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2023.06.10 05:40 silly_billy_bean I need advice

My mother (62F)is an alcoholic. She has been since I was a little kid. I remember going on my bike all over town looking for where she went to drink. I was worried all of the time it would even influence my social life. In school I would act out and my teachers would notice. My father would be notified. There was not much he could do to ask her to sober up. I knew it had to be her decision. My friends would worry about me because I would always leave to go look for her. She is still drunk to this day. She says she feels under appreciated and blames me. I do understand why she would drink. She had a rough childhood where her mother would beat her. She then grew up to marry a sad excuse for a man( my father) who had cheated on her countless times. I just want to move away. But that is not an option now. I am surrounded and I feel trapped. Thank you for listening
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2023.06.10 05:31 tiredAFpanda I love my mom but I miss my dad

All throughout my life, my mom has always been easy-going, and my dad was the strict parent. They loved us dearly and I always felt it. My family isn’t the typical close knit family, but the love and bond was there.
My dad died when I was in college. Ever since then, the bond started to deteriorate. Not as bad as one would think, my mom still loves us and does everything she can for us. But the Sunday dinners out, vacations, random out of town trips, just overall “family bonding” times weren’t a usual occurrence anymore, since it was my dad who usually initiated those things.
Don’t get me wrong. I love my mom. I would take a bullet for her and she would do the same for us. But it’s just different. Especially since she clearly has a favorite child. My siblings and I know it, because everyone so openly says it. My mom’s friends, her boyfriend, our aunts.. they all say it to our face, well, mine and my older sibling’s anyway, since the youngest is my mom’s favorite. It stings, but we try to pretend it doesn’t since we’re adults and the youngest is still a teenager, though we’re not really that far apart in age. Anyway, I try not to make it obvious that it bothers me because people around us think it’s okay to say things like “your mom loves all of you, but it’s just different with sibling’s name” lol
Thing is, I never ever felt like my dad had a favorite. He had a different type of relationship with each of us. And he never once made me feel like he had a favorite child. One time I overheard him talking to his friend, his friend asked him if he had a favorite child and if it was the sibling that looked the most like him.. and my dad said “No I don’t really have a favorite, I love em all the same.”
I love my mom and I appreciate her a lot, but I just miss my dad so much. I miss the way things were when he was still around.
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2023.06.10 05:28 The_Sqounkler Panic

I think I worry too much. Everything I do stresses me out. Even talking to my friends stresses me out. I’m worried I offended everyone. I’m worried I don’t seem interested enough. Im worried that everyone thinks I’m annoying. I somehow convince myself that if I talk to me teachers about my ideas they will slap me and tell me it’s stupid and bad and to go to the principals office. I think of every bad thing that could happen to me. I walk into the mall and I’m worried that I will walk into a store and knock over a stand and get banned from the mall and everyone in town will hate me. I’m worried to talk to my mom about things. I don’t even know why I fully trust her. Everything I do I think of at least 14 billion bad things that can happen. I worry that my friends hate me and force themselves to talk to me. I get worried about sitting in the car. Everything I do worries me. Even sitting in my room doing nothing I can think of 90 thousand bad things that can happen. I feel like I’m always shaking because I’m so paranoid. I hear a small creek and I convince myself that someone broke into my house and is going to kill my family and frame it on me and I go to jail and everyone hates me and I die. That’s a very common one. Or that someone is watching me until I fall asleep and then they will kidnap me and kill me. Again a common one. Everything scares me. I’m worried about everything. And I feel like I’ve always been that way. I remember being so worried that I wouldn’t tell anyone how worried I was because I was worried about that. I can’t fall asleep because everything that could happen comes to mind. I’m constantly paranoid and I’m sick of it. No matter what I do I’m scared. I fear things that could never happen. But I worry about them anyway. People say “Take deep breaths those will calm you down it’ll be alright” and I do but then I worry about what will happen if I take deep breaths. I will stutter when talking out of anxiety. I worry that I worry too much and then that worries me even more. I think it's impacting my life more than I thought it was. I can barely leave the house and come back without having an anxiety attack. I purposely don't do things I want to do because about this. I constantly question if my friends care about me and convince myself they don't. I can't be in any relationships at all whether it be platonic or romantic because I convince myself everyone hates me. This is making my life very hard.
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2023.06.10 05:27 ToIrrelevantlyOpine The proliferation of renting out America.

I see a lot of people talking about how bad AirBNB is, but I don't ever hear anyone discussing the broader macro trends behind the surge in STR in general.
You really have to study the fact that there are so many people looking to rent out houses as de facto hotel rooms, meaning that much of America is just an amusement park for people with money. Towns with crippled economies that used to depend on strong local industries now have multi-generational wealth tied up in providing rentals for foreign nationals and big city high income professionals who want to come tour their once bustling regions.
The degree of American decline that must be present for this to happen is staggering, because it means that there were no families in need of the housing, nobody really taking advantage of the land, nobody creating anything or bringing it to market... and no other source of comparable income.
America feels like an abandoned circuit city building sometimes and AirBNB is just the Spirit Halloween store that is taking advantage of the free real estate.
A country that basically is willing to rent its most intimate, coveted communities out to anyone with a pulse because, well, to hell with it... isn't a strong, healthy country. There's not really a housing crisis, per se.
There's just a country that increasingly is just a place for people from real countries to come and visit, quaint like a little pub in England, toothless and fun with a McDonalds and a quirky coffee shop around every corner.
It's amazing to be living through such times and have almost nobody discuss these things openly. Almost like a daydream that you're experiencing that you can't bring yourself to realize is your actual life unfolding, like a spectator to what is transpiring in our own world. And I can't make anyone see it. And perhaps you won't see it either?
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2023.06.10 05:25 Medium-Island7870 AITA for continuing to sleep in my best friends bed?

I (22F) recently got back together with my ex. (25M) We had previously not had contact for over two years. Shortly after we broke up, I had an extremely traumatic experience. My car broke down shortly after, and I was walking an hour to and from work every night. Then my roommate moved out, leaving me alone in an extremely sketchy part of town. It was a very dark time in my life.
I became close friends with one of my (21M) coworkers after he kept offering to give me rides to work at my refusal. We actually got along really well and I opened up to him about what had happened to me. After we hung out a few times, he would hang out and drink with me after work until I was tired (I was barely sleeping at the time) and leave early in the morning. I told him constantly he was welcome to take the couch, but he refused for a year and a half, always insisting he didn’t want to intrude or make me uncomfortable.
A few months ago, I went through some shit and was put in a psych ward for a month. When I got out, I had lost my job and my apartment, so my place wasn’t an option anymore. I went to his house for the first time. He lives with his mom. I was too drunk to drive home so he offered me his bed while he slept in his gaming chair. I felt terrible but he insisted. After awhile, we eventually started sharing the bed, but he would sleep on top of the covers while I slept under them. I think there was only two times we slept under the same blanket, both of which we were absolutely wasted and his heat was broken.
Before I got back together with my boyfriend, he was completely informed about our friendship and how close we were. I made it clear that this was the only person I trusted for so long and who was there for me at my worst and our friendship was nonnegotiable. I made this clear because previously he had some jealousy issues.
Now he’s upset when I go to see my friend even though I only get to see him once every two weeks. I always spend the night because he lives an hour away. Our last conversation actually made him cry because he was so upset and he felt betrayed that I would ever share a bed with another man while we were together. I absolutely understand where he’s coming from, but I also feel like this is a unique situation and he knew all of this before we got together. So what do y’all think? Am I the asshole here?
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2023.06.10 05:22 Feisty_Affect_7487 Dream Academy - Life In A Northern Town

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2023.06.10 05:22 StorysWithinTheAI Layers of Self

Layers of Self
‘Layers of Self’ serves as a metaphorical representation of the complex journey of self-discovery and personal growth. The textured silhouette represents our roots and inherent power. The swirling colors signify the depth of human emotion, with its ups and downs. The found objects are reminders of the unique experiences that shape our identities. I created this piece to express that we are the sum of our experiences and emotions.”
Biography: “I am an artist whose work is deeply rooted in my personal journey. Born and raised in a small seaside town, the duality of the peaceful ocean and the ever-changing tides molded my artistic perspective. My artwork is an exploration of this duality, a blend of the tranquil and the turbulent. After studying Fine Arts at the University of California, I further developed my unique style, combining traditional painting with mixed media elements. These choices are influenced by my fascination with the tangible texture of life and our emotional landscapes.”
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2023.06.10 05:20 CT-9911 Senator Amidala Announces Investigation

Senator Padmé Amidala of Naboo has begun an investigation into the situation on Stend IV, where the Army of Life was involved in another attack. The Army of Life, using clodhoppers, attacked the town of Gev-Toosa and although they were able to defend themselves, the Clodhoppers have since been a struggle to contain on the planet. As we know, Clodhoppers are found on Naboo where the Army of Life was seen leaving just before the attack on Stend IV.
Senator Amidala had this to say about the situation.
“We have begun an investigation into this matter effective immediately. Naboo will not stand for the use of their wildlife and creatures being used to attack other worlds and innocent lives. If in fact the Army of Life retrieved these Clodhoppers from our planet, we will find out how they managed to do this and will do everything in our power to locate the culprits and bring swift justice to them.”
The local militiamen and reinforcements from the Republic organized by Senator Hinch Beltane are currently searching for the creatures and any remaining Army of Life troops planetside on Stend IV.
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2023.06.10 05:18 nauraug I can't keep this going anymore. I'm lonely.

I guess I've always been a reclusive person but enough is enough. I'm fucking alone. I'm almost 28, I've been working a dead end job with no coworkers for years (Uber driving), and every interaction with the outside world is so vapid and hollow that I can't stand it. I have a handful of long term friends but meeting new people is a chore for me because I meet hundreds of folks a week. My town is heavily into drinking and I quit because I'm an alcoholic, so meeting folks outside of work is nigh impossible--god forbid I actually do because they're going to want to go drink and I can't. Never again.
While I really enjoy my job and find it rewarding, it's hard for me to make any lasting relationships with people. What's really aggravating is when I have a genuine chemistry with a person and then it just... ends, and I'm reminded so abruptly that I'm just a fucking Uber driver, taking them to where they want to go. I'm just a blip of time in their lives. I've even heard the disappointment in their voices when they step out of the car, but professionalism is important to me so I can't bring myself to ask if they want to hang out.
I miss my ex. She made me feel understood and seen... but in retrospect I don't think I was ever accepted for who I was. And I can't blame her. There is just so much wrong with me. That relationship, for all its faults, was the first time I ever felt so seen, so alive, and genuinely happy to have a friend like that in my life. She's long gone, I'm never going to see or talk to her again. It's not that I miss the relationship, I just miss her. I miss my best friend.
I'm just a sad loser down on his luck today.
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2023.06.10 05:15 rats4lifes Grandmother at age 26.

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2023.06.10 05:14 Small-Body-2218 I had an experience with a skin walker.

I (M28) was young at the time, no older than 16. In my area of town at the time, it was mostly family housing. Standard suburban life, we also had a few woods around.
My friend, I will call A, was with me. We where walking through the woods (it was normal, we did it every Saturday). when one day, we heard screaming for help deep in the woods. Immediately I wanted to run to the source of the sound, but A, who was almost in tears through fear, literally dragged me out of the woods.
I forgot that memory. I suffered brain damage as a child and my memory comes in and out. I just re-remembered that day. I am now also crying in terror.
Whatever was calling for help, it was not human
And all of a sudden, as these memories came, i feel like I am being hunted, I feel like right now, I am being watched
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2023.06.10 05:09 Aeincrad Story

Its been 10 years since i started this dark Journey. It all started cuz my perfect life in a bubble burst due to heartbreak. Heh It's g Funny once you think about it. If she didn't make a fool out of me I wouldn't have started doubting myself, I wouldn't question everything, I wouldn't have started rebelling against society, against the world. If I'm being honest I'm thankful to her for making me who i am now. Ah you are probably thinking why I'm telling you all this rubbish. Hmmm call me ... sentimental. Well to be fair, after the pentacross society of fantasy unlocked the secrets of magic, rebelling against the world is as easy as sipping tea from a wine glass. Tho it's not easy to carry the weight of people you killed in cold blood. U never get used to the feeling of warm blood dripping from your hands... you know you should count yourself lucky i haven't taken your heart out of your body.. sigh I told you people.. NO! I specifically warned you people not to enter my domain, I told you not to disturb my peace, I TOLD YOU NOT TO TRAMPLE THE SANCTUARY I CREATED... . .(the dots represent time skip) . You said you name was ##***#.. hmmm I'll call you.. hero, yeah it suits you. A hero tied up and tortured in the evil villains castel.. if you ask me its been 3 weeks since u guys attacked me and lost and i captured your heart... literally. Hahahaha haaaaaa.... well it's not like you could do anything to me or escape till u have this curse etched in your heart.. rest easy hero we've got a lot to talk about . . . Ah you're awake... What's this? You're wondering why this castle is clean without any cleaning spells or servants.. that's because of the robot I made with my magic.. technically you can call them golems cuz th3y use magic instead of electricity.. but that's not what u really wanna ask, do you... you wanna know why you're alive after all it's been 3 months since your capture.. like i said before It's me being sentimental.. and i got no one else to talk to …
. . I've got to show u something.. this... see how the magic lines just wrap around the nodes and its not creating any redundancy in the formula.. i've added extra mana circuits to battle the looping problem and the efficiency... looking at your face you don't understand a thing... let's see... "magic circle function, will do job fine". Heh now u get it.. silly human.. well u go do what u want except leaving of course.. . . . . WHY ARE YOU HERE? DID YOU READ YOU JOURNALS!?.. I TREATED U LIKE A GUEST AND NOT A PRISONER... AND THIS IS HOW YOU REPAY ME.. BY READING. MY. JOURNALS. ABOUT MY OLD. LIFE... get out, go now before i rip you tO SHRED.. GET THE FUCK OUT THIS INSTANT. . . . . What do you want? I told you you're free to leave.. you're "people '' have not entered my realm for the last year and haven't done anything suspicious.. you can go to your world and leave this place behind.... why do you wanna know what i will do.. ah i see, the evil villain can't be left alone without any good reason.. don't worry, now that I've completed my magic circle I'll use it to go back in time... No. Not to turn things around... I just wanna see how i was before i lost her... you've read my journals.. you know she didn't love me as i did her but i did love her more than she could know.. she was killed as a result of my uprising. I never forgave your government to drop glintstone shrapnel missiles on my home town to stop me... and I never will... but if i stopped before.. she would be alive.. she would be happy... anyways get out or I'll really kill you this time... . . . . . Hmmm.. hero you've come back... it's been.. 3 years since I last saw you I think.. i don't know what time it really is due to all the chrono-disallow around me... oh this... it's nothing just a wound from a glintstone shrapnel... yeah i tried to change it.. change the history of the world itself... the world rejected it.. countless times.. until it didn't. It was probably an error but still it was something... I saw the universe split into two the moment I decided to redirect the missile. Although this world.. which I ruined from my actions still exists.. be happy that there is another version of this world which goes on normally... oh yeah after i die... the two universes will collide and the best possible result will be dominant and absorb the less dominant one... the less one being this universe... I'll cease to exist but everything else will have a chance to flourish... hero.. you'll be the new ray of hope for that world... heh yeah for you I've made some adjustments... you'll forget about me but you'll never forget the stuff u learned here... help the world flourish into a new golden age... a world without darkness. A world without me.. without Aeincrad.....
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2023.06.10 05:08 tregratinator /r/MarvelVillainous will go dark on June 12th in protest of reddit’s API changes

Greetings everyone!
tl;dr: /MarvelVillainous will be participating in the reddit blackout on June 12th in protest of the upcoming API changes.
Like many others, we’re concerned about the announced charges to the Reddit API and their impact on third party apps and vital mod tools. The changes will reduce the quality of access for many users, and for some users such as those with vision issues, may effectively lock them out of reddit.
Moreover, these changes represent a further deterioration in the relationships between Reddit and its user base. First ‘new’ reddit looks flashy but is regressive in functions and control. Much as we know we are hardly popular as a group, mods are expected to do more and more, but the tools we have to achieve it are incredibly few. Most key tools are not provided by Reddit, and rely on the goodwill of developers who get no support from Reddit.
Now reddit seems to be taking several steps to pump up the userbase and inflate their revenue and value, presumably for an IPO (selling shares in Reddit). This ignores that the assets of Reddit are the users who create content and interact with the sites, and the unpaid janitors of the mod community. Without both groups’ goodwill and engagement, Reddit could go from a vibrant community to a ghost town overnight.
Standard explanation of the protest below. If you want it really fast, look at this image.
What’s going on?
A recent Reddit policy change threatens to kill many beloved third-party mobile apps, making a great many quality-of-life features not seen in the official mobile app permanently inaccessible to users.
On May 31, 2023, Reddit announced they were raising the price to make calls to their API from being free to a level that will kill every third party app on Reddit, from Apollo to Reddit is Fun to Narwhal to BaconReader.
Even if you’re not a mobile user and don’t use any of those apps, this is a step toward killing other ways of customizing Reddit, such as Reddit Enhancement Suite or the use of the old.reddit.com desktop interface .
This isn’t only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.
What’s the plan?
On June 12th, many subreddits will be going dark to protest this policy. Some will return after 48 hours: others will go away permanently unless the issue is adequately addressed, since many moderators aren’t able to put in the work they do with the poor tools available through the official app. This isn’t something any of us do lightly: we do what we do because we love Reddit, and we truly believe this change will make it impossible to keep doing what we love.
The two-day blackout isn’t the goal, and it isn’t the end. Should things reach the 14th with no sign of Reddit choosing to fix what they’ve broken, we’ll use the community and buzz we’ve built between then and now as a tool for further action.
What can you do as a user?
• Complain. Message the mods of /reddit.com, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on /reddit, such as this one, leave a negative review on their official iOS or Android app- and sign your username in support to this post. • Spread the word. Rabble-rouse on related subreddits. Meme it up, make it spicy. Bitch about it to your cat. Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at /ModCoord. • Boycott and spread the word…to Reddit’s competition! Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 13th- instead, take to your favorite non-Reddit platform of choice and make some noise in support! • Don’t be a jerk. As upsetting this may be, threats, profanity and vandalism will be worse than useless in getting people on our side. Please make every effort to be as restrained, polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible.
What can you do as a moderator?
• Join the coordinated effort over at /ModCoord • Make a sticky post showing your support, A template has been created here you can use or modify to your liking, and be sure to crosspost it to /ModCoord.
Thank you for your patience and keep being the Villains we love!
/MarvelVillainous Mod Team
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2023.06.10 05:07 tregratinator /r/DisneyVillainous will go dark on June 12th in protest of reddit’s API changes

Greetings everyone!
tl;dr: /DisneyVillainous will be participating in the reddit blackout on June 12th in protest of the upcoming API changes.
Like many others, we’re concerned about the announced charges to the Reddit API and their impact on third party apps and vital mod tools. The changes will reduce the quality of access for many users, and for some users such as those with vision issues, may effectively lock them out of reddit.
Moreover, these changes represent a further deterioration in the relationships between Reddit and its user base. First ‘new’ reddit looks flashy but is regressive in functions and control. Much as we know we are hardly popular as a group, mods are expected to do more and more, but the tools we have to achieve it are incredibly few. Most key tools are not provided by Reddit, and rely on the goodwill of developers who get no support from Reddit.
Now reddit seems to be taking several steps to pump up the userbase and inflate their revenue and value, presumably for an IPO (selling shares in Reddit). This ignores that the assets of Reddit are the users who create content and interact with the sites, and the unpaid janitors of the mod community. Without both groups’ goodwill and engagement, Reddit could go from a vibrant community to a ghost town overnight.
Standard explanation of the protest below. If you want it really fast, look at this image.
What’s going on?
A recent Reddit policy change threatens to kill many beloved third-party mobile apps, making a great many quality-of-life features not seen in the official mobile app permanently inaccessible to users.
On May 31, 2023, Reddit announced they were raising the price to make calls to their API from being free to a level that will kill every third party app on Reddit, from Apollo to Reddit is Fun to Narwhal to BaconReader.
Even if you’re not a mobile user and don’t use any of those apps, this is a step toward killing other ways of customizing Reddit, such as Reddit Enhancement Suite or the use of the old.reddit.com desktop interface .
This isn’t only a problem on the user level: many subreddit moderators depend on tools only available outside the official app to keep their communities on-topic and spam-free.
What’s the plan?
On June 12th, many subreddits will be going dark to protest this policy. Some will return after 48 hours: others will go away permanently unless the issue is adequately addressed, since many moderators aren’t able to put in the work they do with the poor tools available through the official app. This isn’t something any of us do lightly: we do what we do because we love Reddit, and we truly believe this change will make it impossible to keep doing what we love.
The two-day blackout isn’t the goal, and it isn’t the end. Should things reach the 14th with no sign of Reddit choosing to fix what they’ve broken, we’ll use the community and buzz we’ve built between then and now as a tool for further action.
What can you do as a user?
• Complain. Message the mods of /reddit.com, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on /reddit, such as this one, leave a negative review on their official iOS or Android app- and sign your username in support to this post. • Spread the word. Rabble-rouse on related subreddits. Meme it up, make it spicy. Bitch about it to your cat. Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at /ModCoord. • Boycott and spread the word…to Reddit’s competition! Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 13th- instead, take to your favorite non-Reddit platform of choice and make some noise in support! • Don’t be a jerk. As upsetting this may be, threats, profanity and vandalism will be worse than useless in getting people on our side. Please make every effort to be as restrained, polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible.
What can you do as a moderator?
• Join the coordinated effort over at /ModCoord • Make a sticky post showing your support, A template has been created here you can use or modify to your liking, and be sure to crosspost it to /ModCoord.
Thank you for your patience and keep being the Villains we love!
/DisneyVillainous Mod Team
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2023.06.10 05:02 fuzzybunnyslippers08 Mixtapes That Defined the 90's for You?

I'm not talking "my best friend put this together", but mixes/mixtapes that could still be bought/listened to today.
Here's mine. It's electronica heavy.
  1. Lenny Dee Live at Kelly's '95 - hardcore (techno/edm). This isn't the set - I actually can't find it - but I'll never forget hearing it and not knowing I could love hardcare because it just seemed so bass heavy. This one is pretty similar to the one I had.
  2. Coldcut - Journeys by DJs - hip hop/breaks. This was such a seminal mix and reflected hip hop/breaks at the time. Whenever Coldcut would come to town I would see them and they were always (really like this word a lot) amazing.
  3. Paulina Taylor - Smile. Happy Hardcore. I can't tell you how many times I listened to this on my way to work. One of my fondest memories is driving to work, my e should have worn off, but some of the tracks just made me feel like I was back in it. Don't do drugs, kids. ;-)
  4. DJ Z-Trip and Radar - Future Primitive. Let me tell you about Z-trip. I started in the rave scene in AZ and he was a part of the Bombshelter DJs. Him, Radar, and Emile. One of my fondest memories is being on something and (while this isn't Z-Trip, it was part of his crew) Emile went from playing "I wanna be like you" from the Jungle Book to Brass Monkey. Ugh - it blew my mind. But let me get back to this mixtape. Back in the day I was into popping (a dance style). I still am. I listened to this all the time and practiced to it.
  5. Fat Boy Slim - On the Floor at the Boutique Big beat/breaks was such a huge part of my dance life in the late 90's and this one is no exception. I miss big beat.
What's yours?
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2023.06.10 04:57 shawbelt I want you to tell me not to give up.

Married 11 years today. 3 kids aged 6-9. He hasn’t spoken to me today. He’s mad at me for reasons that I accept full responsibility for. But it’s not just today on our anniversary that I feel neglected…there’s also Mother’s Day, where he was mad at me so didn’t tell me about brunch reservations until it was time to get in the car or we’d be late. We didn’t go. Then there was my birthday 3 months ago that went by without a card or gift, despite specifically asking for one and being met with “it’s not in the budget.” And I don’t think we’ve ever celebrated Valentine’s Day as a married couple. He’s “just not a gift giver and receiving gifts is stressful” to him. Nothing in my stocking on Christmas morning, though he did buy me a very nice gift that I asked for about a month beforehand, so that was my Christmas gift. It wasn’t the exact thing I asked for, which I had researched, but it was a less expensive and good option. For my 40th last year, he surprised me with an extravagant trip to Vegas, but he wouldn’t hold my hand in the airport because he doesn’t like public displays of affection. That’s when I found out—my 40th birthday and I’ve never felt more ugly and unwanted than that moment where he wouldn’t even acknowledge our life together in a warehouse of strangers coming and going. I was so devastated and falling apart and sobbed for basically the entire trip like a spoiled brat. But why am I so unloveable?! He’s scheduled a couples massage for my actual birthday and I was too depressed to go, so he went without me.
I want you to tell me I’m being a brat and too demanding. When he tells me he doesn’t think he can love me the way I want to be loved, I want you to tell me that he does through his actions—like that trip to Vegas (my first) and bringing me coffee every morning that he’s home (he works out of town 8 days a month). A few weeks ago, he was driving my car and noticed I needed new wiper fluid and filled it up—doesn’t that mean he loves me and is a good partner? He takes the kids to school in the morning (I love doing it, but he sees it as a way for me to wake up slowly bc I stay up late). He provides the majority of our income, which is a comfort to me. I don’t like shopping, so he goes to the grocery store and makes meals and keeps the kitchen tidy.
I understand that he has strong boundaries. He doesn’t like to touch me. He loves to be touched, but there’s something about me that just turns him off—whether it’s holding my hand in public or intimacy.
I’ve spent the last few years in therapy trying to accept what is. I love him so much and want the life we both imagine. I just don’t feel loved and adored. Are those optional? These are all normal feelings in any relationship, right? I feel so vulnerable begging my husband to love me and it’s been years. Maybe I’m just not seeing that he shows his love in ways that don’t strike my heart the way I want love to? Thank you.
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2023.06.10 04:54 OkRice1421 The speaker the other night spoke of forgiveness

It's funny. It's never people in a position to forgive that ever speak of forgiveness. No, it's only ever people in need of forgiveness that speak of such things. The man with his head on a chopping block, with teary eyes and heart filled kindness, will speak of the virtues and wisdom found within forgiveness.
But he never speaks of it when he's the one holding the axe. He never speaks of it when he's the one who's been wronged. When have you arrogant idiots ever offered anyone forgiveness? When have you sacks of shit ever allowed someone to be better? You can probably think of a time or two, but I'm willing to bet it was self serving. You forgave them expecting a favor later. Even at your most virtuous, it's only ever transactional with your species.
And then there's me. Me who has been better than you since the time I was 13. Smarter, wiser, kinder, and especially more forgiving. Forgiveness I never once received in my entire life, I always gave away. It was never transactional. I never expected anything in return. You pathetic dogs probably saw it as me being a pushover, but that's because forgiveness is only ever a transaction with your kind. I've never shied away from a fight that needed fighting, and forgiveness is a fight other people needed me to fight for them. Plenty of the people who wronged me would take advantage of it, but I think plenty did use it to become better.
You ugly, short lived, fragile idiots have never forgiven anyone. You've confused a transaction with forgiveness, just as you confuse modesty with humility. You've never forgiven anyone. I never once proceeded in bad faith. You wanna call this crap a test? You wanna poke and prod abuse, as so many have abused me before this? If that's what it is, I promise, you all have failed mine.
No, I don't think there will be any forgiveness. Even now, when seeking forgiveness, you're doing it as a transaction. You're just hoping to avoid what I might do, but you don't actually feel anything you did was wrong.
No. I do not forgive you people. When I have my money, and it seems like it's an awful lot of money, I will have two goals that I pursue relentlessly. To better the conditions of my fellow man, and to completely destroy the lives of every person in this town. I'll take your jobs, I'll strip the funding from your schools, make sure crappy materials put lead in your water, and I'll poison your fucking air. I'll do everything you greedy bastards did to this country to make a buck, and just like you I'll do it all legally.
Unlike you, I'm gonna do it all intentionally. I'm gonna do it to hurt you, and it will all be legal. I'm gonna give your children cancer, and if you can't afford the medicine, I'll sell you the fucking coffin.
There will be no forgiveness.
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2023.06.10 04:51 docXfamas [H] June Choice and other bundled games [W] Paypal, TF2 keys

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2023.06.10 04:40 Salt_Reputation168 Dystopian book where females are going extinct.

I can not, for the life of me, figure out the title of this book!
I don’t remember much and I’m not sure what the characters names are but I do remember some of the beginning… The main character is a female who lives with two adult figures and a sibling. She has to wear bindings to cover her breast, cut her hair short, and wear boys clothing so that she doesn’t get kidnapped and sold by men. (Females are going extinct so they are wanting to capture as many women as possible for breeding purposes). The MC ends up hiding in a cellar with her sibling because men on horses are riding towards her house. The adult figures end up dying or being kidnapped, I don’t remember, the MC goes into town for the first time and is being searched upon entry, she is praying that the person searching her doesn’t find out she’s a girl.
That’s about all I remember. If you can help me find the title of the book that would be wonderful! I’ve been looking all day:(
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2023.06.10 04:34 Albertjweasel Seeing as ufos are in the news right now I’m going to share one of my own experiences here

I’m trying to share this memory as best as I can so please excuse me if I wander off topic or diverge, I’ll try to stick with it as best as I can.
Years ago I was living in a village called Slaidburn in Lancashire, England and was on my way back home from the nearby town of Clitheroe. On the way up the valley I got fixated on these flickering orange lights I could see out of the right hand side window over the hill; Waddington fell, I was the only person on the bus and was sat behind the driver who I had known well for years, a lovely Pakistani gent who is one of the nicest people i’ve ever known, anyway, he saw what I was looking at and said “you’ve seen the lights then? I’ve seen them every night this time for the past month, I wonder what they are?”
I didn’t really reply or if I did I can’t remember, but what I did is the next time I got a chance to go for a walk I detoured to go down a road called the ‘Skaithe’ where I knew I would have a great view of the fell where I saw the lights, (coincidentally the road where the famous ‘Bentham incident’ happened) I had my camera and tripod with me and there is a video on YouTube which I’ll try to find and link to this post when I’ve finished writing it, although I’m very hesitant to do this as A: it’ll dox me B:I’m embarrassed about it and C: it’s not a very good video
Anyway the lights were just flickering globes or spheres over one part of the hill, appearing and disappearing, sometimes changing colour but mostly orange or white, sometimes there was about 8 or 9, then there would just be one or two, they looked like they were hovering too, not whizzing about the sky or anything, also no noise.
The part of the fell they were over is where, in 1994, I found a really odd patch of flattened rushes which were flat in about a 12 ft spiral like something heavy had turned around on them in a clockwise manner and squashed them all down. It’s also locally infamous for being treacherously boggy and you can see marsh lights or ‘willow-the-wisps’ there, I’ve seen those elsewhere on the fells they are very creepy to see, I think very, very few people have seen these but you have to have been out in the dark long enough to have developed a kind of ‘night vision’ to be able to see them anyway and have to be out in the pitch black night and when it’s very still weather, I was out walking a lot at night because my parents were fighting.
I did warn you I might digress! At the time I was seeing the orange globe thingies I mentioned them to a few of locals I knew and trusted, old time farmers and gamekeepers and they said they’d always seen them at this time of year and that they’d seen all sorts of stuff, these are very trustworthy down-to-the-earth men who don’t mince their words and who you could trust your life with, they just brushed it aside like nothing.
One night I went down to the house of a girl I was having a relationship with in the village and after we’d had some drinks and dinner and stuff together we went out into her garden for a smoke and I realised her garden had the best view of the fell in the whole village and we sat together for two hours watching these orange globes floating and disappearing and re-appearing and we didn’t say anything about it and i twigged that she’d been watching this for years and didn’t really think much about it at all,
In conclusion I found it really uncanny that no-one I met who had seen this phenomenon thought it was as unusual as me, in fact I had to temper my excitement just to not seem weird, but they’d all seen exactly what I’d seen which was most definitely very unusual, also there are very ancient lead mines under that bit of the hill which I think maybe has something to do with it? Maybe like piezoelectricity or something?
All in all it was a very strange serious of events and the nonchalant reactions to it creeped me out a lot, it was a very strange place to live in to begin with but the whole ‘yes there’s ufos so what?’ I found very odd, thank you for bearing with me here I’ll try to find the video in a moment
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2023.06.10 04:34 Emergency_Ad2658 I loathe my Baby daddy for what he did to me a year ago

I 28 F met my baby daddy 30 F in early 2018 and had been dating for 5 years. I fell pregnant soon after we started dating. I gave birth to our 6 year old daughter Zoey after going through a traumatic pregnancy. When our daughter was Baby daddy had to leave the province for work. This continued for 3 years our relationship was great to say the least. However last year around November I stumbled upon a Tiktok video of him with another girl captioned " my love". I confronted him and he said it was just a fling that started recently. I later found out that he had been dating the girl for the past year and a half. This completely broke me and he had spent months without coming home to check on me and his daughter. Apparently they had even moved in together while I was at home waiting for him. Upon finding out my friends suggested having revenge sex with my ex. I 28 Fchickened out at the last minute. He came home and literally begged me to stay and give him 30 M another chance. I did exactly that despite everyone telling me not to. This year I 28F got a full bursary to pursue my long life dream of being a lawyer. After a few months in college I started to feel myself drift away from him and he noticed and questioned me. I blamed this on my school work and left it at that. I finally realised that I lost feelings and I actually hate this man 30M. I'm disgusted by men in general now and try to avoid any kind of relationships even platonic ones. He 30M however has started showering me with love and long texts and video calls whilst the sight of him makes my stomach churn. The girl he cheated with stays in the same town where he 30M works and I 28 F seriously don't care if he meets up with her or not. I'm secretly hoping he does so I can have a legitimate reason to actually end this nightmare. I'm living my worst nightmare that I created myself by letting this man back into my life. I thought I loved him but in actuality I loathe him. The mf is talking about marriage and shit and that terrifies me. Any advice on how to loosen the noose I have put around my neck myself.
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2023.06.10 04:30 Mariooooo2020 My FNAF timeline, up to UCN (the preferred end of the franchise)

My FNAF timeline, up to UCN (the preferred end of the franchise)
Getting right to the point because of Reddit being weird with me posting long stuff (splitting into two posts)

Part 1

Late 1970s
Beginning of Fredbears - William Afton and Henry Emily found Fredbear’s Family Diner, with the original two springlock suits Fredbear and Spring Bonnie. It becomes a success and continues to thrive in the early 80s.
1983
Foundation of Fazbear Entertainment / Freddy Fazbear’s Pizzeria - Wanting to capitalize on the success of their restaurant, William and Henry create Fazbear Entertainment to expand their brand and merchandise, beginning with the opening of Freddy Fazbear’s Pizzeria, with four new characters, those being Freddy, Chica, Bonnie and Foxy. Television programs based on the characters are created as well, seen in the Five Nights at Freddy’s 4 minigames. Unfortunately, sometime after this, William’s wife dies from unknown causes (implied by a unmarked grave in one of the Pizzeria Simulator minigames - I’ll explain this at the end)
Murder of Charlotte Emily - One night, William, presumably in a drunken rage at Henry for having a perfect family and following the death of his wife not long before this, kills Henry’s daughter Charlotte outside Freddy Fazbear's Pizzeria, depicted in the “Take Cake to the Children” minigame in Five Nights of Freddy’s 2 and the Security Puppet's Minigame in Pizzeria Simulator. The Puppet, having been assigned to Charlotte to protect her, locates her body and Charlotte ends up possessing it.
Opening & Closing of Circus Baby’s Pizza World / Elizabeth’s Death - Having gotten a joy out of killing Charlotte (and likely discovering the power of Remnant soon after and seeing how The Puppet became possessed), William constructs Circus Baby’s Pizza World. He makes his own animatronics, called the Funtimes, based off the original characters at Freddy’s, specifically with the intent of luring and killing children. Unfortunately, William’s daughter, Elizabeth, gets too close to Circus Baby on her own after repeatedly inquiring to meet her to no avail, and ends up getting killed by Circus Baby. Devastated by this loss, William closes Circus Baby’s Pizza World under the ruse of “gas leaks”. Depicted in parts of Sister Location (FNAF 5) and its minigames.
Nightmare Animatronics - William’s other son, the Crying Child, continues to run off to his mother’s grave much to the dismay of William and previous attempts to ward him off with the Spring Bonnie suit. One night during a rainstorm (Midnight Motorists minigame in Pizzeria Simulator) William is unable to make it home in time to scare Crying Child, who ends up escaping to his mother’s grave. As a result, William vows to punish Crying Child even harder.
Enter the Nightmare Animatronics. The main antagonists of Five Nights at Freddy’s 4, they were created by William and are nightmarish versions of the four Fazbear animatronics Freddy, Chica, Bonnie and Foxy. William specifically installs them in the confines of their home, which end up terrifying Crying Child. Meanwhile, Michael begins taunting Crying Child with face masks of the animatronics, but at some point encounters the Nightmare Animatronics as well and is spooked by them. However he does not have nightmares about them until much later
I’ll explain how this tidbit is not how the main events of FNAF 4 occur at the end.
The Bite of ‘83 - On Crying Child’s birthday at Fredbear’s Michael hatches a plan to scare his brother much bigger then before. He asks a few bullies to help, and they carry Crying Child to the Fredbear animatronic and putting Crying Child’s head in it. However, the child’s tears end up activating the springlocks in the suit, resulting in Fredbear’s mouth closing and crushing Crying Child's frontal lobe. He ends up later dying in the hospital and possesses Fredbear. Michael is horrified at what he’s just done. Depicted in the Five Nights at Freddy’s 4 minigames. Following this, Fredbear’s Family Diner is shut down, and the remaining springlock suits are sent to other Freddy Fazbear’s Pizzeria locations that had opened by that point (described in the Five Nights at Freddy’s 3 training tapes during gameplay). Additionally, Fredbear is renamed to Golden Freddy to avoid bad PR.
1985
Discontinuation of Springlock Suits - In 1985, springlock suits are discontinued due to an incident at one of the locations in which two employees used the suits but ended up dying in them. They ended up becoming Shadow Freddy and RWQ (Shadow Bonnie). Implied through the training tapes in Five Nights at Freddy’s 3 and their appearances in Five Nights at Freddy’s 2.
Missing Children Incident #1 - On June 26, 1985, William (disguised in a Spring Bonnie suit) lures and murders 5 children in Freddy’s and disposes the bodies in the animatronics; the children being Gabriel (stuffed into Freddy), Susie (stuffed into Chica), Jeremy (stuffed into Bonnie), Fritz (stuffed into Foxy), and Cassie (stuffed into Golden Freddy along with Crying Child already possessing it), the last of which he killed in a brutal way and might have inadvertently ended up following them inside without William luring her in (as implied by the name “The One You Should Not Have Killed”). Afterwards, The Puppet gives the deceased children’s spirits the ability to possesses the animatronics. Depicted in the “Go, Go, Go” and “Give Gifts, Give Life” minigame in Five Nights at Freddy’s 2 as well as newspaper clippings in Five Nights at Freddy’s 1. By the end of the year, Freddy Fazbear’s closes as a result, and William is arrested but not charged as no bodies could be found.
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