Hello,
Its a long text of wall, I am sorry for this, but somehow,
I am ashamed of my situation, that I let myself in like this. I want to be as honest as I can, and hopefully someone will understand my struggle and my situation, because I feel pretty alone,unloved and left alone to rott somehow...
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I have this relationship with a girl from abroad for now almost a year, she is from indonesia, we met through dating website, and pretty fast she confessed her love to me, which overwhelmed me, and i felt very uncomfortable, but she was the first girl that was flirty with me, that gave me the feeling she wants me and not only for the reason i am a foreigner.. Not only that, but also she was so increadibly beautifull, no joke. My eyes got attached to her, and we startet chatting... the first red flag, i ignored, because from my last toxic relationship, i have learned about myself that i can be a catalyst, and i am aware of my short moodswings(i have ADHD, and struggled with that not being aware of myself), so I kinda thought, okay maybe i was just not very kind or something?
The situation was, after 3-4 days of talking to her daily, i was mentioning her thati am not her boyfriend yet, i dont know exact reason why i have said that, but her mood switched instantly, and she was cold, not talking anymore and visibly upset... The next day i wanted to discuss this, and kinda yea blamed myself for her reaction and asked her to be my girlfriend, which she agreed too. At this point I already heard from her, she never had a boyfriend or relationship before..(She was 25 at this point) Which is not a rare statement...
More and more situations like these happened, her temper, I always blamed myself, took the stress, but never yelled or snapped, tried calling her trying to comfort her... at a point, stupid me... I asked just for "fun" if she want to have the number of my ex(I have also a daughter with her), which she said, yes. And i have told her, that this was just a joke"i could not shut my mouth, i regret that so much)... and i gave her the number, i warned her my ex is not an honest person and i am single for a reason..I told her not to contact her, which she stated, i will, but everything she tells me wont have an effect...
I havent had much contact with my ex, and since i was with my new girlfriend now, i wanted to be loyal as possible, since i had a daughter with my ex, it was kinda obvious at a certain point i had to talk with her(the kid lives with me). Fast forward, within a few weeks i got a unrest in my belly, and i kindly asked her to give me a whatsapp screenshot of her recent chats, i wanted to feel okay, i asked her about this because she suddenly wrote to me "dont chat any girls" and as far as i know, i did not... so why would she asked like that.. i said to her, you too, dont chat with boys. Aaaand she gave me the screenshot, bingo, she chattet with a man, flirty(he replied pretty dry), one sentence kinda hurt me the most, she wrote him after he asked, "what are you doing" she replied, "chatting with you 😊" ... she was chatting with me at the same time.
This was the first time, i lost hope with her, but unfortunatley, i was emotionally attached to her already, she told me "its just a friend" ob boy, i cant heat that nonsense... i was devastated, i did nothing, i was loyal, why could she do this to me? I yelled at her, lost my temper... the next day i told her how much i suffer from seeing this, she kinda turned it off, its just a friend, sorry... And i think, when she betray me why she not delete the chat before she sent me it? And i though, okay, calm down, maybe its really just like that.... Later (6 month) she revaled she startet chatting with him, because my ex told her i had a relationship with her and she thought i am unloyal to her.(which i was not at the time)
But the situation at this point, i lost trust in her, i could not trust her anymore, when she said to me over the peroid of 2-3 days "dont chat with other girls" i got so suspicious.... and now i saw this, it prooved what i was scared of, that i found someone again who is not loyal.
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6 weeks into the relationship i decided to visit her in indonesia, i have never been there, until that moment we had almost fight on a daily base for small things, wrong questions or whatsoever... but i thought, when i see her, i will know what person she really is, maybe its justa huge missunderstanding .
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So i arrived with my daughter at the airport, suprise, the girl is not there, she has a reason the next day she will have an exam(which is not a lie) and will be interviewed by some people and she needed to prepare for that. Atleast thats what she said. (Later she revealed, she did not want to pick me up at the airport, because her friends wanted to join and she felt jealous).. So i was there, alone in the hot sun of indonesia, felt lost and left alone, unworthy, and kinda realise what big mistake i do, someone who i thought loves me, left me alone in a country where i never been too, i contacted her, and ofcource i complained... she asked the hotel staff from the hotel to pick me up, which he did, so yea, i kinda felt atleast she cared, somehow.
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the next day, i was in the hotel, i havent showered or eaten yet, only my daughter. She was pretty happy, she loves to jump on beds, so yea, i felt atleast a bit relief that this wasnt a total faulure yet to go there after such a short amount of time.
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She said she will visit me after work, which is 16, with driving or traffic problems arround 18 then.. I havent talked to her, because i wanted to wait, guess who could not be reached for hours, at 18, she turned on her phone, said she is on the way, there was an accident on the road, and they will drive a detour... (Later she revealed, that she lied, the story about this isnt very compleeted, just recently she added more details, but yea)
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Anyway she arrived at 21:00 on the hotel, and i was in a state between is she playing with me and excitement to see her. I knew she was lying, i had checking up google maps, no way the driving was arround 4-5 hours... So after our heartfull greeting, we where hugging and kissing but somehow these unrest within me, that she might not be serious, so i asked her, did you really drive 4-5 hours? She said yes, there was traffic accident... i knew she was lying, and i asked her, to be honest to me, which she said, she is honest. (At that time i took that very serious, because i dont want to hear any stories, which are false, i am pretty sensitive and could not trust her so easily after she not there at the airport and the previous situation with the chatting boy)
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And i made my decision, i asked her to go away, i was just devastated that she lied to me, she startet crying and tried to call with her godmom, its already 3am, and i did not really realised about her situation, after i calmed down, i approached her and said sorry, and we went to bed(she stayed with me) We had no issue so far for the next 2-3 days. After 5 days(the peroid of the hotel booked) i needed to find a new hotel, we, before i went to indonesia agreed that i could stay with her, in her arpartment... Turns out, its not the case, so yea, i booked a hotel for me and her, which she visited me, its very close to her work, so everything was kinda fine, but we argued alot, almost everyday until this point...
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And my behaviour was more and more like a brute, i was starting to yell at her when she really dared to pick up a fight again, i could not calm myself, her little things really hurt me, for instance, she asked me to kiss her for 10 minutes, which i refused, and i kissed her for 30 seconds, which was not what she wanted, and she went mad, pointed a google maps route on her phone without saying anything, packed her stuff let the phone on the bed so i can see it, and after she almost done packing, i asked her whast this about... Yup she was about to leave... Small things like this, elevated our sitation always, from small things like these we went up to risk everything, neither she or me wanted to budge and not try to calm down the other person, int he end it was me who calmed first and tried to make the situation less toxic.
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Now to the initial situation almost 10 month later... I am sitting here writing this, my ex almost talked oto her and spread lies about me on a weekly base, she believe the most things, and this makes me so broken, i have suicidal thoughts, i hurt myself pretty bad, i have scard on my body(which i never had before!) and she uses everything against me what she can in a "fight" she never approaches ne, never feels guilty, never see's her attiture and her cold behaviour, at this point she knows already i am the weak one here in this relationship, i am the one who will always come back, regardless what she does, at this point she states almost everymonth she want to chat with somerone else(turned out she did that a few times) and also mentioned at some point she wanted to have intercourse with another man.
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Besides my mistakes, and yes i really did a few huge things, like i asked my ex, after the first time i saw her chat with another man, i got so sus, that i asked her to translate(my ex also from that country......but living here in my country) and she assure me "hey this girl is nice to you, you need to go with her, she is good for our daughter) so i felt comfortable getting informations and solutions about this what i do, yea she confirmed my relationship with my new girlfriend, and kinda felt supportive... I fell into a deep trap, behind my back she told my currentl girlfriend "he is horrible, dont be with him etc etc etc"
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i havent clearly understood everything between those two, neither my ex or my current girlfriend are very open and only reveal a bit by a bit, ofcourse my current girlfriend is super jealous and angry... somehow i cant break this relation, i know myself, the red flags are everywhere, even on my side, i had done a huge mistake and other things which i havent mentioned... but until this day everything i do, she uses against me, a small word, and i end up crying in agony and pain. she hangs up the phone so easily, like i mean nothing to her when she is upset, she can throw me away like garbage when she is about to be angry...
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i dont understand, when she states she loves me? how can she constantly disrespecting me and treating me like this.... I really need to get out of this, i dont know how, i am alone and isolated, i have a few friends which they clearly stated at some point, "you dont want to listen, please dont bother anymore with that"
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the emotionally attachment makes me crazy, i dont want to feel, i want to be cold and careless, i want to have my peace, how??

Warning: Long post ahead.
Umalis ako sa bahay about 2 weeks ago at nagpunta sa auntie ko to destress dahil ang gulo gulo sa bahay at hindi ako makapag-work ng maayos (I work from home) Ang ingay ingay ng tatay ko at ng stepmother ko. Palagi silang nag-aaway sa pag-aalaga sa half-sister kong 1 and a half year old. Akala ko makakatipid ako ng magdecide akong bumalik sa bahay pero mas lalo pa akong napagastos at hindi pa ako makapagpahinga ng maayos. Gusto kong umalis ulit kaya lang wala pa akong ipon for deposit na naman ng rent and advance. On top of the bills and groceries sa bahay, ako pa nag-papaaral ng mga kapatid kong sumunod sa college so halos wala na talagang tulong/sustento ang tatay ko sa amin start ng nag-asawa siya ulit except sa pagbili minsan ng food (may kasama pang sumbat from step-mom).
1 week pa lang siguro ako sa bahay ng tita ko, tumatawag na tatay ko sakin, galit na galit sa kapatid ko dahil late na daw umuuwi sa bahay galing ng school. Pinauuwi niya ko dun, ako daw magdisiplina at pagsabihan ko dahil wala na daw respeto sa kanya. Kinakalma ko siya pero biglang napasa sakin 'yung galit kaya nag-away din kaming dalawa. Ang ending naka-block siya sa amin magkakapatid. Kinabukasan nalaman ko na lang umalis silang mag-anak pumunta sa province ng asawa niya at iniwan mag-isa yung kapatid ko sa bahay with no money, no food just to prove a point.
Napilitan akong umuwi sa amin because of my sister. 3 days later, nakatanggap kami ng message galing sa kanya, dun pinadaan sa kapatid kong lalaki asking sa healthcard niya na nasaakin ( I pay his health insurance monthly from work). It turns out na-stroke na pala siya, hindi pa agad idinala sa hospital nung stepmom ko, hinihintay pa nila ako na magrespond at magpadala ng assistance/pera. Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko, nagagalit ako na naawa, na ewan. Naiyak na lang ako sa isang tabi after ko sila kausapin at bigyan ng instructions kung anong gagawin.
I took care of his medical bills at gamot and said I will sponsor him para magparehab para maregain niya mobility niya sa left side basta uuwi siya sa bahay pero siya lang muna because I cannot support his wife and my little half-sister too. (They're staying dun sa bahay ng nanay ng step-mom ko na nasa Quatar working as DH. She's still sending money sa step-mom ko because she refuses to get a job.) Hindi kakayanin ng finances ko. Pero ayaw niya. Gusto niya dun siya magpapa-alaga at magpapadala ako sa kanila monthly for their expenses until he recovers na hindi ako kampanteng sa gamot at pagpapagaling niya mapupunta. Hindi ako pumayag so he said mean things to me and to my siblings again tapos giniguilt-trip niya kami. Pati threat ng pags- suicide ginagamit niya samin.
Hindi ko na alam gagawin ko. I do earn a living wage, pero enough lang yun para sa pag-papaaral ng mga kapatid ko sa college, to support myself and to pay bills. I don't know what my dad thinks of me. I'm so tired. Since pagka-graduate ko ng college, ipinasa na niya sa akin lahat ng responsibilidad and now this. Hindi ko na alam kung kaya ko pa. Naiiyak na lang ako.

Hello Reddit,
I'm currently in the process of applying for jobs and could really use some guidance on finding references. I find myself in a bit of a predicament as I want to submit as many applications as possible without burdening my lecturers or relying on references from my previous job, where I didn't establish strong personal connections.
I would greatly appreciate any insights or tips on how to handle this situation. Here are a few specific questions I have:

1. What is the best way to request a reference without overburdening my lecturers? Should I schedule a meeting, send an email, or use any other method?
2. How can I maintain positive relationships with my references and keep them updated on my progress, even if I anticipate some rejections?
3. Are there any networking strategies or professional connections that could potentially lead to references or referrals, especially considering I didn't establish close relationships with my previous employers?

To provide some context, while I didn't have any negative experiences or conflicts with my previous employers, we simply didn't develop strong personal connections. Thus, I'm trying to explore alternative options for references.
I'm open to any advice, personal experiences, or suggestions as I navigate this process. Finding references has become a bit challenging, and I want to make the most of my job applications.
Thank you in advance for your time and support. I'm eager to hear your thoughts and learn from your insights!
Cheers

i (21f) was recently having a conversation with a friend D (also 21f) about our mutual friend K (22m), who we have known for several months now.
i was telling her about the dynamic between K and i, to which she said it sounds like K might like me as more than a friend, and was curious as to what others thought.
for added context, I have a closer friendship with K due to being more free to hang out and willing to spend time with him more than D. K is from Norway and will be leaving the country I live in in early July of this year to return back home.
now here are the things that made her think that he might think of me as more than a friend.
for starters, he often lets me stay over at his place to sleep during the day if I get exhausted after work, as his residence is closer to my workplace than mine is. I'll go over there and sleep for a couple hours, then wake up and chill for a few more before going home.
this is where the "more than friends" things begin to come into play. he will ask me to wrestle with him (which I have a couple times and lost incredibly quickly due to our size difference, with him being 6'1 and I being 5'3) or he'll pick me up throw me around, often onto his bed while teasing me to eat more because I'm supposedly "light" in weight. whenever we do "fight" he likes to pin my legs and knees and tease me about how i won't be able to escape.
if I'm lying down on my stomach or back on his bed, he will occasionally just come over and collapse on top of me, explaining how he's bored and wants to be entertained. when I complain he's like a heavy weighted blanket, he'll laugh and tell me to deal with it as he scrolls on his phone, and we'll stay like like for like a half hour or so. whenever I tried to move to make myself more comfortable, he would grab my legs with his hands to stop me from moving so much.
the most recent thing he did was a couple days ago, when I was sitting up against his headboard. he climbed onto the bed without saying a word, grabbed a pillow, put it against my legs and leaned back on it, essentially using me as a chair of sorts with the pillow as a barrier between us. after about five minutes of this, he complained that his neck was tired and rested it back on my collarbone (? english isn't my first language, so bear with me) as he continued to scroll through his phone. occasionally he'd turn back his head to look at me and show me something, and his face would be so close with his hair tickling my neck, which would make me panic internally of sorts.
he's also said a couple times about how I need a boyfriend to keep me warm (as I get cold easily), his preferences and types (although it never goes anything above PG) and teases me for being "innocent" due to being inexperienced when it comes to dating and relationships. we also tend to tease each other a lot, and he has no problem in taking off his shirt and changing in front of me, often bragging to me about how he has "abs".
there's also been a few instances where we've been with friends and i've gotten intoxicated and he's let me use him as a pillow of sorts. apparently every time I would wake up, he would pat my hair and shush me to go back to sleep and would pretty much take care of me for most of the night until it was time for me to head home.
we tend to also message each other very often throughout the day, and call for hours on end several times a week. I know a lot about him, such as his past relationships and how he would never make the first move when it comes to a girl, as he is afraid of being accused of something he didn't do later on. he also calls me his closest and most favourite friend, which makes me think he only does just see me as one, but he also doesn't do this with our other female friends. he also often says how he wants a girlfriend, but also just wants to work on himself.
i cannot tell if this is normal behaviour between male and female friends, and want to know what others may think.
again, apologies if there are some things that don't make sense, as english isn't my first language, and if there was too much information. it's just that since my friend has suggested he could see me as something more, it's been on my mind a lot and has me analysing every interaction between us. this is also my first time posting on reddit, so again, apologies if this post is a little messy.
TLDR: friend thinks my male friend might think of me as more than just a friend due to things he does.

TLDR; Drove 12 hours to see my ex who I still love. She said she isnt ready to see or talk to me. I have an idea to make a sign that says I Love you and post it near her house. Grand gesture or overstep?
Myself (m27) and partner (f25) decided to breakup after almost 2 years. We were having alot of struggles communicating through hard stuff (the rest of the relationship was amazing) and things needed to change. She said was not happy. So I moved away for a new job because I thought that it was the best for us. Its been 2 months and Ive gone to therapy, done some serious work and came to some life changing conclusions about myself and our relationship. I had so much doubt about our love because I was scared to commit and be vulnerable and didnt love myself in the ways I needed to. I finally feel like I know what I want. I want her. (I knew this all along, I just needed to work through my own stuff)
We had planned to talk this week, so I decided to drive 12 hours to see her and give us the opportunity to talk in person. She has always been someone who deeply appreciates grand gestures. However, I gave her a warning instead of showing up unexpectedly and she said she wasnt ready to see me. I asked if we could talk on the phone. She said she wasnt ready to talk.
I did the drive. Im here but I cant do any of the things I was hoping for.
So... I have a crazy idea. I know where she lives (we lived together for almost a year). I want to make a sign that says: "Her name, I Love You - My Initials"
I would post it on the corner by her house so when she leaves she would see it.
Is this an overstep? Am I crazy? Am I breaking her boundaries? Is there a better way to have the same effect? Am I better off leaving her alone?
Would love to hear everyones thoughts! Thanks!

I’ve been with my boyfriend a little over a year now. He’s had the same job the whole time we’ve been together. He’s a supervisor for a welding company, and oversees 3rd shift. About a month ago he started ranting about this new girl at his job. He said she keeps on reporting guys for harassment, and has already gotten 4 guys fired. I didn’t think much of this and just felt bad for the girl. Flash forward to 2 days ago.
My boyfriend picks me up every morning at 6am (when he gets off work), and as he’s driving, I notice a faded heart on his arm. I ask what it is, and he insists it’s “just a smudge.” Obviously I don’t believe this, because I can tell the difference between a smudge and what is clearly a faded heart drawn with pen 2x over. I immediately assume a girl has done it (I mean come on). He goes on saying “Come on, you know I’d never let you sit here looking stupid like that” and “I wouldn’t let a girl touch me, you know that.” And although I knew it wasn’t what he said it was, I dropped it. As he’s the only guy I’ve been with who I’ve actually felt was fully committed to me, and I’ve never worried about him cheating or anything like that.
2 hours go by and he can tell it’s bothering me. He tells me to just talk to him about it, tell him my concerns. I do. He tries telling me it’s just a smudge again, until I start thinking about it more and start getting upset to the point of shaking. Eventually he says “fine, i did it to myself” which I didn’t believe for a second. Without thinking I grab a notepad and a pen and ask him to draw a heart. He draws one and (of course) it doesn’t look anything like the one on his arm. I ask him to draw one on his own arm, and he draws it upside down from the other one. Looking completely different. I point both these facts out to him, as well as tell him that the heart is on his dominant hand. The one he uses to write with.
After some silence he admits it was a girl. He admits he tried to wash it off before I saw it. He told me that him, and a few of his employees were in his office talking about drawing hearts (he told me why, but i can’t remember), and I guess she just decided to draw one on him. He told me he let her do it “in a soft moment” (that broke my heart). I asked what her name was, and he replied with the name of the girl who’s been getting guys fired left and right. I asked why she even felt comfortable doing that, and he said “I think she likes me.” He goes on and tells me that on her breaks she’s been coming in and ranting about her baby daddy to him. Having him comfort her. He cried telling me it was a stupid reason to lie. He told me he didn’t want me to leave, but will respect my decision If I decide to. I’ve never seen him cry. I had him drive me back home.
I texted his mom. Yup. I didn’t know what else to do, and me and her are pretty close. She also works with both of them and told me that she isn’t a threat. She told me that she’s always is men’s faces, that my boyfriend wasn’t the only one. If they end up doing something that the girl doesn’t like, she reports them. She told me that we are still new to the relationship and people are going to try and test it, that i shouldn’t hold it over his head because we are good for each other, and she truly believes this was a mistake. My mom pretty much thinks the same thing, telling me that “everyone deserves at least 1 chance.”
I’ve been throwing up and not eating these past 2 days, the only breaks I get come from me sucking it up to go to work. It took me so long to trust someone again after my previous relationship of 3 years where I got cheated on countless times. I genuinely trusted this man with my life, just for it all to be ripped away in a matter of hours. I know we are both young, but I genuinely believed this man would be my future. I gave everything to him, and he’s given everything to me. He’s been perfect up until this point. It mostly hurts because it seems like there was emotion involved on both ends. As well as how hard he tried to lie about it, until I pushed it to where he literally couldn’t deny it. I’ve been thinking, if I hadn’t gone through the trauma I had in the previous relationship, I 100% would’ve let it slide and forgave him as long as he promised not to let anything like that happen again. He didn’t give me this trauma. Am I taking that trauma out on him wrongfully? Am I overreacting?

Look at me Mommy! :D
Category Is: RuVeal Yourself! - 1,990 Votes

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• 4th Place - Jessica Wild - 4.3% (86 votes)
  
• 5th Place - Jaymes Mansfield - 3.3% (65 votes)
  
• 6th Place - Kandy Muse - 3.0% (60 votes)
  
• 7th Place - LaLa Ri - 0.3% (6 votes)
  

Who would you have chosen to be in the Top 3 for the MAIN challenge? (Snatch Game)

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• 2nd Place - Jaymes Mansfield - 95.0% (1,890 votes)
  
• 3rd Place - Alexis Michelle - 90.0% (1,791 votes)
  
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• 5th Place - Heidi N Closet - 6.2% (124 votes)
  
• 6th Place - LaLa Ri - 2.2% (44 votes)
  
• 7th Place - Jessica Wild - 1.4% (27 votes)
  
• 8th Place - Kahanna Montrese - 0.4% (7 votes)
  

Who would you have chosen to WIN the main challenge?

• 1st Place - Jimbo - 78.1% (1,554 votes)
  
• 2nd Place - Jaymes Mansfield - 12.8% (254 votes)
  
• 3rd Place - Alexis Michelle - 7.8% (156 votes)
  
• 4th Place - Kandy Muse - 0.9% (17 votes)
  
• 5th Place - Heidi N Closet - 0.3% (6 votes)
  
• 6th Place - Jessica Wild - 0.1% (1 vote)
  
• Last Place TIE - Kahanna Montrese & LaLa Ri - 0.0% each (0 votes each)
  

Who would you have chosen to be in the Bottom 2?

• 1st Place - Kahanna Montrese - 96.4% (1,919 votes)
  
• 2nd Place - Jessica Wild - 56.4% (1,122 votes)
  
• 3rd Place - Heidi N Closet - 17.5% (348 votes)
  
• 4th Place - LaLa Ri - 15.3% (305 votes)
  
• 5th Place - Kandy Muse - 12.9% (257 votes)
  
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Who do you feel won the "Hallucinate" LSFYL?
Jimbo - 3.8% (75 votes)
Jasmine Kennedie - 96.2% (1,915 votes)
Who would you have chosen to eliminate?
Jessica Wild - 5.6% (112 votes)
Kahanna Montrese - 94.4% (1,878 votes)
What would you rate this episode overall?
Average: 7.49
Choose the 3 queens that you're rooting for the most following this week's episode

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• 2nd Place - Jessica Wild - 74.6% (1,484 votes)
  
• 3rd Place - Jaymes Mansfield - 59.6% (1,186 votes)
  
• 4th Place - Alexis Michelle - 37.3% (743 votes)
  
• 5th Place - LaLa Ri - 21.6% (429 votes)
  
• 6th Place - Kandy Muse - 15.3% (305 votes)
  
• 7th Place - Kahanna Montrese - 9.0% (180 votes)
  

Fan Favorite Data!

Placement	Week 1	Week 2	Week 3	Week 4
1st Place	Jimbo	Jessica Wild	Jessica Wild	Jimbo
2nd Place	Heidi N Closet	Heidi N Closet	Jimbo	Jessica Wild
3rd Place	Jaymes Mansfield	Jimbo	Heidi N Closet	Jaymes Mansfield
4th Place	Jessica Wild	Jaymes Mansfield	Jaymes Mansfield	Alexis Michelle
5th Place	Mrs. Kasha Davis	Kahanna Montrese	Alexis Michelle	LaLa Ri
6th Place	Darienne Lake	Alexis Michelle	LaLa Ri	Kandy Muse
7th Place	Alexis Michelle	LaLa Ri	Kahanna Montrese	Kahanna Montrese
8th Place	LaLa Ri	Kandy Muse	Kandy Muse	-
9th Place	Kahanna Montrese	Darienne Lake	-	-
10th Place	Kandy Muse	-	-	-

That's all for this week! What do you all think? Let's discuss! Much love! <3

Background info.: my bf and his ex were in constant contact up until September time, when we started talking and getting closer. To my knowledge they were very on/off, he still mentions her in conversations when we’re around mutual friends sometimes and doesn’t understand that it makes me feel uncomfortable. I recognise the past is the past and 90% of people have a dating history, however I can’t understand some of his actions.
My bf and I have been speaking as more than friends since last September, with him asking me to be his gf in November of last year. Since then, knowing his history with his ex, I feel that he isn’t totally over her but wouldn’t admit it. We’re long distance at the moment which makes things harder, but I can’t shake the feeling that he still has feelings for her due to certain events.
He still, semi-regularly brings her up in conversation, or mentions things which can only directly relate to her, e.g. where she lives (a very obscure place I’d never heard of before.) He maintained for months that he didn’t speak to her, and when we saw each other back in February, he didn’t have her on any social platforms (I noticed when he was on his phone.) However, fast forward to a few weeks ago, we’re sitting drinking coffee and I decide I want to post a silly pic on his Snapchat story. And there it is. In blind, plain sight. Her. But it’s not her name, it’s an affectionate pet name with mine directly above it. I’m floored and pass his phone back to him, he immediately realises what I’ve seen and starts self-pitying and beating himself up about it.
He didn’t have her on it back in February, and so if he doesn’t speak to her, why is she magically on his Snapchat friends list? It said the last message sent was 40 weeks ago, but I don’t understand why he has her in the first place. Snapchat is one of the dodgiest apps out there, for y’know… so it doesn’t make sense. I asked him plain and simple, does he still speak to her, and he said no. I told him to prove it and he couldn’t, then went into a rant about how he has no friends in real life and relies on people online. He basically started a pity party to justify continuing to do something he knows would make me feel uncomfortable.
I feel like I’m losing trust in him, and faith in us actually working out. I knew an ldr would be difficult, but not this difficult. I’m constantly battling between “no, he wouldn’t do that” and “but, what if he does?”
As much as he says he has no feelings for her, his actions are telling me otherwise. I’ve asked him before if he does, and I was met with him getting frustrated and telling me not to ask him again.
I don’t really know what to do at this point. If I say I’d prefer for him not to speak to her again, I fear he would end up hating me or trying to dictate his actions, which I don’t want. I just simply do not understand this.
TLDR; bf is still in contact with his ex; she removed him from social media platforms and he was the one who likely added her back less than a day later; feels like he’s using me because he can’t have her.

So like; obviously we're not dating, and haven't for years now. We keep in touch here and there and of course, I help them out when I can if they are in trouble. (Because that's just how I am, helping others--And treating others the way I want to be treated.) But--There was a slight catch within it. While we ended things, she also wanted me to talk to her when I could and tell her if I ever dated, had sex, etc. With someone else; just in the off-chance that we ever did go down that road again together. If I ever open that door again; and vice versa. Which I'm kinda....Not really about, but thought it seemed fair considering how she's still in my life...However.... When I saw her again and spoke to her long ago sorta recently(?); she randomly changed up while I was helping her move. And said "...I don't think who I'm fucking, dating, etc. Is honestly any of your business." Despite me just simply talking to her about where we stood mutually, so that there was no confusion. The only reason I mention it, is because around that time--We turned on each other's location if there was ever an emergency. As I did with my little brother and other friends and family who are in my life. Now I don't check in on her like that when it comes to where she is all the time; and do a small "Check-In" Call once every blue moon, but lately...She hasn't picked up, returned and even hung up on some of my calls. Not even some texts. (A little backstory, she moved in with her best friend co-workers recently after fighting looking for an apartment n such; so I always assume she's either partying or just busy slammed with work) And the one time I check-in quickly; I peek at her location after its been a little while. And mid-streaming on Twitch; I see her location isn't at her usual place wit her friends...But at a hotel far north of town. I felt...I don't know. Mad? Conflicted? Sad? My mind only assumes the deed is being done. And I know I shouldn't give a fuck but like--I don't know. I feel so mixed, but I felt my heart drop.
I feel so out of it it’s almost uncanny. I could use advice, help, reassurance, anything…I feel like I’m suffocating on my own emotions at this rate.

Hello everyone, I’m guy who is now 26, my emotions has been complex. When I was in my teenage years my dream was to be father, but now I don’t know what I want. I never been married, I feel like I been single my whole life but my last relationship was 2017 but it last 3 months m, that certain ex who her best friend was more than a friend but beside that I’m not very experienced with sex and ironically I worked at sex store for 7 years, I helped approved other people. I love helping other people. Now I feel like I wished I was more noticed, I always send messages but everyone leaves me seen. I stopped, I just wished I found someone like me. When 30, what the point of moving forward in life? I’m not really smart, I have can’t write proper and I don’t know how connect with people anymore. Maybe if I was taller, I’m 5”4 when you’re short guy nobody really pays attention to you. I found a note to myself when I was 19, I made promised to myself if I had nothing in life and single at that age 30 to just finally end my road there. I’m happy guy, I like making people laugh and I do go out. Lately i been feeling my life is in quick sand. My friends tell me to go see therapist, I had twice. It didn’t help, sadly I always keep my guard up. I don’t know who I am or what to do.

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To put into context me and her met simply to just find stoner friends. We are both 26 and met from reddit. Didnt really have any intentions other then friends until I got to know her and we realized we have way too much in common. Shes the female version of myself. We have a lot of the same hobbies, we are both musicians/artists. And we think very similarly. Its genuinely a lot of fun to hang out with her and she feels the same way. But here's the problem....
Shes been in a 2+ year relationship and lives with the guy. I've listened to her vent about it many many times. She isnt exactly happy with her currently situation but stays bc of how long it's been and hes "not as bad as her exs" so In fear of her losing the best relationship she had so far and the fact that she has a nice apartment she keeps going back and forth with breaking up with him. They really dont have much in common. He hates weed and cats. Doesn't even do poetry or art which is what she likes to do most- get high and be artistic.
I've told her I like her and we still talk frequently with many long messages back and forth. But what do I do? I'd love to actually date her