stepped out. Great were the rejoicings in the camp that night. The Snake, now a handsome young brave, was welcomed into the tribe with the ceremonies befitting the reception of one shown to be high in the favour of the spirits. The chief gladly gave him his daughter, happy to have a son law of such distinction. Many brave sons and beautiful daughters blessed the lodge of the Snake and at last, so the Old ones say, his family became a new tribe-the Pe-sik-na-ta-pe, or Snake Indians. |
2023.06.10 23:11 Physical-Solid7173 Hey guys! Two of my friends bailed on the Martin garrix show on Wednesday. Selling two tickets! $80 each
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2023.06.10 23:10 AnarchyAcid New PC coming soon
I am just so excited and don’t have anyone to share the news with. It’s been 14 years since I got a brand new computer, and 7 since my graphics card was replaced. I’ve been running my beautiful Frankenstein’s Monster parted out PC for ages, and it’s finally to the point my sad old GTX 1050 ti, just can’t run new games at a decent quality.
My husband and I talked it over, and last night we ordered my new PC. It won’t be here for 10 days, but I am so excited for all the games I can play now (Bonus: it’s coming with Diablo IV for “free”, like anything is free when you spend that kind of money on a computer 🤣).
The countdown to my GTX 4080 is going to feel like forever.
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My husband and I talked it over, and last night we ordered my new PC. It won’t be here for 10 days, but I am so excited for all the games I can play now (Bonus: it’s coming with Diablo IV for “free”, like anything is free when you spend that kind of money on a computer 🤣).
The countdown to my GTX 4080 is going to feel like forever.
2023.06.10 23:10 harleybitxz Contemplating this year, while burning with frustration
It's 2am and I am so sleepy rn but due to no fuckin electricity in my area, I am left to rot in this hot weather with not even a fan, but this doesn't even feel hard to me for some reason. This year has been the worse out of all, I've lived so far.
My year started with my dad getting admitted to hospital because his old symptoms from 3 years started resurfacing. In January I had my jee mains which I terribly failed, next I spent my entire February/March studying for boards. My mother met with an accident and severely injured her leg, and was at bedrest for a month. It's time like this when you understand how hard mothers actually work, I would do less than half what she did, and still get tired. In April I fucked my jee second attempt too. Making my confidence go completely spiralling down. I spent most of my April taking care of my mother. It's may, and my cousin got diagnosed with schizophrenia, as absurd as it sounds, it took my family quite a while to actually accept a mental disorder as a real problem and make efforts to get help for her. Now it's time, my family moves in a different place. Just 2 days before moving in, I wake up to my dad screaming in pain, truly one of the most horrifying sight I ever saw. He was rushed to the hospital, where doctor said he has kidney stones and would require an operation. Now we're moved in, and my mother starts to feel something weird around her eye and had to go see a doctor, who told her she requires an eye surgery cause there is some new flesh building up in the cornea
I've shed too many tears this year, wondering why is God being so cruel to my family. I've been also trying to be consistent with my studies but I truly am a mediocre student and perhaps this is the best of my ability. I do know with some more efforts I can do better but I can't bring myself to put anymore efforts, I am truly tired of studying the same thing since January and attempting so many exams and mocks only to see Little to no improvement. I don't even want to continue studies anymore, I just want all this around me to stop and everything become normal as it was before.
Wrote this while covered in sweat, feeling absolutely nothing and waiting for this night to end or for power to return
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My year started with my dad getting admitted to hospital because his old symptoms from 3 years started resurfacing. In January I had my jee mains which I terribly failed, next I spent my entire February/March studying for boards. My mother met with an accident and severely injured her leg, and was at bedrest for a month. It's time like this when you understand how hard mothers actually work, I would do less than half what she did, and still get tired. In April I fucked my jee second attempt too. Making my confidence go completely spiralling down. I spent most of my April taking care of my mother. It's may, and my cousin got diagnosed with schizophrenia, as absurd as it sounds, it took my family quite a while to actually accept a mental disorder as a real problem and make efforts to get help for her. Now it's time, my family moves in a different place. Just 2 days before moving in, I wake up to my dad screaming in pain, truly one of the most horrifying sight I ever saw. He was rushed to the hospital, where doctor said he has kidney stones and would require an operation. Now we're moved in, and my mother starts to feel something weird around her eye and had to go see a doctor, who told her she requires an eye surgery cause there is some new flesh building up in the cornea
I've shed too many tears this year, wondering why is God being so cruel to my family. I've been also trying to be consistent with my studies but I truly am a mediocre student and perhaps this is the best of my ability. I do know with some more efforts I can do better but I can't bring myself to put anymore efforts, I am truly tired of studying the same thing since January and attempting so many exams and mocks only to see Little to no improvement. I don't even want to continue studies anymore, I just want all this around me to stop and everything become normal as it was before.
Wrote this while covered in sweat, feeling absolutely nothing and waiting for this night to end or for power to return
2023.06.10 23:09 wrongleveeeeeeer Just reorganized my bookshelf and wanted to show off the collection
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2023.06.10 23:08 jnsanders1983 He thought it was an easy WIN
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2023.06.10 23:05 subredditsummarybot Your weekly /r/newyorkislanders roundup for the week of June 03 - June 09
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2023.06.10 23:00 jokerumbrella Question from me to the community
Hello everyone. I’d like to share my story to give everyone an idea on my experience.
Obviously like every other guy on the planet, I was born with a foreskin that I didn’t have removed until I was 15. I grew up with a father and still have a very healthy relationship with him and my mother at 25 currently. Due to my father not being intact he was not able to give me any advice on how to maintain or clean an intact male organ. I remember discovering masturbation at 12 and always initiated this act by pinching the foreskin and enjoying the sensitivity the skin itself had. At 14 years old I realized that being in high school, I was going to eventually have sexual interactions as this is a natural phase that EVERYONE male (intact or not) or female usually go through (obviously this isn’t the case for every single individual but more often than not, teenagers explore sexuality at the stage of 15/16, in my days people were YOUNGER pursuing these things). Being that the realization of this subject was always on my mind I used to think to myself,”what if I revolt someone? What if they smell what I smell? Can anyone else even smell this? I can’t even pull it back! How can I get all this stuff off?” All the natural questions an intact person used to have in their teenager years. So I figured perhaps if I pulled it back or forced it slowly and gradually I can do something about it. But the smell was a new and unfavorable sensation to me, the sight was fine but I had this concern of small white/pink bumps that are considered “pearly whites”/ oil glands that every penis has including circumcised ones, me not having ANY information or idea or anyone else but a doctor to go to, I ran with the anxieties and asked the doctor about my options considering that my foreskin had successfully retracted from the tip and rubbed against my underwear or clothes which made a strong tingly sensitive sensation to the head of my penis, while the rest of the penis would constrict and get tight , the doctor only recommended me creams that could help , I got impatient and told the doctor,”I want it gone.” Not a horrible mistake of my life, but definitely a mistake I wish I didn’t make. I am content and satisfied with my penis.
So considering that I can still remember the sensation and I got cut so late, the doctor didn’t cut the entire lose skin off (my bf even sees that my penis makes a mini corn dog shape as if it’s trying to fully retract with what’s left), which upon finding foregen at 19 and researching it ever since, I know I can tug and tug and tug but there’s such a length left of what I was able to tug in the amount of time I’ve been at this, what can I do to get my foreskin back? Where do I start?
I still have frenulum, and enough slack skin to use as a smaller amount of foreskin to masturbate with , but I also am worried if it grows back and I have to do it all over again or something
I know there’s people out there who have restored but I need to be coached or guided or something. I can do it independently, but I need council from someone who is experienced and has a successful testimony. I have my doubts but I also have hope. Can anyone dm me and help me?
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Obviously like every other guy on the planet, I was born with a foreskin that I didn’t have removed until I was 15. I grew up with a father and still have a very healthy relationship with him and my mother at 25 currently. Due to my father not being intact he was not able to give me any advice on how to maintain or clean an intact male organ. I remember discovering masturbation at 12 and always initiated this act by pinching the foreskin and enjoying the sensitivity the skin itself had. At 14 years old I realized that being in high school, I was going to eventually have sexual interactions as this is a natural phase that EVERYONE male (intact or not) or female usually go through (obviously this isn’t the case for every single individual but more often than not, teenagers explore sexuality at the stage of 15/16, in my days people were YOUNGER pursuing these things). Being that the realization of this subject was always on my mind I used to think to myself,”what if I revolt someone? What if they smell what I smell? Can anyone else even smell this? I can’t even pull it back! How can I get all this stuff off?” All the natural questions an intact person used to have in their teenager years. So I figured perhaps if I pulled it back or forced it slowly and gradually I can do something about it. But the smell was a new and unfavorable sensation to me, the sight was fine but I had this concern of small white/pink bumps that are considered “pearly whites”/ oil glands that every penis has including circumcised ones, me not having ANY information or idea or anyone else but a doctor to go to, I ran with the anxieties and asked the doctor about my options considering that my foreskin had successfully retracted from the tip and rubbed against my underwear or clothes which made a strong tingly sensitive sensation to the head of my penis, while the rest of the penis would constrict and get tight , the doctor only recommended me creams that could help , I got impatient and told the doctor,”I want it gone.” Not a horrible mistake of my life, but definitely a mistake I wish I didn’t make. I am content and satisfied with my penis.
So considering that I can still remember the sensation and I got cut so late, the doctor didn’t cut the entire lose skin off (my bf even sees that my penis makes a mini corn dog shape as if it’s trying to fully retract with what’s left), which upon finding foregen at 19 and researching it ever since, I know I can tug and tug and tug but there’s such a length left of what I was able to tug in the amount of time I’ve been at this, what can I do to get my foreskin back? Where do I start?
I still have frenulum, and enough slack skin to use as a smaller amount of foreskin to masturbate with , but I also am worried if it grows back and I have to do it all over again or something
I know there’s people out there who have restored but I need to be coached or guided or something. I can do it independently, but I need council from someone who is experienced and has a successful testimony. I have my doubts but I also have hope. Can anyone dm me and help me?
2023.06.10 22:59 LittleCatChase More info
THE BANKERS' MANIFESTO
"Capital must protect itself in every way ...Debts must be collected and loans and mortgages foreclosed as soon as possible. When through a process of law the common people have lost their homes, they will be more tractable and more easily governed by the STRONG ARM OF THE LAW (Cops) applied by the central power of leading financiers. People without homes will not quarrel with their leaders. This is well known among our principle men now engaged in forming an imperialism of capitalism to govern the world. By dividing the people we can get them to expend their energies in fighting over questions of no importance to us except as TEACHERS OF THE COMMON HERD." (Taken from the Civil Servants' Year Book, "The Organizer" January 1934.)
When, fellow "Strong-Arms-of-the-Law", Americans are now losing 4,000 homes, 2,000 farms, 2,500 businesses per week to the Money Vampires who made the prior statement. Is it just a coincidence? How many homes, businesses and farms have you helped to take away from good Americans for the IRS/Banksters? For those Officers who still do not know it, "YES, THE IRS IS AN ESSENTIAL PART OF THE WORLD ORDER PLAN TO DIVEST AMERICANS OF THEIR WEALTH AND MAKE THE PEOPLE THEMSELVES PAY FOR THEIR OWN NATIONAL DESTRUCTION."
The above should make every Officer stop and think before assisting the bankers or "their" IRS government revenue agents.
It happens a thousand times a day across this land that our fellow Officers are unknowingly made a party to fraud and theft. And if you are one such Officer, then YOU unknowingly become the "executioners" for the men behind this diabolical system. Take heart, Officer. You can learn, as many others have, how to be a VAMPIRE KILLER, uphold your oath to protect the American People, and at the same time stay within the law.
MEDIA BLACKS OUT THE FACTS"BUT SURELY, IF THIS WORLD CONSPIRACY WERE TRUE I WOULD HAVE HEARD ABOUT IT IN THE DAILY NEWS!"
As in all investigations, it always comes down to, "How can we prove our case?" We personally feel it's hard to top the proof coming from the mouths of the very ones involved in this treacherous un-American program. Here's one terrific example. John Swinton, the former Chief of Staff for the New York Times, was one of America's best loved newspapermen. Called by his peers "The Dean of his Profession", John was asked in 1953 to give a toast before the New York Press Club, and in so doing made a monumentally important and revealing statement. He is quoted as follows:
"There is no such thing, at this date of the world's history, in America as an independent press. You know it and I know it. There is not one of you who dares to write your honest opinions, and if you did, you know beforehand that it would never appear in print. I am paid weekly for keeping my honest opinions out of the paper I am connected with. Others of you are paid similar salaries for similar things, and any of you who would be so foolish as to write honest opinions would be out on the streets looking for another job. If I allowed my honest opinions to appear in one issue of my paper, before twenty-four hours my occupation would be gone. The business of the journalists is to destroy the truth; to lie outright; to pervert; to vilify; to fawn at the feet of mammon, and to sell his country and his race for his daily bread. You know it and I know it and what folly is this toasting an independent press? We are the tools and vassals of rich men behind the scenes. We are jumping jacks, they pull the strings and we dance. Our talents, our possibilities and our lives are all the property of other men. We are intellectual prostitutes."
Hard to believe? If there is any doubt -- read on.
RICHARD M. COHAN, Senior Producer of CBS political news said: "We are going to impose OUR AGENDA on the coverage by dealing with the issues and subjects WE choose to deal with."
RICHARD SALANT, former President of CBS News stated: "Our job is to give people not what they want, but what WE decide they ought to have."
And what is their "agenda"? What do they believe we, the American people THE COMMON HERD, "...ought to have"? "
Operation Vampire Killer 2000
1996
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"Capital must protect itself in every way ...Debts must be collected and loans and mortgages foreclosed as soon as possible. When through a process of law the common people have lost their homes, they will be more tractable and more easily governed by the STRONG ARM OF THE LAW (Cops) applied by the central power of leading financiers. People without homes will not quarrel with their leaders. This is well known among our principle men now engaged in forming an imperialism of capitalism to govern the world. By dividing the people we can get them to expend their energies in fighting over questions of no importance to us except as TEACHERS OF THE COMMON HERD." (Taken from the Civil Servants' Year Book, "The Organizer" January 1934.)
When, fellow "Strong-Arms-of-the-Law", Americans are now losing 4,000 homes, 2,000 farms, 2,500 businesses per week to the Money Vampires who made the prior statement. Is it just a coincidence? How many homes, businesses and farms have you helped to take away from good Americans for the IRS/Banksters? For those Officers who still do not know it, "YES, THE IRS IS AN ESSENTIAL PART OF THE WORLD ORDER PLAN TO DIVEST AMERICANS OF THEIR WEALTH AND MAKE THE PEOPLE THEMSELVES PAY FOR THEIR OWN NATIONAL DESTRUCTION."
The above should make every Officer stop and think before assisting the bankers or "their" IRS government revenue agents.
It happens a thousand times a day across this land that our fellow Officers are unknowingly made a party to fraud and theft. And if you are one such Officer, then YOU unknowingly become the "executioners" for the men behind this diabolical system. Take heart, Officer. You can learn, as many others have, how to be a VAMPIRE KILLER, uphold your oath to protect the American People, and at the same time stay within the law.
MEDIA BLACKS OUT THE FACTS"BUT SURELY, IF THIS WORLD CONSPIRACY WERE TRUE I WOULD HAVE HEARD ABOUT IT IN THE DAILY NEWS!"
As in all investigations, it always comes down to, "How can we prove our case?" We personally feel it's hard to top the proof coming from the mouths of the very ones involved in this treacherous un-American program. Here's one terrific example. John Swinton, the former Chief of Staff for the New York Times, was one of America's best loved newspapermen. Called by his peers "The Dean of his Profession", John was asked in 1953 to give a toast before the New York Press Club, and in so doing made a monumentally important and revealing statement. He is quoted as follows:
"There is no such thing, at this date of the world's history, in America as an independent press. You know it and I know it. There is not one of you who dares to write your honest opinions, and if you did, you know beforehand that it would never appear in print. I am paid weekly for keeping my honest opinions out of the paper I am connected with. Others of you are paid similar salaries for similar things, and any of you who would be so foolish as to write honest opinions would be out on the streets looking for another job. If I allowed my honest opinions to appear in one issue of my paper, before twenty-four hours my occupation would be gone. The business of the journalists is to destroy the truth; to lie outright; to pervert; to vilify; to fawn at the feet of mammon, and to sell his country and his race for his daily bread. You know it and I know it and what folly is this toasting an independent press? We are the tools and vassals of rich men behind the scenes. We are jumping jacks, they pull the strings and we dance. Our talents, our possibilities and our lives are all the property of other men. We are intellectual prostitutes."
Hard to believe? If there is any doubt -- read on.
RICHARD M. COHAN, Senior Producer of CBS political news said: "We are going to impose OUR AGENDA on the coverage by dealing with the issues and subjects WE choose to deal with."
RICHARD SALANT, former President of CBS News stated: "Our job is to give people not what they want, but what WE decide they ought to have."
And what is their "agenda"? What do they believe we, the American people THE COMMON HERD, "...ought to have"? "
Operation Vampire Killer 2000
1996
2023.06.10 22:58 leppdog33 It’s getting crazy out there boys. Keep your beers in an iced down cooler and keep the company truck running all day long ac on full blast. Stay safe fellas
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